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OK, OK, OK! The fact that I have not had an orgasm in 4 days is starting to kick in now. Still, it's still not as extreme as last time, but it's building. I'm not sure if my body has succumbed to it's chastised state, or my mind. That would be something a Female could certainly explore with me.

What are these urges? Are they apparent because of the want of merely feeling pleasure? (there are two sides of the coin, isn't there?: self-pleasure, or experiencing receiving the pleasure from someone else) Or is it strictly an inherent biological urge to want to procreate. Or is it a combination of both? And not too mention when it's the right person there is certainly a bonding element, sharing intimacy, sharing orgasms, the experience.

What if a Female could take ALL these urges and direct them toward Her? Harness all that energy and help focus it, put it to good use instead of letting it just get wasted.

She is fire
I am water
I feel Her warmth surround me
Fingers of Her flame caressing me,
Teasing me.

Now I feel Her passion, Heat
Growing with intensity
She causes me to simmer
I feel powerless against Her Hot energy!
Intoxicating.

As I get lost in the Glow
I realize She has me mesmerized
She now owns me
I am at Her mercy
I begin to boil ferociously because of Her bidding.
 
Transformed
I am hot vapor
I am now more valuable to Her as steam
I see now Her intentions

In my new state of awareness

Hot now like Her

She sustains me.

I cannot apply heat myself
It comes from Her.
She, however, uses me to stoke Her flames.

Energy abounds in me,

It cycles through;
Her energy to me, back to Her: always to Her.

Water is now even more powerful when under control…this higher state of being.

With ease, making my head spin, She keeps me in this vaporous state...

UPDATE:
Later today...I want to cum so badly at the hand of a Female, coaxing me to that place, masterfully. The "little guy" is begging to get out of his cage...

CHASTITY DAY 8:

With 2 days to go, today is a challenge. I'm squirming in my seat, I can’t sit still. I just want to cum really badly. Sorry, it’s just the honest truth. It's starting to consume my thoughts, even when you try to stop thinking about it your body keeps reminding you. I am really starting to understand the delicious power & control someone could have over a man if they maintained this practice over him. Much focus is made on the person holding the key, the One who has the power to release you. In my case, I don't have a Female directing my focus on to Her so all I think about is having an orgasm. It would be so nice to have this Female direction which is currently lacking. (Imagine if by age 16-18 all males in the world were to be chastised, and Women ran everything, and Women controlled all the penises, I’m sure the world would be a much more harmonious place to live in)

But if "She" wanted to, because I feel so vulnerable, "She" could make me do what ever she wanted for the reward of feeling pleasure. And all focus is brought to Her because through Her is the only way to experience pleasure. You do well, you get pleasure. You don't do well, behave properly, you don't experience pleasure. It’s the perfect way to train a man to become what You desire. I read somewhere that the Romans chastised their slaves, even saw pics of the crude chastity devices, and it makes perfect sense. The one thing the Romans were, were control freaks. They knew how to have that control, and with so little effort. All you have to do is deny them orgasms, self-induced or not. Lock them up and all you have to do is wait a week, then they’re one step away from groveling at your feet!

Last night I slept very soundly, no intense erections causing discomfort or anything. But now as I awake further into the morning, it seems as though it's a constant erection. Who needs viagra? Just get the Female in your life to lock you up for a week, you'll have no trouble getting it up. Trust me! You'll want and desire Her so badly you'll be like a raging stallion. I noticed when you are being denied simply drinking coffee intensifies your horny state of being. Wow, if couples only knew that an investment in a chastity device and an ordinary, household beverage, could save so much money from buying those little blue pills.

This brings me to my next topic, keeping ALL your orgasms for Her. It's one thing if a person is single, and of course there are different types of relationships with different dynamics, different agendas, different standards, etc., but if men would just wait and save ALL their orgasms for his Wife, Girlfriend, Goddess, there would be just one more advancement (of many) for true intimacy! I know, I’m a man. We males have a habit of tossing off all over the place all the time. But if you only wait, the connection is so much “more”. And receive this powerful gift from Her, share it with Her, the intensity is mind blowing!! YOU CAN NEVER HAVE A TRUE GODDESS UNLESS YOU SUBMIT COMPLETELY TO HER!

