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PROFILE UPDATE
To me, a submissive is like a kite. Without a Master, she is just a tangle of string and paper. But in the hands of an experienced Master, she can fly higher and wilder than anyone could believe. She is fragile, easily damaged if used by an inexperienced Master, but when well controlled, she can withstand buffeting by the strongest winds. But if the Master does not hold tight to the string, she will float away from Him, with no more intent to do it than the kite, but nevertheless, she is quickly out of reach. She then falls to earth and is back to being just paper and string.
No matter how she may tug at the string, she knows deep within that she wants and needs her Master to bring her back under control. And if He wishes to use humiliation and pain as His tools to control her, that is as it should be.
Some notes to Dominants who may read this profile
Theres nothing wrong with inexperience, as long as You admit it. Being a member here or elsewhere for some time does not make You experienced. Cyber does not make You experienced in anything other than cyber.
Physical injuries heal. Emotional ones take much longer. If You dont understand sub drop, look it up. Your responsibility doesnt end when she leaves Your presence.
If You use a sub, and dont then protect her and care for her if You dont get the emotional reliance she will develop very quickly, and You treat her like a vanilla fling then, my friend, You are not a Master, youre an abuser.
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Do you ever wonder what on earth made you want the things you do? To be degraded, caged, used as a fucktoy by whoever my Owner decides, cum sprayed on my face by man after man, cocks filling every hole - that isn't normal, surely? Wait right here, I'll be back after a cold shower.......... |
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I will update my profile soon, but meanwhile I am honoured to let my friends here know that I have been accepted by Sir K, and am now owned by Him. |
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I've had to do some soul searching in the last 24 hours. I have very little time to serve, however I 'met' someone through here with whom I had a lot in common. After several months of chatting, I agreed to meet. And at the last minute, I chickened out.
I had to work out why, and I realised that my ex-Master's conditioning has worked a treat. So, being regularly told that my 'performance' needs to be superb, to compensate for my physical appearance, has left me with so little confidence that I'm not prepared to meet anyone, anywhere. And, without a doubt, that contributed to my request to be released from Him, months ago. Well played, Sir, well played! |
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Ok, so I need to ask a question, and this will probably get me flamed.
I've been reading lots of Doms' profiles and so many of them state they want a sub who is 'new to the lifestyle". Why? Why is a sub who probably doesn't know what she needs preferable to a sub who knows exactly who she is, and what she desires? Is it because you feel a little unsure of your own abilities, and therefore want someone who has no basis for comparison? |
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Vanilla life has defeated me. I do not have the time to serve Him as He deserves. It's hard to even get my head into the right space, so I have resigned from His service. |
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Work commitments have kept me away from here, and will continue to do so for a while yet.
However, Master decided that He wanted me to have some cock sucking practice, so i met with a man who has wanted to 'know' me for a while (we had a brief fling many years ago). i was able to practice some specific things that Master had outlined for me, although i was concerned about gagging with a vanilla guy - they tend to feel guilty - so i didn't get him as far down my throat as Master wanted.
There will be more practice coming up! |
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Well, the panties went off today as a late Christmas present to the collarme member. i hope you enjoy!
I will post a photo shortly of the finished product. |
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i am still creating the panties for the member here. Today i had a session by phone with Master. where He had me reminisce about the feeling of His cock in my arse, by fucking myself with my dildo. It was a very nice feeling indeed!
i was allowed to orgasm after He hung up, wearing the panties, so by the time they leave here, they should be sopping! |
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Master has agreed to provide a pair of my worn panties to a member here. i am to wear them for 48 hours and pull them tight between my lips. i have posted a photo. |
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Today i had a telephone session with Master. He had me prepare myself an hour before, by putting on my collar, and applying my pleasure clip and one band to each tit.
When He rang, He had me insert my large butt plug (fortunately with lubrication) and fuck myself with it for a few minutes, then He discussed some of my rules, reinforcing exactly what they require and imply.
i was allowed to masturbate once He hung up, with the plug still in place. i am still wearing it and will be for another 15 minutes.
