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	About substratocaster Claimed by someone who won't break me! She's AWESOME. Her name on here is baffledking. I am a geek. I am an audio engineer, a movie nut, a libertarian, an eccentric borderline depressed freak of nature with self image problems and a tendency to be bluntly honest. No. I don't want to pay money to be someone's bitch. I know I'm worth something. I'm just worth more when I'm someone else's. I would find myself most comfortable as someone's alpha submissive. I don't want to be cast aside, I warn you I can be needy like no other sometimes, but I want someone who will push me and control me and not be scared by what might look like a contradiction. Maybe I am just contradictions. Contradiction 1: I don't want to feel worthless or treated like shit, which seems to be rare for this site ... unless we're discussing sex, in which case I love to be emotionally and physically abused. Contradicton 1.5: I don't want to feel worthless or treated like shit, but I do want to feel owned. Lovingly. Contradiction 2: I want a deep, emotional connection. But I'm also 19 years old and terribly lonely, mixed with mild depression and more hormones than my brain knows what to do with. I won't say no to physical based relationships, but it wouldn't be long term. I want to be someones. Contradiction 3: I hate myself, yet I'm an egotistical bastard from time to time. I know I'm good at what I do but sometimes I hate my work. About me: I love music, art, photography, painting, collage work, wandering, writing, thinking. I sit and plan how to re-wire my guitar for days on end. I sleep at odd hours of the day or night, and I have random hours for classwork as well. I love chess. I love watching the sky in Florida because they always seem to have interesting colors and shapes and the best sunsets. Yes, I am a pain slut. Yes, I absolutely love being called slut and whore and looking up into the eyes of my owner, half scared shitless and half shaking out of excitement. Maybe I should call that contradiction six. Not scared away so far? A) I drink, I smoke cigarettes, and I smoke pot. If any of the above scares you, sorry. B) I love debating. Intelligence is required and can be returned upon request. C) I'm a broke college kid. I fix everything I own since I can't get new ones, I can barely pay rent and school at the same time. I can drive places and maybe help for food and movies but I'll go broke doing anything else. D) I'm a mess mentally. I'm schizoaffective, which is a combination of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. I'm probably scaring everyone away by saying this but I don't care anymore. Anyone still reading this?

It's great fun when you have a major mental breakdown and you flail around and the person who you look to, the one person you're supposed to rely on, goes conveniently missing. I might be a lot to handle but jesus christ did you have to ignore me when I called? I left you at least three text messages and I called you so many times. I was hysterical and shaking and I needed someone to hold me and take charge and say that I'd get through it. Thanks. This is why I don't trust people.

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