CHASTITY DAY 7:

Today, so far, much of the urges that have been building up has subsided greatly. Perhaps part of the reason is that some pressure has been released completely not of my doing; not directly anyway. I'll get to that later.

Yesterday evening, I had wonderful, somewhat brief, conversation with an exquisite Dominant Female. She got me so excited, not necessarily sexual, but with the thought of possibly finding someone who shares the same wants and insights, quite possibly a potential relationship. Certainly nothing for sure yet, by any means, but it’s a nice feeling all the same.

I was so excited I could hardly sleep. (I have mentioned this to Her as well) So the newfound excitement mingled with the fact that I have not had an orgasm in 7 days, and counting, made it difficult to just drift off. To make matters worse, less comfortable, I have been inflicted with raging hardons of an increased rate and intensity. Let’s say it’s not exactly the most comfortable feeling of the “little guy” pushing against his cage trying to break free. Not that it’s extremely painful, just uncomfortable enough to cause a not so restful sleep. I’m sure this will pass in time, it has before. So all this is building, to a frustrating, climax, of sorts.

This is a true, honest, event that happened this morning. I don't mean to offend or portray a "why did he have to go there?" response. It's just that I’m going to honestly report what happened, is all, and I promised to report what my experiences are in this chastity experiment.  

Unwittingly, some fluids were expelled from my prostate by simply having a bowel movement this morning. I guess there was sufficient pressure being built up that the act produced some expulsion of some of the fluids stored there. It must have been enough to take away that urgent feeling. Normally I would have been milked or granted a release at the 7 day mark. I was used to going without orgasm for 7 days so I guess it makes sense. Seven days is the mark for when my body is conditioned to having a release. This did happen once before after about 3-4 days of being locked up by my ex GF the very first time and has never happened since.

I have 3 more days to reach my goal. Today I feel confident, in good spirits, feeling like I can take over the world. I believe I have more energy. When I'm not wasting my seed, my energy level increases. I am certain I will gain more focus once the urges subside and I will be more productive.

Today has only begun, however. We’ll see what tomorrow brings…

UPDATE:
2pm - I'm feelin' it now! Yup, it feels like 7 days going without, alright. Wow, very intense feelings and emotions. It's kind of a "high" of sorts, just without foreign chemicals--it's all natural--just endorphins and hormones coursing through your body, your veins. I can really see how some people could go out of their mind. If they have never experienced going without orgasm before it is certainly one way of breaking someone. Never mind chinese water torture... 

DAY 6:

Day 6 of what? Well, I've decided to share with you, the reader, my own experiment of self-chastisement. So far I have managed to keep myself locked up for 6 days without orgasm. My goal is 10 days, but can I do it?

I never thought of blogging about it, to keep track of it, to share, until now. What better place to do it? I have been locked up by only one Female in the past. It’s much easier with a Female’s guidance, encouragement, and feeling the reward of knowing you are pleasing Her by allowing yourself to be kept chaste just for Her. It’s much, much harder to have the same discipline on your own. Trust me. Especially for a male. We males have grown up playing with that appendage daily so it’s a hard habit to break. This is just another argument, in my humble opinion, to argue the Women ARE the superior sex! All guys really know this, it’s just that 98% won’t admit it.

If it came down to a competition, between Women & men maintaining the longest time without orgasm, I am certain the Women win nearly every time. Men are weak when it comes to those urges. Don’t get me wrong, I know Women have urges too. But Women typically have way more willpower & self-control than men.

So here I am at day 6. Day 3 is when it really starts to kick in. Not only have you not experienced a single touch, but you have had no stimulation of any kind, certainly no orgasm. The frustration starts to kick in. It’s doable, but it’s just beginning to naw at you a little.