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Today i carried out what seems like quite a vanilla activity for my Master - listing all my clothing that could be worn in a slut fashion. It ended up being very arousing, trying on things and imagining how He might decide to use them.
I ended up asking to use my large butt plug and to masturbate. He instructed me to wear my pleasure clip - I think it was about an hour, and then i was allowed to cum.
i am a lucky slut, to have such a generous Master! |
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i have been working interstate this week (not with Him). Master decided that i was to undress whenever i returned from work to my hotel room, and wear slutwear and my collar. i also slept in these.
W/we were in contact by phone regularly, and i had a wonderful session fucking my arse with my large plug at His direction.
i am very lucky to have found my Master. His dominance is much more of a gift to me than anything i give him. |
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Illness has kept me from CM recently, but i am feeling a little better now. Master has instructed me to ask for suggestions for a clit clip that will inflict a medium level of discomfort - something that can be worn for a few hours. i thought i had found one (see pic) but unfortunately, it is too severe. Any suggestions? |
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i have had a lot of vanilla obligations keeping me away from CM, but Master has instructed me to describe a few tasks He has had me perform recently, so i'll be doing some updates over the next few days.
i was visiting another city last week (unfortunately not with Him), and He decided to stretch me by exhibiting me. One evening, He had me stand in my hotel room window, dressed in business clothes. Gradually, as He spoke to me by phone, He had me strip. i was wearing a quarter cup bra, suspender belt and stockings (the outfit i am shown wearing in some of my photos). To my left and my right, there were buildings with balconies - either apartments or hotels - and there were people on a couple of the balconies. In addition, i could have been seen from the street. He had me slowly unbutton my shirt, then turn my back and drop my skirt. i then pushed my butt up against the window, and stood there for a couple of minutes as He talked to me, reinforcing His ownership and my status as His property. He then ordered me to turn around and display myself in the window. I have no idea how long i stood there - probably just a few minutes - before He ordered me to close the curtain. i was rewarded by being allowed to masturbate.
i was illogically very nervous about being used like this - my voice shook as i spoke with Him. i would have found it easier to service a group of men. |
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Master has instructed me to write about my only experience of double penetration.
It was while I was single, in my early twenties.
It was not the first threesome i have had, but the others all involved mouth and pussy. This was the only one in which my cunt and arse were fucked together.
i met the guys at a nightclub. They were both reasonably good looking, fit guys, and as i had gone there by myself, i was happy to have a couple of guys to talk to. In my innocence, i assumed that as all three of us were talking, that they weren't 'on the prowl'. We got on well, as they both had a good sense of humour, and at various times during the evening, they would point out other guys they thought i might be interested in, and i would offer to go chat up girls for them. i thought we were all getting on like platonic friends.
They said they were driving past my suburb on the way home, and so i suggested they come back for coffee. As i look back, I am astonished at how gullible i was, but at the time, i did not realise what they had planned. i am sure this was not the first time they had jointly picked up a girl - they were very practiced at it.
We got back to my flat and i made coffee. My flat was very small and for seating i only had two 'papasan' chairs. i let them sit in the chairs and i sat on the floor. After a few minutes, one of them - lets call him Steve - went to the bathroom, which was off the bedroom. As soon as he did, the other guy - Dave - reached down and pulled me onto his lap and kissed me. At this i thought "OK, so he's the one looking to get laid". i fancied them both, so i didn't mind at all. We kissed with increasing passion and then Steve came back in. Dave whispered in my ear that he needed to use the bathroom as well, so i stood up to let him up. As he left the room, Steve stood up and started kissing me. This got me rather confused, but i was horny and responded, wondering what would happen when Dave came back.
