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	About subzeero I have been on this site since 2005 Same profile name Same person for the most part For want of a better term I am a service subby That seems to work as much as a two word label can But of course I am more complex than that I assume you are too I seek a TPE slash LTR slash FLR level 3 plus That should be simple enough simple I personally place the need for a loving Female Led Relationship above all Happy to answer questions and chat occasionally I have a more current and detailed profile on FetLife same nick Come say hi? here or there I dont fill in the interests or do me laundry lists but heres one from another site Being more complex than an anonymous list of fetishes could ever show causing people to have to actually converse with me to find out if they like me and not just what gets me off

I have been back on here for a couple weeks just checking out profiles and seeing what everyone is up to.

Still searching for an owner that could put me to good use.

Always happy to chat and explore ideas and experiences... who knows what we may find.

so then there was that gap.

being collarspace free was nice... but lets see who's around now.

come say

Come say hi any time... reading lots of profiles...learning all the time...

just passing through

Warning this is long, and actually aims to give a Dominant some idea about me... a Clever Domme recently reminded me information is power, and with this information we begin our power exchange.

i have been on here since 2005, and have had reasonable, but sporadic, success in finding what I need. Mostly because i am learning more and more about what i need with each new relationship. I do have an innate need to serve, that much i do know, and I need an owner/s that is/ are up to harnessing this need for our mutual benefit.

I have been inspired by a number of people who have made suggestions and life affirming observations over the years and more recently. I am trying a new approach. I will be trying to cast a broader net, as the pool I have been swimming in has become seemingly smaller after such a long period of time here. The more idea of what it is I want and need, the larger the pool needs to be.

Insanity, was defined by Mr Einstein, or was it a 12 step program!?...(paraphrased poorly) as repeatedly doing exactly the same thing and expecting a different result. That’s been me for some time now…INSANE… apparently. So I’m going to be bold, and actually enunciate, as best I can, what I offer. By enunciating what I offer, maybe some will understand what I need …To be useful

As always, i am seeking friends, networking contacts, and for people to discuss my servant / service submissive side with. Please come and say hello. The best relationships start with someone simply saying hello. If I have said hello to you first, please take it as a genuine attempt at a civil introduction… as clumsy as any social networking hello and my own attempts at communication can be.

This is just a ‘lil about who i am, and my journey so far.

Who am I ?

I am a self sufficient, busy, outgoing, confident, friendly, intelligent, bisexual guy, seeking network friends, advice, insight and helpful hints. People find me to be independent, approachable, dynamic, energetic, and irreverent. i am service oriented in the real world as my eclectic employment record demonstrates.

Who am I in The D/s World?

I didn’t get this far without the support and guidance of some special nds. Without whose tough love, and at times harsh reality checks, influence, experience, and help, i would not be here today. You may not know it, but i have taken on board all suggestions and advice that you have mentioned over the years, despite how helpful, or otherwise intended. I am especially grateful to those whose collars i have worn (only a few in all my D/s experience, i'm not just anyone’s!)...i am indebted to you for always.

I am a serious servant / service oriented submissive, with slavish tendencies, focused first and foremost upon intuitive and pre-emptive servitude. We usually don’t like labels, but i like "trainer bottom", to crash test dummy!, i prefer "enthusiastic participant", to "slut", and "pain puppy" over masochist.

Over the years (since April 2007) i have been able to exercise, or exorcise, many of these characteristics at über, a venue in Sydney, under the guidance of Miss Dee and Mr P. I have them to thank for many aspects of my growth as a person, and ongoing development as a service submissive. I have been a background support player in many aspects of über operations, development, events, parties and workshops. I will always be drawn to, and seek out, the high level of community involvement über offers, and would look for similar no matter where i was.

i am very particular about whom i play with. I don’t do one nighters. I am privileged to have access to any number of thousands of people that have passed through über’s doors, but reserve my "play" activities to a very select few. I need connection and trust, to even have coffee, let alone hand my arse over to anyone! I actually seek some form of LTR with a D/s - M/s dynamic. I don’t play the field. I am more interested in learning than i am in collecting a who's who playlist.

Service to my owner

I’d like to differentiate myself from the 1000’s of "Do-me" subbies (i have a writing some where here about Do-me's) out there, by declaring that I seek an eventual long term live-in 24/7 relationship. We all know that the fantasy of 24/7 kink is not sustainable, but let’s start on a relationship first. I am willing to relocate ( I have travelled across town, regions, states across the country and internationally for face to face meets) at my expense and be self sufficient, but as mentioned later some kind of negotiated business bartering can be negotiated.

I also like to differentiate myself from any number of 'Do-mes" out there by providing a substantial list of the services i provide, and have provided. Please see my detailed skill sets listed in the writings "My skill sets 4.0"

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This is part of what i "Do-for" an owner. If you think it amusing some skills I have noted specifically on this skills set, it was probably specifically identified over the years , as a requirement, by some smart and experienced Dominant... so yes, raconteur and any variety of strange skills have been mentioned, some Dominants want someone capable of representing them in public on their behalf. I don’t add my skills lightly!

What do I do (vocation)?

I have worked for a range of not for profit organisations (NFP’s) with those with physical and mental disability, the disadvantaged, physically, emotionally and mentally abused. I have also led and trained students, in extreme and remote environments, from Ivy league universities in the US, military leaders from prestigious academies, to multinational 7-figure-digit corporate execs to be better leaders. I have been a leader , trainer, facilitator and educator, a mentor, a role model, and a leader. I am confident in my training skills.

I am educated with, certificates, a diploma & a degree, (these are just brain food for me, my paramedic degree was for giggles, i may actually use it one day) and am drawn to those with high intelligence and levels of motivation. There is always the possibility of more studies and research of my own, or to assist your academic or professional endeavours. i currently reside in a rural / regional area at present, and travel regularly to the city for work and fun.

What do I do (recreation)?

A personal and professional life time association with the outdoors will not diminish. What I do in it, though, has changed. I am a middle aged guy, carrying the extensive wear and tear of my physically misspent youth. So no more running, jumping and hurling myself off cliffs, swirling rivers, surging seas, or deep remote snowy ravines. i have done this here in AUS, and in the US. I am passionate about the environment, but now have a much more matured approach. Though my idea of sedate, probably doesn’t match many other peoples’ idea of a relaxing time! ... in the mean time, Hand me that deck chair...

I ride a mountain bike for recreation and transport. When not studying or travelling, reading fiction under a tree figures prominently. I love big city life with movies, cafes, vitality and deep baths, yet escape to remote B&B’s, and drives down remote trails. These things keep me sane and happy. Remote activities away from the crowd still feature in my life … it’s just more likely to have a spa and an open fire, than a tent and a backpack!

i love to write, and a few lil tid bits are scattered in my writings... most i keep to myself as i tend to rant... i have a long long history of writing journals and rants since the early 80's. i would need to heavily edit them to post here!

What do i seek here?

First and foremost, i seek friends and networking contacts. i am not desperate, and have said no many, many more times than yes! I have a range of long term friends here on that i share experiences, and have grown with.

i seek an eventual long term live-in relationship (LTR), female led relationship (FLR)and position as a potential male wife . Would consider other relationship bases, but this is of primary interest to me to form a D/s- M/s dynamic. With non smoking (hard limit, i'm sorry), self assured, intelligent, motivated, passionate , compassionate, height / weight appropriate, relatively fit, active people, (these aspects can be discussed and negotiated, remember I said I had wear and tear, at our age, I expect it) who identify as Dom/mes or tops. I prefer to be wanted (not needed) and to be your background support, and share in an eventual D/s- M/s relationship.

i was recently privileged enough to experience my first true 24/7 live-in M/s relationship, for which i am grateful. I would like to persue this again. Its level of intensity and challenge suits my ingrained work ethic and need to serve in a tangible and substantive way.

It would be nice to have someone "around" my age (-10+), love the young soul, but prexperienced! Though, a '...throw yourself into it, try everything twice (coz you gotta be sure) attitude'..., trumps all ! yes i was 19 once and knew everything... the older i get the less i know... the same will happen to you too!

Continued

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if i come say hello to introduce myself, please don't be offended... this is a social networking site, and that's what we do here. if you don't have nice things to say, just ignore me and get on with your life... i know i will!

i wouldn't say hi if i didn't find you even slightly attractive... it could be your mind, your writings your humour... and yes... i am prepared to meet.

just got a polite, '... i'm going to report you for your explicit first profile pic...'

and that's ok, but if my bare ass taken at a distance offends, then it pales into insignificance compared with the quick review of pics on profiles...

i kinda got bored after 20 clicks, but only 2 out of 20 pics i randomly looked at were NOT of an explicit nature...

i'm gonna report you all... sheeesh. Theres one way to fill in your life... complain to CM about its 90% of people with explicit pics!!!

CM once had a rule that seemed to be that only a passport style pics would be deemed appropriate... but then Facebook was invented, and then failed life , CM took the brave step and allowed contextual fetish and BDSM pics up as profile pics... HAZAAH!

I have a better more detailed profile on another site. Without reading it, you won't know what i offer, my details and interests.

i wouldn't say hi if i didn't find you even slightly attractive... it could be your mind, your writings your humour... and yes... i am prepared to meet.

Please feel free to come by and say hi

Always on the move... Its bucketing down. Indoor sports only atm! Same deal. I have a better, more detailed & current profile on another site. Networking & friends is about all im offering atm, takin a break... Ish! Have fun...

All things change This is just a secondary profile... My main, more detailed and updated profile is on another site.

mini update 24.07.12:

a week or two ago... i wanted to write things-are-a- changin'.

But i didnt want to jinx things. Work, life and play. So watch this space... i know i will be!

i'm a real life service submissive

i keep this profile open for networking purposes only.

i have a better, more detailed an current profile on another site...

i would draw your attention to my skills set 2.0 on my other profile to show you that i am a "do-for" not a "do-me".

i am prepared to travel and relocate.

please come say hi there, or here...

please also dont be offended if i actually try and introduce myself (i do it oh so rarely), and try to initiate a dialogue (whether its messages here, emails, text or god forbid IM), because how else are we supposed to get to know each other. (no i dont do online!).This is a "social networking media" after all.

i have been away for a little while now, a hiatus so to speak.

i find myself unowned and uncollared, and although i would love to be owned, i am in no hurry.

Serious seekers are welcome to say hello. Not into online at all. Up for real life meets.

i am partially of what is said here, but the majority is far more complex

i am happy to exchange contact details and requested information where appropriate.

so... come say hi.

having such a lovely time networking and chatting and meeting folks...such a refreshing change...

thankyou all!

lovely party last night...

in sydney again for work and play... very excited...play party night and rope bunny sunday... who doesnt like rope bunny sunday?

back in sydney for the weekend!

in sydney for a munch...yay!

James50 on CM gets very upset when you actually want to play in real life.... how peculiar he gets angry...when you offer real life over online....

love you onliners...but dont tell me to fuck off please....!

im back folks...come say hi...

on my home shortly...both happy and sad about it...

had a lovely time at Tea and Discipline in Denver... thankyou Ms Saskia for allowing me to attend, and tend those present.

just got me a shiny set of silver lyrca hot pants.... drool... and the lovely carlos at CJ's leather hooked me up with some leather side laced shorts...even tailored them to me...and a parachute, such lovely service...TOTALLY recommended...

just had a sneak peak at the sanctuary venue...wow...what a great place and versatile space... thanks loveslave

will be attending sanctuary as well as tea and discipline...yay!..please come say hi

May be attending sanctuary...come say hello

recently released from my collar of ownership... the lovely Amaziah and i are going our separate ways, in friendship...

in CO and! Denver now... woot!

i'm in MN and CO for a lil while come say hi

very owned, very, loyal, and very happy....

beware the multiple profiled participants here...

please feel free to block me when i find you out...

i send thankyou notes, at times, to those viewing my profile.... you know like.. 'thank you for viewing my profile..'

i sent out a few thankyou notes to various folks the other day... and got a "... how dare you approach me worm...' kinda answer... from a Dom/me...

How peculiar...

what a delicious last few months it has been...

travel, cooking, parties, cleaning, munches, shopping, workshops, driving, ropes, washing, canes, serving, bumps and bruises...

i am such a lucky subby...

No longer looking... have been collared...

Feel free to come say hi though...

the same faces...

the same profiles...

the same people...

come find me on another site....

im there more often than here....

can someone be "Too experienced"?

i doubt it....

sounds like "too much fun to me"

hilarious...

on BDSM sites since '05 and barely any success.... on a bi site, for a 2 weeks and already been fucked stupid.....

the more kinky you aim for... the more wankers, wannabes, and no-shows....wonder why that is?

in syd tomorrow n tuesday.... yay!

nearly a new year.... nearly a new profile!

i keep amusing people by having a detailed profile. I make no apologies for actually trying to give people an idea about me and what it is is seek. i'll try and say what it seek and who i am....Imagine that, a person actually using this site for what its actually meant for.... eegads!

i joined this site in April 05, so that marks the official start of my active search. I have met a lot of folks here, and in the real world. I have learned a lot from everyone i have met...even those that have been less than.... positive, lets say. So... what have i learned.

I have learned that Dominance comes in a variety of forms. No matter whether Male, Female or Transgendered. Simply seeking a Female Domme has proven more than difficult. So the net will be broadened. Gender has little to do with any of this. I have found that i need a dominant. One that has plans to train and develop me to their needs. To train me to serve them and to make their lives better and easier for having me around.

I have learned that i am at my very heart, a service submissive. I have found that this isnt just show, or talk... it's me.... my whole history, work, family, friends, volunteering, vanilla and D/s has shown me that i am, above all, blindingly obvious a service submissive with slave tendancies. I have preemptive abilities, but these have never been fully utilised.

Very few dominants have recognised my abilities as being of worth to them. Yes a few beautiful Dommes have, but they were at times distracted by the superficial aesthetics of what having a subby is about. I am capable of so much more than ornament, or photo opportunity, event escort. my service could be life changing. All those little things that take up your time...imagine them gone...simply gone.... thats what i offer.

I am not demanding a laundry list of the things i want you to "do-me" with. I am offering a D/s relationship based on service in a negotiated BDSM dynamic.

The Dominant best suited to me, believe it or not, is first of all, an equal. I have had demanding and challenging life experiences above the bog standard.... you will need to have had your own challenges and experiences too, that put you above the rest. Like me, you will need to be intelligent, intuitive, creative, self made, self sufficient, self confident. Dominance for you is not an affect, you have simply chosen to boost low self esteem. Dominance is what you are, and have been all your life.

I seek a relationship, eventual 24/7, eventual slavery. Having said that, i assume that this will be built over a period of time. I will not be moving in, marrying, and having children in the first 48 hours. Seriously, my very submission has been challenged on the refusal to do this in the first 2 hours of a meet. On a number of occassions, this expectation has arisen. Sorry, that is something im not considering till at least the third meeting surely!

So, until we build a solid relationship, based on regular, committed meetings, service, vanilla activities and so on i am offering:

Me as a Dominants' Boy-servant, Butler, valet, confidante, consultant, business adviser (Business plans, SOPs, operations management, training, recruitment and other HR, mentoring), Personal Assistant both professional and private (secretarial, filing, correspondence, meetings, events and functions planning, time management, calendar organisation, meetings, liaison, telephony, initial point of contact, data entry), as household manager (shopping, bills, banking, cooking, laundry), farm or property management (property plans, developing and diversifying income streams, environmental improvements, permaculture, erosion control, soil improvements, fire risk assessments, development applications, conservation grant applications) child carer (Sperm donor...if thats where we end up, child raiser / carer), yard boy, driver, bag boy, errands boy, House hold maintenance (painter, gardener, repairer) vehicle maintenance (fuel, repairs, maintenance, detailing), driver, escort, raconteur, ... BDSM furniture maker, dungeon builder, i can sew, yes, like as in sewing machine, (from scratch or pattern, domestic or industrial)...i'll keep working on it all....this is just off the top of my head.

Someone suggested i include experience as service subby. To prove that i am not a wanna-be. I have actually served as a service subby, with no play, no sex, no intimacy. Just a good understanding of my skills and abilities.

I have been a service subby for a Domme friend and their business. We still have a solid working relationship, but i would like someone to own me and have my services to be exclusively available to them. I am more than real, and have actually done what some dream and fantasize about. But i'd like it with an owner that i can have a relationship that goes "beyond"...

No i dont want you to support me, no i dont want to move in tomorrow.... no i am not desperate.....yes i can support myself....lets just work on things and build on these services as something to expand upon. im just putting it out there....someone said you should put up a list of what it is you can offer....this is a work in progress.

This is what you get, these are some things i can provide, surely these are of value to some enterprising Domme.

It may be odd for a submissive male on this site...but i am not desperate! i am involved in the community (sporadically at times). Involved in events, partys, workshops and other assorted debauchery. I have solid ties with folks in Sydney, Brisbane, Adelaide, Canberra,Townsville, have travelled to perth, and to melby a few times, i have pro friends in Newcastle and Sydney, helping out at a venue in sydney,and making new friends on this site all the time...hello all!