Days 4 & 5 really start to get “edgy”; the pressure is mounting. Now at day 6, I would say I am moving into the “I’m starting to go snakey stage.” I’m starting to ask myself if I can really maintain this and reach to my goal? (10 days remember) You tell yourself “If I made it to 6 days, surely I can make it another 4.” But without the positive reinforcement from a wise Female of such matters it is very hard (no pun intended) on your own. This especially true when She isn’t keeping the key, controlling the situation on Her terms. The key to unlock yourself is just sitting there. Your mind starts to tell you things like “Why suffer?” “Go ahead, have an orgasm.” “Come on, who are you saving this pent up energy for anyway?” “You don’t have a Female directing that energy to/for Her Devine purposes/goals.” “Go ahead, enjoy!”

Believe me. It’s getting to be a struggle just to maintain! Please wish me luck…or any words of encouragement would be appreciated by me.

I'll keep you posted what happens daily.

Claim me, please...

Are You out there?...

After much contemplation, thought, and discovery, and after communicating with a handful of wonderful, Dominant Females, I now I am beginning to understand, albeit still a beginning, what it is I seek. What it is I long for...A Queen.



A Goddess who will love me as much as I will fall madly, deeply, in love with Her. She will be my world. She will become the focus of all my fantasies, old fantasies being replaced by Her fantasies, by Her design: She will define my new fantasies. Oh, her word comes first, but a Female who doesn’t want a worm, a robot male who can’t think for himself, but someone who adores his Queen so much will take initiative and do things out of pure devotion to Her, without necessarily having orders barked at constantly.



A Female who truly understands the gift of submission to Her. A Female who truly understands the gift of chastity to Her, handing over the keys to Her newfound property. Someone who revels in the power of deciding when, and how I might receive pleasure, an orgasm; someone who can help me control my masturbation habit. A Female who truly understands the power She will have by keeping me horny and enjoy every minute of it. Someone who desires to take me with Her, on this journey. A journey of heightened awareness, spiritual in nature. A deep, deep, deep, aching to be with Her, to please Her.



A comfort level so natural, so deep, others will be jealous of our mutual creation, our devotion. A feeling of freedom. Trust, because of all these things.



I want to wrap myself around Her beautiful energy—a true Superior being who knows exactly how to share Her sensuousness with me, ensnare me in it. Although You may at times find the need for a firm hand, or an implement that buckles around Your waist, You would rather control me in much more seductive ways. A Female who desires to “get inside my head” as much as my desire for Her to be able to read my mind, perhaps know me better than I know myself. I will gladly succumb to You over and over as I fall more and more into Your ownership.



Someone who knows exactly how to make me want Her with so much passion it can bring a tear to both our eyes…

I so long to feel the power and Feminine control over me once again. Although I have had only some experience, more in some areas than others, I loved the deliciousness in pleasing a member of the Superior sex: made to bring my focus on Her...

SOMETHING TO CONSIDER:

Most Women believe They have control over sex in the relationship. Controlling sex is not the same as controlling his org*sms. Just because You are controlling sex, don't be misled into thinking that Your partner is not having org*sms without You. He won't wait for You like You would want him to do.

By denying him this intense stimulation You will create stimulation void in his mind. Something will have to rush in to fill that void. A new, inescapable fantasy will start to fill that spot. It will start to obsess him and control his thoughts in the way his old fantasies did. What is that new fantasy? What will he start obsessing about? GODDESS YOU! It can not be denied. It always happens this way. And the best part, it will happen to Your man too. And all You have to do is to place him in chastity under your control.

He will not be able to enter his "masturbatory fantasy world" any longer. YOU will be the center of ALL his fantasies from now on! Men have next to little control over their genitals, unlike Women. So it's time for Females to do it for them! Their world will start revolving around You: as it should be.

How much fun could that be?!?!