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well looks like the doctor thinks there is something seriously wrong. my thumb has been numb and when it does have feeling and moves pain shoots up my arm. doctor thinks the problem is somewhere in my neck. not good. i go back to see him monday may 4th instead of when he originally wanted to see me. WONDERFUL!!!!!
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Well back to work tomorrow with restrictions after 2 1/2 months being out. Still having problems but have a call into the doctor already for that. |
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I was recently asked if I got my wrist operated on. I would reply to the mail that was sent but it seems the sender has me blocked.....anywho....yes I have had it operated on...Feb 10th.....divorced....as of Feb 6th and living life to the fullest....life is good......started physical therapy on tuesday and that is already showing an improvement....ROM went from 5% to 20% in just 3 days.....that was awesome.....still cant bend the wrist but it will come in time....so to the one person who has me blocked....if you would like to have a normal chat unblock me so I can respond to your messages...... |
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WOW.....can some people be for real....they think certain comments such as "You are a mature blaze of fire that will be turned into a puff of smoke by me in order to sap your will. I am the man who will infiltrate your soul and dominate it.", is going to make a submissive jump right into what they want. WRONGO as the grinch would say(im a grinch fan).....at least not this one. Come on people get for real and get a life. I guess this one in particular wants a doormat.....LOOK ELSEWHERE......I am NOT a doormat. |
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I forgot to mention that my divorce was final on Feb 6th. |
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You know its pretty bad that someone sends you a message like +++If you are not looking - remove your profile - it's people like you who give this site a bad name +++ and then blocks you from making a response.....well i can make it here and will......
HEY WANNABE!!!! MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. AS IT SO HAPPENS I FOUND MY DOM ON THIS SITE. YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS THAT HE HAS ME AND YOU DONT!!!! THIS SITE DOES ALLOW FOR PEOPLE TO MAKE FRIENDS HERE....SO GO BACK TO YOUR WANNABE WORLD AND LEAVE US REAL FOLK ALONE......YOU ARE THE ONE WHO GIVES THIS SITE AND OTHERS LIKE IT A BAD NAME. THERE ARE THOSE OF US THAT ARE REAL AND THEY KNOW I AM JUST THAT...REAL...SO GET A LIFE AND DELETE YOUR PROFILE...
anyone who wants to know who this is feel free and ask I will tell....Ive been told his nickname means he is NOT well endowed.....poor soul...no wonder he needs to harrass us. |
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Well I had my surgery on Feb 10th. I am healing nicely. Going stir crazy tho. Cant drive for 2 reasons. The first is my car has a manual trans so it has a shifter. So I cant shift. Second reason is the pain meds they put me on make me dizzy and queezy. So I spend a lot of time in bed or on the couch. I hate being a home body. I like to get up and go and cant at the present time. I get the stitches out of my wrist on the 23rd. Hopefully I will be able to do some things at that time. Dont know if I will be able to go back to work then. I doubt it due to the nature of my job. I will do the best I can until then.
Hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's Day!!! |
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Well I found out today that my surgery is going to be on February 10th at 8 am. Depending on what the doctor sees when he opens my wrist determines the amount of surgery. Right now it is for sure that the sheath in the wrist that the tendon slides thru is too narrow so he needs to widen it so the tendon can slide thru. Once he opens the sheath he can tell if that part of the tendon needs to be repaired because of a tear. An Mri cannot see inside this sheath. I will be doing this as an out patient and will be home later the same day. Stitiches will come out 10 days later. And depending on what he finds when he opens the sheath depends on how long I am out of work. Anywhere from 2-6 weeks. I will know in 17 days.
Not looking anymore!!!
Court date for divorce is Friday Feb 6th...wooohooooo
Nothing to get in the way of my new infatuation and you know who you are. Hugs
Will be moving into my new apt as well and we are looking forward to that day. |
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I am so sick and tired of all the liars, scammers, fakers and bullshitters. It is so exasperating hearing someone you thought was interested in you some time ago come up with all kinds of lame excuses. Then states they found another cuz they thought you were going to settle for them. What a bunch of horse shit. If you arent serious about your interest then dont express yourself that way. I have no problem being friends with anyone on this site. Just be REAL or dont waste my time or yours. |
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Well divorce is filed. Awaited court date. Extremely happy about it. Also found out that I will be having surgery on my wrist. Tendon is messed up. Could be out 2 weeks to 6 weeks or better depending on what he finds when he opens the wrist. Date is unknown at this time. Awaiting workmans comp approval. |
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Well I had my MRI yesterday in Merritt Island. First MRI I every had where the tech made me so comfy that I fell asleep during the 50 minute scan.