When Dave returned, he came up behind me and started kissing my neck as Steve still kissed my mouth. i finally twigged as to what they wanted and pulled back just a little. Steve looked at me, raised an eyebrow and said "We'll make sure you enjoy it". i made a split second decision, and pulled his head down to kiss me again. They rightly took this as my consent, and Dave reached around me and started to unbutton my shirt while Steve held my head and forced his tongue into my very willing mouth.
Having four hands roaming all over my body meant i became naked very quickly, and very turned on even more quickly. The feeling of being totally naked with two men who were still fully clothed was an incredible turnon - such a vulnerable feeling. There was a hand pulling each of my nipples while another pushed my legs apart and started playing with my clit. By this time, I needed to not be standing, so i grabbed each of their hands and led them into the bedroom - only a few metres away.
When we got in the room, one of them pulled me to the bed, laid me on my back and began to work his way down my body while the other undressed. They then quickly changed places, so that i never was without a mouth and hands working on me while they got themselves ready. As i say, they were practiced at this!
When they were both naked, one of them focussed his attention on my tits, using mouth and tongue, while the other began to eat me. At this stage, they weren't rough, but there was no hesitation about what they were doing. If i had changed my mind, i doubt that they would have paid any attention to me. Although they were making sure i was aroused and compliant, there was an aspect of being a fuck toy for them, and that made me incredibly wet.
i wanted to have more active input, and so i reached for the cock of the guy sucking my tits, and brought him around to my mouth. i had no idea which was which by this stage, and cared even less. i began licking the cock in front of me, which was standing at attention, and the owner moaned slightly and moved so that i could take him fully into my mouth. Meanwhile, the guy between my legs was fucking my cunt with several fingers, and i was humping his hand. I felt his thumb move down to my ass and begin to massage it, and i suddenly wanted something in my ass urgently. i tried to push down to get his thumb into my ass, but he laughed and pulled back. "You're not ready yet, baby" he whispered. i wanted to argue the point but by this stage his friend was kneeling over my face, fucking my mouth and i couldn't get a word out.
"We've got a good one here" i heard one of them say, and the other agreed. i felt slightly humiliated, but also pleased that they thought i would be able to please them both. Being a good fuck has always been important to me.
The guy in my mouth (Steve?) climbed off, and lay down on the bed, and between them they lifted me to kneel over his cock. He held his cock while his friend pushed me down, and i nearly came when i felt his cock enter me. i began fucking his cock in earnest, but i had only thrust down on him 3 or 4 times when i felt his friend's hand pushing me forward. Steve held me close to his chest with my upper arms, making sure his cock didn't slip out of my cunt, and i felt fingers slide quickly in and out of my cunt. In addition to his cock, it was a stretch, but all that Dave was doing was getting some lubrication. He rubbed my juices over my arse, and then i felt his cock pushing into me. i must have looked scared, because Steve pulled my head down and started kissing me as Dave forced his way into my arse. He did it fairly slowly, but without hesitation. i knew i was not going to have a choice here - i was going to have to cope with it. As he buried his cock in my arse up to the hilt, they both groaned, and something inside me gave way. i just wanted to be fucked as hard as possible. i pulled away from Steve's mouth, threw my head back and started begging them to fuck me, fuck me hard. i think i went quite animal, and they co-ordinated their thrusting so that one was entering its hole while the other pulled almost out. i had never felt anything like it, i didn't want to cum, i just wanted to continue feeling this sensation. i didn't dare move too much, for fear i would lose a cock, so i knelt while they rammed their cocks into me. Steve was pulling hard on my nipples, while Dave reached around to play with my clit. They were both talking softly to each other, discussing what a good slut i was, how i liked having two cocks fucking me, that it was a pity there wasn't another man here to fuck my mouth, and so on. They could tell that i responded to being humiliated, i guess. That did it, and i couldn't help cumming hard. They didn't make any attempt to slow down or accommodate my orgasm in any way, and in a perverse way, i liked that as well. i liked being a fuck toy.
i don't know how they managed to coordinate themselves, but they both came within seconds of each other, filling my cunt and ass with cum. They both left their cocks inside me until they were quite soft, and then rolled me onto the bed. i was exhausted, and they both looked worn out. They lay, one each side of me for some time, both cuddling me, and i think we all drifted off to sleep for a while.
