9/11/2010 1:06:19 AM

A Saturday afternoon thinking about how it was to be involved in a D/s relationship. My first was with a woman who taught me the basics and more. Next was with a man, who despite being relatively inexperienced, learned quickly and became a very good Dom. Somehow that seems odd since I showed him the ropes so to speak, but we had a good relationship for a few years. Since then I have been with two Doms, but somehow neither had the intensity, the intimacy, the longevity of the first. I keep trying though.

9/9/2010 8:43:29 AM

OVer a year and no posts. Must be because I have almost given up on this site. Still looking for a Dom though. A man or woman. I read one female Dom who wrote she thought most subs were in it for the sex. Might be for "most" but not all, even though the act of subbing is very erotic among other things.

7/30/2009 8:22:39 PM

My buddy is leaving Japan this weekend and now I will have to start over again. Nobody will replace him though. Hopefully we will meet again someday.

10/17/2008 1:58:17 AM

First time on in about a month. Although I have finally got to play a few times, I had to travel to do it, so it isn't likely to be a very common thing. Still looking for someone closer to Tokyo. I am sort of picky, mainly it goes by feel. We have to be on the same wavelength (for lack of a better term) as well as having the same interests. But I love being in a scene with someone whom I connect with. One of my favorite memories was with a Dom in the US. It was more of a casual relationship the Master/slave, as we did it occasionally to spice up sex. He was new at it and I had some experience with a female Domina and introduced him to it. Luckily, he was a natural. During one extended Saturday session, he came over to my place. I was to kneel nude by the door as he arrived. When he came in he sat down and removed his jacket and asked me to take off his shoes. After I did, he had me put away the jacket and instructed me on how to put away his shoes, which had to be very carefully prepared. He liked the laces a certain way, and I had trouble following his instructions. He gave me a time limit to do it, threatening me with a severe birching if I did not correctly finish in time. I was so involved with what was happening, all I could think of was following his instructions and completing his orders. I felt the fear---actual fear---of failing. Not only the birching, which of course I enjoy, but the fear of disappointing him, of failing at what I was doing for him. It is hard to explain, and probably seems trivial, but I found that very intense. We had other, more intricate roleplays where I experienced similar feelings, but that one sticks in my mind.

9/12/2008 4:42:40 PM

Saturday morning and it only means a lot of hard work on a weekend day. But tomorrow, i have an opportunity for only the 2nd or 3rd time in Japan to play. It will be only a one or two time thing as the Man i will be with is leaving Japan, and i won't be serving as i would like to, but it will finally be something at least. I did finally get some photos up, two of them. Both kneeling, one nude, but on my knees as i like to be.

9/10/2008 11:18:41 PM

It has  been quite a while since I wrote an entry, mainly because I forgot about this site until I had a few contacts recently. Still no meetings, but I am patient. I have to be. Some who know no better think that gay men just have all kinds of wild, kinky sex any time any place. In fact, It has been my experience that guys are just as vanilla as most straight. Maybe even more so. Since SM is about more than sex, and requires non-vanilla thinking in many ways, it makes finding the right person/people tougher.

3/8/2008 7:28:40 PM

I often wonder how I became attracted to being a sub. I certainly had plenty of opportunity growing up with a very dominant father who had no problem with physical discipline or even verbally humiliating me. I certainly did not enjoy that at the time. I know I never enjoyed a spanking even for a single second. But those things that I disliked then have in some cases become something enjoyable with the right person under the right circumstances. I have heard all kinds of theories, but in the end I enjoyed some of that in role play now. Of course finding the right person, that right time and place, the right moment is the tough part.

2/24/2008 8:53:01 PM

Having been unsuccessful so far in finding a true Dom, i decided to try through this site. i am not able to practice as a lifestyle, but hope to find someone for occasional play who understand that topping is not about being a a--hole. It is quite psychological and requires that both can trust one another enough to get into that space. It is hard to define, at least here, but it is easy enough to recognize when it happens. Maybe it will for me and someone else through this site.