I go back to the doctor on January 12th. It took workmans comp two weeks to get the approval for the MRI. It figures that the day I have the MRI is the day the doctor goes on vacation. He gets back the 5th but the first available appointment is the 12th. At 5:45 pm. Doctor thinks the tendon is stretched. Wish I knew what the MRI showed. They put it on cd for the doctor and I have it here with me. I cant view all pictures either. Need a program for that. Guess I have to deal with that for another month. It has now been 7 months since I fell at work. By the time I see the doctor again it will be almost 8 months. And if surgery is required that is another month to 6 weeks. So at least 10 months to deal with something like this. Uggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! |
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Well I went to the doctor yesterday. He has put off the surgery pending the results of yet another MRI. He said he needs a good reading from a good MRI company. He is still very much concerned with the weak tendon and wants to see what the MRI shows. He has me doing another exercise which totally hurts my hand and wrist to do. In fact, he did it in the office and I let out one hell of a scream it hurt so bad. I have been sore ever since. Now he also wants me to wear my brace at night. Go figure!!!! Hurt the hand and wrist by day and confine it at night. Doesnt make mch sense to me but of course being the "good girl" that I am I always follow doctors orders. He is the doctor right??!! As soon as I get the appointment for the MRI I have to call the doctors office and make an appointment for 2 days later. Fun fun fun!!!! Well that is about it for now. Hope everyone is doing well. |
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Well....yet another scammer and faker. I have been speaking with a certain male submissive who is trying to pass himself off as a cross dresser/femme. I have done a google search on him, i have his real name, and viola I find that he is a scammer a liar and he cheats people out of their money. Kind of ironic dont you think. This person is trying to befriend everyone he can and lure them in his cosmetics business, and take all their money. Please be careful with him. For those of you I have already message please be aware. For those of you who do and want to know who this is please feel free to contact me directly. I will even send you you the google link if you wish to know what is being said about him. I think his scam is more than money with me tho because I turned him down flat on another web site, a vanilla one a year and a half ago.
I am a firm believer "to each his own" but not when it is going to harm there real people here or on any other site.
Fore warned is fore armed. |
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Ok I understand we are submissive and some slaves but sending a first message such as
HELLO slut! I'M LOOKING FOR A PAIN slut OPEN TO FORCED LACTATION.
Is truly unreal. This came from a Domme. First off if you actually read my profile you will read that I am NOT into pain. And a message such as the one about is a complete turn off. After a sub/slave has chosen her/his Dom/Domme comments like that are fine. This is just one of many reasons I have yet to be collared. People wonder why this is so. Well unless you get to know someone on a one -on-one basis first how else is a sub/slave supposed to know what he/she wants, especially one like me who is a novice to this lifestyle. I may be sub, bi and pretty but I am definitely no doormat. I have had a few tell me I am what true Masters wants and that other sub/slaves could learn from me and all I have to say on that note is that a sub/slave has to be true to herself/himself first and not just settle for anyone that shows her/him attention. So with this said, if you are going to message me with comments like that to start off with then think twice, save your typing skills, because I am not going to be so nice much longer. You may end up in my journal just like this one did.Doms/Dommes like you give the true Masters a bad rap, which in my opinion just isnt right. Thats right I have opinions too. I am human and I have feelings so if you want to chat with this girl show a little decorum. Thee is such a thing as the "getting to know stage" use it.
Now that I have said my peace I wll let it go.
For you subs/slaves, that on occassion read my profile, be true to yourself first and foremost because otherwise how can you be true to your Master.
I hope everyone is having a GREAT weekend. |
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Hello everyone! Hope you hare having a good day. Here is the latest update on my hand and thumb....the wrist is better and so is the hand. I have tripled the strength in it in the last 3 weeks which is great. They have released me from physical therapy. I went to the doctor today and he is a little concerned with the tendon that controls the thumb. He says it is weak. I have to do exercises at home that hopefully will strengthen the tendon. I go back to see the doctor Dec 3rd. If the tendon doesnt strengthen itself then the doctor says he will have to go in and repair it. Hopefully the exercises work and he wont have to cut into me. I have done everything I am supposed to up until this point. I will continue to do so. I will not be able to handle not using my hand for several weeks if he has to repair it. I will update again soon. Thanks for reading.
