Good Morning and Happy Weekend!  I woke up unusually early this morning... I like the cool morning air, so I opened up a few windows, made some coffee, then went out onto my deck.  The sun was just begining to peek over the horizon, and for a moment I thought to myself, the world is still sleeping.  There was no traffic, most of the surrounding homes were still dark, and it was such a neat feeling.

It doesn't cease to amaze me how a "feeling" can have such a profound affect.  I didn't realize how much I do like to "feel".  Guess that may sound crazy... I'm sure I'm not explaining myself very well.  But my mind is exploding with excitement at this new discovery.  If you think about it, and maybe I am just "slow" and this is a well known fact to the world, but there is so much that can "enhance" a feeling.  The surroundings, the fluxuation of a voice, background noises, a certain touch, even a smell... I think I could actually become intoxicated if enough senses were stimulated simultaneously and just let myself feel that moment.

I have always loved that aspect of bdsm, where you feel many emotions at once...such as fear, excitement, desire, etc... that comes with the unknown of the moment.  I guess that would explain why I need both the mental and physical aspects in my life.  Amazing when that light bulb turns on in my head and I put two and two together ... lol

Definately too much work and not enough play... and that would explain the erotic dreams I have been having... must be my subconscious trying to tell me something (smiles).... but it really needs to be talking to my bosses not to me, I am already fully aware of this fact, lol.

A relaxing thought... to be on a high bluff with a spectacular view as far as the eye can see, the sound of a not so distant waterfall, a gentle breeze blows carrying the scent of honeysuckle, and I'm sitting on a blanket with a glass of wine admiring "him" as he stands a few feet away with his back to me taking in the view... the serenity, and the fact that no one else is around for miles... his mind begins conjouring up some yummy ideas.... then he turns.... our eyes meet, and a smile crosses his face as he walks towards me... I am unable to take my eyes off of him... but suddenly feeling shy I look down... he approaches, leans over and takes my chin in his hand, turns my face up towards him... I smile... he smiles.... and he says.................

Good Morning.  I sure am loving these Autumn days... bonfire season is upon us (smiles).

I think when I write, sometimes I sound so very serious (smiles).  But when I relax and just let my thoughts flow uninhibited I dive so deeply into myself that it just comes out that way.

I do have a playful side...  life is too short not to have fun.  I welcome adventure, relish the quiet moments, and love the surprise of spontinuity.  My curious nature leaves no rock unturned.  Yep, sometimes I do turn over the wrong rock and get bit... but thats life and an opportunity to learn a lesson.

I have often wondered about the submissives/slaves who are kept naked.  For me, and again, these are only MY thoughts, when I am without clothes in front of the one I belong too, I feel so very vulnerable... there is no hiding... at that moment I feel like an open book... there is no hiding your blush, or your excitement.  If kept that way all the time, I would think it would take away some of those feelings... you would become accustomed.  How nice for the submissive to at times have something sheer over her body... or perhaps a short skirt and a blouse unbuttoned "just" to the edge of revealing... too feel that sexy... making him imagine what is just above the edge of that skirt... bringing about much different sensations for the submissive... that feeling of not knowing what is next.  Feeling his dominance as he slides his hand up your thigh slowly, lingering at the edge of your skirt... and inside you are begging him to continue, and pleading with your eyes.... diversity keeps the relationship exiting and mysterious.....  In my opinion :-)

This has been and will continue to be a very busy week for me, but even working 14 hour days... my mind still wanders and my thoughts continue to pull me in this direction.  I think it is more prevelent in bdsm, and not saying it can't exist in the vanilla world, but as a submissive feeling that "sensory overload" is beyond words.  It is intoxicating actually, to have so many senses and feelings stimulated simultaneously.  It reminds me of the first time I repelled, it was a long hike up the mountain, and I was so excited, couldn't wait to get to the cliff edge we were going to jump from, once I got there and hooked up, I walked to the edge and looked down, and fear totally enveloped me an I thought there is no way... I turned to my friends and said I can't do this... the leader said ok... I will unhook you and you can walk back down... I walked over and looked at the trail I had so easily climbed and saw just how steep it was... and realized going back down that trail wasn't going to be as easy as climbing up... so I said... I can't go back down that trail... he said, well I guess that means your gonna have to jump... so back on the edge I went... and I pushed off.  When I got to the bottom, the adrenaline rush was so intense, I couldn't climb back up fast enough to jump again!  The rush of all those feelings was exhillerating!

