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When you go throughout life you seek to find the place you are most in tune with. it spent some time trying to hide it or maybe better not knowing. In time it went through a marriage in the vanilla world and saw it abruptly end as cordially as it could. Over the next year it tried to go out with others but it didn't feel right there was nothing there. Then one night a coworker now a very good friend sat it down and said that he would like to help it. In that one night he asked it about its desires in a relationship and its past and when he said he knows how to help and now here it is:
it is a submissive pathetic male. There is no greater pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being under the guidance and protection of a Superior Woman in a loving relationship where it feels there is an acceptance of it as a person and the desire to bring it more out of its shell in a sense.
it has no desire to dominate Women, for there is no joy that comes from the idea of doing so. In no way is it a top/dom/switch at all in the kink world or better way to say it if it is not commanded to be such then it will not do it for that is not where it feels as it belongs.
Ok so now let's see after a few years of soul searching this is it:
In no way is it weak or stupid, but rather have firm views and a clear concept of what it wants out of its life. Also it does not seek to serve out of shame or weakness, but rather out of pride and strength. Yes it loves humiliation and being deprived of of things but if there is no way it will surrender to just anyone that calls themselves Superior.
it is a person that knows that Woman is more Superior to it. The fact is that it seeks to find the one who will understand that even when in the vanilla world and not able to be ourselves it will always show the respect and honor to Her in the most subtle way so She will know that it is Hers . it is in search of a dominant Female to control and guide it with lots of structure, strict rules and clear well-defined expectations all delivered in a loving and caring but firm manner. I have a deep overwhelming need to belong to someone, to have its actions and experiences constrained in a way that it would be found pleasing . A Woman who enjoys dominating an alpha male at work and Her boy at home using the kinky fetishes that we have discussed to better ourselves and give us the utopia we desire. it would like to have Her control and to permeate every aspect of its pathetic life. Hopefully in the end it will be a 24/7 relationship.
If You feel moved to want to talk or learn more please feel free to message it and it will get back to You asap.
Very respectfully
thelittleworm
Personal experience:
A few years ago it was on aff (adult friend finder). It started talking to this Mistress and was asked if it was willing to do anything to prove its desire to serve. Well it replied quickly yes and it was given a test. The test now would be an easy yes but at the time the word homosexuality was weird. So it said hesitantly yes but was scared. It was told simply you don't do it she would disapear. So in the end it didn't keep its part of the bargain and ended up learning that limits are to be pushed and not to be drawn to quickly
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Well it has been a couple months of being here. It has been a good change of pace. I am in area where there seems to be very few kinky people here, so thinking of in the future going to T-town and checking the scene out there. Been missing munches. |
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Made it to Demopolis and in the process of getting the house put together. I am sad to leave the friends in New England but grateful for the chance to meet them. Changes to come shortly |
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What I have learned from doing pet play and what I hope to do some more of for life if it pleases the one that will own me for life
1. The Idea of having a leash on a collar around my neck is just amazing. About a Year ago I got to be leashed and put to my knees it felt so right and proper. The cold links clanking as I followed behind her, wow never thought it would be so great.
2. Getting petted and rubbed like a pup. Oh how it made me whimper and yelp in joy. Either as a dog or a pig mmmmm the feeling of getting petted after being good mmmmm unexplainable.
3. Being made to eat of of the dog bowl, out of the Superiors hand, or off the floor oh so humiliating yet very much the right place for this boy. It is so amazing how I can feel so ashamed yet so at peace and yearn for it more and more. |
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The Creed
I am a submissive man.
I find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to a Superior Woman in a loving relationship.
I am not weak or stupid, but rather I am a strong man, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. In no way do I desire to dominate Women, for there is no joy that comes from the idea of doing so.
I do not seek to serve out of shame or weakness, but rather out of pride and strength.
It takes a lot for person to admit to the fact that he wants to be dominated by a Powerful Woman, but when he does it is a relief.
I seek to look at my loving Mistress for guidance and protection, for I will never be more complete than when She is with me.
I will enjoy knowing that She will protect my body, my mind and my soul with Her strength and wisdom.
She will be everything to me, as I will hope I will be everything to Her.
Her gentle/firm touch will awaken me and Her thoughts will free me from the prison I am in. Only in serving Her will I find complete freedom and joy.
Her punishments will be harsh and swift, but I will gladly accept them thankfully, knowing that She has my best interests always foremost in Her mind.
If She desires my body for pleasure, I will without hesitation give it to Her, and take great pleasure in knowing that I have brought Her happiness.
However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.
My body will be Hers and if She says I am beautiful, then I am.
No matter what I look like to others, if I am beautiful in Her eyes, and because of that I will hold my head high knowing She has found me worthy to be beautiful in Her eyes.
For who can tell me that my Mistress is wrong in seeing the beauty in me?
If She says that I am Her prince, then I am that....regal and graceful, it is humbling to be called that.
And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Mistress wrong? If She says I am Her toy, Her slut, Her tramp, then I am that....
as wanton and dirty as She desires me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my future Mistress my mind will be Hers to expand, to explore, to know as only She can.
I will have no secrets from Her for if I did it would be like a house built on a beach without protection and a hurricane coming straight at it.
For secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly Hers. Secrets would put a wall up between my future Mistress and me. I do not want walls, but rather an open field.
Her lessons will not always be ones I would seek on my own, but they will be lessons She has decided upon her wisdom that I will need and so that I can learn them from Her.
My soul will be Hers alone, as bare to Her touch as ever my skin could be when I will kneel naked at Her feet for her to gaze upon me at her Leisure.
Never a moment goes by when I do not want to feel Her presence, be She miles away or standing before me in all Her Power.
If I ever were to displease Her, Her displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that I will feel when I disappoint Her will be like a dagger to my soul and will be harder to bear than the physical anguish I will feel when Her belt caresses me with fire.
I will spend my days knowing that the energy and the thoughts She will put into Our relationship is will be as much for my benefit as for Hers, and I will look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that We will do together when She desires.
Her part will be much harder than mine, and I know this and will be forever grateful and in Her debt to the fact that She cares enough about me to spend Her time and energy so freely on me.
I the submissive will have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything for Her glory.
I will be Her pleasure and responsibility, and She will take both seriously and I will surrender it whole hardheartedly and without hesitation.
I am a submissive man.
I am proud to call myself that.
My submission is a Gift that I do not take lightly, and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that Gift and return it ten fold.
Only She will have the ability and/or strength to tame me, and I will give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.
I am a submissive man and will not change as the wind, so please take me as I am. |
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