SIRJOHNSSS

DAY 30 1/15/13

my Master and i did not talk for a long while last night as He is now sick. So much for not sharing my germs. i feel badly about it, but Master is not upset about it. He said it happens, and it wouldn't be the last time He would be sick, so it was not a big deal. Thank goodness for His kindness to me.

i am working on the task my Master has given me and am hopeful that i accomplish it to His satisfaction. It will definitely be a challenge, but i feel as though i will be able to complete my task with time to spare.

i viewed the videos that Master has posted to our profile. i must say... it is one thing to go through the session physically, emotionally, and mentally, and quite another to watch it play back as a third person observer. Even knowing what was coming next in the video, i surprised myself a bit by my reactions while viewing the playback. i remember the pain, and the desire for those blinkin' clothespins to come off, and remembering my frustration when they wouldn't. i can sort of separate myself from what the person in the video was going through, and just watch with interest at what will happen next. For those of you out there that like to read my posts, let me say this... my Master is very creative and quite often thinks of new things to try, or new ways of using the same toys and implements.

After having viewed the videos, i still hold no ill will toward my Master, and am looking forward to O/our next session. Hopefully, Master's body will feel better, He will feel better, and i will react with more grace than i did.

DAY 28  1/13/13

i woke up this morning feeling much better than yesterday - thank goodness for a day of rest and care by my Master. i started coffee before stepping into the shower. While i was cleaning my Master's body, He got up, poured Himself a cup of coffee and sat down in the living room. After my shower, i refreshed Master's coffee cup and got some coffee for myself, then joined Him in the living room. W/we had some quiet conversation while enjoying O/our coffee. After the first cup, W/we went to the kitchen... where i gave my Master a hair cut. i think He was pleased (enough) with the cut. He then got in the shower while i swept up in the kitchen. When He finished His shower, i was waiting for Him with His towel, and dried Him off. my Master likes for me to do this and i am sure not to miss any spots! LOL

Master then told me to fix breakfast for U/us. This morning the menu consisted of eggs, bacon, and toast - along with the rest of the coffee. Master was well-satisfied with His meal and complimented His servant. i was then told to finish my breakfast quickly as W/we would be going into the play room for another session. i did as told and then met my Master in the play room.

As usual, i was told to select a few toys for Master to use on me. If i don't select enough toys, He is sure to add to the selection for the day. Master likes using His floggers, paddle, crop, blindfold - and now a new mask - as well as rope, cuffs, and insertable objects. Master mixes it up, switching from one toy to another so that i never know what's coming next, especially being blindfolded and masked. i have to admit... Master made me use my safe word. i didn't want to because i don't want to seem as though i am not 'tough' enough to handle what He dishes out, or that i am a wimp, but He did have me in pain - more so than W/we have ever done before. He asked if i was in pain, and when i indicated i was, He told me to use my safe word. He had to strike with the flogger a few more times for me to do so. He immediately stopped and asked if i was okay. i indicated that i was - even though i was crying. i did not think that i would do that.

After the session was over, i cleaned up the play room as is my responsibility and then joined Master again. W/we had a long conversation about why it is important that i use my safe word. Master does not want me to be in so much pain that i shut down, and He needed me to understand that He absolutely has to know that i will use my safe word when needed and that i will not be punished for doing so while in a session. i told my Master why i didn't want to use it, and He understood, but again told me that i must use it - that it's why a safe word exists. i promised Him that i would use it in the future when i feel my limits have been reached. i assured my Master that i was not mad at Him as He asked me a couple of different times. i understand that this is all part of the process of U/us learning each other, where O/our limits are, and when it is appropriate to use the safe word.

Master did video O/our session and has posted two videos on this site for viewing by other members. i hope to continue to grow into an even better submissive for my Master so that i may become His ideal slave - as that is what W/we are working toward. i am still very confident in my decision to become His and know that it is a day by day process.