But that doesn't mean that a boy can't look for someone. Like everyone, i am seeking that special someone....and maybe i will find them here.

i am seeking a caring, sharing relationship with lifestyle values (thanks Booo) at some time in the future.

i am a willful, but very submissive bi male, i am intelligent (these pages not withstanding), passionate (about the things that REALLY matter), opinionated and yet open minded, articulate and adaptable and am very open to new experiences and i love a challenge. i expect You to be at least an equal, and to be able to challenge me. I do need to be utilised to my full potential, or i will get bored with you, i have been described as atrainer bottom, so am not ruling out a beginner Dom/me at all. and NO that is not topping from the bottom. Read up on it and you'll see the difference!

Recently i have discovered the value, to me, of being owned by a Dom/me that is first and foremost an equal. Equal in intelligence, motivation and compassion. If i have to explain or apologise why this is still a subby / slave trait...then you are not for me. And thats ok, i'm not for you either. If you do see this as important, then maybe you too are looking for a 24/7 subby / slave, and have seen that with out ; equality, ability to discuss, negotiate within the relationship, then a real life D/s life style cant take place....nor be sustained.

i would respond best to structured training / ownership. If i think you have no plan i will wander off. Keep me on a tight lead and i'll stay focussed. Like all trainees, i respond best to encouragement. Being left alone or uncertain turns me to mutiny, if not to my own devices...and that always ends in tears. i am demanding...in that you need to be onto it (as well as into it), when we are playing as, well as when we are not. i am slow to respond but will please.

Sex does not need to be part of this. Though i am confident in that area. Anyone can fuck...its the other stuff that i need. Sex too often seems to equate to love and even the sole driver for BDSM...i know, i used to think that myself. if that was enough i'd be chasing a vanilla wench.

i used to write that i am not a slave...i am still not...but after having met a number of special slaves through this site, i am slowly coming around to this very special devotion to a Dom/me...and think that with extra care and attention to training i could end up there...there's a challenge for you.

A Domme friend once asked if i am a service, subby/slave....i used to say no. I thought that my idea of practical, substantial, intuitive, pre-emptive, effort and time saving service didnt count. But i am finding that Dommes do like that aspect of me. yes i will hold your drink get you food at parties....but thats just show-service. I am capable of contributing far, far more than that.

i am interested in a range of slave-type TPE, and would love to offer my services as PA, driver, household operations, child raising, entering into business arrangements and any other range of practical duties that are of value to you. i am adaptable and despite my fierce streak of independence and self sufficiency in the nilla world, i will trade all that off, to "work" for you.

i crave to submit and be controlled both physically and mentally, both in the "dungeon", and at times in the vanilla world. i am fiercely independent and expect to be self sufficient in all aspects of my life...this may be a challenge for some...but i know you will cope.

what do i want?....not that it matters, but what i want from an owner is recognition of a job well done, acknowledgement of my contribution to US as a Dom/me and sub partnership. an appreciation for my efforts to make more time available for your own pleasures, do those everyday things, keep you happy, content, so that we can spend more time together. A pat here, a touch there, a look when i have pleased. Without that, i will not last.

i am currently at uni, a massive change in my life, and have had demanding jobs and other real world commitments, and a variety of life experiences, that act as a great counterpoint to my submissive persuits. i am not seeking 24/7 at this stage...i once wrote, that 24/3 might be more in line with what i seek, i'd like to reiterate that...lets see where it all goes first shall we? i am willing to exchange it all for the right owner. The area of my studies means that i will be emminently relocatable and intend to do so when the right time and Dominant come along.

Although a quiet and borderline reclusive type (in the vanilla world), i have exhibitionist and crash test dummy tendencies and love play in groups or for show. Some think of me as a slut...i think of it as being an enthusiastic participant!!..i am open for regular meets for play and travel.

i am a privacy and security freak, and don't necessarily want to be involved in your family friends or any other vanilla persuits initially. i won't go to your kids play, nor will i go to your church...don't ask...don't be disappointed. when we have decided that a full interaction is required....then of course.....wherever i am needed ...i will be.

i am real, and after a brief intro am willing to travel to meet. i do not seek on-line, as i have an adequate enough imagination, and toys to keep me happy without your on-line intervention. i will turn up, and will be on time, and will not waste yours (time).

i will expect a meet, publicly for networking purposes....at the very minimum, or potential friendship or relationship to develop from that meeting. if i suspect you are wasting my time, i may appear brash and rude.... but thats so the time wasting does not continue. my time effort, money and travel has been wasted on more than enough occassions....i certainly dont want to waste your time either.

As mentioned in my previous journals, i dislike those that say one thing, dream another, and do something else. i have observed that there are an excrutiatingly large number of wannabes, dreamers and net-wankers here and hereabouts, too bad for you, you miss out.

i am honest and expect the same....at what point do you think i will notice that you are suddenly 15 years older than your pics, that you have suddenly put on 230lbs and that you smoke and drink....far far more than you'll even admit .... even to yourself. None of these things matter if you are the one....just dont paint yourself other than you are....im kinda observant and notice these things...

i also seek online subby friends to chat, giggle, plot, dream, fantasize and generally be subbies with. i have intermittent access to the net but do love to chat with others.

i will also expect you to understand at first, that i have a good relationship with my former owner and others, and this is expected to continue.

off to sydney for the weekend... yay

had to remove pics coz folks were reading too much into them!

they are just pics people....

if im dressed in head to toe rubber doesnt mean i wear it every minute of the day.

if im dressed in the sexiest waist squeezing corset and shiny shiny thigh highs... doesnt mean im a girl...love em...would love to be one...but am not one.... sadly....

so lets try a minimalist apporach

wrote this before...but its still funny....

love the approaches by folks overseas...that put an ethnicity down in their profile... that clearly doesnt match the one apparent in their pics...

advice to spammers....click mixed , as your ethnicity...then you get no arguement!!!!

oh and if you are from O/s and approach me (a service subby boy) maybe click switch on your profile too.... im not going to be your Dom...and theres little hope on the horizon for me being your Domme....

just a thought....

um.... seen it a few times...and its a lil annoying....

do people know there is a difference between amongst many others, Boy, Boi, Girls Grrls etc etc.....

just checkin.... you might be in for a surprise if you dont....

hugz to all

ok...its an established fact that im a size queen.... thats ok...im shallow i know....

... but someone should tell some boys that put cock pics up...not to bother if its like ... (whispers and makes a lil finger wiggle motion....) so teensy weensy that it would have been better not to have bothered....

sorry bloke...im a bad bad man and i am sure you have better qualities that i'll never match up to.... best you highlighting those.... i think?

just got THE nicest ever comments on my profile and journals.... you have made my day... lovely lovely thoughts....

i hope to learn from all those that have ideas for me ...experiential sponge boy here...

hi... been reading lots n lots of profiles...

still get a giggle out of straight male doms that identify as straight.... and click the little button as seeking males....

embrace the cock male doms...i know we want to... if you just let us!

maybe things are always darkest before the dawn.... im seeing a daybreak ahead....

old profile: updated 27.12.09- Here is what i am offering.....an update ....of sorts.... forget the laundry list of things all those other subbies and slaves will have you do to them, here is what i am offering a Domme that is lovely, powerful, self sufficient, intelligent, self assured, intuitive, creative, ingenious, self-made, confident....think of any other words and email me with them!.... but you get the picture...

She may have her own business, or or be able to utilise my skills, to their full potential on a negotiated basis. There are ways and means that i will be of benefit under taxation as an "employee", a "traineeship". There are ways and means by which i can enhance your income. There are ways and means of me being a financial asset....we can explore me contracting my services with my own ABN (in australia) depends on how clever the two of us can be....together.

Me as her Boy-servant, Butler, valet, confidant, consultant, business adviser (Business plans, SOPs, operations management, training, recruitment and other HR, mentoring), personal assistant (secretarial, filing, correspondence, meetings events and functions planning, time management, calendar organisation, meetings, liaison, telephony, initial point of contact, data entry), as household manager (shopping, bills, banking, cooking, laundry), farm or property management (property plans, developing and diversifying income streams, environmental improvements, permaculture, erosion control, soil improvements, fire risk assessments, development applications, conservation grant applications) child carer (Sperm donor...if thats where we end up, child raiser / carer), yard boy, driver, bag boy, errands boy, House hold maintenance (painter, gardener, repairer) vehicle maintenance (fuel, repairs, maintenance, detailing), driver, escort, raconteur, ... BDSM furniture maker, dungeon builder, i can sew, yes, like as in sewing machine, (from scratch or pattern, domestic or industrial)...i'll keep working on it all....this is just off the top of my head.

Someone suggested i include experience as service subby. To prove that i am not a wanna-be. In my current position, There has been no play, no sex, no intimacy. Just a good understanding of my skills and abilities.

i am currently a service subby for a Domme friend and their business. We have a solid working relationship, but i would like someone to own me and have my services to exclusively available to themselves. I am more than real, and am actually doing what some dream and fantasize about. But i'd like it with an owner that i can have a relationship that goes "beyond"...

No i dont want you to support me, no i dont want to move in tomorrow.... no i am not desperate.....yes i can support myself....lets just work on things and build on these services as something to expand upon. im just putting it out there....someone said you should put up a list of what it is you can offer....this is a work in progress.

this is what you get, these are some things i can provide, surely these are of value to some enterprising Domme.

It may be odd for a submissive male on this site...but i am not desperate! i am involved with a group in Canberra, folks in Townsville, have travelled to perth, and to melby a few times, i have pro friends in Newcastle and Sydney, helping out at a venue in sydney,and making new friends on this site all the time...hello all!

But that doesn't mean that a boy can't look for someone. Like everyone, i am seeking that special someone....and maybe i will find them here.

i am seeking a caring, sharing relationship with lifestyle values (thanks Booo) at some time in the future.

i am a willful, but very submissive bi male, i am intelligent (these pages not withstanding), passionate (about the things that REALLY matter), opinionated and yet open minded, articulate and adaptable and am very open to new experiences and i love a challenge. i expect You to be at least an equal, and to be able to challenge me. I do need to be utilised to my full potential, or i will get bored with you, i have been described as atrainer bottom, so am not ruling out a beginner Dom/me at all. and NO that is not topping from the bottom. Read up on it and you'll see the difference!

Recently i have discovered the value, to me, of being owned by a Dom/me that is first and foremost an equal. Equal in intelligence, motivation and compassion. If i have to explain or apologise why this is still a subby / slave trait...then you are not for me. And thats ok, i'm not for you either. If you do see this as important, then maybe you too are looking for a 24/7 subby / slave, and have seen that with out ; equality, ability to discuss, negotiate within the relationship, then a real life D/s life style cant take place....nor be sustained.

i would respond best to structured training / ownership. If i think you have no plan i will wander off. Keep me on a tight lead and i'll stay focussed. Like all trainees, i respond best to encouragement. Being left alone or uncertain turns me to mutiny, if not to my own devices...and that always ends in tears. i am demanding...in that you need to be onto it (as well as into it), when we are playing as, well as when we are not. i am slow to respond but will please.

Sex does not need to be part of this. Though i am confident in that area. Anyone can fuck...its the other stuff that i need. Sex too often seems to equate to love and even the sole driver for BDSM...i know, i used to think that myself. if that was enough i'd be chasing a vanilla wench.

Although i am primarily attracted to females, i let special boys do me and can service their needs as well. So couples are welcome to try me out.

i used to write that i am not a slave...i am still not...but after having met a number of special slaves through this site, i am slowly coming around to this very special devotion to a Dom/me...and think that with extra care and attention to training i could end up there...there's a challenge for you.

A Domme friend once asked if i am a service, subby/slave....i used to say no. I thought that my idea of practical, substantial, intuitive, pre-emptive, effort and time saving service didnt count. But i am finding that Dommes do like that aspect of me. yes i will hold your drink get you food at parties....but thats just show-service. I am capable of contributing far, far more than that.

i am interested in a range of slave-type TPE, and would love to offer my services as PA, driver, household operations, child raising, entering into business arrangements and any other range of practical duties that are of value to you. i am adaptable and despite my fierce streak of independence and self sufficiency in the nilla world, i will trade all that off, to "work" for you.

i crave to submit and be controlled both physically and mentally, both in the "dungeon", and at times in the vanilla world. i am fiercely independent and expect to be self sufficient in all aspects of my life...this may be a challenge for some...but i know you will cope.

what do i want?....not that it matters, but what i want from an owner is recognition of a job well done, acknowledgement of my contribution to US as a Dom/me and sub partnership. an appreciation for my efforts to make more time available for your own pleasures, do those everyday things, keep you happy, content, so that we can spend more time together. A pat here, a touch there, a look when i have pleased. Without that, i will not last.

i am currently at uni, a massive change in my life, and have had demanding jobs and other real world commitments, and a variety of life experiences, that act as a great counterpoint to my submissive persuits. i am not seeking 24/7 at this stage...i once wrote, that 24/3 might be more in line with what i seek, i'd like to reiterate that...lets see where it all goes first shall we? i am willing to exchange it all for the right owner.

Although a quiet and borderline reclusive type (in the vanilla world), i have exhibitionist and crash test dummy tendencies and love play in groups or for show. Some think of me as a slut...i think of it as being an enthusiastic participant!!..i am open for regular meets for play and travel.

i am a privacy and security freak, and don't necessarily want to be involved in your family friends or any other vanilla persuits initially. i won't go to your kids play, nor will i go to your church...don't ask...don't be disappointed. when we have decided that a full interaction is required....then of course.....wherever i am needed ...i will be.

i am real, and after a brief intro am willing to travel to meet. i do not seek on-line, as i have an adequate enough imagination, and toys to keep me happy without your on-line intervention. i will turn up, and will be on time, and will not waste yours (time).

i will expect a meet, publicly for networking purposes....at the very minimum, or potential friendship or relationship to develop from that meeting. if i suspect you are wasting my time, i may appear brash and rude.... but thats so the time wasting does not continue. my time effort, money and travel has been wasted on more than enough occassions....i certainly dont want to waste your time either.

As mentioned in my previous journals, i dislike those that say one thing, dream another, and do something else. i have observed that there are an excrutiatingly large number of wannabes, dreamers and net-wankers here and hereabouts, too bad for you, you miss out.

i am honest and expect the same....at what point do you think i will notice that you are suddenly 15 years older than your pics, that you have suddenly put on 230lbs and that you smoke and drink....far far more than you'll even admit .... even to yourself. None of these things matter if you are the one....just dont paint yourself other than you are....im kinda observant and notice these things...

i also seek online subby friends to chat, giggle, plot, dream, fantasize and generally be subbies with. i have intermittent access to the net but do love to chat with others.

i will also expect you to understand at first, that i have a good relationship with my former owner and others, and this is expected to continue.

just added a whole bunch of new pics.....lets see if mr collarme approves.....

had no end of hassles getting even the most tame pics approved......

lets see if they work this time......

and no crap about community standards being breeched...if a girl can flash her tits and have a gob full of cock...im sure my cute lil ass can get a showing....surely?

put some new found skills into practice..... woot!

more experiences to cure me of the desires that D/s promises....

so begins more seclusion to persue real world endeavours...

Time is drawing closer..... soon i will be tested....wiggles his lil ass....

things are looking up.....

ugh!

cant IM anymore.... stoopid security systems!

hope to say hi occasionally...

so.... exams are almost over....i'll be free for a few weeks....omfg...yay!

been able to get back on here and chat with a few more folks.

Thanks to those who have understood the intent of my initial contacts. For networking purposes first and formeost.

thankyou for your time all.

ROTFLMAO...

does...

SUBJECT: ADD ME

Message: NOW

from a Dom work on ANYBODY!!!!?

its soooo fuuuuunnnnny

takin a break.... be good!

hello..... what an amazing conversation i have just had.....

i was chatting about red flags to a group on another site,that give people away....my red flag was at the point where they did the...if i want you to say anything i'll ask....

but the swearing confirmed it....

i am domme hear me roar....always a redflag hey.....

Me:

so, Maam, havew you owned anyone previously?

Mike says:

you mention you seek a service subby that knows what they are about? thats a rare attribute for subby boys....

