ShawnRedux

What I say about her, says a lot about me. ?However, I'm not actively searching at this time.

She would need patience, for I'm a long process. ?Integrity, because once your word to me is broken, that's it. ?

Self-knowledge, I know me fairly well in some ways. ?I do understand a bit of my motivation and reasons for actions and likes. ?She should as well. ?But believe me, I'm well far from knowing everything. ?Just because I do know some things, that doesn't mean I just open up and spill all the beans to everyone. ?Even someone I have known for a good while, each new thing that might come up I mostly have to work at expressing. ?Or at least expressing it clearly. ?I find intimacy seems to need a constant effort and refresher. ?Some disagreement, I feel less close, as if intimacy to me brooks no disparity. ?(This is actually a new line of thought I had. ?And by no means to be taken as accurate or real.) ?

She should love music of all types. ?Ya, once in a while some country music pops up on my ipod. ?Rap a bit more frequently (I so love heavy bass) ?Mostly rock (as an umbrella term covering alternative and other closely related genres). ?Music-wise, I know some names, but I enjoy the music. ?Who made it, what inspired the song, what shaped the artist, even what they look like is wholly irrelevant and uninteresting to me. ?Techno I use to cover a few more likes: trance, house, for example. ?also musically, I'm a stone. ?I don't know what it's genre is, and don't care. ?Liking the song, and the feelings they sometimes inspire is the end all, be all for me. ?I've never went to a concert and been amazed, but we could blame it on Richard Marx, Weird Al, Clint Black and Tori Amos, I suppose. ?If we can listen to each other's music, that to me means we can mostly get along. ?If you mention folk-music, Yanni, opera I'd most likely be uninterested. ?I didn't really grow up with radio. ?I'm not convinced that bands 'underground' are true music. ?If it comes on the radio, that's more than enough music I can spend time on and money, without searching for bands 'free from corporation's greed'.

As to books, I do love to read, fantasy predominantly. ?A book was the safest place I could find growing up. ?I was in one as much as allowed, by school and parents. ?The parents didn't approve of reading. ?If I wasn't working, I was to be playing. ?So, I read when I could. ?Even in the army, on a jump or field training, there was most often a book in my right cargo pocket. ?People always say there's no time to read. ?Got a minute waiting, elevator, even traffic jam? ?Pull out a book to fill it, you may find instead of Dharma & Greg, you wish to finish exploring the spooky sex store shop with Duhlma and the gang.

There's lots more to write, words will be. ?