DAY 27 1/12/13

Disappointingly, i do not have much to write about today. i have been on my Master's couch most all day long, dozing off and on, trying to feel better. my Master has been kind and has made sure i needed for nothing. He has allowed me to rest, and made sure i was not running a fever. He got me a blanket when i was chilled and just a short while ago made some hot tea for me for 'His' sore throat. Again, my Master is proving to me that He does take caring for me seriously and is willing to postpone training time until His slave is feeling well enough. Master has not expressed any disappointment or aggravation regarding my illness which proves to me that He understands illnesses happen and just have to be worked around. i imagine there are some Doms out there that may not be as willing to set aside their plans for the weekend if their subs/slaves showed up feeling under the weather. i am grateful for my Master, and as the weeks progress, i am happier and happier with my choice.

DAY 26 1/11/13

i had a good day today. Work was good, and afterward, i get to go see my Master for the weekend. i am so excited to see Him, and i feel so much more confident in my decision to serve my Master, and have really found that He is proving Himself to be a great fit for me. Sir John is looking forward to seeing me as well.

i am still under the weather, but will be doing everything possible to enjoy my time with my Master and not to get Him sick in the process. Watch for my entries about O/our weekend.

Once again this slave-in-training has failed her Master. However, W/we are not convinced that the vaginal dryness that this s.i.t. continues to have difficulties with is not related to her age (46) and possible lower levels of estrogen. W/we were in the play room again tonight, and once again, this s.i.t. could not get wet. Master used a vibrating wand on His s.i.t. for a long time, and even though she very much wanted to cum, she could not. She could not even get wet... tears of frustration, begging her Master to make her cum... with no results.

 Tonight was supposed to be a long night of training in the play room... supposed to be. Due to the inability to produce vaginal wetness this has really derailed the training schedule. Master and his s.i.t. had a long, open and honest conversation about the issue, and W/we are determined to work through the issue. Master's slave-in-training will have her doctor check for lower levels of estrogen, which could possibly be the cause of the issue. In the meantime, she will try some homeopathic remedies to help alleviate the problem. Master is being patient and is willing to discuss all possibilities to figure this out. He is encouraging His s.i.t. not to be so down on herself and this may be easily remedied. Master's s.i.t. has ensured Him that it is not due to lack of "want to" or lack of submission on her part.

 slave-in-training was of course tasked with the cleaning of the play room, all implements used and the clean-up of all the dried wax. Master does like to use candles on His s.i.t. and is building up her tolerance for things such as this. He also used a Wartenberg wheel on His s.i.t. - which she found too harsh on an already sore pussy from being worked on for quite a while. 

 At the close of this post, this s.i.t. remains hopeful that this issue will come to a happy resolution, and that Master will be happy with this s.i.t.'s efforts and willingness to become His. 

DAY 11  12/27/12

 This slave-in-training arrived at Master's house this afternoon as planned. Master had said He would expect my arrival at 2:00 PM. s.i.t. was 15 minutes late, so once inside, Master's s.i.t. was previously instructed to undress completely and drop to her knees. Once this was done, Master asked if His instructions were not important to His s.i.t. she told Him they were very important to her. Master made His s.i.t. stand in a corner until He allowed her to join Him in the living room. she sat on the floor at His feet, and Master went over things that would happen over the next few days and what His slave-in-training could expect. 

 Master and his s.i.t. then sat for a while in the living room, talking about their days apart and what the rest of this day would bring. This s.i.t. brought food with her that she had prepared the day before, so dinner was easy to prepare tonight. Simply reheat and bake some bread to go along with dinner. It was delicious, and Master is still very pleased with His s.i.t.'s cooking. Master's s.i.t. cleaned up in the kitchen after dinner, then joined Master in the living room. Master had his slave-in-training join Him in the master bath, where He had her sit on the stool, and then He urinated on her, then had His s.i.t. clean His cock afterward. Master was kind and allowed her to shower afterward. s.i.t. was sure to clean the bathroom floor afterward.

 Master allowed his s.i.t. to join Him on the sofa while watching a movie. Master then turned on a bdsm movie - something His s.i.t. had never seen before. It was an eye opening experience. Some of the things the Dom in the movie did to the submissive was interesting (zipper line of clothespins) and some were brow-raising (like a zapper stick.) Master will be utilizing all kinds of tools and implements when using his slave and will ask for her thoughts occasionally. He will, however, respect all hard limits.

