sweet4now


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	About sweet4now I am making this thread in hopes of finding a Master/Dom. Someone who ISN'T a "do as i say, not as i do" type of man. Someone who values truth and honestly. A man who wants all of my love, and deserves all of my respect and understands my desire to serve only one. A Man who even though the final decision is his, wants my input on things. Someone who isnt jealous or insecure, but is confident that i will always support him. A Man who is a natural leader, God fearing, strong. Just because i am a sub/slave doesn't mean that you are my Master because you call yourself one. There are too many who have no idea what that word means or what they should expect from me as a slave. Sincerely, sweet4now update: I am recently separated. not looking for anything serious at this time. I love this lifestyle and after 3 years with my previous Dom i am only interested in friends and what happens happens.

I am kinky, and i am submissive, but that does not mean i am going to sleep with you the first time we meet. You aren't going to spank me the first time we meet. I am not going to give you my phone number the second time you email me.

I want a DD, D/s relationship but i am NOT going to compromise my safety, i don't care how good of a guy you tell me you are!!!

If you are a good guy you will respect my boundries until you have earned my trust. And i feel comfortable sharing personal information with you.

The first time we meet WILL NOT be at my house and me cooking dinner. It will be in a public place and my friends will know where i am going, what time i am going to be there, and i will have to check in with them so that they know that i am OK.

**gets off my soap box**

The heart of a slave:

in every relationship i have ever Vanilla or lifestyle my desire to please, serve, obey, was very strong.

Vanilla guys saw this as weak. So i attempted to change, but this just lead me to sending mixed messages. I was torn between the slave a truely was, and what i was told they wanted... and in a twisted way pleasing them.

Dom/Masters loved my desire to submit, even though at times it was forced. i am not saying that being forced was a bad thing. because it reminded me of my position in the relationship, and of theirs, which was with out question as my Dom/Master.

Having the heart of a slave intitles me to very little with a Master, except to choose who i serve. Just because you say you are a Master doesn't mean that you are. It isn't something you turn off. it is part of you, everyday, in everything you do.

I have met so many "Dom/Masters" over the past year or so, and the instant i challenge them even slightly, they back down. It is at tht point i loose respect, i no longer see them as a Dom/Master, i see them as weak and fake. However when a Dom/Master doesn't even let me get away with something small i will never challenge anything big. And it will be rare that i challenge anything small again, because i want to please him, i want to make him happy, i want to serve him. Obeying him, pleasing him and serving him consume my every waking thought, it even consumes my dreams.

So until i am told "Yes i want you as my slave" and i answer "yes i want you as my Master". My body, soul, and mind are temporarily mine until i am accepted as his slave, then they are his.

Am i a masochist?

Do i take pleasure from pain?

I was asked this the other day and i found myself stumbling for an answer. But it is such a basic question in this lifestyle and i couldn't answer it. I felt that before i could define what i wanted from a Dom/Master, i needed to find out the answer.

THE ANSWER... Yes and no. :)

Of course i have to make this complicated. But stay with me for a min.

Masochism (merriam-webster.com):
1 : a sexual perversion characterized by pleasure in being subjected to pain or humiliation especially by a love object
2 : pleasure in being abused or dominated : a taste for suffering

Okay i take pleasure in being dominated, yes! I take pleasure in pleasing the other person, yes! But do i take pleasure in being subjected to pain? i think this question was hard for me because of my lack in experience. I want to be able to answer it fully and honestly, with a resounding yes or no but i wasnt able to do that.

A lil history:
I was in a DD, D/s relationship for 6 years. Yes i was disciplined, no i found no pleasure in it whatsoever. Yes i love to be flogged (to me it doesn't hurt). I have only experienced caning once, and enjoyed it immencely... but that didn't hurt either (the top's technic not because i have a steal butt). My ex would use the crop on me and that stung but it was more of his dominance that turned me on, hehe okay and a lil bit of that stingy crop.

So would i get off on someone just beating me with a paddle black and blue... no. Would i get off on someone being super dominante in the bedroom tie me up, use me, play with canes, floggers, whips (no cutting skin), crops and lots of other toys........... definately.

But there would be a point that the pain would no longer be pleasureable.

Look at it like a scale.

Happy, sexual, send me into subspace, omg yes yes yes, GREEN GREEN GREEN!!
1-7 pain register.

Discipline, this is no longer fun, RED RED RED!! 7.1-10 pain register.

there is a fine line here. and someone i have to trust completely to keep me safe, to be in tune to my reactions, to know when to let off or keep going depending on the situation. could i learn to enjoy 7.1-10 yes with the right person and the right circumstances.

So am i a masochist?

A beautiful young sub wrote something on her profile that i related to so much and she has kindly allowed me to post it here. When i read her profile it was like she took all the emotions i have been trying to say but was unable to, do to my fear of showing my vulnerable side.

The following has been edited to fit me.

"I've been in a D/s relationship, outside of that i have led a pretty vanilla life up to this point. He was an experienced dom and quickly identified my submissive nature. Since that has ended i have desired to re-explore, re-develop and re-learn to submit, serve, and love again. I crave the beauty of submission again.

