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Do you see the pain dancing behind my eyes, or the fear coursing through my body? The tears falling from my eyes and the screams coming from my broken smile? Do you see me or am i the invisable footprint left on the concrete you just spit on?

Do you see the scares lazily carved into my wrist, one time they were for you, her and anyone else who pushed me. The bruises from smashing my fists into the brick and the blood from another scar you placed so well. Do you see me yet, or am still nobody you miss when your alone?

You will never see the beautiful woman i have become, the confident woman with scars hidden and blood dried. The lover and fighter i held within, that has broken free forever.

No you will never see me.

Taken from my page. 

https://.com/users/1262222

 SO I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR DO NOT WASTE MY TIME, I AM NOT LOOKING FOR GAMES I AM LOOKING FOR REAL PEOPLE INTO THE THINGS I AM INTO. I JUST WASTED TWO HOURS OF MY TIME WITH SOMEONE NOT EVEN INTERESTED. MY TIME CAN BE SPENT BETTER NOT LISTENING TO BITCH ASS MEN WHO JUST WANT TO PLAY PRETEND AND HAVE SEX WITH ME. FUCK YOU 

So a new start for me in a new place, hoping this time around people are better. What i am looking for is simple a guide, a disciplinarian who will give the punishment and guidance i need.

So i am really contemplating  deactivating this account and finding somewhere else to talk socially. I have talk to many phony people on here who hav no concept of the lifestyle and what true D/s is.  Calling someone a slut or your property without even getting to know them is not only stupid but its not safe and it shows your lack of knowledge of the lifestyle. With submission comes trust and calling someone horrible names does not earn trust or respect.

I get very tired of the same old song and dance when really people are more talk about what they want to do than action. wasting people's time is not funny some of us take this lifestyle very serious and i'm sorry if some think its just a way to hurt people with out repercussions but we take it very serious and won't allow any old asshole to take something so special away from us. Trust is delicate without it there is nothing to build on and once broken nothing to rebuild on.

Please do not promise what you are not willing to deliver this teaches nothing but mistrust. If i can't trust you with the simplest things how can i believe you when you say i won"t hurt you?

So this dude swears he wants to hook up and have a fun time but he lies and never calls or stops by when he says he will. I am done playing with men and woman who want to lie and keep me waiting for something that will never happen. 

If you are not serious than please do not email me or try to talk to me.

So i am said to be bratty and feisty but you love that because it gives you something to work with.

I am loud  but you love that because it gives you something to silence.

I am loyal and you love that because it gives you the thoughts of eternity with me.

So tired of people making me wait and never living up to their word i might be submissive but i do not play games. This white girl does have a life out side of my freakish fetish so please do not waste my time and i promise not to waste yours.

Today i waited for a certain someone and seems like he thinks my time is his to waste, well as you can see time waits for no man not even one with a belt. I think my next move is to stand him up next time and make an excuse not to see him and see how it feels on the other end. 

Well anyway those who wish to contact me and get to know me are welcome to do so, and those who wish to make silly demands and waste my time there is a block button with your name on it.

I am looking only to find someone interested in taming this wild child i have become.

Fake people annoy me, we chat and chat but then you fail to come see me.

I have no use for useless conversation, if you are not real with me i can only assume you lie to yourself.

I find a woman's aggression very beautiful and i am primarily looking for a domme and will continue to actively search until i find a match or until she finds me.