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Male Dominant, 35
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Female Submissive, 37, Chattanooga, Tennessee
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Male Dominant, 36, crawford, Nebraska
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About Shepardski
Submission is not the abdication of power, it is the dedication of it.
My powers of sex, of home, of creation, are dedicated to Shepard.
I work for hym, care for hym, please hym. My reward is the shine in hys eyes, the stroke of hys hand, and that damned devil grin.
What happens when a sadistic christian republican collars a masochistic budddhist commie brat with a need to serve?
We are leather, we are devoted to one another, and we are very, very queer.
Technically we are lesbians. We use that term loosely but nonetheless seek other queers for online friendships, leather discourse, and insight.
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I actually love to go to the doctors office. As I said, Im not a role-player, because I 'play' in real time.
I remember once going to get a pap and getting a newbie doctor, many moons ago. Hes totaly nervous and it showed, I will swear in his defence right here and now he had no intention of creating the reaction he did. See, most docs put a sheet over her knees and keep thier heads on the other side of it, you dont actually see them till its over. I like this as it leaves me free to daydream...
This one was so new that he hadnt quite learned that knack, so the entire time he was examining me he was leaning forward, looking at my face, stammering, asking me questions, and fingering me. He literaly pushed the sheet off of my legs, it covered nothing just lay across my waist.
Now, I usually get turned on by the whole process in any case, but this time I got completely wet, and had to fight to keep from fucking those fingers right back, and that state lasted for a half hour drive home, at which point (no partner at the time) I fucked the hell out of myself.
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Loves and likes are things I have done, and have enough experience with that I know I like them.
The rest I thought Id say something about. Dislikes and hates are things I am sometimes or could be punished with. Cold isnt on there, but that is a good one too. EMO music is just depressing and I tend toward cheerfullness, probably shouldnt be on there at all. I do not respond easily to obedience training, becaue I am so often disobedient. Why yes, I am a masochist, thanks for asking.
Skills and abilities, yes I have worked as a professional housekeeper, landscaper, and secretary. I am also a skilled cook, server, bartender, barista, and soda jerk. I currently do remodeling and light construction work and spend a lot of time in the garden.
Hard limits are really that hard.
Theatrical scenes, there due to my unreasonable aversion to drama. My life is a movie and d/s is sort of written into it. I have happily played along with them in the past, but really the concept of 'roles' of any kind does not work with the way I conceptualize kink.
Rubber and Latex, highly allergic to both, I have to choose my toys carefully. Sometimes a little reaction is nice I think, makes the pussy nice and red...but usually, we want to avoid that as there is a risk of this allergy actually shutting down lung functioning with out prior warning.
Water sports. Its not so much the urine as it is where this takes place. Typicaly on bathroom floors and sometimes (gag) public ones. I will like this as soon as I develop a real fetish for chronic yeast infections and Hep C.
Dislikes:
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I am not a slave, I have a will of my own.
This is required of me as Shepard knows from experience that he has no use for a mindless slave. I have skills and energy to use to his benifit, not only sexual ones. If I dim those talents, service to Hymn suffers.
I do not resist, I know what I am. I know that I am not, according to the vanilla world, supposed to enjoy this sort of thing, and I dont give a rats ass. I am a lot of things, work life play, I am always what he needs right then, playtimes, I am a fuck toy.
Shepard has no real need to punish me, I adore him, give him anything he wants and help him in any way I can. It is a joyful thing for me to do, to bring the coffee of all things. But things happen at the whim of the top. I dont always like the things Shepard does, and what he does may not have any thing to do with my sucess or failure in service, sometimes, he simply wants to give pain.
I love those times kneeling at his boots, or curled up, my face in his lap or locked in his hands, my knees spread wide, my eyes to the floor. I feel Hys hand heavy on the back of my head. Time stops. I dont need air, food water, anything just this. I know Hymn, and I am suspended in perfect grace.
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I was once a summer slave with no sex involved whatsoever. In fact, I was largely isolated and naked the whole time. I was in service to a woman's garden located in the heart of a valley, next to a creek deep in the hills of Oregon. I was sort of an ornament for the occassional camper, people invited by the mostly absent owner of the garden.
Now to an outside observer, this was about as un kinky as it gets, but to me and the other kinky individuals invoved in placing me there, it was a three month mind fuck.
The garden was beautiful by the way.
So, imho, you dont really need anything more than imagination really, (and its up for debate weather that imagination must be collective) though inspiration from others does keep the imagination updated.
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Breathplay, breath control.
Its not on the list of kinks and that is truely sad. I love the feel of Hys hands around my neck, huge palm covering my face. I wonder if straights do this? I have never met a lesbian sadist who did not love to choke and I have yet to meet a male dom who did.
Sometimes its sadistic, He wants to see me struggle, sometimes Im just breathing to hard in excitement and he wants to calm me. There are many forms of breath play.
I love the feeling of having the very air I breathe commanded in this way.
The most intense orgasms I experience happen while I am also struggling to breathe. |
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We have an odd relationship.
We have our own rooms and our own bathrooms, I rarely see Shepard fully naked. I however am rarely fully dressed.
I spend my free time running the dogs, online watching movies, here or on some popular vanilla social site and quite a bit of time fucking myself. I have always had a high sex drive, fortunately balanced by a high respect for microbes, which is probably the only reason I tend to stick to monogomy. Sometimes I go out, to a friends house or a local concert, but not often. I prefer to be around home.
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Hymn, Shepherd
Transgender f2m, male in general daily living. Charismatic, tall and georgous. Big love, big hands, big feet, big toys. Head of household.
Ki, thats me. Im on here, mostly for this journal and somewhat for the forums. I like to write about our life, the parts of our life that arent apparant and would not be welcome in "polite" society. We seem like a typical, though high butch-fem lesbian pair. But there is far more here than meets the eye.
First of all, Im not a lesbian. I am orientated toward Shepard and those like Hymn. Rare as they are, when not available, I would prefer to be fucked by a born male than a female.
Submissive yes, masochistic heavens yes, but I am not a slave. The ability to make autonomous decisions, to have a room of my own, my own money, is a requirement for my sanity. I defer to Shepard most of the time, doing so feels so good, but I do have my own ideas about things.
Shepard's dominance occurs absolutely in sex, where I joyfully welcome Hys every sadistic whim, but that flows out to touch nearly everything we do. I get pleasure not just in Hys lust, but in the little things, making and bringing dinner, the dishes, crawling up on Hys bed to wake him (we do not sleep together generaly), the way he like me to, slowly crawling to his waist, from the foot of his bed.
Kink is not something we discuss with just anyone, we have a normal life. We work, we barbeque with friends, we go out to eat. We dont have a leather circle as such, though one or two of the closest to us are wise, our leather life is largely hidden and life takes precidence. But still, it runs underground, and it shapes all of our interactions.
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