Them:

I said I seek a sub/slave

Me:

still...hard to find tho

me:

have you owned a sub/slave previously?

them:

did I tell u I wanted your opinion / If I wanted ur opinion I would as for it but I didnt

me:

hmmm, ok

them:

ask for it but I didnt, Now are u one of these no it all wanna be pretenders

me:

actually no.....

me:

i have a deal of experience....which is why i know real subbies are hard to find....

me:

i was going to ask about t=your experiences seeking a sub/slave

them:

well u sound as thou u r, It doesnt matter 2 u what my experience is, well it is something u have no right in asking]

them:

I will discuss everything in due time with my potential sub/slave, & who do u think u r trying 2 tell me anything in what I seek

me:

um... i think you have confused a conversation with someone elese here... i havent told you anything? it was a friendly conversation about how you are finding your search....have i caught you at a bad time?

me:

its eems you are angry about something....and all i have said is hello how are you, hows the search?

me:

have we met before?

them:

thats bulshit u came on as a know it all & saying u had alot of experience dadadada

them:

& I said did I ask for ur opinion No so dont give ur 2c worth unless I ask you

me:

sorry...so what would you like to ask....?

them:

Nothing you popped on 2 me Telling me & the fact is I cant stand brats or smartarses, & thats exactly how u came across so

me:

the experience i was refering to was that a lot of domme friends have a great deal of difficulty finding real subs....

them:

well the fact is as I stated u dont ask anything unless ur told too in the first place , now leave me alone

me:

ok.... i think i will post this conversation..... i am very surprised at all you have assumed about me in such a short time.....most people usually have a chat..... and yes....i will gladly leave you alone.

me:

thankyou for not wasting my time

them:

fuckoff u brat do wat u want just dont bother me again, post it & everyone will see wat a nuisance u are

me:

i am sure that they will...... thankyou again.....

thoughts anyone....??

back to school....back to the bush....

'im going out side.....i may be some time'

so we finally had a munch in my hometown.... yay.....

hello....gaining more experience as a PA.... for those out there keeping track.

I gained status as an EA (executive assistant) how nice for a service subby boy!

Working very hard and trying to be useful. Its good fun and hard work.

Assisting in organising events, visiting venues, meeting folks, organising meetings, lots n lots of phone calls, driving all over the place...

still no offers for potential long term position, so will just keep on, trying to gain more and more experience to be able to offer an owner.

hello.... thanks to those who will chat and develop networks....always nice to have some input from others....hope your learning as much from me as i am from you?

some actual play would be good though .... actually some actual anything.... would be nice Heh heh!

Readings some fantastic profiles....a few have swept me off my feet....but of course.... are busy with oceans of subbies.... how nice would that be...awash with subbies....?

hello....is anyone else getting repeated entries to their journals.... that they didnt enter themselves....?

hello, all kinda quiet at last..... now whats a subby boy to do?

same deal.... what is it i can do for you Maam?

oh and MR Collarme....i know you say...'user-posted photographs containing explicit genital nudity cannot be approved at this time. ', but since when has a barely exposed pubus counted as genitalia?

am i gunna have to go through every profile and cut n paste examples of the hundreds of inconsistencies or links to their profiles..... ugh....

so now i have to post the dud pics that were approved ages ago....cause the updated ones fail because the elevator muscle of my scrotal sac is exposed or the top of my pubus is showing....oh my....!

ugh..... and now ALL my pics are gone....AGAIN!

GRR

speaking of rejection....The photo you recently submitted as your primary photo was not approved.

Reason: Unfortunately, this photo does not fall within our community standards.

a boy in a corset doesnt meet a BDSM website community standards!!! no penis, no ass, no pierced bits, no blood, no implements..... just a very nice leather corset....

once again MR / MZ Collarme..... what is it about the approval of pics

ohhh THATS right....i dont flash my tits..... i forgot.....GRRRRR

this is such an on-going saga!

i will reiterate..... i have seen, tits, twats, piercings, implements in, on, near, full suspensions, part suspensions, bruises, marks.....blah blah blah....on others pics and a lame arsed pic of a waist up corset doesnt meet community standards....UGH!

funny reason for rejection (number....god knows what!!!) after only a greeting..... that i am too perfect.....ROFL, LMAO, what other acronymy / text speak can i use....?

not that i wanna scare people off....but i am just as messed up (and coping) as the rest of you......

i enjoyed my recent experience as a PA / Slave, chauffer...... maybe YOU need one.... lemme know...

what an interesting journey i am having.... we all have our little rollercoaster rides in life.... mine is in a little trough....

i have been looking for someone for a fair while now.... and the frustrations are mounting and mounting... we all go through the stages of giving up, then getting straight back into the search again, but i can see a time where the frustration, annoyance, effort and energy put into the search totally outweighs the need to find someone....

why are you banging your head against the wall zeero?....'cause it feels good when i stop....!

stopping seems like it would feel better at the moment!!!

i have met a lot of people, been in pretty privileged positions in accessing people.... i have seen the "hard core" and the once a monthers.... i have met those living the dream and those dreaming of the life.... and funnily enough, neither have what i want.... im not better than you.... but you have to have a lot to be my equal....variation on an orwellian theme?

so come on equals..... come out of the wood work.... where are you.....

what a long long week and a bit it has been...

workshops and shows in syd and then more of the same in melb.

what a lovely bunch of people we all met and renewed acquaintances with... all very sexy.

too bad i was terminally tired even before arrival in melb. The life of an unowned service subby....

the shows were fabulous despite hiccups that only those behind the scenes know....and the show did go on....

i went to venues full of people , introduced myself to some, others introduced themselves to me.... and surprisingly....as i have written before .... cant see the one i am after.... is that picky, or what.... i have done some very unique things .... and expect an equal.... little chance of that happening hey....?

i have 2 words for you....predicament bondage....drooling goes to slobbering in 0.5 seconds!

Nice to be a quivering mess in the hands of experience.....

and to all those hot new folks....welcome.... welcome to the darker side....... very nice! go you!

we all know labels are horrible....and dont match us all....but they can guide us a little.... another little title / label etc i discovered is the trainer bottom..... heh heh....so i can add mildly masochistic, service oriented, trainer bottom slave.....LOL!

for the last week, i have been a productive and hard working subby..... nice to be utilised to my potential, and pushed a bit in practical and productive ways .... still open for offers ....

the workshops we been having are going well, you should come along.... always lots to learn. We have a few going this week too, then off to melb.

the show in a window!!!! in oxford street was a hit.... and the lil rope girl.....well, she just went and went and went!....and went and went....according to her count!....

and lil "peach session girl".....she just squeaked happy squeaks!

Took our guests to appear at a show.... they did soo well, consumate professionals .... indeed. Long way to come for a short allotment of time.... more time for us i guess!!! Heh heh!

there will be a next time .... yay!

those in melby, going to some major events.... come say hi.....i'll be there! yay!

so.... we planning lots of workshops with internationally known presenters.... a great end of year party with the fabulous trapeze girl.... ropes and poise....OMG!.... a move.... a new year... outdoor event/s.... all hard work of course.

arent i a good subby..... been events managing (ha assisting really), chauffer, shopping (can you believe it actually liking that stuff.... lol....the things you find out about yourself), driving, calls, visiting businesses...

oh ps....on sat tried, for a second time in my life, to switch..... i might just be getting a taste for that stuff..... still too subby tho....but the call of the rope....is very strong

exams over..... and now for an apprenticeship as a PA ...... to a lovely Domme....of course....

gotta dash.... stuff to do....

ugh.... people with multiple personas on here....thats all fine and good.... but i have trouble keeping up with one persona of my own....let alone all of yours...LOL! its ok....just got me all excited there for a minute.....heh heh heh....down boy!

look out Melby..... im coming to town....well if im very very good....

where it ends
usually depends
on where it starts

everlast lyrics to 'whats its like', take a listen

so .... you want someone at your feet, you want someone on the end of your cane, in the kitchen, the laundry, driving you to work, you want someone on your arm, somone to talk to, some one to carry your bags, travel with, shop with you or for you, pay the bills.... the list is quite endless.

can you do it?....really?

do you want it?....really?

fantasy is fabulous, the euphoria (thankyou Master P) of the moments .... addictive, the desire, the lust, the blushing fulfilment....can you take the step into reality...

there is time, effort and energy required....are you in it for the once monthly show?, are you in it for the once monthly rush?, are you in it for the once monthly power?, are you in it for the once monthly glitter and glam?, are you in it to be seen?....thats all fabulous.... but can you do it twice a month?....3 times, 4 times....21 times..... i ask myself that too....but THATs what i am looking for.... eventually.

i have learned a lot about fantasy recently....and so have some of my friends.... fantasy is dangerous... fantasy is icky sweaty and smelly, fantasy is hot breath in your ear, grunting its way into you, fantasy leaves a mark that cant be seen by anyone except you....fantasy is that mathematical, line...infintesimally small, but canyon wide and deep when you are at its edge....between fantasy and reality.

can you jump, step, leap....fall across it, can you look back....can you look at yourself when you do cross....what you will see will be nothing like you expected.....

omg, omg, omg.....saw a pic that was taken by the fabulously tall lucas..... drool

already....only a short time after it happened....i have been congratulated....on the world having voted obama in as US prez....

ok lets get cynical.... only a very small proportion of the US population even votes...and no matter who wins.... a politician gets in.....

no matter who gets in....they only get in with a small percentage of the US populations votes....yet the impact they will have on the world is way disproportionate to the rest of the worlds folks that'll get effected by them.

and here i am 12 000 k's away pretty much disenfranchised in my own country....and people are happy about another system voting in their own prez..... seems as ironic as saying yay we got Rudd.... or whoever the last guy was that went against him..... ugh....

its like , we in a country that stops for a horse race, waking up the next morning and becoming overnight US political commentators....gimme a break....

yes i know i should be interested in the happenings of the world....yes i know it needs the whole 1 drop to make up a wave.... but i had no money in the bank before the crash.... i have none now..... little has changed....

how bout you donate some coins, eat less or god forbid, give some time and volunteer.... now thats world changing.....

ooooh something shiny just went by.... i'll go and be distracted now.....

Havent i been a lucky house boy?

got to go to rubber ball, had a nice new rubber outfit made, had some nice pics taken, access to an ass-enhancing corset.... for special people only! Might get to be a pony boy and have "supervised" some nillas at two parties.... a gangbang and a swingers party.... not at the same time tho.... different events kids!

i am still waiting in the wings for that elusive Dom/me to recognise my talents and make use of them for the long term. I am sure that if i can help out at a venue that has catered for the whims of 100 people, and we have parties for slightly less than that, that i can keep a Dom/me like yourself more than amused for a time? Hmmm?

im sure its just a matter of time.

rofl....got approached by an O/S Domme, same note same effort to elicit an email addy.... 3rd one of the same ilk.... so i thought id reply

i cut n paste the same note , the same number of times they sent it to me.....and said it was boring to read the same thing over and over again....

here is their reply .... 'then fuck off you slut'
here is there addy

runawaybianca

very pleasant young person im sure...... surely boys dont fall for this crap..... oh, thats right ....they do....or they wouldnt keep doing it....

hello, been meeting lots of folks, in real life and on here. nice to meet people that know the value of networking.

lots to learn, ideas to swap, people to tread carefully around, and thoughts to share....and my oh my arent my horizons being widened.... nice.

and yes, i probably should be studying....end of year exams..... so i'll just lurk here quietly!!!

OMG!.... no shit, there i was.... thats how all us out doorsy types start off a tall tale....

but this ones not tall at all....

i got to go to rubberball in sydney, thanks to Master P and Miss Dee.... thankyou thankyou thankyou.

i went with a shiny metal pail, with all id need to bring all that lovely rubber to a shine.... whats better, i got to shine up a few people a number of times..... they musta loved the way i got them silky smooth, slippery and shiny.

one luuuurvly Domme shined me up too as payment for my services....OMG!

so, i got to shine, pony girls, long tall rubber boys and girls, a lovely man in the thickest most industrial rubber there, such big big muscles, beautiful trannies, curvaceously yummy dommes and subbies, rubber stockings, rubber gauntlets, rubber skirts, rubber jackets, rubber shoes, rubber boots, rubber vests, rubber shorts, rubber knickers, rubber gloves, rubber hoods, gas masks....OMG!

I got to wear a hand made outfit made by the beautiful Tokyo, i would recommend her wares. Ask me where she is and i'll tell you!

There were lots and lots of folks there... and every one was happy and smiling in their rubbery finest.... you must come along to the next one!

hello.... i can smell rubber!

guess what my job is? ....

i get to shine all that lovely latex.... wiggles and jumps around with excitement!

heh .... knockback reason #13.... not in the area.... thats all fine and dandy.... im not moving to iowa tomorrow either!

but imagine if you met the subby of your dreams from across town.....and the subby, proving their devotion and servitude was willing to relocate.... and hand over their entire lives to you as the Dom/me.... im sure postcode would have little to do with their applicability.....hmmm?

just a thought.....

another lovely weekend.... pre-party drinks on the balcony and some more new faces.

and what a fantastic turnout to our workshops.... almost 40 folks all eager to learn, network and maybe gather some insights into that niggling feeling thats always been there .... maybe we can turn it from being a niggle?

had some great conversations and met some lovely new faces all at the very beginnings of their adventure into BDSM..... how exciting for them.

now to put all that practice into play .... woo hoo.....

the best part for me....the excited chats on the topic of...' oh my god i am so glad i met all these people.....' you know the one where you realise youre not alone, and that there are actually a whole group of people out there interested enough in the lifestyle to share it around .... what a blast to be part of that introduction.

now all i gotta do is find that elusive owner.....

not a peep since i wrote what i can offer in my intro...... very interesting.... maybe there arent any Dom/mes wanting a true service subby?

hello.....what another lovely party we had on the weekend.... and all those nice new faces....you are all lovely ....and sexy..... and we hope to see more of you! we have friendly people more than willing to help out.... or to let you go and experiement all by yourself.

AND.....OMG.... some of those "old" faces had me drooling (ever-so quietly and to myself of course) all-anew!

There was, once again a fabulous variety of play and extracurricular activities for folks to try for the first time..... or just get more practice at..... and we know practise makes perfect.....if anyone needs a crash test dummy to try out skills.....well you know who to call right!!!!! LOL.....

we also had lots for those that appreciate visual stimulation..... our sexy....and everso tall winner of the fashion show.... not only being fabulous eye-candy himself.... has an exquisit eye, from behind the camera.... id TOTALLY recommend him for those extra special pics....double drool.....this keyboard is getting a tad swamped..... id better clean up....

what else?.... drooly rubber clad subbys with gags.... beautiful and sexy TV's trying out new costumes.... keep 'em coming girls....stunning.... we love you.

you must come along.... every party is ALWAYS different, different dynamics, different faces, different play, different levels,
....a different experience.

hope to see you there soon....

I've been reading A LOT of profiles and journals lately.....all the things we can learn from each other. some of you have inspired me, some Dom/mes, subs / slaves and some in that spectrum somewhere!

some have required it from their slaves, some have offered their skills as a Dom/me as a proof of their worth, stability, security....whatever the reason they see fit....

One of the most common things i exclaim to myself after reading some....is something like...'why cant i have that?'

let me preface all this by saying....if girls can do it... why is it so unacceptable for a boy to want for the same.

so here goes..... yeah yeah...i know.... put your doubts aside for a sec and ask the same.... why cant he?

Just along the lines of a TPE....old style male female roles....reversed.....and then some.... tweaked here and there....for your service....remember these are things i offer.... you are not giving me a free ride....i have done these things and been paid for them....but money is not what i want from doing these things.... i need it to be seen as valuable...in this case to an owner.... to be in service is what i need.... in the nilla world, no amount of money was enough to keep me....maybe service to you.....will keep me?

Find a Domme that is lovely, powerful, self sufficient, intelligent, self assured, confident....think of any other words and email me with them!.... but you get the picture...

She may have her own business or or be able to maybe utilise my skills on a negotiated basis. Me as her Butler, valet, confidant, consultant, business adviser (Business plans, SOPs, operations management, training, mentoring), household manager (shopping, bills, banking), child carer (Sperm donor...if thats where we end up, child raiser), yard boy, driver, cook, bag boy, errands boy, House hold maintenance (painter, gardener, repairer) vehicle maintenance (fuel, repairs, maintenance, detailing), driver, escort, raconteur, events management, secretary.... i'll keep working on it all....this is just off the top of my head.

No i dont want you to support me, no i dont want to move in tomorrow.... no i am not desperate.....yes i can support myself....lets just work on things and build on these services as something to expand upon. im just putting it out there....someone said you should put up a list of what it is you can offer....a work in progress.

A few friends have commented that i would make some one a great subby / slave....but it seems that recognising these services as having worth, or value is the difficult part.... people either want to just flog you....have sex with you....or parade you around.... theres so much more that a good subby slave can offer. These things are great....and as i have said before are only part of the whole....these things alone will not keep me .... i need to serve and be valued for that service....

so anyway....just some thoughts....something to work on.....

Hmmm, tried on and loved, a fabulous chastity device the other day!

WOW, if only someone would like to be a key holder....i can't even imagine!
To be contolled and used in such a manner for one special owner.

Im not aware of its name, but it was a lovely chrome steel device...caged tube, downward bent, with a ring that opened aound the cock and balls, closed up and connected to the cage by the padlock.....

absolutely lovely!

oooh, just read a lovely entry by a slave about figging....and although a fairly different experience, heres one i had the other day....

Ok, so a lovely Domme friend took me in hand after being a bit naughty whilst playing with a parachute and some weights....which she'd broken a very nice paddle on, just minutes before.... id shown, much to my later regret (kinda) that what i had attached to my testicles in the way of weights was actually pleasurable for me.

An we cant have a subby enjoying the punishment too overtly, can we?