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This message is for all the submissives that view my profile from time to time. There is a certain dom out there in the Las Vegas Nevada area that you have to be extremely careful about. Reason being is I found out he isnt who he claims he is. He is dangerous in more ways than you could imagine. I wont provide you his name here. Email me and I will provide his name for you. And if this Dom just happens to read this you know what I am talking about. |
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Ok .....im starting to get a little irritated....the people that message me from overseas is the problem...there are a few of you that just want someone to chat with...thats fine.....its the rest of you that dont seem to get it....I MAY BE SUBMISSIVE BUT I AM IN NO WAY YOUR GREEN CARD...get a life and find someone else to try to sucker.....those of you that message me for the first time and tell me....
i would like to chat with you
(email address deleted)
i want to knw you
add me in your messenger
I DONT THINK SO
you must think I am some kind of fool or something...I am submissive but not an idiot.
or
how about these next 2 little ditties I found in my email box
hi sexy iam not married wish if i get your yahoo to know more about u
You convey a certainly softenss and wistfulness delicious one.
Oh come on now...give this girl a break. These kinds of words make me sit here in my seat and laugh. I dont fall for these types of words. I prefer people to be themselves and be real. If you want to have an intelligent conversation then I am up for that but if you want my personal IM's forget it. After my experience with a wannabe Dom from Las Vegas I dont give out that information. Not anymore!!!!!! No if and's or butt's about it. If you cant get to know me here first and then set up a meeting in person to find out how real you really are then dont bother. I prefer an upfront in the face type meeting in a public place. Once that is accomplished then I will provide my IM information and not before.
You've heard the saying...once bitten twice shy. That's this gal.
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For those of you that know about my drip to the ER. I spend all of thursday night and a good part of friday morning in the ER. I was having a burning and tearing sensation in the lower left side of my abdomen which was accompanied by nausau and vomiting. Not a good combination. Well the official diagnosis was an umbilical hernia and kidney stone. Not good huh. Well the temp fix for the hernia was the doctor shoving his finger into my belly button extremely deep and putting the hernia back in place. What did he do about the kidney stone. NOTHING!!! Absolutely nothing. He did tell me I was going to need surgery for the hernia but at this time it is not life threatening. So thats the just of it for now. |
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Well I have seen the doctor yet again for my thumb and wrist. He is extremely pleased with my progress. He has put me on limited duty at work. Type 30 minutes on and 90 minutes off for a total of 2 hours a day. He has also raise the weight limit from 2 pounds to 10 pounds. I have also been going thru physical therapy. I have had 3 sessions with a fourth one today. They are also pleased with my progress. I dont think my hand will totally get back to the way it was but right now there is definite improvement. I go back to the doctor on October 15th. Lets see what he does then. Hopefully by Thanksgiving I will be back to full duty.
Hope everyone is having a good week. I know I sure am. |
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Just wanted to thank everyone who remembered today was my birthday. Thank you so much for the birthday wishes.
Just a little update on my hand....saw doctor last friday...he injected the base of my thumb and the back of my wrist with something and I have some use of my hand again... the surgeon found tendonitis on both sides of my wrist that was in the original mri that was caused from the fall...found arthritis in the base of my thumb in the original xrays. which was aggrevated by the fall...he doesnt know why the other two doctors didnt see it....he also said i should have never have been put in the brace to begin with let alone for 3 1/2 months...which made a bad situation worse....now i have to go thru physical therapy on my hand...i have a 2 pound weight restriction and no prolonged anything...Next doctor appointment is Sept 17th...will update you all then |
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Pics have been approved. Hope you like them. |
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Hey all. I am updating my pics.
Also for those that are wondering about my injury that happened at work here is the update on that. As you know I fell a little over 3 months ago. First doctor couldnt figure out what was wrong. Second doctor says its all in my head that I was crazy and that I needed a shrink. Well that just irritated me to no end. I see a hand surgeon in Orlando on August 29th.