 Master asked for coffee, so His s.i.t. went to the kitchen to brew some. He followed His s.i.t. into the kitchen and took her from behind which was extremely enjoyable. Master's s.i.t. was sure to thank her Master for His cock and for the pleasure. This s.i.t. still looks very forward to the next upcoming days and hopes to please her Master in all things, and to pass the tests that He gives to His slave-in-training.

DAY 6  12/22/12

Today was a much better day. This s.i.t. rose before her Master, bathed, then started brewing the coffee. While waiting for the coffee to finish, she cleaned in the kitchen for a time. Promptly at 8:30, Master's s.i.t. entered the Master's bedroom with a cup of coffee for Him; however, she did forget that Master drinks His coffee black, and had added creamer to it. Master woke with a smile - which is definitely a good thing. Master forgave the mistake His s.i.t. made and drank most of the coffee, but told her to not repeat the mistake. she has promised to remember and will continue to work on keeping her focus on Master and his needs.

Master decided He would like breakfast this morning, so He requested that His s.i.t. make biscuits and gravy. It was a good breakfast, and Master seems pleased with his s.i.t.'s cooking skills. After breakfast, and this s.i.t. was done in the kitchen, W/we both enjoyed some quiet time together in the living room, continuing to learn more and more about one another, and what will be expected as the relationship continues toward the goal of a TPE 24/7 Master/slave relationship. This slave-in-training has made some errors, and does receive punishment for them. Master continues to instruct His s.i.t. regarding rules of the house and the responsibilities that will be expected of her.

An afternoon in the play room was enjoyable - Master enjoyed using His body in all kinds of ways. Many implements were used - some of which were quite fun and others (can you say enema?) were not quite so fun. LOL. The first time this s.i.t. has experienced an enema - and she can say - Master has decided that the use of an enema may be a good punishment for His s.i.t. when she fails Him. With this knowledge, she will strive to increase her focus on Master's needs, wants, and desires, and to be able to meet those needs before He asks.

The total and true submission of this slave-in-training will be hard indeed, as she does not live with Master as yet, and so has to change her mindset to her submissive side, to leave her vanilla self at her home, and to give herself completely over to her Master. It is a joy to serve Master, to see Him smile and to hear His laughter. It is good. Master's slave-in-training looks forward to the future and to serving Him daily.

12/21/12   DAY 5

This s.i.t. failed her Master today. she arrived promptly at the appointed time and once inside Master's home, removed her top as instructed. Master invited His s.i.t. into His home, and helped her bring her bags in. He showed her the house and where everything was located. Master's s.i.t. had been informed in advance that she would be responsible for cooking Master's dinner after arrival. He showed her His kitchen and where everything was located. His requested meal: spaghetti and meatballs. Master stated He would take a shower while His s.i.t. began cooking, but that He required her to be ready with a towel for Him when He was done with His shower. si.t. retrieved a fresh towel for her Master, and carefully dried His body for Him. He was pleased with her attentions and was released to return to the kitchen to continue cooking His meal. Master was pleased with His s.i.t.'s cooking and even had seconds. After T/their shared meal, s.i.t. cleared the table and cleaned in the kitchen.

Master then led His s.i.t. to the living room and had her sit on the sofa. He then instructed her to begin masturbating, knowing that she had indicated to Him earlier that she was not very good at it and had never really done that before. s.i.t. was unable to bring herself to cum, even when Master directed her to. she failed in that task. Master then began to help His s.i.t., fingering her, sucking on her. Master's body was not cooperating with His ministrations. PLEASE NOTE: all body parts belong to Master and will always be referred to as His.

