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	About taintedmisery He has stood through the darkest secrets of my heart. � Mail from "dom" men is going straight to the trash. To once again clarify:�I seek friends...� Not around these days... Sorry folks. �Just incase anyone is curious (copied and edited from my journal) Look folks, I guess it is time for me to set a few things straight.�� I have not been in Florida for very long. I would not even have a computer here if it was not for the laptop that I am getting to use. Which by the way is not mine. So no, for now I do not have a cam. I have pics on my flickr page and no I do not normally chat here.�� No, I am not going to automatically call you after emailing a few times.� No, I am not going to run out and buy a cam just for your viewing pleasure.� No, I do not care if you believe if I am a woman or not.� No, I do not bow down to every Dom/me out there.� No, I do not take every sub/slave out there.�� Yes, normally I am much nicer.�� Yes, the pics on my flickr page are of me.� Yes, I am nearly 32.� Yes, I am a switch and honestly do not care if you believe whether I exist or not.�� Hope that clears a few things up.� Have a nice day. (end) For the curious. How to define me--�bipolyalphaswitch BTW,�if you do send me a message it may take me a bit to respond.

Sometimes you have to climb a Mountain to get to the Top... but once you make it, the view is wonderful.

Never really cared for her... But this fits.

Kelly Clarkson: Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted Now all our memories, they're haunted We were always meant to say goodbye Even with our fists held high It never would have worked out right, yeah We were never meant for do or die... I didn't want us to burn out I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop... I want you to know It doesn't matter where we take this road Someone's gotta go And I want you to know You couldn't have loved me better But I want you to move on So I'm already gone Looking at you makes it harder But I know that you'll find another That doesn't always make you wanna cry It started with the perfect kiss then We could feel the poison set in "Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive You know that I love you so I love you enough to let you go I want you to know It doesn't matter where we take this road Someone's gotta go And I want you to know You couldn't have loved me better But I want you to move on So I'm already gone I'm already gone, already gone You can't make it feel right When you know that it's wrong I'm already gone, already gone There's no moving on So I'm already gone Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone Remember all the things we wanted Now all our memories, they're haunted We were always meant to say goodbye... I want you to know It doesn't matter where we take this road Someone's gotta go And I want you to know You couldn't have loved me better But I want you to move on So I'm already gone I'm already gone, already gone You can't make it feel right When you know that it's wrong I'm already gone, already gone There's no moving on, So I'm already gone

Well... starting smoking again. Ugh. Guess I'll have to rethink my strategy.
What else is new?? Erm... Oh I've moved, then I moved from where I moved to, to a new place. So I've moved again. Other than that things have been fairly boring. Yay life!

These new games don't affect kids. If Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around dark rooms, listening to repetitive music & munching pills...oh wait.

P.s. Sorry about chat folks lol the weather kicked my ass tonight.

Might be around more here soon. We'll see.

ok as of November first I quit smoking...
It sucks folks, and not in a good way. I'm so damned bitchy right now. Still want to smoke, but now the need is going away. So I'm doing fairly well... for the most part. I haven't killed anyone ... yet.

Still no internet... now that my car gave up the money has to go towards a new car instead of the "I wants" ... now I have to go with "I Need" ... lovely

Been dealing with a few things and haven't been around... hopefully I'll have more time and less drama and will be back soon.

another year... another number

lol guess I can't stop at one. Just got a new baby a blue pit and I named her Luna. Funny the chi is still the boss, who'da thunkit.

Well, things are a bit better being back in Florida. Still rough, but better. I went and got myself a bossy lil thing. She's a 3mo old chihuahua and I named her Pita. (Pain in the ass) I'm still getting settled. Trying to find a job that I actually want. These days though that isn't too promising. But hey, I've been through worse and came out on top. Just have to dust the wheels off and start over is all. I'm looking forward to it actually. Well that's it for now...

Came back to Michigan and realized that maybe this isn't the place for me anymore. So it's back to Florida again. Not sure what I have left in me. My grandma finally passed and all she wanted was for me to be happy, no matter where or what it took. So it's time to take that step down that road.

Sometimes I wonder if people just wake up stupid, or if they just work so damned hard at it. I swear there must be something in the water. Then again with the way the world is going now...maybe they should put something in the water. Get everyone doped up on anti-depressants and muscle relaxers (or something) and then maybe people would remove the sticks out of their asses and be nice enough to not annoy me.

For those of you who feel down, like no one cares...

