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Still looking for the one that is for me









ok this is not a game or play its life liberty and the pursuit of service.If you want a 247 submissive slave I am it but online doesnt work for me I needs hands on skin. hot breath on my skinand the smell and feel of a man taking whathe wants. The joy of kneeling just inside the door as I wait for his return. Going in public kneeling at his side not caring what anyone thought or said because his happiness is what matters. proudly wearing his collar and when people ask I just sayMaster requires it. Knowing that he will always protect me teach me and help me grow never to damage me or tear me down without building me back up better than I was.



I am a lost and broken submissive. looking for structure and guidance Not always about sex. Dont get me wrong i enjoy sex a lot but it cant be the only thing. I have been people that calls themselves Dom but wont take the time to get to know me they just want sex and that it. Or the want me to switch. That is something i can not do. I am not wired that way. I am submissive always without fail. I have played with others that we have a great time. But i never see them again and they never tell me why. I need someone that interested in me. Wants me and desires me. Someone that i finally trust not to hurt me or just one day throw me away. If you truly want to know more just ask.



I have stage 5 kidney failure not from drugs or the like just my genes. I am on dialysis 3 days a week.

Looking for a TPE relationship. 247 full time a part time arrangement will not work I need my Masters hands on me. Will relocate for my Alpha. I am not a fantasy chaser I know what i need and want. And yes there is a difference between need and want.

Maybe I am seeking something that does not exist maybe he is out there. Unsure about me. Take the time to talk to me. I will surprise you. If you look at my full profileand are interested say something I cant read minds and intentions.



I just need my Alpha I dont really care about a lot of stuff. just that I belong to him and he lays his hands everyday on my skin. that I get to crawl to his feet and be of service anyway he choses.Granted I like sex but the act of being taken sometimes even forced to obey is needed too.

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11/12/2017 5:27:58 PM
Well it seems that no one wants this broken slave so i guess i will fade away bye


6/6/2017 6:06:57 AM
took this test today


== Results from bdsmtest.org ==

89% Rope bunny

88% Slave

70% Boy/Girl

70% Exhibitionist

68% Degradee

67% Non-monogamist

67% Voyeur

66% Experimentalist

61% Primal (Prey)

59% Ageplayer

58% Masochist

54% Submissive

46% Pet

43% Vanilla

37% Brat

0% Switch



  

5/19/2017 9:42:49 PM
Very tired of all this. Everyone of any value is soo far away. I don't even know why i even try anymore. No one reads this anyway or if they do i am damaged goods and worth just as much.They don't want me or anything to do with me. I should just give up and walk away into the darkness. no one really cares anyway. Unless you can fix this and willing to have a broken submissive. Willing to put her back together again. Then just walk away and let her fade into the darkness. I will no longer chase a Dominant. If he wants me then he has to chase or find me, take me and make me his. Anything less is not exceptionable. Some will be offended by this and i can do nothing to fix that. Its what is on this broken submissive mind she is in many pieces since he Master passed. He took the glue that held her together. Now all she knows is pain and being lost. One man thinks i am worth something but he is over 300 miles away and in a bad problem too. He lost his home and most of what he owns. I am not sure if he can help me. He makes excuses and forgets to call when he says he will. his word is not absolute. Haven't had my hands on his skin and may never have but with it is the only way i will know the next few days will tell.  I don't know what to do next I am lost I hope he or someone like him can find me before i walk into the darkness alone.

1/18/2017 3:07:59 AM
I see so very few people value someone for their mind rather than their ass. I am so tired of the people that don't understand that. You submit with your mind well before your body.

9/25/2016 3:10:23 PM
At 3:17 this pm Master Mac passed away. I will be away for awhile i might never come back only time will tell

9/24/2014 8:12:22 PM
looks like I get my Master sooner than I thought.

9/17/2014 11:03:02 PM
I think I have found my Alpha but time will tell, Master Mac and I are talking we will see where it goes from here.  but like I have said HANDS ON SKIN rule applies still.

9/8/2014 7:58:43 PM
So I am looking still for my Alpha. Not finding what I need or someone that is willing to take me as I am.

