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| I have nothing to hide. I am what, and who I am.
I am not open to considering non-sexual male slaves. Sorry, guys.
Yes, I'm young. But I know what I'm looking for. I've been through enough bull to last several lifetimes, and through that, have learned more about myself and the world around me than many deem neccessary.
I am easygoing, for the most part, and easy to talk to, so don't be afraid to message me.
Anything else, slip me a quickie.
Ask, and you shall receive. Knock, and the door shall be opened for you.
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No matter how hard I try, I'm still in love with her.
I don't know what to do...
She's got irreplaceable things of mine, and hasn't returned them... just keeps lying to me.
It's something that causes me so much grief.
I want so much back from her that I'll never get back -- dignity, self-respect, trust, time, and money...
And all I'm demanding of her in retribution are a few things that, to me, are priceless... and to her, are nothing that cannot be replaced.
I want her out. I want her memories gone. I want to erase her from me.
And I can't do that without getting my things back.
Because it'd be the final clincher.
But, no... she won't comply. She's too selfish. She's not mature enough to be 'fair.'
She's a selfish child, thinking only of herself... and one day, she'll really realize how badly she f***ed up... and I won't be there when she needs me.
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I don't know what to do... I can't make it any more clear to anyone what I am capable of, now...
Not until it's too late.
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Axl |
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So, floating, as I do most every day, just browsing profiles... I happened to see something upward of fourty Dom/me profiles in the last half-hour...
And they all had one thing in common.
Arrogance.
"I'm your King/Queen/Ruler/Master/Daddy/God."
"You are nothing (without me)."
"You will cow to my every whim and will, without question."
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"I'm better than you," basically.
Is this what people are looking for? Confidence is one thing, but arrogance is something else...
Not to mention that some things are better left unsaid, save in certain situations. And some are better left unsaid, completely.
Now, I'm confident in my dominating nature... in my skills and abilities... in my strengths, as well as the counters to my weaknesses.
But I'm not arrogant.
I don't own you, so I have no right, Dom or not, to treat you like less of a person than you are, unless you request it.
I'm not your Dom, so I've no right to order you around like I am.
But is anyone really looking for someone who, even in their dominance, will be respectful?
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I could be an asshole... and if things continue the way they're going, I may develop into such a bitter creature.
But I don't want to. I don't feel it's right.
And I just needed to voice my opinion.
.. Not that hardly anybody reads my journal, anyway. ;P
Be well.
Axl of Thorns |
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Well... there's a good side, and a bad side to every day...
Today, I actually met, in person, my first person from this site... and it was good. Not at all what I had expected, or hoped for... but it was good, and I'm glad it went the say it did.
On a similar note, I've gotten to talk to a couple of other interesting people I hope to continue talking to.
So, all in all, I'm fairly happy with how today went.
But there's always something to bitch about, and I feel now is the time.
First off... Christ, people, if you're going to delete my message, just because I'm a guy... either don't list yourself as bi, or say you're not wanting to talk to guys at all. It's not that hard.
An hour and a half of my life, wasted because three people are acting stupid. I want that time back.
Another thing that's been biting my nads is the spelling... Here's a tip:
BUY A DICTIONARY.
I can understand spelling mistakes -- they happen from time to time. I can understand the use of 'i' with subs, and even the use of slashed content (Dom/me).
But when every other word is misspelled ("i like ur har, adn i se ur prengat" ... what the F*** did you just say?) it pisses me off.
Learn to spell. Learn to type. It doesn't matter whether it takes you an hour to write a sentance, or mere seconds.
You wouldn't hand your resume in without proper spelling and punctuation, would you?
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That's it for the rants.
There's just one other thing I think I should touch on, today.
A good friend of mine told me, the other day... Doms have emotions, too. They're people, just like everybody else.
And, just like people, they can become depressed, feel inadequate, have issues with things like abandonment and rejection... still be afraid...
And it made me realize she was right.
I have abandonment issues. I have rejections issues. I get depressed. I feel inadequate at times. I'm afraid, sometimes.
But I'm still a Dom.
I still crave that power over someone... to make them feel joy or sorrow... pleasure or pain...
I'm still a natural manipulator. Born to impose my will on others, and enjoy it.
It's something I can finally accept without being afraid of accepting it.
'Til later.
Axl of Thorns |
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Well, I've 'met' two interesting people here who have, so far, accepted me as is...
I have yet to see anyone in person, though, so the whole of it is yet to be seen.
I'd like to thank those few who have talked to me (though it seems most of you have just vanished, almost completely), and though I'm not in the best of moods right now, I wish you all luck. |
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Well, that's an interesting turn of events. One week I state that people seem to delete their accounts or avoid me, the next I get flooded with messages. Now I'm confused. |
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It's interesting. Every person I message either hides/deletes their account, or replies rather curtly, and sometimes rudely. I wonder if it's just me, or if something suspicious is happening here... Either way, I do wish I could find people to at least talk to. Nobody seems to even want to do that. |
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| Age: 23 |
| California,
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