symphonyofM09


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It has been awhile since writing. During the time of silence new changes have been given life while the old has been made to die and not without thankfulness on My part.

We now live in Midland having called Midland our home since Sept. 01, 2007. I do miss Lubbock very much and most of the peeps that I knew quite well.

Yet on every door that closes a new one opens. And it is in this period of transition that I find myself as I watch the old die and the new be born.

To those who knew Me in Lubbock I miss you all terribly and hope that all is going well with you all.

This is all I can write tonight as I am very saddened by all that has been, all that is, and all that will be. I cry a tear for what might have been and a tear for what might not be.

All I know is that yes I am happy.

Normalcy I do not think the word even exists or is something that is striven for in my life. Sometimes I have deep desires to be used and to serve another who can bring the best out in me. And other times nothing would give me greater joy and fufuillment than to be served and to bring out the best in the person serving me.

It seems the harder that I try to fight to understand, it seems that I am drowning, so I guess I am just flowing down with the current and seeing the scenery on the way and learning new things.

Life, mathematics, music, anything is a constant battle in learning new things. What boredom it would be if one would just be stagnant and not grow. I would hate that to happen in my life and it is disheartening to see it out in the world with some that I care about. But I digress of which I am doing quite of late.

What is normal? What is abnormal? The fact that I question this puts me outside the magesterium of either. To fully question and consider something, one must be outside of it. For inside of the situtation we are consumed by the feelings. Now it is pleasant to be consumed and to consume. Wonder if that is possible? It would be very interesting.

It seems as my journey progresses, I am becoming comfortable with both sides rather easily. I in real life do not submit easily and take advice quite readily. But I know that out there, there is someone who can understand me and take me there.

I know somewhere out there is a submissive/slave who is right for me.

To the two individuals, I am not looking for you, in time circumstances will bring us together. I shall keep and open mind and open heart and will look forward to the day that we meet.

symphony

Honesty, why do humans crave this above many things if not the first thing that they crave but run and hide from it and are so afraid of it.

What makes them think that if one were to be completely honest then that is such a thing to be feared.

While perusing some profiles that have viewed me, I was most impressed with one profile that candidly stated circumstances from the get go. Now it is a scary thing to be candidly honest but for that to happen and me to come across it is a rare find.

I wanted to let all know that I am married and my husband is in the lifestlye. We have an open marriage. I should be listing this on my profile but can always refer people to this journal entry. 3 rules must be met for something to happen, 1. We/we both interact with eachother's partners. 2. Open and honest communication must be present and 3. Should the Other/other person wish to know what is going on then open and honest communication must take place. If you are not squamish about these rules then please by all means get to know me or my husband, his ID on here is niked. We love eachother very much and wish for nothing to devalue that love. We also have a 10 month old son who is our prider and joy. So there the two big issues are said and covered.

If this is something you are not willing to appreciate or work with, then please by all means move on. Best of luck to you all on your joureny throught this magical world of bdsm and beyond. If we do not interest please do not hesitate to leave a message for me, as I love forming new friendships and meeting new people.

Honesty is it what is is cracked up to be? Yes it is worth all that may be lost for standing up for it every single time. I have faced my circumstances that are far from ideal becuase of Truth and what it means, but in the end, I could look at myself in the mirror and say, I stood up for the Truth and did not deviate one way or the other, and for that I did the best that I could.

I wish that I could say being honest is easier, but it is not but then again it is. With dishonesty you have to keep up coming up with lies to cover the lies that are already told. Becuase I have a poor memory and it violates my code of ethics, I steer to the side of Truth.

In your journeys May you all strive after Truth. Tis the first and foremost foundation in this lifestly.e

Cheers.

Also the the person you know who you are. Thank you for being a shining beacon to those who are struggling with honesty and open communication, we need more of you in the lifestyle. Thanks for being an example to me.

Winning the all in hand at poker tonight was sweet. After several weeks of not winning the all in hand, I and my chips got to enjoy a great orgasm of delight and joy. I was so proud that I had to share of this momentous occassion with someone.

Ahhh the power of self-confidence. As to other things I should be going to get some sleep but the IRS is asking for more forms so I must ask myself to get less sleep. So while procrastininating on obtaining the proper form, I am writing this journal entry.

As you probably are aware my entires scan anything and everything, becuase everything adds up to who I am in this lifestlye.

I am at a place of solitude and serinditpity, A place of reflection and calm. I am wondering what is through the door, but knowing that much lies ahead, I am content to cop a squat and relax for some time.

school is done and I have nothing but summer vacation ahead of me. Life is great and great is enough.

Power to the brat.

Redfining my world is a beautiful thing. Of which am I more comfortable with. I have indulged in the submissve side of the spectrum and have tasted of the delightful fruit of the other side. It is a wonderful thing that I do not have be be one or the other but can be both. The greys are indeed beautiful in life. Life is full of grey boundaries, but I am wondering when the boundaries blur together if they make a full spectrum of vibrant colors.

To those of you who are reading my entires, many will be in the prose that preceded this paragraph. I never write formally and seldom follow any line of logic, that is the beauty of a journal.

Life is better when it does not make sense, for it seems that when it is lived in this sitaution that more opportunties come your way. When you expect something you take what you expect for granted. It is awesome for things to come up and just revel in the opportunities.

I am now starting on a long journey filled with many scenic outlooks and things of that nature.

I will write later. I have got so much to do .

Sincerely,

symphony

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