I entered the lifestyle as a submissive then a slave and have had numerous years experience there but I do know that no 2 relationships are the same. It has only been in the past 5 years that I have been exploring the Top side of myself.
A little about me I am an intelligent, strong, independent woman. I know who and what I am and I am at peace with myself. I have been a part of the lifestyle for over 17 years now and I am very active in the local BDSM community. I look for intelligence, sense of humor and common sense in friends. I am dominant, I am submissive and everything in between
It is weird how well one can hide things from oneself sometimes. Thanks to the help of friends I can say I am a sadistic top with masochistic submissive tendencies and a slave heart still. I guess the heart remains true no matter what else changes.
Sometimes words don't always convey what one is trying to say so I will try again. Submission is not new to me, I was a slave for many years. What I am looking to see now is if it is my true self or just something brought out by the one who was in my ife for so long.
It is time to make some updates here but I will leave the profile as it is, as it still tells a lot about me. First the past year has been a tremendous learning and growing experience for me. I have always wanted to learn more, to be more and that craving continues but something else has been creeping in of late. Submissive feelings that I had thought buried or gone. So I feel it is time to explore that side of me a little and see if that side is there and a part of me or was just something brought out by that special one who is no longer with us. I am still not looking for a LTR but am now looking for Dominants or switches willing to be friends and help me explore and see if that side is there. Please don't get me wrong, I still love topping and have no plans on giving that up.
