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The dominant is the hand, and the slave is the glove. I want to feel
those fingers reaming me out, bending me and pointing me. I want to
stretch across the knuckles and be soaked in my dominant's sweat and
scent.
I am a philosopher and an artist, and I love the leather lifestyle. I am interested in BDSM from many standpoints; the lifestyle has much to offer depending on who you are with. I want to give up control to a real dominant and be their faithful, obedient, loyal and devoted slave boy. This kind of relationship fulfills me, mind, body, and soul, like I was made for it. So I must have it, and I will search for it. Hopefully I will meet the right dominant sooner than later.
I belonged to someone for 2 years. She was a real Leather Domme who learned from spending years and years with very wonderful dominant human beings in the scene who showed her the "ropes". She was my anchor and the wind in my sail. I had never experienced such tranquility nor even concieved of it until she gave it to me. She gave me permission to trust her with my most intimate vulnerabilities.
Intimacy, vulnerability, trust: this is what I surrender, as a slave.
I would ideally be someone's houseboy. I would clean for them, do maintanance for them and yardwork, as well as any personal services like massaging them, shaving, grooming, bathing, or letting them torture me or use me for their any and every whim.
Ultimately, I want a boss, a boss who will give me definition, direction, and a sense of belonging. I want to show my love through devotion, dedication, service, fidelity, and obedience.
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Well, my life is complete, now. No longer do I suffer from depression. Finally, I am one with the universe! Now all I need is a good owner.
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I never bothered to update my journal. The person I mentioned I was so serious about was more of a mirage than an objective human being. I was so exhausted I stopped even trying at all for a few months. It happens.
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I'm happy to say that I found someone I am very serious about, and I will be giving 100% of my submissive energy to for the indefinite future.
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"Update: A Poem"
by sage
I like to cry during movies;
A picture is worth a thousand words.
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Doing better now.. feeling pretty good. Meeting awesome people. |
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i am so tired of taking the time and emotional energy to write people thoughtful letters and never hearing a word back from them, or even seeing that they looked at my full profile!
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I feel heartbroken. There are no good dominants willing to take me for as far as I can see. I met Someone, and I was prepared to change my entire life in so many truly positive ways for this person, and She was such a real dominant, but I was dumped. My heart hurts. Since my last LTR with a Mistress, i have been through twenty to thirty other people over a course of two years, at least five of them in the past two months. I hate this! I need a dominant! I need to be under someone else's control! If You are reading this, please give me a chance! I'll give You my 100%!
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I suppose I should write in this thing again. I've been doing fairly well in terms of seeking a partner. I haven't found her yet but I at least feel like she'll talk to me if I approach her. One step at a time, right?
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i'm really looking for Someone who knows what it is like to have a really heavy, intense, connected D/s relationship and wants one.
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Wow, I haven't written in this thing in a while. I had sworn off the internet as a method of finding prospective partners simply because there's so much investment required for such a low rate of payoff. So I went and found the Master's Quest in Clearwater just as it was changing owners. I met a bunch of awesome people and more Dommes than i know what to do about. So i'm happy now. i updated my profile and tried to make it look a bit nicer. |
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Hello out there, Ladies and gentlemen, I've pulled myself back up and found my way back onto my feet. I became very depressed for a while. Mainly because of a giant void left in the wake of a really good, intense D/s relationship I was in. I've learned how to get some of the emotional contact I need now to keep my neck above water again. And I am very happy to be again looking for a Mistress. I imagine the new joy I will have when I find Her. Feeling feelings I've never felt before. I'm serious! I'm not just reading this off a knockoff hallmark card!
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My first week of school is over, and I am, much to my surprise, rising to the occaision instead of dropping the ball like I am usually afraid I will. I met a very nice Potential Mistress who i have not met in person yet, but i have been having great correspondence with over email and She looks very, very promising to me. So i am thrilled about that! In fact i really can't bear waiting to meet Her. i'm like that, you know. Anyway, back to homework...
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Wow, I'm back. School's starting today, I'm back on the market, I'm seriously fearing my calculus class, and looking forward to physics and philosophy. Seriously, my calculus textbook is somewhere in the trunk of my car like a dead body I have to go dig up and study for a while, s'cuz I'm sick like 'dat. |
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Happy holidays, everyone! I'm on winter break from school and I have so much time now to spend on things other than studying! It's fantastic!     |
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I decline to comment regarding the grade I recieved on my Calc test. I will, and can only say this: I passed the class. Boldly I stride into Calc II. I would have done better if my medication hadn't given me vertigo at the most inapropriate moments. I've been dating around. It's a painful process, but I think the experience is valuable. A Mistress is a rare and valuable commodity, and it's even harder to find one which is right for me, and whom I am right for. |
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My Calculus final exam is tonight. I'm listening to an mp3 of Michael Parenti breaking it down for me old school, unapologetic Marxist style. I'm quite happy, nervous, and I have about 5 hours left to study and prepare. I want to get an A so badly. I went to Chambers a few nights ago and got spanked very hard on a st andrews cross by someone I love; it is the gift that keeps on giving, because each time I remember it it gets better, and I can still feel the soreness. It was a heavy leather strap. You know why I picked this greenish color for my backgrounds? It's sage! I found the color on the web and I matched it, cause I'm punny like that. I'm am, proudly, approximately 1/50th part gnome. Everybody could use a little earth now and then. Much love, Sage. |
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Holy crap! What the hell was I on when I wrote THAT last journal entry? I swear to god sometimes! I succeeded in creeping myself out from the past into the future, like a time capsule. And I did it why? To remind myself that I do these things if I'm not careful. I'm going to Chambers tonight, yay, it's gonna be fun, it's gonna be a party, I'm gonna meet some p-e-o-p-l-e...... 8-D |
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I am so happy. My heart is full of joy. I love well meaning, kind-hearted people so very much. I think we all, every one of us, on this earth, should be a family together. And we will, someday. After we outgrow the beggar-your-neighbor mentality of capitalism. |
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Ahh, I have a profile again, for goodness's sake. I got tired of waiting for a response, so I pieced together a pretty good one out of different letters I had written where I felt I had done some of my best writing. I have already met some wonderful individuals on this site, and I know a lot of RL local BDSM people whom I highly respect use this site. |
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To all those I've written emails to, I really apologize for there being no profile here. I'm still waiting for support to email me back. I promise I will write you back promptly and in detail about any questions you may have. |
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Somehow my entire profile has been deleted. I'm waiting to see if support can fix that for me or if I just have to suck it up and write a new one.  |
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| Age: 30 |
| Columbus,
Ohio |
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