So, off came the weights, off came the parachute, and on went the tiger balm. Now heres where it got interesting. For ages, i have secretly dreaded application of this stuff, but it was actually nice! I dont recommend it for everyone, and i am sure that less discriminant application to other bits and orifices could at least bring tears to your eyes, or maybe even render your reproductive abilities to Zip. But OMG....it was awesome.

So to add to the interest, Maam put on the whole of all the weights that were pretty much tolerable standing still, and told me to walk.... up a flight of stairs....with her giggling and smacking the swinging weights as we went.... now that sorted out my cheekyness and concentrated my mind.... even a few tears to the eyes as well.

what was satisfying tho, was when observers took hold of the weights... they'd gasp in quiet admiration....i was very pleased....to be able to please, horrify, make all the Doms whince, as well as show off for my lovely Domme friend at how good a subby i was !

maybe i am a little pain puppy in the making?

Oh....also... to those in lovely Townsville....do get along to the munches.

You will absolutely love the company and the networking possibilities. there are some experienced hands and some fabulous new faces. For a small place you are lucky to have some open, honest and knowledgable folks to share, learn maybe even play with....you just never know hey?

So get along to the munches.....its only coffee and cake....and thats a recipe that cant go wrong....

what an exciting couple of weeks its been. where to begin?

went to sunny Townsville, and it was! we been freezing our butts off down here while you lot languish under ceiling fans and have the breeze come in through the palmtrees outside....much better for bare butted subby boys!

Met nice people and got spanked by half of them (the other half were subbies) and got extra special attention from Enigma... she should come out more often! Pick me pick me!

Hopefully i'll be around for some munches to meet even more up there.... and get that nice red glow from more than the hot weather once again.

Ive been yet again, inspired by some young folks, I so wish i started when i was your age...but we all come to D/s in our own time. beautiful young subbies and cute assed Doms (can i say that?). some coming out from the wood work...or venturing into the woods unknown for the first time....all i can say...is YAY for us.

There was a lovely dinner party i went along to, not as staff this time....so that was fun in itself! got lucky enough to show sum enthusiasm towards some weights....but was (un) lucky to have them attatched to my bits. it seemed to impress the crowd so i musta done good!

then i got tied and suspended. OMG once again, where was i when i was young fit strong and better looking? probably hanging off rocks or rescuing people with rope instead of decadently hanging from them and being spanked....i guess....that was another life.

so as uni starts to cram in the last bit of info, essays to write, exams to sit....things are looking up in the D/s world too. Yay!

hello....hmmmm first time ive looked at my own profile in ages.....no pics...wonder when that happened....damn....

oh....and PS....off to Sunny, funny, far north queensland....wish us all luck.....

if NOTHING else....i am tenacious in the pursuit of being owned....

Once again, what a lovely night out on saturday. Those monthly parties are just getting better and better.

How lovely is it to see all those nice new faces arrive with apprehensive grins, leaving with gushing smiles and red bums....well...you know who gets the red bums, no need to explain....

New Dom/mes new subbies and all lovely dressed in their fav fetish wear....or not....as the night progressed.

As always...the returning faces...added that extra spice for the new and not so new to take a peek at and to learn a lot.

There were spankings, canings, floggings, and ROPE....rope everywhere, piercings by the lovely Miss D, fire play being demonstrated and most of all....lots and lots a love....or were those all un happy groans and sighs!

one of my favs was a Domme friend sporting new long flowing locks, a Dom with sexy lean looks....and OMG...that beautiful red-head subby with THOSE boots....the kick-ass, stomp on you, with pointy bits and buckles up to yar!....stomp on me ....any time....please!!!

But, what a team we have going now, you should all come along some time and see what we can do for you....or to you, or with you....

well....dip me in honey and feed me to the Geeks....

OMG! the more i get into this whole study, university thing....the more i am loving it!

maybe law next! who knows.....

wow....the "look" party.....where to start?

where were you if not there?....

what can i say? loads of lovely lovely people, all in their finest. I got the best job of them all working with our fantastic photographer ... Em.... so i got to see all that black n shiny stuff......and you KNOW how distracting that is for me.

i got to see everyone pout n pose for the camera....OMG.... some of you, i think surprised yourselves at how awesome you looked.... some already knew it....and just flaunted more!

a grerat nite ...we gotta do it again some time.

oh and bye the way....had a lovely chat with a Domme.

how refreshing it is to chat with someone that can ooze Domme-ness, and have you want to...to.... just drop.....

also have me challenged and stimulated and asking questions....ever the inquisitive one here....and encouraging me to ask.....oh so much to learn....also making me want to fall at her feet.....

its people like this,folks, that keep me hanging in there.....who knows where or what will happen....but i learned more about where i might fit with another in the first 10 mins of conversation than i have in a long long while....

thank you Maam....

hello, yet another fantastic party. sooooo many lovely people are coming out of the woodwork....and some....are staying out!!!!

im hoping that you are all enjoying the variety of people that come along, the ideas, the conversations....and the....just enough room to swing a cat , but lets do it anyway...mentality you all have....wasnt it a hive of activity.....

so many butts, ropes, canes.....you name it....and it was swinging, flinging, and stinging all to the happy crescendo of some folks experiencing their first electro-play....phew....wore me out watching.

what a lovely display for all those lovely first timers that braved it to come along to see those lovingly suspended ,to the glowing butts and backs of tender loving corporal punishment. First - timers that saw that it was safe , sane....and we all look after you.....

my favourite question of the night.... Miss D, do you know a subby-boy i might be able to borrow?....my god, my arm nearly dislocated itself in the speed of the arm-raise.....reflex reaction i am sure.....

ha....what a trip....im writing an essay on the legal and ethical implications of restraint....if they only loved it as much as i do.....

borderline therapeutic!

didnt think i could get into being a furry!.... but it did seem to bring some smiles on some faces...

and to trapeze girl.....OMG....what a fantastic display....reminded me what it is i like about ropes.

i did want to write a prosey piece on how fantastic she was...but too scared! we did chat about how i was blinded by her balance, the weave of the terapeze, the optical illusions that i could see ...or not see.... the shapes, the forms...the binding....

just wow! is all....

weee....now how much fun was that. What a lovely party Miss Dee and her team put together (as usual), and what a great turn-out too.

Awesome boys and girls in shiny rubber, Mistresses in tight, tight corsets, Doms in shiny shiny pants, venue slaves....well, from the position i was in, in the cage....lets say gave me a fabulous view.

The snap of whips on rubber clad bodies....red bottoms....violet wanded body parts....strung up and plastic wrapped servant girls....and the special show towards the end was....OMG....inspiring....to say the least.

After a week of exams and some more to come....the time out was more than appreciated....and always nice to meet more people.

hello,

it was pointed out to me that i may be a tad whingey on here....thankyou Maam!

yes i have been....and then some....just trying to pass on what little i know about the down side to this place.

I HAVE, in fact, been having quite a lovely time (at times) here. I read a few really inspiring intros and journals and am sometimes so moved, as to write the people involved and thank them personally.

and i DO....

so the general reader gets my vented spleen versions....and the truely inspiring....get a personal thankyou!

i am also cognisant of the fact that i could just as easily delete all the dreary, negativity i have written....but there is a journey going on here folks, and id like to see how (if) i have grown.

sucks to be the masses....right!...So my apologies.

like for example....i have met some young Dommes here (that dont refer to them selves as Dommes, Mistress, Goddess...or whatever...they already recognise they arent there YET!) that are intelligent, inquisitive, confident and self assured....and more than well on the way to becoming, learning, growing into fine, fine, true dominants....and maybe beyond.

Imagine having that said about you in your 20's.

OMG...imagining being owned by them....tremble....

Then there are the fabulous Dommes with all of the above in spades....and experience. double tremble....They know what they want, have a particular person in mind, enjoy the search and have respect for the subbies who want to serve them....but as one Domme said here....2 equals negotiating the sharing of an unequal dynamic, and others that describe their perfect sub as an equal first.

the subbies and slaves (i love the slaves)...that describe their exploration, growth, servitude, devotion and loyalty....just make me drool. if only i could be like that....so much i want to give....and keen to give it all to the right one.

and yes Maam (s)...i will try persistence, perseverence and just a little more patience.

so lets try that.....positive is, as positive does...?

blinding glimpse of the obvious (BGO).....
its only just occurred to me that those dom/mes, that bail and block after a meet or two, usually 3....slag-off to those that will listen, about how lame, inadequate...etc etc (insert your own list of denegrations here)....have actually exceeded the limits of their domly repertoir.

imagine that... a dom/me that says they are experienced and will push your boundaries....has actually reached their imaginative, creative, experiential and intellectual limit....and then say how hopeless you are....and then block you.... how awesome is that.....

so, the next dom/me that professes expertise and excellence....ask them how long their last subby or slave ownership was.....but get specific when they say months....because theyd be lucky to make the half dozen visits!

sorry....im a bitch....but this is happening so much....especially to girl switches....why is that you think? too much of a challenge....me thinks?

prove me wrong, and explain why all those subbies and slaves....and switches are so lame....

tap their potential and your own....and you'll have a shit eating grin....trust me....

hello.....funny reasons for not even being considered....# 10....being bi....(from a bi Dom/me)

What a lovely time i had on sunday!

Meeting new faces is always encouraging an kinda makes up for the time that is wasted by those that are not actually capable of putting fantasy into reality.

chatting with other subbies, that, like me, for the right person will hand over all that they are for a Dom/me that knows what they want and need from their subbie / slave, and how to get the best out of them.

Imagine all those thoughts you have had, imagine all those fantasies, imagine someone ACTUALLY at your feet, actually doing as you wish....actually begging you with their eyes for more ways to please you....

again, i say to you....just show up.

oh, and ps to those Doms....yes mostly men so far....but i have experienced it with Dommes....what do you get out of leading on subbies and slave who genuinely will do what you want, actually even display some kind of need to serve....but when you work out that they are smart, intelligent, have real lives of their own, dont need to serve you, but WANT to with every part of themselves....will actually show up....

BUT.... you DONT want to show (and probably never intended too)....so you message them that THEY are lame, that THEY are pathetic, that THEY are not real....and then block them.....

we learned about that in psych 101!!! im pretty sure its projecting.....you should look into that!!!

But anyway....there are real folks out there, and some of them wont be your cup of tea....no need to block them....we all talk you know....you never know....my best subby or slave friend could have been your next best one....but not now!

omg, omg, omg!... a lovely Domme that is running some workshops, asked me to bondage model for her.... what a lucky, lucky boy i am...

hope i can maybe get some pics....oh...but thats right....CM may not let me put anything like that up....

wish me luck on both counts!

again, id like to thank those that i have been chatting with. Networking is fun, and developing friendships with like minded folks can only be a good thing.

another interesting knock-back (for want of a better term).... was because i was too experienced and too into the public scene! HA HA HA HA HA HA...omg

so far i have been knocked back on being too femme, too butch, too short, too fat, too toppy, too subby, too stupid, too chatty, a wanna be.....all this from a brief profile....and thats ok.....

what id like is all the real people to NOT KNOCK BACK meets with like minded folks, so that we can all know whose real....and network with each other....again...ya just never know who you might meet....but at least then you will know who are the time wasters and who arent....

just a lame thought....good luck and good searching all....

hello.... back again.....hey folks....can we work out a code word...secret handshake....or some god-damn thing....so that those that wanna do their thing online...or in their mind...or in their own fantasy world....can go and do it with other like minded folks....

Sure....i understand the value of fantasy to mental health, relationships....even to society of an intact, active fantasy world....i even visit myself occassionally....but i wouldnt want to LIVE there!

SO....if i havent made myself clear enough....if you dont quite understand....i seek Real life, real people.....lets actually do the shit you dream of....and then some....

Again....i expect to meet....i expect some form of human interaction....and yes...if we like each other....god forbid on a BDSM website....i even expect to play....

sudden gasp of rapidly intaken breath from the masses...

what a toppy subby....expecting play (at some stage some where....even a longterm relationship)...

large thud from the gasping crowd as someone faints at the audacity....demanding little shit....

so please....if i say hello....or you contact me... just let me know... are you after fantasy mind fucks....or the real thing...

as i said....fantasy is fine...i love that you love that....its awesome...its wonderful...its healthy....no one gets hurt all safe sane and consensual up the wazzoo....

its just not for me....i am sure you can cope with that....

too bad too....there are some of you that should make that bold step....into reality...lemme know when you are all there....you know my number!!!!

things are happening....i like things happening....so maybe my time here is short....and thats a good thing....more later....if and when allowed....

thanks to scary-psycho-Dom/mes....just had a new round of every blood test and shots going....and more to come....

beware my fellow real-lifers...there are people out there that are pretty nuts....

hello again, all you straight male Doms out there peeking at my pic.....

surely there are enough, lovely straight females out there to keep you entertained....Hmmmm?

its my ass isnt it.....?

LOL!

enough bad energy, dislike negativity....lets move on....karma...or whatever you believe in sorts it all out....

well well well....isnt it interesting, that these massively experienced folks have disappeared from the radar.

i wonder why that is....maybe they DO have something to hide....

its great to watch something implode like that...and i havent had to do a thing....just turn on the hstory channel and watch it all catchup....

im still embarassed that i fell for it too....

hello....my first experience of a dangerous situation through meeting someone on this site.

only due to the fact that i took personal safety measures that literally allowed me to escape....am i here in-tact to tell about it. I have found out i am actually luckier than i first thought....

i advise people that they be careful of folks that seem to good to be true....as is the usual case....it is!

there is a couple here, that will soon fall to their own mistakes...notariety is giving them fewer places to go.....all their mates they brag of....are actually turning on them....you should hear the unsolicited, corroborating stories coming from all over the eastern sea board.

so look out in the north and in the west....expect a visit soon....

look for those little clues, anger, self riteousness, overselling their experiences and abilities...people can hide these things for a few days....but after that they start to sneak out.

if you ask me...i will tell... be careful

hello...more interesting opportunities for me to learn. Thanks to all those that have provided me with valuable lessons.

i have gained valuable tips on diet and wel-being from those that have way way way over BMI's (and yes i KNOW they are floored, but you do get the idea dont you?) ...

i have gained insight from those, on my respiratory health, by the chain smoking...and lessons in reality from those who chose to escape from it in a purple haze....

as you can tell... i learn from the best!

oh yeah.... as i wrote a little while ago....if you have to keep telling me how good a dom/me you are.... why is it that i forget...i know i have my faults too...we can openly discuss those.... it will take some time...but for some it seems they have no faults at all...

if you have to tell me how experienced you are....shouldnt that experience speak for itself.....

if you have to tell me how fastidious you are....but dont know what universal precautions are , nor of the practise of prevention of cross-contamination.... body fluids are the vector!...then someone needs to have a think....

and...just because you say it is true....doesnt actually mean it is.....

oh...i could be wrong... but id love to hear that argument!!!! go on...widen my horizons!!!

wow...havent i had a depressing experience here today. I been blocked by someone who accused me of breaching their security. they thought i passed on a real name...when i had only passed on their collarme name...like thats top secret....but anyway...just so you all know.

The person i supposedly passed on their name to also doesnt think that i breached security...as i hadnt disclosed either of their real names to eitherof them!

so much for trying to introduce inexperienced dommes to an Experienced one!

But whats funny, as i have read before on CM, that those that run for the block button...dont really allow for a right of reply.... so now we cant sort things out.

The collarme world is far far too small to be blocking people for bullshit reasons...but that of course is their right.

Wow my first personal drama on this site...too bad its someone from my own home town...and we all know how much i want to network with people from there...despite my previous experiences with an inordinate number of duds from my home postcode....

like the other day i wrote a hello to a new subby....and they blew me off completely... saying i wasnt their type....im a subby for gods sake....im not meant to BE your type...

networking people...its all in the networking...just remember that! nitey nite folks

ooooh! the people you meet on collar me. not often you meet people that you instantly feel you would consider ANYTHING for.

It doesnt happen often....but it may have happened...watch this space folks.

Already, i have had my horizons widened...and a few things i never thought could be!

yuuuummm...nervous giggles!

hello... visit plans...weeee....can i come visit with you too?

its all networking folks.... how you really gunna know if i am good for your...or you for me unless we meet?

hello everyone...hows your search?

mine is , well, lets say frustrating....sure there are some fabulous possibilities....but i put those all in the.... lets-see-who-actually-shows pile!

to an interesting observation over the past 24 months of wide travels and meeting a lot of folks.

Please dont show me pics of you from 15years ago....if i did that to you....you'd be VERY disapointed in ME...when i turned up aged 15 years more...now wouldnt you?

Man i reckon i was hot as a 25yo too!

if i ask do you smoke....please say yes or no. I actually have health issues related to others smoking....its not a some times thing...its not a social thing....its not only when i have a few beers....you smoke and i will have health issues no matter how social you may believe smoking is.

i have arrived at more than a few "non smokers" places to note lighters in every possible location....just in case you cant get from one side of the room to the other without a lighter!

also having told of my health issues with second hand smoke.... having the caring and considerate Dom/me light up...not only 1,2,3 times...but almost on a chain smoking basis!

