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wow i am long over-due for yet another update tis i the tinyprincess and i am shy if You see that i stopped by your page without saying hello i am sorry but i don't pretend to always know exactly what to say or if i did say hello and it came out odd again i am sorry lol onto my profile!
i am in fact searching currently but would prefer a couple not with two dominants but a dominant and submissive because i fully believe that having a partner who can control you is a great thing but having another partner who understands the yearning to serve and the need to please and obey another would help to not feel awkward in any way as well as there may be something that one or the other wouldn't do that the other one would and that works in a great way that their Master is always pleased in all ways.i am what is called a natural slave in the sense that for the right person i have an un-deniable need to serve and please my partner(s) and for this reason i have very few hard limits sticking to rape scenes scat permanent damage/harm/death cutting/blood play and fisting. i know a lot about the lifestyle and am very opinionated but i am not rude or bratty about it, i don't believe everyone has to share my opinions. i feel the simple statement to each their own applies and fits well. onto some more about me i identify as a slave because nothing is truly a limit with the right person i'd be willing to try anything it will just take me a while to not fear certain things. i'm obedient to a fault for the right person but won't listen to just anyone if someone has the power to capture my mind my heart and body will follow. i am always loyal and devoted to a fault when i find the right one. friends would say i'm compassionate caring kind loving gentle and un-able to see the bad in people but rather the good i can recognize the bad but at the same time i'm forgiving of bad choices that have been made in the past as long as the person is on the right track at the present.
Many will bring up see or ask about my age due to my being young but all i ask is please don't judge me without knowing me based on my age it's hurtful to me to have someone act in such a rude way. one thing i do get asked a lot that i will answer now is how i became to be so insightful and that is simple i had to grow up extremely fast and never had a proper childhood so i read a lot watched some television and began my life other then that i couldn't begin to try and explain how i got this way. as for my introduction to the lifestyle i got into it very young realizing that i was extremely subservient and attentive although at the time i didn't know what it was called or what it was but during my young teen years i found the wonders of the internet and started researching and reading and now here i am loving every minute of this but i am still learning new things all the time which is good in my opinion because the day one stops learning is the day their life becomes bleak and boring. i know my place and in most cases i tend to follow with the thought of you need to show respect in order to obtain it aka don't bark out demands in the first message and don't use derogatory terms such as slut whore or hoe ect. while i don't mind them and sometimes find them endearing if i don't know you i won't take it the same way. i do love the feeling of belonging to someone but i won't rush into a collar unless my whole heart is in it i take collaring very seriously and to me it's almost like marriage it is a serious commitment one not to be taken lightly and since i feel this way unless you do as well please don't give me hope if there is none.
As for some of my more "vanilla" interests music is a very big part of my life i love all music really except for a few things here and there. i was a dancer of tap jazz lyrical ballet and point for fourteen years but ended up calling it quits due to a few to many injuries and some bad falls. i love poetry and literature both reading and i even write poetry from time to time. i love movies and my favorite kind are horror movies. i love to cook and bake. i can cook anything i have a recipe for as long at it is in english lol. there is a lot more about me but i'm going to save some for conversations. even though this has given you a small look at who i am how i work and my morals it is not all there i am a complex individual and there is a lot more to me then meets the eye so please if you feel like getting a feel for how i am and my thoughts as well as my belief system please feel free to strike up a conversation and lets see where it goes from there.
have a wonderful day
xoxoxo
+~+ princess +~+
some of my favorite quotes
How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?
~Albert Einstein~
Yes time flies and where did it leave you?. . . . old too soon . . . . and smart too late
~Mike Tyson~
Wisdom doesn’t necessarily come with age. Sometimes age just shows up all by itself.
~Tom Wilson~
You may be deceived if you trust too much, But you live in torment if you don’t trust enough.
~ Unknown~
By three methods we may learn wisdom: first, by reflection, which is noblest; second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third, by experience, which is the most bitter.
~Confucius~
Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.
~ Alex Tan~
It is the passion that is in a kiss that gives to it its sweetness; it is the affection in a kiss that sanctifies it.
~Christian Nevell~
Passion is the quickest to develop, and the quickest to fade. Intimacy develops more slowly, and commitment more gradually still.
~Robert Sternberg~
It is with our passions as it is with fire and water; they are good servants, but bad masters.