Eventually they got up and got dressed. i couldn't be bothered putting any clothes on, and when i stood up i could feel two streams of cum running down my legs. i felt like a totally used slut. They both kissed me good bye, and left. |
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Master wishes to extend my pain thresholds, therefore last evening i had to wear my pain clip on my clit for 3/4 hour while out in a vanilla setting. After an hour and a half, i had to replace it for another 1/2 hour. Wearing it under jeans makes it bend sideways, and hurt more. It stings when it goes on, and then is ok for about 5 minutes. Then the burning sensation starts, and doesn't stop. When it comes off, there is a sudden stab of pain, as the bloodflow is set free. All in all, the pain clip is not my friend. But it makes Master happy. :) |
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It makes me so wet thinking about kneeling in front of my Master, hands cupped under my chin waiting for His magnificent cock to release its golden fluid for me to savour. |
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i am so very lucky to have the Owner i do. You all enjoy His humiliation of me, but He also values me and regularly tells me how proud He is of my efforts. He is a true Master. |
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Master allowed me to orgasm today, in the shower. First i had to wear my pleasure clip for 4 hours, which meant that by the time i was able to shower, i was on heat. i tried to hold off cumming, but i came within 2 minutes of the water jet hitting my clit. |
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Master has directed me to post about my first sexual thoughts.
The first time i experienced what i later identified as sexual arousal was when i was about 11 or 12. i was home from school for some reason - it may have been school holidays - and my uncle called in. He was a motorcycle policeman and was in uniform. I recall looking at him and feeling like i was going to 'wet myself' because i wanted to be in jail so much - jail to me meaning handcuffs and bars.
At school i used to daydream about being in a cage at the front of the class, available for any boy to use. How they would use me was very vague, as i didn't know how sex happened. i just wanted to be their plaything.
i did not lose my virginity until i was 16. |
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i had a relaxing weekend at Master's direction. This morning i wore a clamp on my clit for 1/2 hour as i read my rules. Every day, i am required to read and study my rules, and to endure some form of discipline to focus my mind. i greatly enjoy this ritual. |
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i will not be on collarme over the weekend. i am not feeling very well, and i am being cared for by Master.
i will be back next week. Have a joyful weekend, all. |
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Master had instructed me to tell you all about my discipline yesterday. As you know He made me piss through my panties and wear them all day. Every time i went to the bathroom i had to leave them on. It was incredibly degrading. At 6.00pm i was allowed to take them off but i had to wear my butt plug for an hour. Finally i was allowed to shower and have an orgasm in the shower. |
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Today i had to carry out the final part of my discipline for not signing off my emails correctly.
I am required to piss through my panties and wear them all day, under a dress. Any time i need to pass urine today, i must do so through my sopping panties. This is incredibly degrading.
I am about to upload photos here and at the link in my profile. |
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Master has instructed me to post details of the first time i was fucked in the arse.
I was 18 and married At first he just liked to insert his finger and feel his cock thrusting in and out of my personal cunt. i didn't particularly like that but i let him do it. Then he decided to fuck my arse. He used lubricant, but i couldn't take it and asked him to stop. He did, but was very pissed off with me. He sulked until i agreed to try again. The pain was horrific, but once he was buried deep inside me, the feeling changed, and i think i went a little animal, and began thrusting back onto him. The feeling of his cock fucking so hard into me, combined with his balls hitting my clit was amazing. He came very quickly. i felt very confused afterward -that was the first time i felt 'used' and i had very conflicting emotions about it.