Master then took His s.i.t. to the play room He had readied for the training of His s.i.t. Master had His s.i.t. to lean over the podium He had built and then He began to select toys to use on her. Anytime Master touches His body with a toy, implement, etc., she is to report either "harder, Sir" or "thank You, Sir.' If His s.i.t. fails to respond properly after each stroke, Master will consider that a failure to follow His rules and will apply a punishment. He also stated that if He has to remind His s.i.t. for her response, that also is a failure to follow His rules.
Master's body still refused to cooperate, and His pussy would not get wet. He gave her several chances to focus and to relax into the training session, but she was still unable to get wet.

Master then placed His s.i.t. on the bench in the room, tied her hands and legs to keep them out of the way, and commenced to 'convince' His body to cooperate. Still. no go... Not good. Master ended up leaving His s.i.t. alone in the room for a while to think about things. When He returned, He released her bonds, and asked her what the problem was. This s.i.t. has no answer - this is not acceptable. This s.i.t. is upset with herself, not knowing why Master's body would not cooperate. she was so excited about this weekend, and then this.... a failure. This s.i.t. hopes tomorrow has a much better outcome.

12/20/12  

This slave-in-training has nearly finished all the pictures of her wardrobe to share with Master as directed. All are due to Him by the end of today. she is also to select several outfits to take with her to Master's home this weekend for the photos He will be taking of his s.i.t. Bras, panties, lingerie, thongs, etc. are to be included even though when around Master, s.i.t. is to never wear panties unless Master specifically tells her to do so. This is one of His rules. PLEASE NOTE: Master's s.i.t. will be hosting a LIVE web-cam session for 30 minutes on Saturday night... those interested in watching Him make her use toys and implements on herself should definitely tune in to watch! she is excited about this as she has never done anything remotely like this before. 

Master surprised His s.i.t. this morning by asking her to call Him. she loves to hear His voice as she is turned on by it and it makes her wet with anticipation. This s.i.t. will be spending the entire weekend with her Master and will feel His touch for the majority of that time. He will be introducing her to the play room He has created for U/us. This is a very exciting thing for His s.i.t. as she will finally be where her Master wishes her to be - tied up, bent over, blindfolded, or whatever His heart desires. slave-in-training is going to be taught by her Master how to be the perfect slutty sex slave for Him. He will be demanding and firm, but also fair. she trusts Him to patiently lead her down the path to total submission mentally, physically, and emotionally. Master will offer ownership to her when He feels she has progressed very well and is certain to please Him. s.i.t. belongs to no other than her Master in her mind already. she longs for the day when her Master will make it official. 

she can't wait...

DAY 2    12/17/2012

this slave-in-training (s.i.t.) is recording the journey of her transition from 'vanilla' to a slut sex slave to my Master, Sir John. It is this s.i.t.'s responsibility to post daily any thoughts, feelings, ideas, concerns, etc. that she might have about the training she will receive.

As this s.i.t. is new to the lifestyle, she understands that the journey will be long, arduous, and rewarding as she submits herself wholly and completely, to her Master. O/our end goal is a true M/s live-in TPE relationship. Master has begun giving this s.i.t. many expectations and rules to remember and will quiz her daily to make sure she is doing her utmost to keep her focus on her Master and His wishes.

Master requires this s.i.t. to send photos of her entire wardrobe. Over time, Master will tell s.i.t. what to wear and will also begin purchasing clothes for her to wear to please Him. This is an exciting prospect for this s.i.t. as she has never had any one direct her what to wear and when. It will be interesting to find out His taste and style of clothing He wishes to dress His s.i.t. in. Master says He loves sheer clothing on a slave...

Master is completing a 'play room' in His home and states He looks forward to taking this s.i.t. into this room and continue her training. she knows that this is all part of her journey, part of becoming a new woman, one meant to please her Master in all things. W/we have discussed hard limits, safe, sane, and consensual play, safe words, and what types of training to expect. Master has created a training schedule and will require this s.i.t. to follow it to the letter.

This s.i.t. is also to join several chat groups and will be required to keep up with the blogging, comments, and questions and respond in kind. Master will check daily to ensure she is following this rule. Punishment will be given for each failure should there be any.

she will be asking questions and will certainly welcome comments, suggestions, and ideas from others in the lifestyle. Thanks for reading! W/we look forward to hearing from you all.