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subconsc Male Submissive, 28, Oxford	subcopperhead Female Submissive, 26	SubCoyate Male Submissive, 23, Brandon, Florida

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	About subconscious1 am happily owned and collared.... Have many interests...don't consider self an expert at any of them. Enjoy meeting new people and sharing ideas, learning about others. Do consider self a caring person and am always willing to lend an ear or a shoulder when possible. ~Thank You~

Checking out at the grocery store:

Cashier says the classic "Have a nice day"

My response, "I AM having a good day! Every moment of every day is an adventure!"

If only i'd had a camera for the look on her face......

What fun it is to surprise people with positive thoughts. I left that grocery store knowing she would share that with her co-workers and maybe a little spark in the back of her mind that will never forget those words.

Maybe she just thought i was on crack, but i like to think i gave her a happy moment as well.

Be the kind of woman
that when your feet
hit the floor each
morning the devil says
"Oh Crap, She's up!"

THE GREATEST SINGLE CAUSE OF ATHEISM IN THE WORLD TODAY IS CHRISTIANS~~WHO ACKNOWLEDGE JESUS WITH THEIR LIPS~~ THEN WALK OUT THE DOOR & DENY HIM BY THEIR LIFESTYLE~~ THAT IS WHAT AN UNBELIEVING WORLD SIMPLY FINDS UNBELIEVABLE~~d.c. talk

I know I am sometimes forgetful.
But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important
things.

To get what we've never had, we must do what we've never done.

if tears could build a stairway and memories were a lane we would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity....Edgar Allen Poe

Is it genetically impossible for our children to make smarter choices than ourselves? I mean, dayummmm.....why do they have to make mistakes? Why can't they turn out perfect like we dream them to be? If i had known this would be so tough, i'd have had my tubes tied at 15 freakin years of age.

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we
become disguised to ourselves

Hell is empty, and the devils live here.---William Shakespeare

Wow...bad experience in a CM chat roomlast night. Amazing part is that the insult that was shot at me hurt so bad. Probably bothered me, because i didn't retaliate with a snarky comment of my own, but didn't want to lower myself to that person's level. Which also reveals the submissive side of self, in a way. BUT, for the record....I AM NOT STUPID!!!!! And that bitch only said the mean stuff because she was jealous of my happiness! So there! (sticks tongue out)

I am the luckiest woman on the planet!!!!!!!!

Someone asked me if i like age play. My reply was 'why would i want to act like a child, when i've worked so hard to become a grownup?"

Keep seeing profiles that state 'safe-sane'...wondering if there are those who claim to be 'unsafe and insane'???

Getting tired of the bulk emails! Twits keep telling me i am lovely and ideal for them, etc. Ironic, since i am owned, not looking and have no photo! *rolls eyes*

Truly enjoy exchanging emails with folks on this site. Getting to know someone is always a pleasure. But PLEASE realize this one is NOT LOOKING which is clearly stated on my profile.
Thank you

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
--Jason Mraz

While browsing through a few profiles a thought just came to mind. If a sub finds a Dom attractive, reads his "wish list" won't she immediately find herself thinking along those lines, in spite of whether it's her true self? Hmmmm....maybe this will make for a new forum thread....

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marrianne Williamson

Another night of emotional pains. Can't help but wonder if the flashbacks will ever end. Flashback of that horrible night my beautiful daughter died. Reliving that night over and over. Crying acid tears, tasting the bittersweet truth as it runs down my face and burns the skin and nasal passages. Praying that someday that night will become a distant memory. No longer a vivid recollection. Can recall every single moment of that entire night. The pain, the sorrow, both personal and shared. The unexpected strength that came through and held us all together. And yes, there was love. Undying love that will endure all time. Love that makes the memories linger and soothes the scars that still burn and remind us of the pain, the agony, the loss.?

"Be courteous to all, be intimate with few, and let those few,? be well tried before you give them your confidence."

George Washington

Yep, just gotta say it once more...am happily owned and collared! Love You Sir!

