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| So very new to this, I'm seeking to learn only. So please, disregard if you're seeking a sub or slave. I'm not here to belong to someone else. I'm learning this lifestyle for myself and off of the advice of a Dominant. Yes, I'm learning from him, but I would love to get a submissive's point of view as well. That's more what I'm here for than anything.
I'll most likely add things here as I think of them.
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Just over a week since my last entry here and there's so much that I've learned. A lot of the stuff isn't surprising. Some of it is quite surprising. In a conversation with the Dominant, He's of the opinion that my submission is very selective and that otherwise, I'd probably be a Dominant myself. While that may be true, I'm not sure. I agree with the highly selective part, it's the Dominant part. Maybe that part is also highly selective. I don't know.
I will say that I've found that I'm more masochistic than I thought and I'm more into servitude than I thought. So those were some surprises to me. And the oddest thing in all of this...I've found myself loving me more. How bizarre, yes? |
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It's interesting the level of dynamics going on here. I've been observing both the message boards and the chat rooms, just to get a feel of the dynamic, and really it's so diverse that it's almost impossible to nail down. Much like regular hookup sites. Men are more proactive at chatting up women, regardless of what's in their profile, and women are more likely to not chat with many if not anyone for fear it is a man who's out to manipulate them into something they're otherwise not comfortable doing.
I'm almost 42 and married. I'm interested in learning facets of myself. Not trying to hook up or find someone who wants to dominate me. And while quite a few of the Dominants that I've talked with have been very helpful, I've ran into just as many who are simply feeling me out if they can Dominate me.
Speaking of, the concept of online domination interests me. Not that I want to experience it, but just that whole concept and dynamic. Maybe I'm more hands on or something of that nature, but if I were to be dominated, it would have to be in person and not online. |
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I am here to learn more about myself, and for me, a lot of that is through talking with those I feel are most like me. That's why I listed that I'm looking to hear from other submissives/switches instead of Dominants. Not that I can't learn from them. I just so happen to have one here that I can talk to, unlike submissives.
As someone who's very new to this whole thing, I've had some pleasant messages coming through on the in-house email. There've been a few that I've not responded to, but for the most part, I've had some really interesting and thought-provoking conversations.
So for those that I've emailed with, thank you, you've made this ol' gal feel welcome. |
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