Not only letting me know they dont care about my health...but also their own....

if you tell me you are a health fanatic, good cook, keep a clean house, have no pets, have a billion dollar income.....at which point do you think i wouldnt notice.... just tell it like it is and it'll save a whole world of disappointment within minutes of arriving.

You may be surprised to know Dom/mes that its not your skills or lack as an owner...or the fact that you own a mansion or a company...but the way reality lines up with the emails, telephone calls, texts and pictures that are the real key.

ok ive had my say....i do love you all...i have met awesome people....its a reality thing for me...ok!

Hello everyone....a weekend coming up and a party to go to....woo hoo...it has been far too long between parties for me.

All of my own doing and committments.

if only i were owned then my time and committment would be my owners and i wouldnt have to worry!

parties in sydney and maybe off to melb soon again too....all in the hope of networking AND finding that elusive owner.

i am happy that i am invited back to these things...thats always nice!

ha....heres some role reversal for you....

Hey straight male doms / subs...dont ask me to join your friends list or a chat invite on collarme...without even saying hello in a message!

what you think im gunna be your friend without having ever even said hi?

Anyway....when i look at a friends list....i see those who might act as a reference...or at least a guide to what you are like.... i dont want people judging me on people i have never met...

hmmmm....nice try boys! I like you an all....if i cant meet...why bother....

Hello all....lovely chatting to you...well you know who you are!

am booked in to a party for the first time in ages....id love a work over, but still seeking that special owner.

I dont just give it away!!!...well actually i would....but thered have to be something there...between us both....

have fun all....hope to see you soon...

Big life changes for me at the moment...back at school.... so if you wanna go all school Marm on my ass....im your subby!

School Master could work too... grinz!!

yes... i seek REAL time...
yes... i actually expect to MEETyou...
WHY else would i be here...???

ha haa ha haa ha haa...i just removed 14 viewings by self proclaimed straight male doms!!!

HOW FUNNY IS THAT?

now why would a straight male Dom be looking at my profile?

one... just told me he want to fuck me soooo hard!

Flattered, im sure! but if you gunna ask me that... be in the same hemisphere...and you'll have more than an even chance!

...and another thing...what is it with you straight male doms asking Dommes or better yet...telling them, that they will dominate them!!!

Like they would appreciate a Domme contacting them, and on initial contact saying something like.... on your knees bitch-boy... or some such!!!

The audacity....

...and while im at it.... remember a whine i had a while ago about girls being able to get ANY pic up...and that there was a discriminatory, totally arbitrary rationale behind what gets allowed on this site.... still happening mr collarme....girls with legs akimbo... featuring multiple implements... in positions of submission...in positions of dominance ( i dont wanna do that bit!!!) ...

try to get a pic up as a boy featuring any of these things!

end rant....

been chatting to a lot of folks here.... you are all wonderful...and im learning lots from you!

hello.... what a lovely place melbourne is.... i met some really nice people...and...some really not nice people.... i LIKE those ones best!!!!

ooowwwiiieee!

hello.... can someone explain to me how it is you would learn and experience all that there is to learn and experience in BDSM.... online?

just saw an interesting entry for an on line BDSM relationship.

Yes, once again, i am aware of the irony of this being an on-line entry.... but it might be like on-line mountain climbing or white water rafting....or having a 4 course dinner on line.... i am sure its an awesome meal...stretches your cognitive abilities...maybe even hones your typing skills... but...

...just but?

well.... arent i an excited

subby...
off to melb for munch and a party... then back to syd for another.... n more munches....

weeeee

ummm...hello...been viewed by some straight male Doms....

come on guys you know you want to!!!

i am flattered

ps...im coming to melb soon...very excited!

hello.... got yet another interesting bit of input into my intro profile and journals.

a few weeks ago i was all but abused for being a cry baby...a reference in my intro to wannabe needy Dommes actually...rather than myself.

i was cranky enough to ask them to re read my profile...they actually did...and almost apologised for not reading it correctly.

then i got a message from a Domme...i'm sure she's wonderful and all that....but they referred to me as a Pig-male ('..a stereotypical male wanting everything to suit himself with little consideration to the needs of the woman..") or some such...OMG!

i cannot imagine a more mis-understood summation of my character....

'...Your profile also comes across as being very closed-minded and inflexible...', even after asking people to be a little less judgmental on this site....but thats ok...a misunderstanding i am sure....

Which part of: i need to serve, i need to be owned, i need to make your life better, easier...no sex need be involved its all about the needs of a Domme....DONT people understand.

i try to outline my own faults and personal limitations (not D/s limitations) as honestly as i possibly can...and still people mis-read and then call me on it.

it seems folks are quick to dismiss people for their own limited comprehension skills, rather than what is meant by the writer on this site.

Hey folks...if if written something dumb...or not been clear enough...please write... i am sure i can clear up mis understandings...or better yet...try reading the whole profile and check any dyslexic is and is nots...am or am nots...does or does nots....you will find it makes a big difference!!!

for example...i like chocolate...is pretty different to i dont like chocolate.

Nothing personal folks.... just had a few very confused responses...

once again...you write nothing and you are shallow...write too much....and...who knows!?

So, the year nearly over!... I have had, mostly a good year...the search continues...i know that someone is out there for me...and know that i must wait.

One of my Domme friends said maybe i should consider 2 Dommes...to keep me occupied!

Damn...its hard enough finding one...lets keep to that shall we!!!

Hello... just to reinforce some of my previous questions.

How is it that a site for people who are a minority and live on the fringe of the "standard", "the norm" or conventional, continue to apply conventional norms when looking for a partner.

Yet again my commitment to the lifestyle is questioned because i dont want to marry someone after what even by todays standrads seems unseemly haste.

Surely marriage is a hangover from a religious patriarcial past...that i am mostly in disagreeance with.

Now once again, because i dont want to marry in the first few net conversations, doesn't mean i lack committment.

also, i get the feeling that we shouldn't "Play" till we commit to each other....damn...may as well go back to vanilla. Surely a committed Domme / sub couple should develop and grow together first both in the dungeon and in real life...then maybe move in together...pursue business and social adventures together maybe meet the family....and then maybe consider a lifetime nilla sanctioned committment.

i dunno...CALL ME OLD FASHIONED!

lets say hello...have a coffee or cake first before we decide to rush off to the registry office...or have that white wedding.

i dont know how many times i gotta write this...

i will move for you, quit my job for you, serve you, make your life fun, work for you, i will live in a box for you.... but surely you cant be JUST ANYONE!

if anyone wants me...i'll be in my corner!

How funny ... no matter where YOU are... everyone is always somewhere else!

Thankyou to those that have messaged me over the past few weeks...you have restored my confidence in the pursuit of a potential Dom/me.

I KNOW that i'll get there in the end...

happy hunting all

Tell me...

if you have to tell me constantly that you are Dom/me...why is it that i forget...?

ACTIONS always scream louder than words...

So...how does this work...?

I look like i wear a latex item...we're not into latex...

I look like i wear an item a girl wears...and im too femme...

I look like i wear a blokey item...and i am too butch....

i don't write much in an intro...you aren't intelligent enough...

i write a lot...and i am too chatty...

i look for play...you lack commitment...

i look for ltr or 24/7...and i am too clingy...

how bout you talk to me...and see what i am really like...

that might work...

My oh my...what a dismal experience i have had in th last few months....eeek!

So, we wont play the whos more hopeless than the other retributions! Suffice to say, life is an experiment until you get it right!

Now...for those that care...I have travelled far and wide...i am not averse to even throwing caution to the wind and jumping on a plane, i am willing to drive a few k's...even a few thousand of them...i am not averse to train n bus...i am committed to finding the right fit...so dont get me going about MY committment...be sure of yours as well.

If its play, im ok with that, if its more thats ok too...just dont ask me to commit in the first few minutes or even weeks...we'll both be disappointed.

You know....give it time...work, life, families and other impediments to play will get in the way...

take care

Ok...thats it...

ANOTHER one of my subby friends has been screwed over by a wannabe Dom/me...

What is it with you people?...i have seen my fair share of no-shows and wannabe's, netwankers and losers, too, but watching it from outside is sad...

One of my subby friends...booked a flight, paid for a place...they'd met, chatted and done all that good stuff...but when it came to it...the Dom/me had no balls...at least they pulled out a week before hand...i never even got a text on one occasion!...

But there they were...she was ready, willing, able, enthusiastic and excited...willing to be at the feet of the person they'd met and chatted with...and they bail....WTF?

if only they knew all the things they were missing...imagine having a subby that actually likes you, wants to serve, and is there with only their loyalty and regard for you...imagine all the things that they would be open to for you!!! Imagine all the things they would do for you...imagine all the fantasies they could fulfil for you....

but i guess thats it...NO IMAGINATION...too bad...too sad...your loss

JUST TURN UP DAMN-IT!

Don't worry...we all talk to each other...us subbies...we know who you are...

There is soooo much potential for you Dom/mes...if only you'd turn up...

Lovely dinner in CBR, big thanks to the Hosts and those lovely people that came a long. Yummy food and nice to see you all again.

Lots of things happening for me atm...who knows where it will all lead...wish me luck.

Well all fun must come to an end...my time here house sitting the dungeon comes to an end tomorrow.

I have had sooo much fun chatting to all of you and have met online, a number of VERY special people...

Hope to meet you all very soon.

so now i have some things to do and decisions to make...its all so exciting.

But, for now back to no net access again...whatever will i do?...maybe just have to go out and get used and spanked...

Thankyou to Mistress Raven for allowing me to look after her dungeon....you should all visit her and make use of her services....she is very....creative!!!

So ahead...visits, formal dinners and play party, Munch and party, Private party, and....maybe if i am very special...a fisting party...OMG...

will let you know...be good...

OK...THATS it...i am sooo pissed with MR Collarme.

For nearly 2 years i have tried to get pics of me on this site...and on nearly every occasion have been rejected for...breech of community standards or some fucked up nudity clause in the US laws...

ok...here it is...

i can understand having to limit some pics ok...i can even understand breaching community standards...but for fuck sake...this is a D/s site

For the record... one rejected one...was my bare butt...another one was with that very same butt in pvc shorts...the third was of my bare butt with my testicles in view...Just testing!

On the collarme site there are women in PVC, rubber, various stages of undress, breasts, tied with ropes, bodies suspended (wholly) from the floor, any number of dungeon shots with devices of impact, penetration, any number of body piercing, items of restraint, cages etc etc etc...this IS a D/s site afterall.

But one bare ass and one in PVC being rejected is incomprehensible.

The bare ass has NO marks, next to NO gross hair, NO penetrations, NO ropes, NO equipment...i have NO fucking flab like half the people on here, i have NO scars, NO deformities (god forbid someone with disabilities wants to get on with movement aids!!!!), Nothing that i can see as offensive or unacceptable.

Sure...i accept that CM gets all manner of fucked up net wankers and creepy trench coat types...but i assure you i am FAR from that.

Standards are there to set the tone, and to facilitate expression and so on...but there IS a DEFINITE inconsistency apparent in the application of this standard.

Maybe the standard should be passport pics only...thats the only enforceable "standard' i can see. Wouldn't that be good...we could all look just like the very community, that barely accepts or appreciates the unbelieveable benefits that this "lifestyle", (i hate that phrase) offers.

it seems if i am female, flash my tits, dress up in ANY manner as i wish...i will be ensured rapid access and approval.

I am really cranky, that this has happened yet again, for seemingly arbitrary and inconsistent enforcement of "standards".

i am proud of my butt, and how my body appears....its not the best...but by no means the worst....how 'bout a fair-go MR Collarme???

Late nights.....aren't they soooo good!

so...i have some time on the net...time to become a geek again!

Over the past several months i have made a concerted effort to seek out an owner.

To those i have met in real life , thankyou. Some have been sooo helpful, you'll never know. Some have scared me a little, but the advise was taken as it was meant.

Its got me to thinking...AGAIN...about what i want.

Despite my profile intro saying or hinting that i am after play , this is NOT ALL i want or need.

This is mentioned only as a start. I still stick by my idea that i am not going to commit in the first 5 minutes....but as politicians seem to be able to get away with the statement,'...i will not rule it in nor rule it out...'!

I mean ideally i'd like someone to share with, but is that too desperate to write it as my be all and end all requirement.

it is surprising however the number of Dommes on here that write or mention at meetings that they are seeking marriage and kids.

Thats all nice and such, but why look for something that reflects the societal norms, when this is an alkternate lifestyles site. Surely theres a "marrymenow.com "out there somewhere.

Not that i am judging folks, we seem to have enough of that in the D/s lifestyle as it is...but dont hold it against me that i'm not going to elope with you this afternoon!...is that too much to ask.

i also hope that others don't judge me for the placement of my own priorities.

I'm even ok with relocating and moving in...but making the marriage decision should at least take a few days together shouldn't it!?

But enough of that.

I have had some interesting conversations with some articulate Dommes lately too. Mostly having opposite poles on thoughts on a number of issues.

My favourites atm are the. '..Write a shit load about yourself in the first message,'...'and the dont waste my time..i'll ask what i need to know... Dommes'...

whats a boy to do?

The other one is the difference between the "Do-me" and the "Do-you" Dommes.

Now i am all for being used and having do-me tendancies...that i do try to hide....but i try to be all about what it is that my owner needs and want...truely

Which one do you present? The problems we have as subbies.

Like i had a discussion with a Domme friend and the topic of waht it was i could do for her and the generality of it was that she wanted to use me, mostly sexually i imagine...then another equally as astute required personal service you know like pampering errands chores etc....

So now if i write one set up, i exclude the other...and if i write both up...i appear to not be able to commit.

Surely this is all about meeting the Dommes needs regardless, and that that is between the owner and sub/slave. To be negotiated once we know each other better.

Just my thoughts...i am sure i am wrong!

yawn! just got in from a lovely night out.

there i was sitting and observing some of the activities of some of the others...very interesting too might i add...very...lets say...physical...wow.. just a hint...not a single implement was used on one sub and her master was expending a lot of effort...

so i was sitting by myself when 3 lovely Dommes descended on me wanting to use me as their CBT crash test dummy... how could i refuse...AND they said they let me have it back!

AND...all those wonderful people in rubber. i have to get me a cat suit...but i guess i wouldn't look as good as all of you did.

Sooo shiny and so black...and so yum.

Went to a munch in Canberra with a bunch of folks from down there.

Nice to see everyone...and despite the wait staff's best efforts...i enjoyed my meal!!!

Too bad restaurants don't sit you in a circle...otherwise those opposite and next to me get stuck with mee all night!!!

Lets plan some play...i say!

So... still looking....and getting a lot of help from a few folks from this site... so despite my moanings previously... there are actually some real people on here. They have been wonderful as well as eye-opening!

Been going to a nice new venue in sydney...can only say...wow...then went to another venue that has been around for a while...remember, i haven't! Lots of people and a few contacts later, the potential for more networking...woo hoo!

Sure...i am looking, and yeah i'm looking pretty hard...but i am still not desperate...despite being a boy...and a subby.

its still gotta be the right mix. i have said it before and i will say it again. i am after an owner that i can get along with have some fun with, and then see how it goes. i don't expect to be entering into a lifetime agreement on the first cafe meet! OK!

god...i could have appaling halitosis and can cover it up for a few dates....or snore terribly...you just never know hey.

oh...and the other thing...just because we don't match...and i can decide that too (quite possibly before you even open your mouth...), doesn't mean that we can't network.

but hey its all good in BDSM land...isn't it?

Wow... thankyou to the organiser...lots of folks to meet...thankyou to the owner... what a venue!

Getting excited...goin to a party, goin to a party!!

Tonight in sydney...woo hoo!

hi all...been meeting a few people lately...kinda nice to see real people...as opposed to what others are there?...well you know!

i have a nice calendar of events coming up...very happy with that....only have the 3rd weekend of may empty....

wanna fill it? hee hee!

met a lovely newby Dom the other day.

i think i scared him off...who...little 'ol me?

can you believe it? his loss though...could have shown him a whole new world!

Man...(said in that winey dragged out way!). i have been out beyond the reach of phones and the net...what did we ever do before that...well i can tell you...wanking...

very unsatisfactory set of circumstances...fun and all that...but i still need to be owned.

i have some parties to go to for may, so that is sorted...but to be owned and to serve one would be nice...still searching.

my lack of communication ability at the moment doesn't help either...but we'll keep trying.

Still meeting a few nice people on here, mostly chats, so that is encouraging.

hello....wanna know how to sort the wannabes from those that are real???

just ask for a meet...you know public, safe, let them know they can tell their friends...let them bring a friend...their kids...whatever it takes to ensure that they are safe and you are not an axe murderer...

and guess what...you'll get a polite reply saying that you are not their type, personalities don't match, not what they are looking for, etc etc...and you've barely chatted...

it always comes after the invite to meet though...how strange.