Master has corrected pointed out that i was always destined to be an arse whore, and that my place is to be used. |
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Every morning i read Master's rules for me, to ensure i am aware of my status as His slut and arse whore. This week, i am required to clip my clit for 1/2 hour as i do it. i'm coming to enjoy the pain - perhaps i'm more of a pain slut than i thought. |
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Last evening Master instructed me to insert my largest butt plug an hour before going to a vanilla event. I was supposed to go to the bathroom when i arrived, remove the plug and text Master, and then replace it before i left the event, also texting. It was then to remain in place for another hour.
Due to some time issues i wasn't able to remove the plug, and therefore i had it inserted into my arse for just under 3 hours. By the time i was allowed to remove it, i almost didn't want to, as i knew it would really hurt. It did. A lot. But i was serving Master, and that is what matters. |
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Master instructed me to masturbate today with my largest butt plus inserted. i imagined that He had lined up a group of men, who took turns pissing on me, making me choke on all the piss. I then had to fuck my arse with my smaller plug for 3 minutes. |
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i have uploaded two photos of my 'branding' as outlined in my previous entry, at Master's direction. Further photos are available at the link shown in my profile. |
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Thank you to everyone who suggested punishments. My mistake was not signing off an email in an appropriate manner. Master has therefore decided to use those words In my punishment. I have therefore used a thick black marker to write "Masters cum bucket, arse whore, dog slut and piss and cum drinker" over my body. The words must stay there until Wednesday (the pen won't wash off without a lot of scrubbing). I don't know how to explain just how degrading this is.
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Master instructed me to masturbate today and to record what I did here.
I bound each tit with three rubber bands and applied a peg to each nipple. I turned on the shower, stepped in and washed my hair and body. I then moved the shower head down to my clit and imagined that Master had just fucked my arse and shoved His cock into my mouth for cleaning. He then pissed all over me, making me move my head around to try to catch it all in my mouth.
He is going to use His piece of fuck meat in this way soon. |
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i have posted two pics taken in the toilets at the local shopping centre. Master had me go there, lock myself in a disabled toilet and take photos for Him, while He spoke to me by phone. i was very conscious of people talking just the other side of the door. my personal cunt became very wet as He used me this way, and He made me hold the phone next to my cunt while i fingered myself, so that He could hear it.
i have also updated my profile with a link to more pics of Master's slut, as i have run out of room here. |
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Due to being a forgetful slut i am sitting with my clit clipped for my Master, accepting the pain that this brings and proud to be corrected by my Owner. i will not be forgetful again. |
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Master wishes all who read here to know that this public humiliation by my Owner makes His slut's personal cunt wet. i am His piss drinking, cum swallowing arse whore.
Once again i fucked my arse with a butt plug for 5 minutes, as He has directed. |
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Last night Master instructed me to wear a clip on my clit while i was out in a vanilla setting. i was supposed to have it on for 3 hours, but i could only manage 1 1/4 hours. Master has graciously decided not to discipline me. A pic has been posted. |
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Master has instructed me to post a pic of my 'landing strip'. Do you prefer this look or totally bald? |
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i made an indiscretion today by failing to properly acknowledge my role as His slut, whore and all things else in an email. Master will be disciplining me for this indiscretion and i will willingly carry out whatever humilating or inflicting act that Master directs me to. i seek input from followers of my journal - please message a suitable punishment or discipline that could be inflicted. The task can be humiliating, degrading and/or involve pain/discomfort. The task needs to be self administered. Master may or may not use anyones input, depending on the originality and suitability of any responses. He may choose to ignore any suggestions and simply inflict His current thoughts. |
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i found a piss drinking pic on a profile here and found it so very hot i had to send it to Master. Master has instructed me to post it here. i would ask for permission to post it but i cannot recall the member's nic. This is how i yearn to be used by Him. |
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I am my Masters piss drinking slut and I am wet with the thought of recieving His magnificent piss, I ache to to take My Masters golden fluid and I need it so, so much.