Im not looking for sympathy or anything along those lines. Just someone who is compassionate and understanding and willing to work around the hand until at such a time it is fixed. I still want to learn all I can and have my limits pushed. If you are patient and willing to deal with this feel free to message me. |
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well I am by myself again and looking. feel free to message me |
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Well it seems I have met somone. We started dating a week ago. When we are alone everything seems fine but when we are among friends at a certain place he seems to get totally different. Testy, controling(more than I like which borders on pushy). You can tell how a person is even after a short time. I can read men quite well. I am no fool. Besides he has crossed the line a few times. The place we go people are overly friendly. I understand a kiss on the mouth and a hug. But other things that were done is against what we agreed to. Leaving me in the dust, so to speak, as an after thought doesnt sit well with me. Everything that was done I should have been a part of. I am definitely not a jealous person. And this isnt a jealousy issue. Definitely doesnt want to be left in the dark type issue. In a relationship that is supposed to be growing on mutual trust. The trust part is seriously damaged already. I undertand the lifestyle we chose to partake in other than the d/s lifestyle but this is totally and utterly ridiculous. He knew before we started this that I had no intention of changing the relationship I have between me and my estranged spouse and his gf who is my gf and he was fine with this supposedly. Now it seems like he is trying to change everything I told him I wasnt willing to change. I know it may be a little selfish on my part but this is who and what I am. If this was a problem for him,when I was upfront and honest from the very first, then he should have voiced his opinion. It wouldnt have changed my mind in a any way but honesty is a must here. I am very seriosouly considering ending it and looking elsewhere to where someone who will honestly accept me for who and what I am. I do like him and when we are totally alone I couldnt be happier but but I have to be happy in all aspects in my life. |
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Hey all.
Its a nice sunny sunday here and just woke up not too long ago. Long night last night so to speak.
I have been thinking more about what I want. Well I am looking for someone who can help bring out my submissive side in private while still having fun out in public. Let me elaborate further on this. Public flirtation, a slight tug of the hair, a swat on the behind or a nice kiss on that certain spot on the neck is great too just to show me who is in control. I am also looking for someone to enhance all aspects of my life. In and out of the bedroom. Someone who will challenge my mind as well as my body. I am looking for more than an occassional get together. I am not looking for someone to control every aspect of my life. I have a mind and I plan to continue to use it.
Also for clarification purposes. I am a female who is separated from her spouse for over two years now with no chance of reconciliation. We are still friends. He has a new life with a wonderful girl and baby and they are happy. If you can handle this please message me. If not please dont waste your time or mine. It is what it is. |
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Hey all.? Just a little update on me.? I am a little under the weather so to speak.? I had a little accident at work.? Its going to take me some time to answer any emails that come to me due to the fact I only have the use of one hand.? I will answer all messages just give me time ok.
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Definition of "stupid people" - people who expect something for nothing, cant put two words together let alone a whole thought, people who have to have things explained to them 10 times or more.
?I am not just speaking of this lifestyle.? I am speaking about my job as well.?
Dont people have better things to do than to try to fuck with other people's heads.? Get a life people.? Find better people to screw with.? Better them than me.? ?
This pretending to be someone you arent is definitely bullshit.? Almost created a problem that couldnt be rectified. ? Luckily it didnt.? Lesson learned on my part.? Probably more to learn from this instance as well. ? ??
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What a day!!! My ex dom contacted me.? Or should I say wannabe dom?? Trying to tell me how much he loves me and wants to take up where we left off.? Does he think I am stupid or what?? Well what a time I have been having with him and I dont mean a good time.? Damn text messaging.? I get a text out of the blue from a number I dont recognize asking if it was me.? Of course I said it was and asked who it was messaging me.? Next message was "I love you".? I was mortified.? I once again asked who was messaging me.? The message came across the dom you once served.? I knew right away who it was and asked what he wanted.? He wanted to talk to me and asked if he could call me.? I let him.? First mistake on my part.? We talked and things seemed to be going ok.? Agreed to be friends.? Second mistake on my part.? Well the next day I get a message from his girlfriend to stop calling him.? Hello he messaged me.? He called me.? I did not once call him.? Well then today was one hell of a day.? I couldnt help but laugh.? Out of the blue I get told I just gave him a blow job and it was tasty.? Get real.? Get a life. Like I care.? Well then about 30 minutes later I get asked by this female to move to Las Vegas.? That they want me for their sub.? That she is a switch and they want someone who will serve them.? Not this girl.? Then a bit later minding my own business doing my job.? Talking to a customer on the phone.? I get another text.? "I wll be making love to him in the hot tub for hours."? I told her to have fun and enjoy herself.? Well she messages me back and says wanna join in.? I told her not in this lifetime or the next.? Why would I want to associate myself with wannabes.? Why do I need them.? Told her I was cared for by a real dom and didnt need them.? Well then a couple hours of blissful silence went by and here comes another text.? She starts calling me fat.? I let out a laugh.? I messaged her back and told her that a real dom likes bbw and only dogs like bone.? I havent heard from her since.? Hopefully I wont.? Well forgive me for ranting here but I had to share the hilarious tale with all of you.??