I don't care if you lick windows, take the special bus or occasionally pee on yourself...

You hang in there sunshine, you're special!

I just wanted to thank all of you that have sent me messages. Thank you. I'm back in Michigan now...as of last night, well 3am.
Btw... wet hair and snow ... bad idea

Yesterday I saw something to break my heart into pieces. My grandmother, the last grandparent that I have, lying there in so much pain. Trying to talk to those of us that were there. I couldn't speak to her at first. I had to turn away so that she wouldn't see me cry. I didn't just cry for her, but selfishly cried for myself as well for what I was losing. I'd never seen her that helpless in all of my life. I could still feel her strength even if she couldn't use it anymore. Well all know that she doesn't have much time left. But I'd give her as many of my years left as it would take to ease her pains. I wish that I could keep her here with me. She taught me a lot of things and everyone knows that I'm not the best granddaughter, daughter, sister, aunt, friend etc. I work hard at not letting people in, and try not to show that much emotion. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I don't. Still in her raspy voice, as I brushed the hair away from her face, she told me how beautiful I was and that she loved me. My heart broke and I tried not to cry...tried to be strong and failed. She knew though and tried her best to comfort ME. While I'm sitting there doing what I can to comfort HER. That woman is so stubborn. I know where we all get it from. I don't know if she has days left or longer...yesterday was a close one. I don't care about what wrongs she's done or who did what... I love my grandma and I know that she loves me.

To hell with you ...
The teapot is mine.

( yes I'm in a mood and no that isn't supposed to make any sense to anyone but me lol so :P )

Eventually I'll get some new photos up. Still been working on a few things. I added a lilly to the tattoo on my arm, happy with the design but not the color. It turned out a little too girlish for me. So the best idea is covering up a bit of the orange with a new brown that I got. Hopefully making the flower look a bit aged. Added a hummingbird and another flower off to the side... guess I need to find some more things to finish off the garden scene. ... Eventually ...

So much for one step then another...

Finally...
Finally got the color added into the new tat. I hate waiting in stages. I have a few more ideas that I want to add into it before it is fully complete, and then I'll be happy with it. I'm happy with it now, so I should say that I'd be beyond happy lol. Still need to finish my ankle too ~sigh~ but I haven't found the perfect bdsm symbol that I want to add in with it. (If anyone knows of a small one but that is clearly visible, please let me know. (No bigger than a quarter)) Ugh I still need to figure out how I'm going to do the water around all the symbols on my ankle.... ahhh perfection is a bitch.
(need to quit editing this damned thing too...ugh lol bedtime)

Well a certain person made it difficult for me to see any other messages other than the 100's that he sent, so I deleted all of my messages. If you did send me a message and I didn't respond, that might be why.

Profile updated early...
Yay me I get to turn 30 tomorrow.

WOW, Finally after being here in Florida since the 27th of May I am finally having a night out... I cannot wait. I have no idea where I am going, but I will do my best to enjoy whereever it is.

*update*Yeah... gee that was a great idea for Friday the 13th. Got good and bad luck... Harley broke but at least it wasn't moving...

Look folks, I guess it is time for me to set a few things straight.

I have not been in Florida for very long. I would not even have a computer here if it was not for the laptop that I am getting to use. Which by the way is not mine. So no, for now I do not have a cam. I have pics on my flickr page and no I do not normally chat here. Usually I am on yahoo.

No, I am not going to automatically call you after emailing a few times.
No, I am not going to run out and buy a cam just for your viewing pleasure.
No, I do not care if you believe if I am a woman or not.
No, I do not bow down to every Dom/me out there.
No, I do not take every sub/slave out there.

Yes, normally I am much nicer.
Yes, I do have a mic and it is usually in use in the chatroom I am on in yahoo.
Yes, the pics on my flickr page are of me.
Yes, I am nearly 30.
Yes, I am a switch and honestly do not care if you believe whether I exist or not.

Hope that clears a few things up. Have a nice day.

Ok lets try this again lol. I guess I wrote the last one a little funny.

I'm originally from FL. but spent the last few years in MI and WI, which is where my home is. I'm here NOW in Fl on a vacation type deal trying to figure out where I want to be. So yes I'm in FL again lol

Hope that cleared things up a lilbit

Well I made it to Florida again... starting out my trial run here and see how things go.

Not sure if I've found whatever it is that I'm looking for, but I'd just like to say thank you to the friends that I've made so far. Sometimes it's nice to know you're not alone.

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