~Roger L’Estrange~
We tend to think of the erotic as an easy, tantalizing sexual arousal. I speak of the erotic as the deepest life force, a force which moves us toward living in a fundamental way.
~ Audre Lorde~
Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.
~ Anais Nin~
I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling all that I am capable of doing but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.
~ Anais Nin~
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ok just to w arn those who can't read a profile i do have a fire tongue and will use it if you can't take the time to read a profile i don't take kindly to someone barking out orders or telling me what i will and won't do in a first damn message just because i am a slave does not give you the right to order me around and bark out orders in a first message i will tell you off and i will not be nice about it if you do such things
oh and to answer the rudest message i've just received no i am not racist you are the reason i wrote this blog thinking you can bark out orders and order me about in the first message you ever send me. . .
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Well it's been a while to say the least. random thought of the moment why is it that so many people assume that because of my age i'm indecisive about what it is that i want? and why is it that people assume that i don't have a picture because im not attractive? well to enlighten those of you who seem to think that i will put it to you this way. i don't have a picture up because i'd rather someone takes initial interest in me because of my views , manners , personality , and that sort of thing. yes i do realize looks do matter to a small degree however i don't want to be messaged solely on the fact that i'm pretty cute adorable or anything else. as for my age i think that you all need to sit down and think about what you were like when you were 19 and for get that because i have been mature since the age of 12 and i don't feel it's fair to be judged upon my age or anything else it's unfair thats like me looking at a persons profile and saying oh well i see they don't like this so i guess they don't know what they like. it's ludicrous and it's furthermore bull shit i don't see why people focus on small and petty details it's stupid why should age get in the way of the reason most of us are here. That reason is a lot of us if not all of us are looking to find happiness contentedness tranquility and those wonderful feelings we all want to find and have in life. well i guess this turned into a rant but meh no big deal. will hopefully write another nice work like some of the previous ones soon.
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i have had a few requests on some of my poetry so here are three of my favorite poems i've written.
~words~
words can tell a story.
and words can tell a lie.
words can break a heart and cause someone to die.
they break hearts sometimes from the start.
if you could take some back would it save a life,
or cause someone to drop that knife?
would you be all alone.
or feel empty and let out a moan of pain.
you ruined you life and now your in the rain.
is that what you wanted?
you cause her to leave.
do you have any other tricks up your sleeve.
is walking away your solution?
will that bring you absolution.
try saying your sorry that might be good enough.
and shed some light from above.
words can tell a story
and words can tell a lie.
words can break a heart and cause someone to die.
~locked inside~
i can not sleep through the night.
silence can not be this night.
deep dark demons whispering.
whispers echo through my head waves of grief and dread.
sledge hammers pounding at my head making me wish i was dead.
jumping up frightened and scared.
as i run through the halls looking for help.
no one even stirs.
looking around this house of mine trying to find some help.
no one around me that can save me.
i can't get out oh no I'm trapped in here.
faintly the church bells echo through my room and sing of the bride and groom.
listening contently as the feeling comes venting.
i scream in pain oh no i can't stand.
the force that's growing around my hand.
please i beg you I'm quite alright i can make it through this night.
the lights go out and demons whisper you're locked in side and can not whisper.
~forget me not~
I'm dieing here lost in my world of blue.
the place where my nightmares come true.
I'm calling your name in agony and pain but
you don't hear your away as i am here with this monster you call a loved one.
hard is this i call caring stuck in life despairing.
and you the one who always told me you care.
now your leaving into thin air.
forget me not as you walk away and leave me in the cold hearted way knowing what will happen today.
forget me not for your the one to blame for all of my pain.
leave me in the pouring rain.
kick me once i will not flinch kick me twice i will not twitch.
i go through this time after time and stay as silent as a mime.
not once do words of this pass my lips.
i keep a strong grip every time you rage and fit yet I'm the one who gets hit.
forget me not as i have done do not think that you have won.
she's home now don't dare run just grin and bare knowing your the one.
hide the bruises and cuts real quick so she doesn't think your a dick.
she'll never know the true story only you and i know the truth.
so ruthless are you who causes this pain but
i know i don't except it in vain.
forget me not timeless do you act as long as you can crack the whip.
forget me not as i except this.
restless nights waking up in a cold fright you cause this.
for one whom i'm supposed to love i dare not speak of true feelings for you.
forget me not as i rot dieing inside from your blows.
silently crying late at night after we have a fight.
wondering why you never show love to me.
forget me not as you inflict pain and leave me in the pouring rain.
never do i hear i love you pass your lips to me.
bearing the pain for her whom i love.
wearing the strain from covering it up.
if you have questions about any of them feel free to ask. . .