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Lets see where should I begin this today. My mind has been running amuck today. I experienced something last night that I never dreamt I would ever do. I am extremely glad that I experienced what I did and experiencing it with the close knit group of friends that I had. I got my first spanking. I was shocked at how bold I was about asking for it. I wanted to experience it and to my astonishment I liked it. So much so I ended up with wet panties. For awhile there I thought I let it go too far but thinking back on it I really dont think that now. I will remember this for quite some time. Every time for the next few days, anyhow, when I look in the mirror and see the marks. I really enjoyed it. Looking forward to next time. I learned a big thing too.? I originally thought I learned I wasnt ready and that wasnt the case.? I actually learned there is a difference between spankings and what was done to me in the past.? Thanks!!!
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Let see where to start with my mind in the state it is in at this moment. Like eggs in a blender. I just wanted to curl up with a pillow in my bed and cry like a baby like I did on the way home. No I am not as strong on the inside as I let people think I am on the outside. I learned alot of things about myself that I knew were there but didnt want to admit. And for someone who just met me to actually, by just talking to me and view a few of my actions, see this and pinpoint it was extremely remarkable to say the least. You are a remarkable person. I want to thank you for voicing what you saw and what I was afraid to acknowledge. I realize now that I was on a path of self destruction and lonliness. Those are definintely what I dont want. Looking back over the last year and a half at what I have been doing and I can actually say I want more than that. I want better than that. I am better than what I made myself become. I know I have to pull myself out of that rut that I put myself in.
Now onto another matter.
I cant believe how some people have the nerve to tell you what you should write in your profile. That is just completely assinine. It is your own profile and you have the right to put into it what you want and not what others want you to. All I can say to this person is tell it to someone else this girl isnt biting.
I decided I dont want to be anyones doormat and to have someone tell me what I should or should not write in MY profile stamps DOORMAT right back on my forehead. Especially if i actually did it.? I am not going there AGAIN EVER.
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I actually sat here and read an entire 10 page profile. I usually dont read that much but this profile caught my attention. It really intigued me to say the least. The reality of it is so overwhelming. All I can say to him is WOW.
My life the last few years has been dedicated to making men happy. All men. I am not picky of what they look like or what not. Looks are only skin deep. It is more about what I can do for them then what they could do for me. Alot of them married. Some not married. Some just wanting blow jobs. Some wanting alot more. Now a couple of them came to me for what they couldnt do to their other half and I would allow them to do to me.
You can judge me all you want. I could care less. I do what makes me happy. I have been known to come at a drop of a hat too.
I can say these men are my "friends" as well because we can sit and talk forever as well. I think friendship is the most important in any kind of relationship.
I do know what I dont want in any kind of relationship. I dont like when all you can talk about is what you can insert where. And that is how you start out your conversation. As in foreign objects. Not that I am opposed to doing so but you need to talk to the person regardless of who they are to get to know them.
To that dom in my area. Way to go. Dont settle for anything less than everything you want, need or desire. I am finally working on all of what I want myself.
I read thru alot of the profiles on here and some are just way out there. A few are awesome and some are just downright stupid in my opinion.
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*****Not really sure what I want right now but am staying on the site until I do.*****
Once bitten twice shy is the saying. This girl is no exception. I have been duped and lied to. I cant stand liars. If you are a liar, prankster, or going back to your ex look elsewhere. Right now I am having a hard time trusting. If you knew my stories you would understand why.
I am a novice to this lifestyle and wish to learn everything I can with the right dom. He has to be loving, caring, affectionate, but most of all the speaker of truths. I have alot to offer the right dom. He must believe that teaching his sub is done with love, patience and understanding. I dont go for any of the strong handedness I have read about. I understand punishment for disobedience but not so much that it could be construed as abuse. Have been taught you get more with honey. There is so much I wish to learn but only with the right dom. He must be sincere in wishing to have me in his life. I will serve him well.?
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