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Male Submissive, 40, Manhattan Beach, California
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Male Submissive, 45, Honolulu, Hawaii
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About subsunshine
Hello Collarme!!
** ADDENDUM **
i think i need to be a little more blunt; me being polite is not working:
1. No i do not believe in ONLINE D/s relationships... Touch is a powerful tool.
2. If i won't have sex with YOU, why in the heck would i have sex with your DOG?! Animals and child molestation go hand in hand... it's an "OH HELLLLL NAW"
3. Respect is earned not given, because YOU have put the word Dom or Master in you screen name does not mean i must "jump" at your command.
... ok taking the pants off (i hate wearing the pants) and putting my dress back on ....
Why i am here...
i am on a journey to finally explore what is truly inside of me. i am submissive! It is WHO i am, it is NOT what i do.
i am NOT into BDSM for the sex or kink (meaning i want a Dom to dominate my mind first), please keep your "you been a naughty girl let Me spank you" messages to yourself, as i do not want to read those types of messages with Your initial email (those are for my Dom to send )!
i desire and need a Dom/Master who has the ability to Dominate my mind first. The ability to take me to my limits then push them even further. . i am submissive, i am not desperate so please be patient as i am still new to the life. If You are looking for a quick fling, i am not the one You seek. Just as You should be particular about who You call Your property, i am particular about who i kneel and give control to. A sub is a reflection of a Dom, as a Dom is a reflection of a sub.
i am a sweet, caring, funny and sexy girl. i do my best to be a good girl, i am a pleaser You being happy is what makes me happy, HOWEVER, i have my moments where i can be a brat (spank me please moments ). You may also encounter times where my "inner nerd" will come out (did You know that the average person will only use 2-3% of their brains memory? )
i do love to chat and meet new and interesting people (Dom and sub alike). Even if i am not the sub for You, i am still learning and You may be a part of my growth.... so please feel free to say hello...
sunshine
*submissive is WHO i am, NOT what i do*
WARNING: Any institutions or individuals using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You do NOT have my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current and future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications.
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It's been quite some time since I have made a post on this site. i have been diligently trying to get myself in order. School has taken its toll on me. Now the summer is here, maybe i can focus on.......
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i have a question (yes another one, see whats happens when a sub is without a Dom!) Ok so can Ssomeone please tell me how a couple can have 2 Dom's in it? Like how can it be a Dom/Domme couple? Who spanks Who????
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Why do certain Dom's believe a submissive is weak? Submission is quite the opposite! Do You know who STRONG a submissive must be to give up power and control? Why do certain Dom's believe that a submissive is suppose to kneel and obey anyone who has titled themselves as a Dom? How could You feel the true depth of my submission if i kneeled to anyone? I am a real submissive looking for a real Dom, so NO an online relationship is not real to me. It's the touch of a Don that i need, not words on a screen! Why is it so hard to find a Dom that understands the above?
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Sooooo i have another question (i know i know) how do you deny someone an organsm over the phone? i guess i should be asking, how do you dominate someone over the phone???
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Ummmm so how many people actually respond to the "Pre-written/copy & paste, you been a naught slut let me spank you emails" that probably get sent to every sub on CL?
Just asking...
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For those of Yyou unclear or need a better understanding of this life then please go to www.submissiveloving.com .... i will leave it at that....
... A moment in the mind of a submissive... |
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I would like to thank the few of you for your positive words of encouragement, it was truly appreciated....
Since I have been in the life I have met some "interesting" individuals ( I use interesting loosely, as a polite description)...
I think I have c0me to the end of my search and journey in this lifestyle, it is way too many "unstable" conditions that i refuse to allow myself to become apart of.
I have accepted the fact that a part of me will be incomplete, that my desires will still burn deep.... But my safety and sanity comes first....
With all that I have encountered since I put a "name" to my feelings and desires; I am beginning to wonder if maybe this is all wrong? That there is something deeper going on in my mind? Think about it: What person in their "right" mind would want to be controlled, overpowered, used to satisfy someone, humiliated, punished, and then held so tight (the thought makes me moist).....
A moment in the mind of a confused submissive.... |
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So i have grown more confused as i try and understand this life... am i not allowed to connect with my Dom? Because i am submissive does that mean i have to accept ANY Dom who's path i cross? Does it make me less submissive because i desire to KNOW the person i relinquish control to? A submissive seeking answers.
A moment in the mind of a submissive... |
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So now that i have settled myself (or at least as much as one can in 4 months) i am becoming restless? Or maybe yearning?
The touch, The control, The desire, The need, The helplessness...... The Control....
One day...... i hope!
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So i have finally made the? move i knew i needed to make a long time ago. Leaving Georgia and planting new roots in California.... Let's see where my journey takes me now....
A moment in the mind of a submissive...
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It's been quite some time since i have been here, pursuing a journey that has come to its end... but... i don't have closure... the road just dead end... no sign... no warning... no .... goodbye.... i reflect on the journey and wonder what i did or didn't do? i can accept the journey ending, i guess it's the not knowing that has me...
What happens now?
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"you have no idea about the lifestyle and your kidding yourself if you think by reading something would give ou and idea about the lifestyle ! so shut the fuck up and get some real time in and then open your mouth"
This was an email message left to me. Now i have no clue who this person is nor have we had any form of communication prior to this message they so pleasantly decided to leave me.
1. i clearly state in my profile i am new to the life.
2. i clearly state in my profile that i have read all i can read and only experience is left for me to conquer.
3. if you plan to curse someone out, please learn how to spell.
4. if you plan to "check" someone, please learn how to form a correct sentence...ie.... its "an" not "and"
5. I seek a Dom who knows that you dont have to be a brute to control someone. Not everyone on CM likes this approach!!
a moment in the mind of a submissive...
which does not make me weak
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The complexity of my journey is higher then anticipated. Beginning to wonder if my search is intertwined with fantasy?
.... "We will take things slow" He says. In the beginning i agreed, i wanted to go slow, but He has provoked my fire, my need, my desire, my yearning to kneel to Him, submit to Him, let go FOR Him... but i know it is not that simple, there are other factors involved, vanilla world interference. It is in my best interest to go slow, to prevent my first time from being my last. i am patient, i will wait.... but for how long?
A moment in the mind of a submissive... |
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Collar me is quite interesting to say the least.... i have chatted with several interesting Masters/Doms.... What bothers me the most or what tickles my fancy is why do the Masters/Doms on here expect a sub/slave to kneel to Them after 2 or 3 emails??? Why is a sub/slave then told they are not a true submissive if they dont? Am i not entitled to meet the Master/Dom first? Am i not entitled to a connection to the Master/Dom before i kneel before Him? What type of Master/Dom would want a sub/slave who knelt before anyone with the name Sir, Daddy, Master, Baron?
a moment in the mind of a submissive... |
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my phone rings.... "Hello Sir!"... "hello sub"... and i immediately smile... my confidence subsides when the conversation begins and with Him i am quite, at a loss for words. It's not that i lack conversation, but His dominance radiates through the phone and i become speechless... afraid? But of what? i have not kneeled before Him yet! afraid that i will say the wrong thing, disappoint Him... ALREADY!.... His Dominance...
Conversation comes to an end, He says "I will call you later"... i respond "ok"... Without hesitation He repeats Himself... "I will call you later" this time adding "sub" to the end of His statement... immediately i know what i said wrong, ... "Yes Sir!".... His Dominance
He COMMANDS my submissiveness, He does NOT demand it.....
A moment in the mind of a submissive.... |
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