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i have been thinking about the word submission lately and if you look it up in the dictionary this is what you see:
Submission-noun
1.The act of submitting to the power of another: "Oppression that cannot be overcome does not give rise to revolt but to submission" (Simone Weil).
2.The state of being submissive or compliant; meekness.
and this got me thinking about what my submission means to me.i have been thinking about this topic all night and decided to share it here. to me my submission is a gift that which after trust is established i freely offer to my partner a gift of giving my body over wholly in return from giving that gift i get one that is equally important in return the gift of satisfaction in knowing i am pleasing my partner in knowing that i was the one who made them smile and utter "good girl". i feel at peace when completely offering my submission and allowing my partner to guide teach and mold me and help me to become what i want and go where i want in life, yes it is a lot of work but it is a part of who i am. it fills me with great pride when i've done a good job and when i haven't it saddens and pains me. my submission means a great deal to me not just sexually pleasing someone because this lifestyle entails so much more and has so many more amazing things to offer then just "kinky sex". inevitably finding that one person i can be free in my submission to would be ideal i take great pride in my submission and hope there are others out there that feel the same.the one thing i want more than anything is to be completely free while serving or pleasing my partner i want to have no inhibitions i want to feel completely free in my submission i want to do everything in my power to aide that one special person in being completely and utterly blissful. to me this isn't a game that you play on the weekends or in the bedroom only this is a lifestyle choice one to be lived as such and there are a lot of different points to it , but there are also still those "nilla" times.
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Random thought , why is it that no one takes the time to read someones profile ?? honestly it isn't that hard people it takes maybe 5 minutes to read someones profile. rather then ignore the information provided in the profile and write a rude and or explicit messages that will offend the person why not just try to be nice and friendly???? i mean me personally i'm only looking for friends. is it so hard to read that part and accept it? no i don't want to be a no limits slave in your basement , no i don't want to be "bread" and like as a sex slave.seriously come on how retarded can some people be and i've noticed a lot of the male profiles have pictures of their penises' is that supposed to help women choose who they want? if any women chooses to be with a man based on their penis that is extremely shallow i know i know if i don't like it i don't have to look at the pictures but honestly people it's kinda hard to miss a picture of a cock as a main pic when you're just looking through peoples profiles. ok any way that was a rant and i'm sorry but isn't that what a journal is for? any way not trying to be a bitch just trying to get things off my chest.
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ok so i've noticed on here that a lot of people think if you prefer yahoo that you're a fake this is not true , i personally feel that yahoo makes it easier and faster to talk to the person especially if like in my case you're only seeking friendship i mean come on people just because someone wants to talk on yahoo doesn't make them a fake i've met fakes on here who prefer to talk in messages too. it's almost like the whole don't judge a book by it's cover deal , just because someone prefers yahoo doesn't mean they are a fake maybe it means they want to get to know you in a more personalized setting.
yes i prefer yahoo to messages on here but no i am not a fake because of that. . .
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Well i've learned something on here so far most people either A don't take the time to read a profile no matter how much or how little is on it and B except for those select few Doms who view submissives as just that and demand respect. but respect is something which must be earned. it's rather upsetting and annoying i mean come on if and when i refer to someone as Sir it is then that they will know they have earned my respect.
soon enough i will put up more information on my profile but as for right now feel free to ask what you wish to know
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You were
my love
my world
my air
I surrendered my
body
heart
mind
I blindly
trusted
loved
gave whole-heartedly
You said
I love you
I won't leave you
I want you
for my Own
You never told me
that I was
disposable
replaceable
recycle-able
so when You
pushed me away
sent me away
tossed me away
in so doing
You lost the
unconditional
trust
love
adoration
of a lil girl
who thought
that You were the
sun
moon and stars
....
In the
quiet nights
do You
listen to
the remnants of
Your heart?
hearing
not just
listening
hear
it's message
admonishing
chastising
like a Preacher
trying to
save You
…
...
from You. |
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