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I am a single white BBW just looking to have some fun and eventually a LTR with that right dom that will not only accept me but my children. They are an important part of who I am and we come together.
When I first started here, I was just looking for fun but I have changed my perspective on things and am now no longer afraid of a relationship. I will warn you though, I do have walls up that I built after my divorce because I did not want to allow anyone in that close again. I am now ready to find the right person who can tear down those walls and find out who the real me is. There are many facets to who I am. I am fun loving, intelligent, open, honest, trusting, silly, obedient, loving, kind, gentle, I don't like to hold grudes. There are other times I am stubborn, moody, a cry-baby, I hate confrontation and tend to avoid it. I love to listen to a man talk and learn all I can about him but I also want my words heard too. I feel if have important things to say and hope he woould feel that way too. I love to sing and I escape many times in music. I search lyrics that speak to my heart at any one given moment and I hold on to that song with all I am. Music speaks to me in so many ways.
Cuddle time and just holding one another silently are just as important to me as the BDSM asspects of a D/s life. As I study the nuances of a D/s lifestyle, it is what I believe that I have been looking for my whole life. Not just a dominiate to control me in the bedroom but one who will look after me in every aspect of my life and have nothing but my best interests in his heart. Even if I don't always see it that way, he would gentlely guide me and bring me over my fears and take me to that place where he wants me to be and knows that I am able to go. And in return, he will have my total devotion and love. I will live my life to serve him and love him with every ounce of my being.
One more important part of me is that I am not a small woman. I like to be upfront about this from the beginning. I had a gastric bypass over 3 years ago and have lost 150 pounds but would still like to lose another 80. I work at it but it is taking a very long, slow time. A tummy tuck is in the future sometime but this weight loss has taken a tole on my outward physical apperance and I struggle constantly with my own body image issues. I am self-concience about the way my body and perticularly my tummy area looks. I am trying to get over that but it is easier said than done sometimes.
Hopefully, if you have gotten this far, I have not scared you off. If I sound right for you, please drop me an email.
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I have gotten into studying astrology lately. I find it facinating. There are many times what I read is exactly who I am. I am a Cancer and I fit that to a T. The books that I have read says that Cancers are emotional and when hurt, tend to go into their shells. This is so me. When I am upset or hurt, I tend to go into myself and pout until I feel better. We also like the security of being loved and cared for. That is something that I have longed for since my divorce. The book I am reading also says that cancers guard their hearts and don't easily give it away. They are loyal and love to be at home. I am all of these traits. It is really funny how much this fits me. I am finding all of this interesting and can't wait to find out more. |
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| Age: 18 |
| Richmond,
Virginia |
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