.........this girl is still looking for the One that gives her that purpose..........a deep intellectual and emotionally communicative drive that locks  the bonds of my submission to you.......its not just about controlling someone sexually ........but it is a part of it.........she still wants to be made to feel an important part of the chain that binds T/two lives together. she is working some long days now and extra work ....which take a bite out of her ......would be heart warming to be able to communicate with One that understands her need and cares.........a wicked sense of humor too ........that always helps when you 've had a day from the steps of hell "eg"  so she is not on here very much right now .........but she will endevor to return emails and pop in as much as she can .................

friends are a part of her strength in her soul as a submissive......without those people that we hold dear to our hearts ( those that are here now that have entered our lives  and those friends /mentors/ family that are now in heaven ) or have moved away for reasons beyond what we can control ...... we can't fully enjoy ourselves as who we are  because we have to hold onto those spirits and people that are in our lives now, to  share our selves with those special people it makes us more alive and enjoy living ..... and for a submissive ..............it gives her a purpose.......to serve.........bringing some measure of happiness to  family, friends and any one who needs a smile or a laugh it gives her that purpose and makes her more whole as a person......have a nice day E/everyone and  " waves and smiles " around.............silkykitty

this girl hasnt done any journaling for a while  but thought she should start laying a few words down about how she feels about her journey in the world of D/s as a submissive. it is challenging to delve deep into one's own soul to find what is there and sometimes harder to express it without sounding like a

girl that lacks intelligence in some way........or being too " needy "  she knows she is smart she just needs she thinks just the right level of guidance to bring out the best in her in what she offers in submission to a Dominant/Master. she knows this process will take a bit of time and will just have to exercise some measure of restraint and patience with herself and be good to herself along the way......it is the only way she feels she will be able to climb higher in this world and excel at who and what she really is.........submissive