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Remember the scene in Labyrinth where Sarah falls down the hole to the oubliette and the Helping Hands catch her?
Helping Hand: Well then, come on, which way?
Sarah: Which way?
Helping Hand: Up, or down?
Sarah: Oh...
Helping Hand: Come on, come on.
Different Helping Hand: We haven't got all day.
Different Helping Hand: Well, it's a big decision for her.
Different Helping Hand: Which way do you want to go, hm?
Sarah: Oh.
Helping Hand: Yes, which way?
Sarah: Well... since I'm pointed that way, I guess I'll go down.
Helping Hand: She chose DOOOOOWN!
Different Helping Hand: She chose down? Heh!
[they let go]
Sarah: Was that wrong?
Helping Hand: Too late now!
My experience since discovering BDSM has been like that. I found it after a stumble in my personal life, and am continually given the choice to stop and go back to the way things were or continue the direction I'm headed. Thus far, my choice has been to descend further, sliding faster and faster down the vertical corridor of perversion.
You should know I'm a smartass and a brat, though I'm obedient with the right motivation. I don't do anything halfway, so once you've caught my attention, I give with everything I have. I'm very much a service sub. That doesn't mean I'll blindly submit to anybody calling him- or herself a Dominant. I have to respect you, and you have to compel me to obey with your actions, not just by telling me. I take my role seriously, and expect you to do the same. I'm not above saying or doing something silly in a particularly tense moment, because I love to make people smile and laugh. I suppose it's part of my desire to serve.
If you want to know if I'm into something, the best way to find out is to approach me at an event and start a conversation or send me a message. I don't do private meetings unless I know you very well, and if you won't take the time to come to an event, you're not likely to get anywhere with me. I'm married, my husband is mostly vanilla. We're actively poly and I love BDSM play and power exchange, so that's what I'm looking for. What I'm NOT looking for is an online relationship, long-distance, or someone who is only interested in games.
Physically, I suppose I could be considered a short, busty BBW. I'm happy with myself, though there's always room for improvement. The day I stop trying to make myself better is the day I die.
I'm an active member of my community. I'm the Outreach Coordinator for the New Mexico rs Board and I write the blog. I truly want to make a difference, and nobody ever does that by sitting on their couch, complaining. So I'm out there, at events, working hard and doing what I feel is my part.
My personal philosophy:
If you want to see change, BE change.
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