I'm curious about many things, but have serious, deep-rooted trust issues. If I were to engage in a relationship with a male Dom, he would need to be EXTREMELY patient and caring with me: someone I would admire as mentor, father figure, and a loving god in the bedroom.

i am a very sensual woman. When i met my ex i was a woman with low self-esteem who had been injured by men who abused their power over her. With him i gained confidence, discovered how wonderful i was, and how amazingly strong a submissive woman is. I want a man who will teach me to submit fully to him again. I am intelligent and creative, and would possibly find it difficult to fully trust a man who does not equal or succeed my intellect or appreciate my eclectic talents. I at times am submissive in some public arenas, but mostly if there is a Dom there to take the lead. Yet at work I have to be the strong "Boss Lady" which is such a contradition to what i desire. But rarely does someone wear the same mask in private that they don in public. At times i fear the "Boss Lady" me has overpowered the beautiful submissive me, i am terrified of loosing her. I can be rebellious and strong-willed and crave firm but fair instruction. I know I am far from perfect, and a Dom who deserves me would not only love me for who I am now, but would also challenge and require that I grow to reach my potential. He would see the investment he's making and be inspirational not only in word and in tongue, but also in deed and in truth.

I am not looking to rush into any relationship. I don't need a saviour. I am at a mental and emotional state where I am happy with who I am. I have a wonderful sense of humor, a deep desire to serve and please, completely devoted, kind and giving. I do need someone who knows he won't see those things immediately, but sees the potiential"

this beautiful sub's name is MinorEtude

Please read entire journal, not just the first couple of sentances. You might be surprised.

I read a book the other day that talked about the "sillyness of men" it said "Men are like great big kid and that is a good thing". Took me a while to understand that but then this weekend i was at the Scarborough Faire. It had rained alot and we were all wet and muddy. I saw this BIG BURLEY guy all decked out in his "war" gear having the best time POUNCING mud puddles. I just started laughing. He stopped and asked "are you laughing at me" i said "yes Sir, you were having the best time". He grabbed my hand and we pounced in one together. I thanked him and sloshed away. How many other guys out there SOOO wanted to pounce in a mud puddle? And why he was the only one? Have those independent women so restricted the sillyness? How sad... Maybe women should stop trying to make the guys smell the roses, and instead let them play in the mud?

Thankful i am in this lifestyle.

Last night i went over to a vanilla couple friends house. I have been friends with them for about 5 years now and they are 2 of my closest friends. Yet looking at their relationship i am thankful that i am in the lifestyle. She has no idea how to take pleasure in pleasing her man. They even sleep in seperate rooms. And they are in their late 20's.

For Him i see his traditional values, now much he desires someone to submit and how he would thrive as an HOH. (head of household)

Last night she had gone to bed so him and i sat outside drinking beers and talking. I had told him about the Texas All State Spanking party that i had attended, i had not told her. He was asking me about it, about what it means for me to be a submissive, he asked if there was sex at the party. LOL i said it wasn't a swinger party (i am not into that) and i am sure that there was plenty of sex but it was privately. But my interests are more into DD (Domestic Discipline) and i am exploring BDSM. I told him my recent discovery of floggers and what subspace was LOL.

He was so intrigued, said that i was an amazing girl, that was a lil ackward but i blew it off. But it makes me so greatful that i am in this lifestyle. It would kill me if the person i was with was so sexually frustrated as him. Allowing a man to Top in a relationship just makes them a better man. I love how strong they feel knowing that to me they are my superman. I wish my friends could experience what i have.

A Real Girl

So you say you wanna real girl, a down to earth girl. I read this so many times. Cool so why am i still alone?

I work hard, live within my means, play hard. A simple down to earth girl. I love Nascar races, riding horses, fishing, playing in the mud on 4 wheelers, or i can go to a 5 star resturant, play, museum. My mom used to say "you have to be able to drink beer with the best of them, and champagne with the rest of them".

I have a wonderful life. I am confident, happy, funny, creative, outgoing, caring, and submissive.

I have the most amazing friends, and mean the world to me.

I am a real girl... so why am i still alone?

s4n

I read a very old letter today from 1945 that mentioned spanking....

My grandmother is currently recovering from a broken hip and will be coming home soon. So my family and i are cleaning her house so it is easier for her to get around. I came across some old letters written to her during WWII from my Grandfather, great grandparents, and some from her friends between 1943 and 1945.

One of the letters was from her friend Mildred "Oh i forgot to tell you I got my hair cut and a perm. Roy is going to want to spank me when he finds out, he always liked my hair long. Well i am not scared of him, but then again i am also out of arms reach. Ha!"

Am i the only girl that would be jealous of this life in the past? The way things "used to be"?

Oh and my grandmother signed some of her letters to my grandpa as "brat" LOL. Hehe, maybe it is in the genes. LOL

brat III

Just need arms to snuggle into after a long day at work...

Okay this day is the day from HELL.

Before i even get to work i get a call from my boss to hurry up cause we had 28K worth of equipment stolen. Damage to our overhead door, ect.

Then around 1pm i get a call that one of my guys was mowing, it threw a rock and busted this lady's window...

Then at 4:30 one of my vendors call and say that one of MY employees pulled in and scratched one of THEIR company cars.

I took care of all this, did invoicing and ran payroll.

How nice it would be to leave everything here at work, go home and snuggle in someone's arms. Not to vent, not to scream or cry, just to know that all is going to be okay.

Guess i will just go home and have a margarita.

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