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Male Submissive, 48, Charleston

Male Submissive, 30, pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

Female Submissive, 25, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

I suppose an update is in order here.  I see that some people do read profiles and even journals.  I thought I was the only one with these slightly voyeuristic tendencies. I'm happy to see I am not alone.  To the men I have spoken to, to the ones I am speaking to and to the ones that I will speak to in the future, thank you.  You all show me parts of yourself that make me smile and go hmmmm.  You also teach me things about myself that I may not have known before and these things help to enlighten me in the future.  If you wonder why we conversed and then suddenly there is no conversation, well, I will hasten to explain that. I look at it like this.  You connect with someone based on looks perhaps, maybe a well written phrase, something that just leaps out and catches your attention for whatever reason.  Then you speak, more at length, trying to figure out something, anything, about that person who captured your attention.  I like to look at it like a slow or fast burn.  There are those I speak to that just don't stand out but as I continue to talk to them there are just more and more nuances of their personalities that come out and enthrall me.  Then there are the one shot wonders who gain my attention quickly and for one reason or another fail to keep it.  That doesn't make them horrible people.  But if I do not long to talk to you again, long to want to spend time with you, what does that speak to for the future of a relationship with you. People are going to come in and out of our lives, many people.  But we have to face the inevitable, only one of those people is going to stay.  We can't have a great number of people in our lives that stay around, it's just not that way.  As friends, oh of course, but not as the one and only.  And isn't that one and only the one that we look for with urgency, excitement and total focus? I hope any of this made sense.  When I give my heart, my soul and my body I want to know that the person I am giving it to is the most amazing man I could ever have met.  In order for me to be the best submissive or perhaps slave, ever, then he is going to have to be someone that makes me feel that way and keeps making me feel that way.  He will know who he is long before I do I imagine.  I pray that he does.  I pray that he's out there.

I received an e-mail this morning from a Dominant whose mail I had apparently deleted.  Anyone who knows me or is getting to know me will realize that I will never intentionally do something hurtful or rude.  I get a lot of mail and sometimes there is one that stands out from the others, which I believe is the goal.  I will focus on that person, seeing if what they are saying is something that makes me open my eyes wider and take notice.  Sometimes that focus is to the neglect of other e-mails from Dominants who are expecting a response to a well written e-mail.  So please understand if I don't respond it's not because I wanted to be rude or nasty.  As to deleting the mail without reading, I am guilty of doing that because in an effort to delete some of my 37 pages of mail, some things fall inside the delete process that shouldn't.  So thank you to the Dominant that chose to point out my rudeness, intentional or not.

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Female Submissive, 43, Anderson, South Carolina

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Female Submissive, 47, Jeffersonville, Indiana

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