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After all the time here seeking a sub, I finally found a real one. Not one looking for money, but one looking for bliss. What a rarity.
We had several compatible interests, needs and desires. She was quite attractive. Logistics were workable.
She was educated and new what she wanted to try. So much so that she researched and tried to educate herself. This might have been some of the problem.
She had needs and I think she really wanted to act on them.....but there was something there...fear?? Not sure.
She had what I would call several melt downs. She wanted to meet but wouldn't set up the first meeting. She made the second attempt and scheduled a third and cancelled.
She said she wanted to submit, and gave me two ways to contact her. When we would talk, she was fine....even started to submit. Then she would freak if I tried calling more than twicw a day. She would start a conversation, then disappear and freak if I texted more than once. Even referred to me as a stalker. Imagine, someone she accepted to train with.
I told her to accumulate items for our first session. Asked the status a couple of times. She told me to be patient...which I was because of her vanilla work life and the fact that she was new and scared. Figured I needed to proceed slowly to let things develop. To form trust. and a bond.
The next day she contacted and said all was ready for our session. Then she proceeded to tell me how long it would take....what was to be accomplished and gave me a deadline.... Go figure. Her message was sent in a way to set up failure.
When I called her down for over stepping her bounds, she had another melt down. I told her we would not meet until I received her apology. Rather than comply, she used her setup as a chance to run.
What a shame. We could both be on our way to bliss. She could have experienced her "true joy" that she was looking for. I guess fear took the lead.
With an apology, I would consider continuing her training.
We shall see.
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