Sure i am ok with a polite refusal...i've given them myself...and hope i am respected for it...you will be too.

oh yeah some of those names where they infer wild, evil, naughty, etc etc etc...sometimes just don't fit....but then again i guess the descriptor "Boring Master" or "Wannabe Mistress", or "Net Wanking Only"...wouldn't get you any hits huh?

Subzeero you bitch!!!

I am meeting very nice and REAL people slowly...but still hope that i can meet friends here!...a subbies life to live in hope!!!

I have met lovely people on here...so i refuse to give up entirely...though the thought of going back to vanilla did cross my mind! EEEEK!

Went to a lovely party on saturday. Where to start? so much fun and lots of people that i didn't know.

Firstly to the venue hosts and slaves....what a great nite. The serving staff did such a nice job, so polite!...and me just a subby boy!

The night was VERY daunting actually. do you go rushing up to every Domme and say,'...play with me...', do you sit back and play all subby and wait to be approached...do you risk idle chat with someone you think is a Domme to find that their owner comes up and says go away...OUCH!

i even went to the Host maam to introduce me...and that worked out pretty well. A safer but slower option.

There was such a lovely variety of folks there, all dressed wonderfully and doing such nice things to each other. My particular favourites appeared later in the evening, well maybe they were there for a fair while, i was distracted by one of my subby friends experimenting on her switch side....she did so well, Master should be very proud.

one beautiful subby was flogged and whipped by her Master. His use of a single tail was awesome. i sat mesmerised by her ability to take such skillful use of the whip. She did soooo well, i wish i could be able to do that.

All these wonderful people that i am meeting...wonder if they know they are such role models.

Anyway a couple into leather and latex caught my eye...such lovely boots...i could have just sit and drool over them for the whole evening.

...i didn't even catch their names...but very lovely. Tall and in the highest of high heels i have ever seen...very jealous...and thinking my 6 inch thigh highs as being lame!!

i am inspired to "leather-up", but i'd need a far nicer figure than the one i have atm.

i was introduced to a nice Domme that i had been trying to work up the courage to approach. We chatted for some time and who knows where things might go...he says being very coy!

you just never know with these things do you?...wish me luck

hello again... i am all excited again to be going to another party. i am sure i'll try to tell all when i come back up for air.

i am still seeking an owner...even stooping to putting an ad in a local porn shop...can you believe that i got an answer and they asked what BDSM stood for...OMG...like THEY had any chance!

I think he just wanted me to talk dirty to him!... i love those wannabe Doms...i have referred to them as the '...suck my dick bitch Doms...' you know boys...there is actually more to it than having your dick sucked...thats very fun too...but we wanna do so much more for you "Master", go on, use your imagination...we'll blow your mind at what you can get us to do!

Anyway, enough fantasy.

Once again, thankyou to all those lovely people i have chatted to and met...there are real people out there...keep looking folks...i just wanna findthe right one!

Oh, had a little photo shoot yesterday. Hmmm, very fun. Though no doubt i won't be able to post them as i have D/s items on...OMG...imagine that...on a D/s site!

Gunna get some friends to take some too...maybe if you are nice to me i'll send you some!

so...it has been a while...and even this entry must be rushed.

Ok lets work backwards...that way i'll work up to the disappointments rather than start off with them!

I have met and played with a lovely switch girl from this site...we have played and well...you know...fun stuff happened...she loves my butt...and i love that she loves my butt...enough said!

After many chats with another lovely subby girl from this site...and MANY thanks to her Master...i was invited to a nice new venue in Sydney... Many thanks to Maam from the house...i can't wait to sub to you again should that ever happen again.

The venue is very well appointed and most will be more than happy with the equipment available and the spaces available in which to play in. Very comfortable and inviting indeed.

A number of folks attended, and seemed to quickly settle in and start playing with each other. It seemed there was a good mix of experienced and non experienced (public play that is) and i am so glad that those who came to play in public for the first time did so. They were credits to their owners. You did well...i am very proud of you...as well as jealous as hell!

wish i had such a body as many of you that night!

I was dealt with by the house Maam. OMG...i had a crush on her as soon as i saw her in her boots...drool!

I was then tied shibari style and lightly suspended and forced to balance on one leg. The blindfold made it difficult and it wasn't until i was tired and worn out that i worked out how to do it. NEXT time!!!

Very challenging...thankyou to the Master who tested me.

As i was being dealt with there were a number of lovely sighs, moans squeals made from the other subbies in the room...was lovely to hear...but i am glad i was where i was...rather than just watching.

Later in the night the play got sexier and sexier, and there were few dry bodies in the place...very exciting.but being the only free boy in the place i felt a little left out and had to content myself with watching.

i would feel unconfortable asking to play...so i didn't and as no offer was made i kept a shy distance.

So what does a subby boy do? Most of the Masters were content to play on their or others girl subbies...or let the girl subbies play with each other...it WAS nice to watch tho!

So heres hoping for some Dommes out there to be more in attendance next time....i AM still looking afterall!

the disappointments being that the search for a Domme has been very frustrating. i'll say no more.

ok folks....will everybody who is real, has experienced actual D/s, played, or live it raise their hand...

thought so....

wow...haven't i learned a lot over the past few weeks!

my apologies to all those subby boys that i have called lame...over the past couple of years....you aren't alone now...there are Dommes in there as well.

Maybe you can all meet off-line and stop clogging up the site with wannabe bullshit....

ooohh subzeero...you bitch!

i feel better already!

Please, if you are real...be prepared to meet after an initial message....otherwise we are both wasting our valuable time. Too much fun to be had out there, to be wasting time hey?

friday, friday, friday....the friday that would NEVER come!

so for the drive home and see some friends and meet someone special...i am beside myself!

AND whats more is, that there are some more people that i have met on CM that i hope to meet in person soon. All those nice subbies and slaves out there...i am learning so much...either in what you say, the way you feel, what you do, the way you think...and who you are!

Those switches that i keep meeting online occasionally...omg...wish that i could be you...but we all know what i think of switches....drool...would that i had that kind of ability. But i'll have to live with what i have...

So have a lovely weekend...i know i will...and with a bonus 4 days extra...can only be good!

so...i get to meet someone very exciting very soon. We have been chatting for a little while now...and you just never know how things might turn out.

maybe from speaking and learning, from all of you, i will learn what it is i want...i think i may be getting closer.

i have also made more contacts...even sum approaching me...how flattering is that!...and i just might get myself invited to some events...and you know how i like to misbehave...just a little...at these things. Thankyou sooo much for considering me...i hope i get to have fun with you too.

So i am very excited about that...new place new people...very nice. Though...what is it with the local area?...Been a bit quiet folks...maybe some new year hangovers...maybe...how 'bout we do something fun?

ohhh...just realised what the hide button is here for...no more people that i don't wanna see...if you know what i mean!

s'ok...you probably have me hidden too...i know i would!

Love your work otherwise though...

i am making some progress in my search. i have chatted with some lovely Dommes (and a Dom) all lovely...but just not right...thats allowable...i'm not right for more than i'd like to imagine...good for you...you will find the right one.

i have narrowed the search...and we are in negotiations...it's nice to get to know people better and be confident in the fact that i am comfortable with myself and the situation...and if it doesn't work out...thats ok...i'll live and learn as much as i can from those that take the time to meet me.

That special someone who has self confidence, strength of character, forthright, fun and challenging...surely i can think of more!

So...i got a txt saying that i was to enter, dress and wait by the door...no questions, no talking...(if you know me...you'll know that was extreme punishment anyway!

).

i walked by the window and could hear the plaintive cries of a used slave and the solid thwacks as contact was made with an unknown paddle, flogger or some other implement.

i dressed as directed and waited

. My boots clacking on the hard floors...already i felt in the zone, my pvc hugging me tight, collar and wrist cuffs.

Master was working on the slave as i waited...my mind racing yet trying to find subby space with each contact and beautiful moan and gasp...this could be me.

i was brought into the room...slave was stretched face down, spread by attachments...a red arse already from a great deal of punishment already.

i was directed to watch as slave was utilised. i was getting into the sound, the strikes, the gasps, the rythmn the flight through the air, the different contacts, the different tones and textures. Master then directed me to lay face down with a small bench under me, raising my arse and spreading my legs, head buried and arms below.

alternately Master used our arses and other parts. The flogger found its way into my heart again with each spectacular thud on my shoulders...and that too of the slave when her share of the strokes met areas i would only moan in agony to, yet she took them with moans of ecstacy...such a cute whimper!

Our evening had only just begun... We brought in the New Year with much whimpering and in my case distracted cries...and much more fun to be had....

Happy New Year everyone..tell me if you think this was the work of a stay at home net subby...or that of real life?

i recently read a slaves entries in her journals and profile...my goodness. Would that i could write that well...i'll just keep plugging away.

Her words were very inspiring, and her thoughts on servitude, awesome. i have high standards to live up to indeed. i will try.

That, and the fact that i am reading a little more...and finding small pearls of wisdom that i can identify with...well, hope to identify with one day.

Changes, changes, changes...you just never know what is around the corner...or who is standing there, with a leash and an outstretched hand, beckoning you with a curled finger...a boy can only hope.

What an exciting few days it has been...omg...i have learned some new tricks on the messenger services...both msn and yahoo...you have all been so wonderful. Thankyou

There is also the potential for change in there too...a boy has got to like that...who knows what is instore for me...heres hoping for nice things...for everyone.

i will keep you all posted...not that you care...but hey if i don't write SOMETHING...i'll bust something...an nobody wants to see that.

Keep messengering me! a BIG discovery for me! And those few special subbies that have taken the time to get to know me...thankyou...we will meet...sometime soon.
i hope...networking kids...thats how you find the right one...eventually!

Hmmm...having chatted with a few people and seeing how they do things in their D/s lives...i am inspired. Thankyou.

There is a growing theme of interest that is gnawing at the back of my mind and that is of slavery...

Yeah yeah, i know...i barely fit into the classification of subby...but whose classification is it anyway?

i have seen, and know of a growing number of slaves and read many profiles,...and i kinda get it...i want to get there one day...i don't know how i will do it...i have doubts that i even could...but i sooooo want to end up there.

A boy has got to have dreams!

I have started reading some books...and recommended others by friends on this site. Yeah, i know...its all fantasy...but having a fantasy somewhere a while back drove me to making the choice that i needed to step out from behind the vanilla curtain and take a step into the D/s world...i did it...and can't / won't look back.

Maybe that fantasy will take me further into submission and as deep as i can go.

i need a guide...i need someone as strong as i am when i guide...i need a teacher...i need someone that is as patient as i am when i teach...

Again, thankyou to those that i have been chatting with on this site, i met with another from the local area and we have had a couple of lunches...most enjoyable. Maybe we should get a subby club together!

It is lovely to sit and chat to like minded people...(how could i say that about anyone...like my mind...eeep)..to chat about how we fit this stuff into our lives...i am learning heeeeps.

i also met with a couple the other day...and wasn't that exciting! i got to dress up in my favourite boots...and well...the rest is...well was very exciting. i got to do some things that i have dreamt of for a long long time...write me...i'd love to tell!!!

So heres one of those intermittent spurts of just sitting on the computer. i get to read profiles and see what you are all up to.

Thanks to those that message me and to those that i have met up with...see it wasn't that bad was it!! Nice to see we all have the same issues that come up in this...lifestyle...i hate that decription...but you know what i mean.

one of the really interesting things is all the different things we each get out of this...thing...we do. i am inspired to try to be more...well..just more! we each want something and we each give something...just getting that right balance huh?

i am really interested in those that i've talked to about how they balance vanilla life and D/s life...all comments and points of view, gratefully accepted... how do YOU do it?

So...now i'd like to look for someone to take me on.

i have recently parted with my former owner...i'd like to think that i learned a great deal from her.

i am a handful, but know that i will suit someone out there.

at the moment, i am in the middle of a busy time...with little access to the net...so i hope to be in contact soon.

ignore that subby whiny crap in the previous entry!

went out to SPANK in newcastle Last weekend. OMG 200 tickets sold. Very surprising.

Still too many newcastle yobs attended...shoulda had a dress code thing going on.

But those that DID go to the effort and turn up dressed appropriately thanks for the great time. Especially horse /pony boy and his Mistress.

Thanks also to those boys n girls that made passes at us you are all very cute, but hey life goes on...maybe next time huh?

I especially loved the police bois. you were gorgeous and had me and my slave friend salivating all night...too bad i'm a boy...but hey you were sooooo cute.

I hope that there are more events coming to Newy...we sooo deserve it. Why should we have to go to sydney or move out of the bloody place to play and have fun and meet people.

i was so happy to see all these nice people...maybe next time we can all play as we'd like instead of watching...hmmm?

So.... i have tried again to get pics on this damn site....AGAIN

can anyone help.

i am not a freak, i don't have oozy disgusting bits hanging off me, i'm not old and wrinkly, i don't even have things inserted in orifices...God knows i'd love too...

so why is it that i cant get my pics on here???

there are people with naked skin on here etc etc yet i can't even get my butt on here...how does that work?

i have seen devices pictured, naked butts, breasts and i can't even get a bare butt on here...its not even hairy!!!

end of rant...you should see it though!!! its not like i wanna send you a penis pic or something...they're just boring...a nice rounded butt with well placed marks...who wouldn't want to see it?

Where to start?

Oh my god...i have the darkest bruises on my butt ever. Still there after 5 days...got to the darkest yesterday. i am soooo excited.

So of course we went to the play party. Thankyou Grieff, Fyre2ice and kimmy for hosting such another lovely event. Only a small event and nicely casual...you all must come next time.

Ladylos granted me a fantasy...be careful of those kids...you just might get one. She turned me into her glove puppet at a party. oh my god....you know those times where you get it nearly right...well...nearly.

Very spectacular, though Mistress was in a mood to push me a bit. i wasn't aware of that at the time...but the bruises are testament to her patience.

Did i tell you i have these massive black bruises on my arse?

Anyway, so there i was on a table with Mistress' hand up my bum...then it occurred to me that no-one was watching ... bugger...things were going so well too....what, with my cock tied with 2.5 mm prussick cord (it has a little reflector stripe through it too, comes up very nicely in the photos!!) and Mistress' hand deep in my arse...i was very much being spoiled.

But...no-one was there to watch...bugger...will have to try it again. Whats up with that? One person came in and scurried out...i was so disappointed.

Back to the fantasy drawing board...wanting others to take turns at me....but i think Mistress was particularly interested in only having her hand in me...

So anyway, there i was...did i tell you mistress was fisting me?...oh, i have already...anyway, we had a rest for a while and then Mistress got bored again and wanted me on the flogging rack Fyre2ice had constructed.

Tied up and thinking Mistress was just going to give me a flogging...( i have been particularly trying over the past months) and stood there waiting.

i do love the cane in Mistress' hands...she is very good...and skillful...and knows how to get more out of me with each escalation.

Floggers where used and paddles and some sort of evil strap...that can only best be described as a razor sharpening belt, split in two....ouch! Very ouch!

Back to the cane...Mistress pushed a little further and went beyond my limits...didn't i squirm...i think Mistress wants me on our cross next time...that way i can't move at all.

Meanwhile some enthusiastic helpers where taking photos. At the end more where taken and it was the first time i have had whelts. My arse had hard bits all over it...and you could see them in photos.

By nites end, there was no scarring, but the next morning they had come out to show off. Two days later they went black...i asked Mistress to take more photos...

hopefully this site will let me place more photos...i am getting bored with my old ones...so we'll see.

So there you go...wish you were there...maybe you could have helped...or taken some yourself!

How much fun is it...??

Those days before a play party! A subbies thoughts to to all things thwappy, stingy, slappy, swooshy, rippy, grippy and teary...

ooops did i say that...should i have said,... that a subbies thoughts turn to sating their owners pleasures, wants whims, needs and fantasy...?

Mistress has taunted me with a couple of preparatory requests, so my mind begins to race, jumping from one "scene" to the next. So many toys...so few orifices!!!!

hope someone brings the black plastic wrap!

Ah ha...but isn't that what this is all about...the mind fuck....i'll be done over a thousand times before we walk in, and nearly spent before anyone lays a hand on me. That kind of impact / effect can only be had in this lifestyle.

i am looking forward to seeing all our friends from the canberra area again...and to be with all my little subby friends again...we really should get together and plot, plan, fantasize, giggle, sigh and see what other mischief we can get up to without all those bossy Dom/mes around.

So what are you up to this weekend? hope you are up to no-good too...why not come along and join us....hee hee

Went to Newcastle the other weekend. Nice to get back "home" for a few days. Visited a friend and her dungeon...just to say hello of course!

Not that i am a voyeur or anything, but sat round and watched Mistress work on a little switch Boi...very nice as was her subby. i do so admire those that can take a great deal of pain...makes me feel very small in the big wide world indeed.

Also the hightlight was meeting a slave girl (from this site) from not only my home town, but living one street away from the house i grew up in...the world is getting ever smaller...even the DS world.

Anyway, we spent many hours chatting and comparing notes and all that good subby stuff. Beware two subbies together...nothing gets done...no decision makers!!!