?Approaching a number of anniversary dates that will be very painful. Seems the anticipation builds and the anxiety and depression grows, then the dreaded day will arrive and i can reach a point of closure. Each of these times seem to be getting more and more difficult. Perhaps the anniv. of her passing will be the pinnacle and things will become a wee bit less stressful. Am praying as much. Tired of hurting, tired of crying, tired of not having control over my thoughts and feelings. Yes, these are all the grieving processes. No longer able to be the person i once was. Not proud of who i am. Hell, i dont even know who i am.

One Door Away From Heaven
by Dean Koontz

(With names deleted)

'Change isn't easy. Changing the way you live means changing the way you think. Changing the way you think means changing what you believe about life. That's hard. When we make our own misery, we sometimes cling to it even when we want so bad to change, because the misery is something we know. The misery is comfortable.'
'It's also true that sometimes--not often, but once in a great while--your life can change for the better in one moment of grace, almost a sort of miracle. Something so powerful can happen, someone so special come along, some precious understanding descend on you so unexpectedly that it just pivots you in a new direction, changes you forever.'

Soooooo restless and bored. This has been a long month! Cooped up too much and lonely a lot of the time.

Am happy to have made friends here on CM! And such good friends they are!

Received a precious little Christmas gift early this year. A simple little ornament, sent from my sister in Missouri. On the front is this...

Merry Christmas From Heaven
I love you all dearly,
Now don't shed a tear,
I'm spending my Christmas
With Jesus this year.

On the back of the ornament is this engraving...
OOdles of Love
Mom
1921-2007

(Mom signed lots of our cards in that exact same way)
Such a simple gift and yet so reassuring to think Mom is smiling down at us and knowing a happiness and peace like nothing possible here on Earth.

Odd...dreamt last night i was dying, and wasn't afraid....even woke up not being afraid.

http://www.richstevens.com/naked

Am learning 7th path self hypnosis. This is my 3rd week of training and am already feeling an improvement in how i feel about myself. Mental health has been in short supply this past year. Am so very happy to be feeling better!

Why do Doms keep emailing me, asking if this one is seeking when my profile clearly states am owned and collared? There will not be any photos on my profile...it would only bring about a flood of emails. (Am not a beauty...am simply slender in build) Get enough emails as it is....perhaps this will assist.....NOT LOOKING for anything other than friends.

Bad things keep happening to the ones i love...maybe they'd be better off without me

~Sigh~ this is gonna be a long damn year, aint it? Everything we do makes me think of her. Everything I say makes me wish she was here to hear it. Selfish bitch aint I? my daughter IS the lucky one...she's no longer in pain, no longer struggling to make ends meet, no longer paying taxes...and she's the one who is in Heaven, wrapped in the warmth and comfort of Jesus' love.

Closure....when does it come when it involves the loss of your own child? She's in a better place; reunited with her grandparents and no longer suffering in this cold hard world. Just when this one thinks the pain has eased, something as simple as the death certificate arrives in the mail and the pain comes right back to the sharp cruel edge as if it were yesterday she died and not 12 days ago...Always been strong..able to see the positives and accentuate them no matter how small. Not so much these days...everything HURTS. This is a pain no parent should ever have to endure. They say talking about it over and over will eventually make it hurt less...am praying for the simplest of relief.

Today is a strange day indeed. Awoke feeling deeply depressed. Took a migraine pill to alleviate the physical pain, then cancelled a play date with Master, which added to my dismay, but was so very needed. Came to the reality this one needed to have the time alone, win the battle with the depression alone. Here it is noon and already feeling human again. YAY me!

this one finds it interesting how many profiles on CM are from subs who consider themselves goddesses. Isn't that a bit of an oxymoron? If one is submissive how can they be "Goddess-like"? Yeah, that's probably not a real word, *giggles*

Just sent a quick note to my Master...signed it "with loving respect, pet" Came to the realization this one LOVES to be called "pet" by her Master.

this one finds it interesting how many Doms state on their profiles that others are not true Doms and They profess to be far more Dominant than others. Salesmanship has to be far better than simply stating "Mine's bigger than Yours" If this one were looking, this one would not be impressed with the larger percentage of the profiles she reads. Just this one's humble perspective...hope no one is offended!!!

This one is not looking for anything more than friends
thank Y/you

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