This public humiliation by my Owner makes His slut's personal cunt wet. |
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Once again i have fucked my arse with a butt plug for 5 minutes, as i have been ordered. i am required to detail here all of the tasks i carry out on His orders, which are humiliating and degrading, to ensure everyone can see my development into a total piss drinking, cum swallowing, arse fucked slut. |
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I went out on Saturday evening with my vanilla partner to visit friends. Unknown to all of them, i inserted my smallest butt plug before i left home. I knew that i was committed to wearing it for the entire evening, as it would have raised eyebrows if i took my handbag to the bathroom.
i thought i'd easily cope with it, but as the evening wore on, my arse muscles began throbbing. It was on the line between uncomfortable and painful.
I had it in for 5 hours before finally being able to remove it at home. My arse had that wonderful 'just fucked' feeling, making me want to present it to Master for fucking. |
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I fucked my arse for 5 minutes again for Master. Tried to get a shot of His arse cunt stretched, but it didn't come out that well, so i fucked myself with my large plug and took pics, which are posted. There is also a pic showing the bruising on my tit after my last binding. |
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My Master intends eventually to share me with selected others, however, i will not be offered to anyone else until He has properly prepared me physically, mentally and aesthetically. He wants to ensure that my appearance, presentation, and performance through His cunts is to an acceptable standard. The key reason is that the impression my performance leaves will be a reflection on my Master and i want to make my Master proud of my efforts.
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My Master has decided to use this journal feature as a way of extending my public humiliation. I will therefore be regularly posting entries detailing how He is training His fuck whore to be the perfect slut. i hope you all enjoy my degradation.
Today I was allowed to masturbate in the shower, however, i had to have bound and pegged tits. As a separate task, my Master has ordered that i fuck my arse with a small but plug for 5 minutes, every time i have a shower. This is to continue until He directs otherwise.
I therefore applied three rubber bands to each tit, and a peg on each nipple. I inserted the plug and stepped into the shower.
I soaped myself first - each time my arm brushed a peg the pain went straight to my clit.
I then bent over and fucked my Master's arse cunt with the plug for 5 minutes, counting to 60 5 times. Bending forward seemed to make my tits throb more and by the time i was finished i was very very hot.
I detached the shower head from the wall, turned it onto the jet setting, and ran it over my tits. In my head i was kneeling before Him, and the water was His piss. i ran it over each tit, imagining His golden fluid drenching them, before He moved up to my face. He ran it over my face and then into my waiting open mouth, making me gulp to swallow it. As i imagined this, i moved the jet spray to my clit. I'm not exaggerating when i say that i came within a minute of the jet hitting my clit. It was so strong, my legs were shaking for some time afterwards.
I am finding writing this incredibly humiliating, considering that no one here actually knows me. Knowing that strangers can read and be aroused by the way my Master is developing me into the perfect cum bucket is both embarrassing and deeply satisfying. |
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My Master has instructed me to upload a picture of my plugged arse, and to explain why. I was disobedient - coming on here rather than carrying out tasks that He set for me. To discipline me, He instructed me to wear the plug for two hours before texting for permission to remove it. When i texted, i was instructed that He would text me when i could remove it. Twenty minutes later, He did so, however i had to ring Him first. He had me partially pull the plug out until the widest point was stretching my arse muscles. He then reminded me that i was His whore, His property, to use as He saw fit. I then had to push the plug back in, and move the phone to my cunt, fingering myself so that He could hear how wet i was. The plug came out to the widest point again for a few minutes, and then He told me to close my eyes and remove it. Such relief! However, He told me to bring it to my mouth, stick out my tongue, and with eyes still closed, run my tongue up one side. The only thing more humiliating than doing that is telling the world about it. I have been put in my place. |
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Added another few pics. I love using normal household items for deviant purposes. Who knew a skirt hangar was so useful? |
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Thanks to one of the wonderful members here, i have been introduced to the pleasure and pain of tit bondage. Oh wow! The way my tits go hard, the bite of the bands, the pretty puce colour they go, the pain which translates straight to arousal, trying to concentrate on work with them bound tightly - oooh! Who thought a few rubber bands could provide such pain and pleasure? Check out my new pics. |
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