Anyway, "miss slave" is desperately seeking a strong Dom. Seems a pity that there appears to be even less of those than real lfe, actual subby boys....prove me wrong guys!

Here is a vibrant, eager, inquisitive, energetic, physically attractive woman, who despite her best efforts and undying need to serve, seems to have a small pool to draw from...how does that happen?

All those profiles out there and so little to ACTUALLY choose from...

Come on guys...JUST DO IT...or don't...we are waiting out there...

So, Mistress and i are starting to seriously look for some subbies to play with.

what a chore.

Firstly, boys...(again, mostly boys...sigh...what is it with us lot?) if you are in Istanbul (not constantinople), Irkutsk (i know its a region...but i can't spell it anyway...Hell...(yes look it up...its in Utah)...or any other place...don't write to Mistress telling her you will do anything for her...just get on a plane and email us from the airport and we'll see what you are made of...

so if you are out side OZ...then the yellow brick road won't lead to our dungeon Dorothy

Second...if you smoke....your chances just went up in flames....human beings are smelly at the best of time...adding to it... is just unattractive to us.

Third...you have to have a bigger penis than me...some might say...ah hah...hes got a small willy....lets both drop our pants and see who's is the smallest!

Big is better...therefore bigger has to be....STUPENDOUS! (so im a slut...sue me!)

Fourth, i am reasonably intelligent (these pages not withstanding!), Mistress is smarter than me...you have to be smarter than at least one of us!

Fifth, you come to us...we are each busy enough running around the countryside, with out chasing no-show subbies.

because we do run around the countryside, this can be negotiated.

Sixth, you should probably identify as slave...as you will get the crap stuff, that i have as hard limits!!! But you will be rewarded for your efforts....gotta be somethin' in it for you....right!

Then theres the whole...bi, adventurous, adaptable...blah blah blah

Sound good....write us

So...whether i deserved it or not, Mistress used me this weekend.

nice to be home for a change.

to keep Mistress on the edge, and take her over it...and over it, and over it...seemed to make her very happy...i think i was a good little subby boy.

Where are all those bi boys out there?
Mistress wants to know if there are any subby / slaves to do her bidding...and me of course!

a sneaky subby might remove previous entries...but thats just life

24 hours is a long time in the collarme world.

Mistress are together.

thankyou so much to those folks that during a number of discussions over the past have helped me see what it is that we each get from this lifestyle

you are all very clever little chickens

i am still off to work for a week or so...so bye

Mistress and i have parted ways for a while. who knows what the future may bring. I have been released from service and am free.

For now though, i have updated my profile and am sure it will appear soon.

i have learned much from my former owner and thank her for our time together. She has released me from her service but am sure we will in touch.

So now the search continues. i have some work commitments that will take me away from the net, so had to fill this out now.

i am not seeking 24/7 at this stage (of course) regular, fun, challenging and experimental meets are what i seek.

Let me know what you think.

Mistress arrives from a trip away tomorrow.

I am very very excited.

i have been couped up with no one to please for too long.

Although i do appreciate my time alone (i have never spent so much time on the net) i much prefer the real thing.

Mistress and i will be together for a few days, then i am off again too. It's easier for me when i am away as i have a job that can be 20/7 and keeps me jumping. When bed time comes, i'm snoring instantly and wake to an alarm before first light and back into it again.

Time alone for a little subby can be difficult with no one to serve or kept pleased with a big smile and a sigh.

Thanks to those who have kept me occupied on line...i have some stories to tell Mistress on her arrival.

So...at the moment i have a few days off...haven't spent so much time on the net before...and here i am.

Been reading through a lot of profiles

(is this emoticon a book or an ass...either way, it works for me!!!)...very interesting and a way to learn what i may be missing out on!!! not much actually...but then again if Mistress was 3 people then maybe things would be very exciting indeed....does that make me a slut....i hope so!!!

So anyway...all these profiles and journals to read....bit off putting in some cases...inspiring in others.

The scariest

ones are those that totally dump shit on others. Their choice of lifestyle, apparent knowledge, Age, weight...spelling. (omigod i am a bad person if i push send before checking if i put my 'i' before the 'e', hey grammaticians...get a standard and consistent set of rules and we'll all follow them !)

Omigod...what a tough crowd you all can be (mostly people from the US). i would have thought that only those insecure

in their positions, sexuality, choice, intelligence...age and weight...would get up and bag out others.

i guess that reflects more on them selves than those they put in their cross-hairs....i wonder if they have any friends

to play with?

Maybe thats what they need...a friend to play with (yes i am aware of the irony of a guy questioning whether someone has any friends...when he is on the net...apparently with no friends...)

My suggestion is that anyone that bags you out on this site...just cut and paste their comments and profile name, and we'll all get a giggle....and know who to avoid....peer pressure kids...it works every time.

Have i prattled on enough?

To those that message me occasionally, i have gained a lot and hope to learn more about your choice to live in the BDSM world and to explore all it has to offer....youse are tops!

Hello everyone.

i've been away for a little while with my new job. Now Mistress is away too...hmmm whats a subby to do, but sit and wait.

i haven't written much lately, kinda busy. Mistress has appeared to particularly enjoy using my butt lately. Being pounded by her frenzied use of the strap-on blows my mind. Mistress mentioned that she needs a much larger device

....i am very much looking forward to that....gotta love that well used, stretched and aching feeling after being used huh...or is that just me.

Mistress purchased a mini tens unit

the other day. Not as much juice as one of the larger ones we had access to for a while...but then again it was used on me after a particularly rigorous pounding by Mistress, so maybe i was a little distracted at the time.

Though you would think that electric current through the scrotum and anus would at least have some effect....omigod....maybe i am a pain slut.

Apologies to those that we'd made arrangements with for a little soiree, the new job got in the way. Bugger. We will do it soon i am sure. Plus i have some more toys to build in my days off. Yay!

i have been meaning to write this for a while, but i guess other more exciting things distracted me.

Mistress has been taking me to get waxing done. The whole brazillian thing...very nice results too i might add. Such a nice smooth and longer lasting finish.

Without admitting that i am such a pain slut (as if) i fear of ending up snoring loudly during the proceedure.

Mistress took me into a training school type set-up. i was scared it'd freak them out, but it was ok. But what is it that you discuss with a young woman, pulling and prodding at your scrotum penis and arse with wax...well usually i don't have to say anything cause if i do there'll be a flogger or cane to keep me quiet.

Hummmm, nice day for it, huh?, how 'bout that wintery weather we're having...i'll never feel uncomfortable making small talk with a barber....you think that's awkward...try it as someone pulls all the pubic hair off your anus.

You kind of expect them to role you over and put at least a large butt plug in you...not to mention the fear of an erection having even thought of the last time your Mistress had at you in the same position.

So there you go...i'm all nice and smooth for Mistress.

We have a play party on the weekend to go to...so i'm excited about that. i'll let you know how it all went...wish me luck.

i know that you all care very little for how Mistress treats me, but maybe there is some one out there...

Again i awoke to Mistress' hand on my cock. Mostly i awake before Mistress' or am aware of her movements. Though lately Mistress has been using me as her sex slave. As soon as i am erect she mounts me, fucks herself on me, orgasms a few times then she uses me more with me mounting her, then rolls me off and starts her day.

i have extremely well developed orgasm control, and am able to sustain Mistress' high demands of her own pleasure. To see Mistress so sated and pleased with me, makes me want to please her even more. i ask her if i can please her any more...but i can't convince her that it is for her...i think She is on to me. Being a slut sub can be difficult.

Thankyou to those who have written recently commenting on my photos....yay...i finally got them approved....i still can't work out how i can offend the community standards. Little 'ol me...no cocks, no nakedness, no tools or accoutremonts, no penetration, no fluids...how is it that others can get away with it and i can't...boo hoo.

Last night, Mistress used me as her little gimp. On arrival from work, i was told to pour her a glass of champagne, strip, give myself an enema and put on my hood...she was going to cane me, then use my arse.

No..' hello...', no, '...how was your day?...'!

After doing as directed, i waited. The hood, for those not experienced, creates a whole new world. You can barely hear, as any movement you make with your head, creates a muffed static, that only lets through some sounds. Anyway, i could hear some noises as Mistress entered the room. Mostly preparations of items i was directed to leave out for Her.

I could feel Her heat as she walked by my feet. The heat radiated from her to my legs, and her touch made me jump. Fingers, hands and lips to my arse.

The heavier cane was used first. The hood again, changed every sound that i had relied on previously to warn me of impending contact. But with the sound muffled i was able to concentrate more on each contact. Omigod....

Mistress raised my arse with pillows to give Her a better shot at my butt, and then gave me more and more. After switching to the lighter, more stingy/bitey cane, Mistress found my peak....ouch. Thudier is so much better!!

It seemed that i was able to take far more than i have taken previously. i think that the hood had a large effect and increased my ability to take more of what Mistress gave. When i first got caned, the noise actually used to scare me. So for those boys and girls out there wanting to plwase their owners, try different sensory deprivation whilst being caned....you just might surprise yourself, and make your owner love you even more!!!

What is interesting, that this morning, i have barely discernable marks left on me. Boo Hoo!!!

i am sure that i had red marks on my arse but, that doesn't count...anyone can get red marks!!!

Then Mistress rolled me over and used her strap-on on me....omigod.

Whats a boy to do? Mistress used me....i am the luckiest boy...do i dare ask for more!!!! Pick me, Pick me

Omigod...i just looked at the listings for subby boys...how embarassing. So many, so many, so many.

Trying to work out what it says...from my experience most of them wouldn't even show for a meeting with a real-time domme, looking for a real-time sub...

Tooooo bad boys...you know, as i have mentioned before...go about things the right way and the world will be your oyster.

What do you do? Well contact a local, real group. Get involved with the munches, the workshops, the parties if you are accepted, and then things will start going your way.

For example Mistress has expressed an interest in having another boy for us to both play with. I have a sneaking suspicion that we will be looking for a fair while....despite the deluge of guys that are on the site declaring that they,'... have few limits...', and '...will do anything...'

So anyway, just a bit shocked by the numbers....have fun boys...let me know how it goes!!!

So, what is it with me and technology...well electrical ones anyway? i wrote a long little blurb before adding emoticons, and lost everything to the computer ether...try again!!

Mistress has been using me as her cane slut lately. In fact, as testament to her use of me, i have 2 rather spectacular dark marks on my butt...how lucky am i!!!

Although only relatively new to caning, i have high standards to live up to as two of my friends in Newcastle can take large amounts of tender loving care from their Dommes...of which i can only aspire.

When i was able to watch my friends recieve a caning, i was mesmerised by the sound and movement of the caning. More so than the actual pain or marks. There was a meserising blurr of the of the swoop and swish, as the cane arced its way through the air to contact.

The the entrancing sound of the actual contact. There are so many sounds that a deftly handled cane can make on the skin. I have not the vocabulary to describe. When the handler concentrates on making the same contact consistently with the same rhythm, cadence...there are tones, sounds that are generated that stay in my mind longer than the impact.

i can sometimes feel like i am entranced by the sounds far longer than the contacts, the only distraction is the brake in rhythm, more than the increase in pain levels.

So for any budding young subbies or Dommes new to the cane, get in to a rhythm, and you can go for much longer than you both imagine.

Well thats what i think anyway.

Mistress was very pleased with how i am improving. i seem to be taking to this whole pain thing better than i'd imagined. I am proud of the marks Mistress left on me...actually impressed as i don't usually bruise very easily at all. Surprisingly there appeared 2 very deep dark marks that i wanted to show off to all with even a passing interest!!! Sadly, none too many care about my butt and its marks, so i have only Mistress to annoy by showing at random moments!

As far as the pain thing goes, what is surprising was that at the time i thought that more time, and even higher intensity could have been endured as i seemed to get in my subby space pretty quickly and able to sustain it for longer periods. When we stopped I had red marks and although fearing not being able to sit at work, barely even noticed them the next day. Despite the glaring marks...very nice.

What is interesting to note for those that have tried and been put off by caning...i am very slow to warm up...almost embarrassingly so. The slightest taps and moderate whacks are distracting and very off-putting. But with rapid percussions, lots of them, consistent timing and application of pressure and wrist movement, i am able to build reasonably to a point where i actually listen to the swoop and surprise myself.

Now don't get me wrong, i am not at the standards that some of you are at...but i am happy with my progress and Mistress is pleased...so what more is there...whose race an i going to win anyway?...my own.

Last night some friends came for lunch. We are new to each other and met through the group in canberra. Very nice couple whom i am sure that we will learn from and get to know well. Whats even stranger for me is the fact that D/s friends can merge over to the vanilla world as well...lots-o-fun...

have fun..

Spent most of the day waiting for the timber dude to deliver. We now have some storeage shelves that will double as a wall rack. Well one completed.

I cut panels for a cross...but if i continue the neighbours will complain...so will get to it tommorrow.

The roof...well thats another issue. I haven't been in the roof of a new house lately. The last time i was in a roof the beams were all hard wood and pretty hefty...but these days it appears that lame arsed pine is all that hold up internal ceilings. So i will have to add more supports to help distribute the load.

Going to put several functional eye bolts as well as play ones....so most of tomorrow will see me being a roof rat!

Went to a munch last night, fairly large turn out actually. Really only interested in a couple there...but its all fun. The play parties are fun and its always good to see others at play.

We have a private lunch happening soon. That will be nice...just to get to know some people. Ya never know where these things will end up.

Mistress & i have plans this weekend...i am sure that my butt will end up with more marks as last weekend....gotta go....the fun starts now...

Been out for most of the day spending lots of $$$$. About to start construction of some play equipment for our garage / playroom. Nothing major to start with, had to get some more workshop hardware and tools.

just some simple items to play on...maybe you'll get an invite to play here...who knows!!! Although my constructions are rustic, there has been some success. Just need a bigger place to put it all in !!!

this way...if i'm very good...Mistress will see that all these things i have plans, for will be utilised.

Mistress took me away for the longweekend. Its was a secret location on the far south coast. i say secret as i had never been there and didn't know where we were going until arrival.

A nice cottage over looking a lake and 15 minutes walk along the lakes' edge to the beach. Pretty idyllic huh?

The cottage was well appointed cosy and comfortable, but its not how well appointed the place was that i'm here for!! Though i do highly recommend it for others looking for a nice retreat...especially our overseas friends...we'll be going back.

Anyway...the best part (???) was when Mistress had me bent over a plush leather lounge, my arse exposed and vulnerable to HER whims

. Mistress brought along a variety of her favourite tools as well as a new item a friend presented to her at a private session we'd had a few weeks ago. A nice new cane.

After some time warming up, Mistress had pushed me further than i have been before. Despite my whines, initially, we both ended up in a place we hadn't been together before. Its a few days after and still have her marks left on me...very happy little subby

.

Surprising really, as i could have taken more and shortly after, didn't feel the usual sun-burn but effect you get...so i am looking forward to more

.

Mistress said she was very happy with my ability to take what she gave

...i hope to be able to take a lot more....omigod!!

We've also been able to use and enjoy a vegetable based shortening product from the US....mmmm....much fun

. Too bad, work, eating and sleeping get in the way of fun.

More to come too, Munches, a party, private gatherings as well as our own play....what more can a subby boy ask for??? Have fun everyone.

Last night there was a play party that Mistress and i could not attend....damn those vanilla friends and relatives that get in the way of play.

i think i will divorce any family or friend not in the D/s community...just lost time on the flogging bench if you ask me!!!

Anyway, so to make up for it Mistress gave me an extra helping of tender loving care that only a Domme can give, and only another sub can appreciate.

I have that extra-special, used up feeling today, that despite cries to the contrary, only hours ago, leave me wanting more...now that time has passed...time heals all huh!

Each time we go to one level, Mistress tells me of another activity she wants for me...omigod!

So despite missing out on the play party, we made up for it on our own. That and the fact that on our own or with very special friends, i can concentrate and take much much more than i can in a large group...all those other subbies having fun and i can't watch! Distractions, distractions. Plus i am not sure that what we got up to would have been appropriate in a large group...i'd have scared myself as an onlooker!!!

Maybe next time.

So, there we were, planning for a quiet weekend,

and it seems that we can't help ourselves. Last night, as usual with any gathering of like minds, resulted in some more invites to some small gatherings. i can't wait...but whats new!

We have a friend coming over that is very experienced in making toys, so i guess i'll get to have the creator use some tools on me...how goods that!

Another couple want to have us over, as well as yet another want to have a small group to get together.

I'm also designing some modular equipment that will function during the day as furniture and storage, then morph into play-ground equipment for the consenting adult. i'm very excited about that. Especially the shelves...it's what you cant see thats the fun part.

Turning a garage into a playroom...it's all so exciting.

Anyway, i have some chores to do for Mistress, then we get to entertain again. The apetizer and main has been organised...i think i'm the dessert...omigod!

One of the items Mistress obtained on a recent trip away was a very nice Tens unit. Remember that statement about watching out what you wish for..well it seems that getting what you wish for, may very well be terrifying at first, but...omigod!!

