Nov.29,2012, My owner always shows me that he cares for me.It's the little things in life that matter the most that"s why I always go above and beyond to serve him.I don't ever worry about being spanked.I only get spanked if I disobey or misbehave and I work very hard to please him. Even if it is cold outside. It is never a issue for me if he needs pleasure even if it is outside in between 2 cars.If he is hard and needs to be taken care I am always happy to pull my panties off and satisfy him.It is a pleasure to serve you Mr.Jay. Slavegirl2sir Brenda

Nov.24,2012               It has been a while since I have had an entry on here.This one is just for Mr.Jay.I know it has been almost a week since I have seen you. because of business. But Big Daddy I miss you a lot.But as your slave I stay true to you and wait.Because I know you will be coming home to me.I am very proud and happy that I am your slavegirl.And I wouldn't have it any other way.You have tamed the wild and crazy side of me.And thats why I bow down to you and only you.My King......... Slavegirl Brenda                                                                                                              

Oct.29,2012........ Today Mr.Jay came over for dinner and to watch football. But it didn't turn out the way I planned.I had just finished cooking when his phone rang. It was a business call from work.He took the call.While he was on the phone he beckoned me outside.I walked out side to stand next to him.The moon was full and a bright deep gold.(it was very beautiful)He started fingering  my pussy I stood there almost in pain because I wanted to cum.But I am not allowed to unless I have permission and since he was on the phone I couldn't ask for permission.I am not allowed to speak to him when he is on the phone especially when it is a business call. He grabbed my hand  and placed it on the front of his pants so I could feel his cock growing. I know what that means. So I grabbed his hand and led him to his favorite place. the trailer out back. Once in side I removed my clothes and got on my knees in front of him.( Slave position). On my knees in front of him naked I remove his shoes and clothes. Once I have him naked I got back on my knees. He placed his cock in my mouth and  f***** my throat. And all the while he was still on the phone. But I am just a slave.(his slave) I know to continue pleasing him with my mouth and not say a word. He decided after a while to lay down and have me on top of him and ride him . And he knows I love this. I almost moaned out loud when he grabbed my nipple and pinched it hard as a warning not to say anything,so i kept silent.  Then he beckoned me to get up and assume the position (head down ass up). I did as he ordered And he F***** me from behind. He pounded me hard and deep. He finally gave me permission to cum with him.Oh my did I ever release. I got the shivers afterwards. I got on my knees afterwards and cleaned him with my tongue. I am not allowed to waste one drop of cum. Then I dressed him as I was finishing dressing him he ended the call. He came in the house and ate dinner ,watched his game. After I cleaned his plate off the table. We talked for a few moments and I walked him to his car. And he left.   What a night...Slave Brenda

Oct.23,2012             I have been told to write in my journal at least one a week. But today is an exception.Do to the fact I am being punished for being bratty last night.I questioned my Master abut where he was and what he was doing.And I am never to question him about anything.I am to obey and serve that's all. I tried to say I was sorry after I did it but he didn't want to hear it.All he would say is I will deal with you tomorrow.When I awoke this morning he gave me strict orders to email him a 100 word letter.To show him my humbleness and not to just say it.I was to write  him that I was sorry and promise to serve and submit to him. and here is the letter I wrote. Dear Mr. Jay,,,,,,,I know what I did last night was wrong.I should NEVER question or doubt you in anyway.Please forgive me for my transgression.I have no excuse for my offense.I am coming to you with a sorrowful heart and begging for forgiveness.I know you own me.I am to answer to you.I have no rights anymore , only the rights you allow me.I am here to serve and obey you regardless of what I think.I promise to serve and submit to you at all times.    Yours only slave brenda.     That was the letter I wrote to him. and later I will be punished some more I will be spanked. And I know I deserve it. Because if I am going to act like a brat I should be punished like one. I am sorry Mr.Jay and it won't happen again.Well now I guess I will wait for the rest of my punishment...... Slavegirl Brenda

I have been a very happy woman since the day I said yes to being a slave to Mr.Jay.He is wonderful and caring.He can be very strict and stern. But never rude or disrespectful.He has taken his time training me to be the best at everything I do.He has never called me a degrading name.He has never punished me without good cause.I am very happy and proud to be his and only his.I was very sad and lost before I met him.I had many who tried and failed at controlling me.I never knew that being a slave could be like this.I have found out that there is a thin line between pain and pleasure but they both go together.Like yin and yang.