Sugarlips0313

I have not written in a long time.  I have had a difficult few days.  A Masters word should be everything to him when a Master tells his slave something it should be no doubt that he is telling you the truth and not doing something that he promised not to do behind her back.  I understand that you are not to question your Master but when he gives you the option to make the decision together he should stand by his word and if he did not like it than just say it and change it he is the Master. 

A Master needs to make sure that if he is going to take on more than one salve that both needs are being met not stop being a Master to his slave all of a sudden.  If a Master is willing to do anything to please one than he should be willing to do the same for the other. A slave should never stop thinking of her Master as a Master and if she does something is wrong.  When a slave stops doing things that her Master wants because she no longer sees him as Master something is wrong.  If she now sees him as just her boyfriend that is when the slave starts acting like one and over steps her boundaries.

I do not know if what I am saying is correct maybe I was wrong in thinking that he was just my boyfriend and I should have never stopped being a slave but that is how it went and we will see how it goes from now on.  I was ordered to never stop being a slave no matter what so that is what I will do.

It has been a while since I have written and I need to since my Master has ordered for me to keep a journal.  Well Master took on another sub and she has disappeared we have not had very much luck with subs that he has taken. It is important to me that he takes his time and is really careful with taking on new additions to our family.  To me becoming a sub or a slave is not a decisions that should be taken lightly and I know that he and I might not agree on certain things but I thank him for respecting my feelings.  I know that it is his final decision to take on any sub or slave that he chooses but it needs to be someone that is willing to put in in the time and effort that it takes to make it work. That is all for now.

You know that moment where you open your mouth to talk and everything that comes out is wrong and no matter how hard you try to stop you just keep on fucking talking. Well, I had that moment last night and it sucked I just kept digging my whole deeper and I could not keep my mouth shut. It is too late now to take any of it back and I hope I can prove that it was a moment of weakness or temporary insanity.

It has been a crazy day at work today but I have a date with Master later so I am excited to get the day over with.  It as been interesting few weeks around our house many changes and they have happened so fast that I am still trying to get used to them.  I seem to be okay with the new things around us lets see how it goes.  Master gave me a beating a few days ago it was great I know that he has wanted my pain level to be higher and I think that it has increased I am very excited to be able to take on more pain. I  am hear to please my Master and will do everything I can to please him.

Master has taken on another slave she seems to be a really nice person but I am sure that it will be a learning experience.  I have rather Master waited a bit longer for him to take on another slave since I am so new to the whole thing I have only been his slave for a few months yes we have been together a long time but our Master slave relationship is fairly new. I am still trying to learn about our new relationship.   It will be ok we seem to be good together will see how it goes.

Master and I went out the dungeon on Friday and Saturday night Friday sucked but we made up for it by going to a strip club had a great time.  Saturday was great I got caned for the first time that is something that I will have to get used to (I have to thank Master for taking it easy on me with cane but I am sure it was a one time thing)  I am still trying to process tons of information like a Master picking up a new sub in one night. Not having the opportunity to get to know each other if a sub/slave is suppose to give so much power to a Master I would think that they would want to make sure that they are what they want.  If a slave/sub is suppose to give themselves body, mind, and soul how can it be done with someone that they barely know. I am puzzled by it.

I was able to stay out of trouble for a week I thought that my big mouth was never going to stop.  Goal for the week think before I speak to Master.

Master had me get on cam last night had a great time I really need to try to get on cam more often/

I have been ordered to keep a journal. I have never kept one so will see how it goes.  I am in trouble again I seem to be getting in a lot of trouble lately. I am having a hard time moving from girlfriend to sub.  I have been a girlfriend for almost 5 years and the change is much harder than I thought.  My goal for the week is to stay out of trouble will see how it goes. Wish me luck.

My Master took me to a dungeon on Friday for the first time I was able to see many things that I had not seen before and understand certain things.  For the first time ever I was given a beaten in public that was exciting and scary all at the same time but I must admit I loved it and can’t wait to do it again.  Master introduced me to the paddle and I must tell you I have a love hate relationship with the paddle I loved the pain that it gave me after but boy did it hurt.  I want the feeling it gave me after but every time I saw him grab I must tell you the hairs on the back of my neck would stand up.   My ass is all black and blue and I love looking at it I get all excited every time I move and I feel the pain.  It is amazing to see how turn on I get by the thought of my Master beaten me and giving me the pain that I crave.  I have a lot to learn but I know my Master will teach me everything I need to know and I will make him proud.