To be in a Masters presence and feel a touch of fear, brought on by the vulnerability coursing through your body, and the building desire, is just that... exhillerating.  It is the vulnerability that feeling of being susceptible to him that you try to ward off, to fight, yet you want it, need it and he knows it... and when you see that slow smile cross his face... you know, that he knows you are exactly where he wants you... and at that moment you realize he has all the control... and you are vulnerable to his desires....

Good Morning :-)    I know it is getting old, but I can't help to comment on another gorgeous morning....   I am not looking forward to returning to work tomorrow :-(   I would like to say, I appreciate the comments I have received from my postings.  Everyone has been polite, your comments give me "food for thought". 

When asked my limits, I've always hesitated, I really hate that question, but I do understand why it is asked.  It is a way of making sure the person you are talking to doesn't dislike something that you have to have.  But, I want to always answer, my limits would be those of my Masters... but then you get the comment:  "so if your Master asked you to eat sh** then you would?"  I want to roll my eyes....  so obviously everyone has some kind of limit, but I also think of it this way... a Dominant and submissive get to know one another... if there is a connection then it may lead to a commitment of ownership... who would submit to someone if they didn't know them well enough to know this person is not going to command them to do something that they couldn't do.... another point to my thought is, limits can be pushed... so what you may think you wouldn't do, may become your favorite fetish... something you have done with one person, you may like better with another person... I have a most curious nature, and I like to try new things...  I think each relationship is different and will encompass different rules, different preferences it just depends on the two people connected... 

Good Morning!!  Another beautiful day and I will be spending it outside!  In thinking back through the years, it's rather difficult for a submissive, or at least for me, to be without a Dominant influence in my life.  Again, everyone is different so much of what I say here pertains to me, and my thoughts.  My submissive nature is very deep, and I think it has made me take on the roles of "peace keeper" or in always trying to keep everyone happy all the time, trying to please the world is exhausting... and I don't think it is done intentionally... without that Dominant presence to guide you, and these tendancies it's easy to become overwhelmed...  So control runs deeper than just telling someone what to do, and when to do it....

It is Friday... and I have awoke to a beautiful morning... nice breeze, perfect temperature and I have the day off!  Sitting outside, with a cup of coffee, loving the feel of the cool concrete against my bare feet and the breeze against my skin.

One day I will again have this same wonderful feeling, only I will be basking in the presence of the one who will own my mind and body, and the keeper of my heart.

To feel his control... his presence... the soft caress of his hand against my cheek, and the sound of his voice captivating my attention.  Even when he is not there, I will feel him, think about him, and look for ways to please him... little surprises that will bring a smile to his face...

Until then... I will have these mornings where I will think about "one day"

I was thinking tonight about how the mental aspects of D/s are so powerful... it alone can evoke so many different feelings, sensations, thoughts, and actions...    for me it is the best form of foreplay.... bringing one to the very brink of desire, feeling so vulnerable and... leaving one tetering on the very edge of ectasy.   It reinforces ownership, it can build someone up or tear them down.... very powerful indeed.

It takes a little time, more than a handful of messages to know the real person... you never know... once you do, you might just be surprised at what you find... like a burried treasure... you have to dig for a bit, but the treasure inside is worth the time...

How nice, a place for my thoughts, and I am free to write anything because I am hidden from the world for this brief moment...

lol, and then my mind goes blank... if you knew me... you would laugh because I am a deep thinker and generally have something going on in this pretty lil head of mine...