Boys...you must try tens units if offered. I mean obviously you don't just let any one get hold of one of these things. Some serious damage could be done in the hands of the amateur.

ive yet to research the joule outputs and don't know if burns could happen, but i've only had it at the lower end of its max, so it may be possible. The shocks you get when pulling the connectors off rather than letting your Mistress control them will also get your attention. So i suspect on the good units that marks could easily be left...still gotta find out though.

But...omigod!! did i already say that. Try it on hands, legs or arms if a little shy...and i almost guarantee, that after only a small sample you'll be attaching the damn thing to places your Domme never thought of.

One tip...think of the connectors, pads, clamps, probes or whatever is hooked up as creating a, fundamentally, straight line between the pads.

Then...think of a muscle group you'd like, pulsed, waved or constantly stimulated. Then let the fun begin. My favourite is waved, for the geeks, i thinks its some sort of sine wave or something, for the surfers its like being out in sets, how else to describe...i don't know.

The pulse is set at bursts and does just that. I can take higher settings on Pulse on some areas, then take higher settings on Wave on others. The constant setting is not my friend at all...overloads me even on very low settings.

Give it a go though you may find a friend in there somewhere.

Then theres the hood...omigod! But thats a whole other story.

Lots of munches, private gatherings with special friends, play parties as well as private play with Mistress...could a subbie boy ask for more? Maybe a little time to breath...can you believe it?

Life is good. Gotta go. A munch to go to. Have fun

What an amazing month it has been. i have been with LL for almost all of the time that has passed since we first met privately. Omigod!

i am now extremely pleased to say that LL has accepted me and collared me on a recent visit to Sydney. A collar was selected, amongst other items deemed necessary to please Mistress, and presented to me.

i still consider myself very new to this whole lifestyle. i knew that i wanted to eventually be involved on a 24/7 basis, but feared it would not happen, and resigned myself to play-based relationships.

But to find someone that fits with me on a personal, intellectual and D/s basis was an unexpected bonus! There appears to be plenty of potential on a number of aspects of our relationship, and am surprised that something so good came...almost unlooked for.

i am so lucky to have met Mistress as she has a great deal of proven experience, has a great deal of knowledge on the physical, medical and mental aspects of a real 24/7 D/s relationship, intelligent, intuitive and imagination and has contacts and networks from which we both can develop together, as well as a serious, serious attitude!

i can barely believe that Mistress was considering leaving the lifestyle due to difficulties in finding the right subbie boy...what a loss those poor boys have had...ah well, i am more than happy to entertain Mistress.

Mistress intends on taking me to a gathering shortly and it will be our first together in the local community. i hope that i am a worthy attachment to Her.

Those subbie boys out there really trying to find the right person...keep trying, it may just pay off. Just behave and turn up!!! It'll be worth it

Time flies when you are a happy, and might i add, a well used subbie boy!

Recently i was priviledged to meet with a Mistress with whom i share many interests. We met a couple of times and i was precocious enough to ask for her number...shocked as i was i was provided with her number....oh my god!

Be careful what you wish for...you may just get it... and they could be holding a flogger in one hand and a battery in the other....eeeep!

Although i have not been collared yet, i am trying very hard to prove my worth and hope that i meet with approval.

You know boys...well also girls...(i've yet to hear of no-show girls!!!)...persistence and even a modicum of sincerity will find you with the potential for dreams to come true.

Hello all, just removed the little tick box thing.

i once read an entry into a Dommes journal on this site and SHE so wisely stated that having a long list...i believe SHE referred to it as a laundry list...of things you as a sub will do (lets face it guys isn't it what you want DONE to you!!), is no attitude for a subbie to have...aren't we here to please our Masters and Mistress's.

Believe me guys, if you turn up, do as you are asked...a whole new world...one you were too scared to imagine is waiting just around the corner with a lash in His/Her hand and chains in the other. Good luck E/everyone !

i was allowed to visit a friend of mine who wanted to practise HER CBT techniques on me.

Verrry nice indeed.? i hope that i am able to assist HER endeavours in expanding HER repertoire.

That and my penchant for shibari...who'd a thought that my years of rope and rescue technical ability could be applied to such fun activities....

Am still looking for that right situation too...bye the way!!

As is my wont, i have been buying more toys....all those "shiny" things in stores !! what is a solo sub to do??...now if only to have someone to play with.

Thankyou to those who have chatted, i do so like to hear how others experience the lifestyle...there is no "right" but its so wonderful to get it wrong trying.

i have heard from some, of parties and other functions. Please keep me posted of those in CBR or NCL.

i am a well behaved, quiet very submissive sub...but aren't they all...til asked to produce!!

After a few weeks with Mistress, i decided it was time for me to go.? There was something missing...what it was i am still not sure.

So now i am back to seeking the right one / couple to fit with...

More news as it comes to hand

Ok...i have read several of my fellow subs entries on this site....simply having a whinge....my turn.

What is it with some subs? (mostly male, and mostly very lame)...giving us...reasonably sincere sub males, a very, very bad name.

i wrote once before that i was surprised by the number of male subs that tell stories of their undying capacity for submission, or dare i say it slavery, they tell lots of stories about how they will do this, for their Dom/mme, or that, for their Mistress or Master, but when it comes to even turning up, its like waiting for that rain cloud on the horizon...it just doesn't produce.

i only whinge again, because this time it even effected me. Not that i was desperate to meet some lame-assed sub, but because they didn't even call.

WHAT IS IT WITH YOU GUYS? You get to miss out on so much. (Well the upside was that i got Mistress all to myself...and let me tell you boy, that you dipped out! A frustrated Mistress is one that will very definitely push your limits, and find new ones!!!)

i say again to all those wannabe subs, or those that mistakenly call themselves slaves, a whole world of potential is yours at a turn of the key, a bus ride, a plane trip, a cycle or walk away....for crying out loud just do it...

and another thing....

Mistress has been very patient with me. i am trying very hard for Mistress. i think i can be a difficult sub at times, not through want or need to challenge, but more as i know no better...i wish to learn more.

Mistress is teaching me to become a better submissive, i am finding that deep down i want to give more to Mistress and take more of the things Mistress gives me.
Soon i will meet another submissive and i hope we are able to please Mistress greatly. i hope we are able to give Mistress pleasure as well as take Mistress's pleasure that SHE decides to take out upon us.

i am now with Mistress 24/7. i have just arrived. How exciting it is. Relocation is a big step, being a sub 24/7 even bigger...my biggest challenge will be not being on my own, as i have become so used to.

Would love to hear from subs in a similar position...

Its not long to go before i move to serve Mistress 24/7. This will be my first time on a full-time basis. i am trembling at the thought...the potential...the future.

i can barely wait for the world that will open for me, Mistress' world.? Already Mistress has found strengths i did not know that i had within me.? All from giving all to Mistress and being Mistress' slave.

i have always thought of myself as being able to submit...Mistress has found a deeper ability, penchant...what is the word?...for submission within me.

i always thought that it would/could/may happen with the right ONE....i am now Mistress' 'lil sub.

THANKYOU MISTRESS

Mistress is gone for the day. i have served as best i could. i am required to wake Mistress each morning. i think i have done well by the smile on Mistress' lips, the glow to her face and the fierce stare from HER eyes....Mistress is still staring at me.

Mistress has pushed me. Mistress has pushed me further and deeper. HER strength and HER force, intruding into me, burning into me....Mistress is still pushing at me.

Mistress has pulled at me. Firmly secured, i am enveloped. The taughtness almost tears me away. Part of me squirms with that sepentine sway, but i am held in place with Mistress' exquisite pull...Mistress is still pulling at me.

Mistress has stung me. Mistress' hands have made my skin glow, slowly-softly, more rapid-hard. The sting reaches into me. i barely take what SHE gives. i have to stop, but i want more....Mistress is still stinging me.

Mistress has a hold on me. To serve Mistress in all ways binds me to HER. Mistress has me collared, Mistress has me chained, these may leash me...it is Mistress'will that holds me.

i have just risen from beneath MISTRESS' feet. i had been there for some time whilst MISTRESS was answering messages from potential subs/slaves.

What an interesting insight it is to hear HER responses. Why would it be that a serious sub would write to MISTRESS from half way 'round the world to serve. What a silly thing to write. When they could write to someone much closer, and, if accepted, be serving a Domme in their own home town...imagine that!

Especially, while i am at her feet serving MISTRESS as she pleases. Why would someone want to cyber....their loss. Worse still, why would a sub not meet their Domme when directed? As a tip to you boy subs out there...make stuff happen...if MISTRESS suggests you be somewhere....be there...and on time. Do you think MISTRESS is lacking subs...we lowly subs are plentiful and VERY replaceable!

MISTRESS placed a collar on me today. i am so happy about that...my reward...i will try so hard to please MISTRESS.

Mistress has invited me to serve HER for a brief time.? Since the time Mistress advised me i should be at HER feet, i can barely take my thoughts away from the fantasy, that will soon be reality, once again.

Mistress is training me so that i may be able to serve her 24/7.? i never thought that all of this could lead to something so amazing...beyond my imagining.

Mistress, thankyou.? All i can do is serve YOU to the best of my ability.? i am yours Mistress...

i am so excited...Mistress has awakened a novice pain puppy.

i cannot believe it...while Mistress was dealing with me, i looked deep into her eyes and was drawn in.? The pain disappeared and all i could do was give Mistress more and more of myself.

Mistress pulled at me, i sank deeper into her forboding eyes.? They called to me and distracted me.? i would rise and fall as Mistress pulled more and more on me.?

i want to please Mistress even more, i hope i am able...i want so much to give more....

Boots, Boots,Boots...

Oh my....i have just purchased the most wonderful boots for myself. ( i did order them before i met Mistress). i have been in close-down for this weekend just playing and taking photos.

i cannot wait until Mistress has a pair!

The light bouncing off them, the reflections , the shape, the shear hugging form they make of my body...almost as i fantasized.

The clack of the (very) high heel (i am only a beginner for such lofty heights) on the tiles.

The height of the heel, the firmness of the thigh high boot, the stiffness of the patent leather all combine to alter my usual stride.? A small stepped strutted bounce....oh my!

i knew i had a boot fettish, but with Mistress i have been introduced to what could end up a very lovely foot fettish.? i cannot wiat until i have Mistress' boots on my back while SHE reclines.

For those interested i got them through Demask.? Mistress Claudia of Hellfire Club in Brisbane suggested them(see HER wishlist)... the 8-12 week wait came to about 2-3...very fast

Fantasy was exchanged for reality...this lowly sub met with Mistress thanks to this wonderful site...thankyou collar me...thankyou Mistress...

i am Mistress' sub now...i will freely chat, as i have learned a lot from those who have taken the time to chat with me and i thankyou, but Mistress will know of all of my activities and i will obtain HER permission for all things.

my happiest moment...bringing a smile to Mistress' lips, and a sigh from HER mouth and being at Mistress' feet.

i fantasize that Mistress is in a mood today...nothing i do for HER makes HER happy.

Mistress told me to come to her and i have.? i lay at her feet and Mistress wanted me to be her foot stool.? her spiked heel digging into my butt cheeks didn't even bring a smile...mistress just looked at me with little interest.

Mistress then said go to THE room...i did and waited for mistress to arrive.? i heard her heels up and down the hall outside but Mistress did not enter.

Some time later mistress opened the door and told me to clean up the mess.? i did this by dusting, wiping down benches and covered cushions.? i mopped the floor , scraped off wax, rehung implements, straightened out ropes...all the things i could think of...

Mistress entered again and sat and stared at me.? i could tell SHE was thinking about putting me to use.? Mistress unbuckled and unzipped her long, long boots and lay back with her feet exposed.? i was then commanded to service her feet.

Mistress told me that SHE wants me to lick and suck her feet below the ankle to clean them off.? Occasionally Mistress trys to push her toes further into my mouth, i gag a couple of times and a smile? crosses HER lips. Once wiped dry, i am to massage HER toes and arches.

Mistress seems in a happier mood now, i think i have done a good thing...i do try so hard...Mistress sighs comfortably, reclined in HER chair, me at HER feet carressing and massaging away with strong fingers and firm grip.

My reward...Mistress pats me on the head...and walks out of the room.

just my little thought for the day...

i have only recently joined this site...i do love it.

there are some out there not totally up front with their profiles. please...if you are a pro why not say it up front. it may save us all a little time and annoyance.

i am quite happy with the contacts i have made and wish not to trouble Dom/ Dommes out there. i have no problem with pros, it just makes it harder to find the 24/7's and sure must upset those trying to get a client...time is money right?

i am in my box again...

i see Mistress's beautiful boots...long, shiny and black.

Mistress chats to me, lulling me into my usual false sense of security.? i catch myself talking too much.? i try hard not to, but i am talkative by nature.? i try so hard not to, and i have difficulty working out what questions need answers and which don't.

The lid to my box is opened and an object is thrown in, and the lid promptly shut.? The latches secured and Mistress walks away and closes the door.? Her gracefully harsh heels clack into the distance.

i feel amongst my confined space and find a new gift...Mistress has thrown me a gag...i have talked too much for the last time.

There is something about that train ride home each evening that sets something stirring.? The local rail authority should sell it...

Mistress stands above me. i am curled at HER feet.? i am facing the floor and can see nothing.? i feel Mistress' presence.? The heat exudes from HER boots, my favourite boots.?

Mistress moves, i stay put. i hear HER settle in HER big comfy chair. The deep leather seat, the high rolled arms, plush back settles to HER form.? The squelch and squeal of leather, on leather, slow to HER movements.? i hear the flicking of pages, the licking of fingers as Mistress turns each page delicately.

Mistress softly says, '...come here you..'. i settle to HER side quickly, quietly and without fuss. i resume the position for a time.

Mistress lets me drift into my own thoughts...SHE knows my mind wanders. Then abruptly says,'...clean my boots...'. i set about this as quickly as i can.

During my activity i glance away, my eyes cannot do as they should.? i look up to Mistress' knees. They cross over the tops of her wonderful boots. i dare a glance up above the boots to her skirt.? The skirt wraps her beautiful hips.

Mistress is still reading as i try to please her. I dare to look further up and meet HERglaring eyes.? i am pierced by HER eyes. Mistress is displeased...why do i do these things when i know it will disappoint HER.

What will Mistress do...i dare not guess.

Fantasy is a wonderful thing for a solo sub...though i do hope this changes soon.

Mistress has busy hands tonight.? HER slender digits are busy working knots in my rope. After having securely trussed me in a chest and waist "harness", Mistress is now slowly hauling me to about 5 feet from the floor.

i am pivoting freely. I am hooded so cannot see and can't really smell anything other than? the material of the bag.? So few clues to what will happen next.

Mistress cleverly made me place ear plugs in as well. i can hear dull mutterings that have replaced Mistress' stern click-clack of HER boots. I can no longer hear her breeze across the room, nor smell her scent. i can feel a slight breath as SHE passes me to another part of the room.

Mistress brushes items over my body.? Though my senses can not quite work out what each item is.? Was that a gloved hand, or the back of my paddle? That felt like the point of a boot or was it a strap-on?

As usual my mind is racing...just then another entered the room.? Who is it...Master or Mistress, Dom or sub...could this be....

Fantasy again stalked me on the train today.

Mistress has me over a barrel. Wrists and ankles secured. My neck aches from trying to look up and i have given up trying. My chin rests on the finely coopered wood.? my arse is beyond the sting and is warmed by the heat of my worked over cheeks.

Mistress is behind, intermittently waving at once a crop, another, a paddle and yet another, a cane. i know not which will stike until the swish, swoop or slice sounds its warning. By the time my simple mind works out which, it has struck.

Between each strike, Mistress rubs a gloved hand over my redness. i try to quietly take all Mistress gives. i know she is angered by wimpish subs. An occasional wimper is exhaled and the occassional teeth-gritted answer to HER questions.

Mistress pauses, and i am glowing all over...i hope i have pleased mistress.

Is it just me or is the full moon messing with everyone else too? The sights sounds and smells of my town have drawn every body out.? Though, i crave that special solitude. That place in the room.

i am in my box and Mistress is going about HER important business.? i know this , as i can see HER through the holes. Mistress takes objects from here, tools from there, and items i cannot quite see.? i know SHE has plans by the thoughful concentration on her brow. Are they for me?

Each time Mistress walks past me, there is the clatter, rattle or drag of items across the top of my place against the equipment wall. Mistress occasionally stares into my box. i don't think SHE can see me through the diamond of holes in the sides.? HER breath pulses in and her scent waves over me.

Mistress sits upon the lid and fingers the the bolt that keeps me safe.

Is mistress ready for me?... am I ready for her?

fantasy again takes hold of me on my train ride from work.

patent leather boots astride me one knee on my chest. the heat from mistress' body waves over me.

My collar is pulled firmly, my face touches skin and slides across PVC.? '..lick..' is purred from Mistress' ruby lips.? the smooth inanimate sensation changes to warmth.

my tongue just starts to taste, and the firm voice purrs ' stop now..'? my body tingles and starts to ache..

I awake and the smelly guy across from me on the train stares...

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