Although not mentioned in my profile, I would like to meet subs, especially female subs, living in the Pac NW.  As my journey continues, I find it increasingly important to connect with others who have been down the path, or are currently in the journey.  There is so much to learn, to understand, so many ways to grow; sometimes by listening to the experiences of others self-knowledge is revealed; other times it is important to talk through experiences to truely understand them. 

Growth: violent stretches of personal discovery followed by quiet pools of introspection and image reconciliation whereby the ego absorbs wisdom of self.

Thus endith the lesson:

“I saw, the sad decline,

Of it become a storm.”

“Now, the anger’s gone,

It leaves behind a pain, again.

Where did we go wrong?

Let go my shadow, pass me back.”

Sometimes, when experiencing new things you hit a wall and you have to stop, take a deep breath, and then take that running jump off the ledge.  And you soar and glide on the wind… feel the shivers and the gooseflesh… the heat and the rush.  And when ~WHAM~  you hit the bottom hard, the landing excruciating, and the pieces shatter and fly about… you cry with the pain and joy that come with growth and discovery.  Then, in the quiet solitude of the aftermath, you take that first hesitant look in the mirror and begin to make room for the new knowledge of self.

Happy New Year!

I was fortunate to kick 2008 off on a great note, and hope that it is a prodigious portent of what’s to come this year.  I’d also like to say “thank You” to One who is helping me on my journey: Sixty-three is a FABULOUS number.

~ tavinia ~

“Praise the bridge that carried you over”

                ~George Colman~

“If nothing else, a road trip amounts to several days of running conversation with F/friends, and since good conversation is so hard to come by these days, that in itself, is with the effort.”

                ~John Gierach~

“It is better to travel well than to arrive.”

                ~Buddha~

For as long as i can remember, i’ve been a fan of dark and bittersweet chocolates; i find them to be much richer, more robust, and more complex than mild or semi-sweet.  After this weekend, i can now say with confidence that vanilla is like milk chocolate; not bad, if that is all that one knows, or can get, but so completely lacking in complex flavors that it almost dulls the senses. 

Where i've previously experienced only a single flavor note, I’ve now tasted a morsel of the divine complexity possible: the bitter, the bite, the sweet, the smooth… the taste lingers on my tongue. 

Like all quality indulgences, i savor the experience, running my tongue over my lips to capture every drop, reliving the first heady nibble.  And, like all true chocoholics, while in the midst of savoring the last bit as it melts away, I’m already dreaming of the next piece. 
~tavinia~

~ Honesty, Honestly ~

i’m finding, in my on-line wanderings, that most P/people fall into two categories: those who are seriously looking for a partner/mate/relationship and those who are looking for a quickie.  While i have no issues with T/those who are looking for a quickie, i would respect You a great deal more if You just laid that out on the table.  Honestly, i’m not going to respect You less if that is all that You desire, but i’m looking for something else entirely.  So, please, if You are a HNG, please don’t IM or PM me; i can’t provide You with what You desire. 

i mean honestly… have You looked at my profile?  i’m new to this… i wasn’t spanked as a child… i’ve never been tied up, or down for that matter, i don’t remember the last time i begged for anything… so, i’m not really going to be able to provide You with any sort of realistic cyber response, as i have no offline response from which to draw.  Translation?  In all honesty, i don’t cyber.

Oh, and honestly?  Even if You are looking for a partner/mate/relationship, please be a whole person with a life of Your own.  i’m a complete person, with a life of my own; i’d love to find Someone with Whom to share it, and with Whom i can explore my submissive side, but i’m not looking to be rescued.  Neither am i looking to rescue Anyone.  W/we all have baggage, but please have Yours packed and/or in some semblance of order; i’ve done the same for mine.

Finally, and in all honesty, thank You to the real P/people i’ve met.  i appreciate how welcome Y/you’ve made me feel, the knowledge Y/you have shared, and the conversations W/we have had.  Honestly, Y/you are making my world more enjoyable and interesting.

~ tavinia ~