9/2/2014 5:07:30 PM
Ok I have to say this I should not have to but I guess I do. IF YOU HAVE NOTHING NICE TO SAY THEN JUST SAY NO THANKS. If I want more I would ask. I am one of a kind and I know it. I am not perfect but for now I can take care of myself. But I need a ALPHA in my life. I have the medical stuff handled I just need the Alpha for the rest. If that appeals to you then great is not just move on.  If I visit you profile I am interested if your not then just move on. If I email you then I want to talk if your not interested just say not interested. I don't want a 500 word essay why I am not worth anything. Just keep that to yourself. I have enough problems I don't need that too. ok rant is finished

8/19/2014 12:06:25 PM
ok so you have seen my profile now what?? I have been looking for over 8 years. All I find is liars, losers, wantabees or arm chair Dom's. Granted there is some good and honest Dominates out there. meet a few of them but never close enough or willing to take a chance on a person like me. I am not Barbie perfect or made of leather so you can't hurt me as much as you like. But I do like mild to moderate pain. You will never find a more loyal or obedient submissive/slave. Willing to learn and do things your way. Willing to take a leap of faith and try and see if it can work. So if you actually want a person like me then say something. I am tired of putting my heart into a email and then they don't respond or some nasty remark. so be nice I am always. I give respect to all Alphas I do expect it back. Other wise how can you dominate someone elses life and not respect the other people around you. It goes to show character and intelligence.
I am talking to a great Alpha but I don't know where its leading to. 

People think that they need perfect right from the start. I am sorry you the only way that will happen is if you do it yourself. Find a loyal and obedient person. Take the time to learn your prize and how she works. Then teach her your way mold her into what you actually want. I know it takes time and work. But anything in this world of any value takes work, sweat, blood and tears. I am willing to do it ARE YOU??

8/12/2014 8:49:31 PM
ok I have had enough. I need a 24/7 tpe Master will go where ever I need to to find someone doesn't have to be perfect just safe sane consensual Understand I am not complete fixed partially but not all the way so if that I a problem then I am sorry there is nothing I can do about it right now. I am fixed as far as I can be right now. doesn't make me any less that a woman just plumbed wrong.

8/7/2014 4:59:06 PM
It looks like I found what I was looking for. Find out this weekend how far down that rabbit hole I am going. Found a wonderful Master and I will serve at his feet till he no longer wishes me to be there.  I will do it with great pride and humility. I will accept any teaching or correction with out hesitation nor complaint.  I will always do as I am told but never act like o door mat.  well like I said how far down will I be going. only time will tell

7/19/2014 12:13:14 AM
 I am a very good submissive. respectful at all time. Learn very quickly. and serve without hesitation. Is that not what a Master wants. Or is it that I am not complete. They were told this from the start. Its in my profile and listed here. Yea I am not complete if I had the money then I would be. But at 20 grand or higher I just can't do it. Its not that I don't want it its I can't afford it. And no I don't want your money just time at a Masters feet.  A place I miss so bad. and can not find again.Yea I want to  go see you for 20+ days and don't have money to use for tickets. So buy the ticket and I can get that at the station. No money is given to me that way and you know that I will come when you see that the ticket is picked up. People that want something and when its given without hesitation they run So if you want a submissive and are willing to take a chance with a broken girl. Just email me and I will discuss it with you. Understand  yea I will go from email to yahoo then cell phone pretty fast it is the way I live my life. FULL TILT WITHOUT HESATATION OR REGRETS.

6/16/2014 5:31:09 AM
I am looking for a Master. Someone that prizes his submissive. Someone that understands what Master means. Inspect his property and wants it to be the best she can be. Willing to take full control and understands how a girl like me ticks.I am willing to do what ever Master wants. Someone that will always keep me in my place, use me regularly and never ignore me when i need him. Someone that understands that Masters word is law.Someone that will take me as I am and mold me int the submissive he wants. Understands that that i am broken and have been hurt. Trust is a major issue for me. But i am willing to go where ever and how ever Master wishes. Not able to relocate right now but that can change for the right person. Its seems like a almost impossible person to find but i know he is out there. I am about ready to give up and walk away from this lifestyle. I need to be wanted, prized, controlled, and cared for.

4/17/2014 3:27:20 AM

First you have to understand that i am broken. Kidney failure in 2010 dialysis 3 days a week and no they don't know why thy failed. I am ddf free all my life. No drugs non smoker and i do try to take care of myself. I have been mistreated and hurt so it may take a moment or two to get to know me but do understand you will never find a more devoted or honest submissive anywhere.  That being said if you still want to except me as a submissive and talk to me please just message me and i will answer all emails.


3/22/2014 7:13:49 AM

Welcome to my little world. Finally moved and have settled in to a place in Bellevue Nebraska. have internet now so i will try to be on more. talk to you soon


3/22/2014 7:11:39 AM

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9/9/2012 7:20:52 PM

Welll sorry i have been here in along time needed a break so i took it. Anyway my name change is legal gender change legal. So now i am just trying to find someone to have some fun with. your welcome to email but but nice i might be submissive but i am not your submissive YET. I will return all emails as soon as i can. I have stage 5 kidney failure so i dont always get back right away but i will return all emails as soon as i can


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foureva
 
 Age: 28
 Cary, North Carolina