I am 30 yo bisexual man

I always was attracted to men but never acted on it as I felt guilty and "inappropriate".

I tried to meet some men and try sex but could not do it.

however, I can't go like this and need "help"

I am looking for mature nice dominant men who will collar me, tie my hands and than "rape" me, both orally and anally.

While my mouth can be used rough, I am not into pain or injuries.

I want safe and sane play with the man who know what he is doing - man who will take full control of me and force me to have sex -break me (take my virgin ass) slowly and safely.

I will probably not want anal once it come to that point but you need to be in control and do it - slowly, with lube, preparing me so there is no much pain and nothing unsafe or damage.

If I say no, yo can punish me by spanking me or raping my mouth more

I am mature, well educated, and know what I am getting into but I need to do it rather than wonder all my life about "how is to be with a man"

I am also good looking, got good body (hope ass too)

so, I hope there is a nice dominant man out there to "help" a young man.