SensualReciprok8

 The SAME!  

 I've been observing people  my entire life, trying to understand them, learn from them, hear their cries, hear about their turmoil to the lighter side, their jokes, their likes, their goals, from excuses to plans… what-ever it might have been about, I’ve listened intently, observed rationally… The way their jaw moves while speaking, the way their lips move while talking… shape of their teeth, color of their tongue, shape of their smile, how they sound, how their eyes react and gaze, what their demeanor is, the gate of their walk, from eye brows to lower eye lashes, how many times they blink, their cheek bones , all of their expressions, all of all of them…. And sometimes, I am able to study the way they write…style of their penmanship….I’m still reminded of the similar features, THE SAME features… that one person can have, be from tim-buc-two, finding these exact same features upon another individual from some other geographical location, who is from tim-buc-four or  tim-buc-seven…

These are individuals that are NOT related, but look exact… I still find irony in this on-going discovery… the beauty, the freakiness of nature able to produce something so similar, from so far apart, so far away, these two examples have never crossed paths, nor their lineage, nothing near their family trees…. yet there they are… that kind of guide to physiology popping up in your eyes, sometimes ears too, sounding the same…. The shape of their bone structure, skin texture, eyes, hands, teeth, hair types too. Their natural coloring paired with the same physique, same expressions, and sometimes, same vocalizations… weird/freaky/odd/but yet… so natural, they each own it individually…. No one coached them, no one showed them, many of them don’t even know of the other person, that they even exist. I have recorded examples, some I’ve attached pics…. Strange… or is it?      So vividly in your face! No way, you can’t deny our linkage…lol!

  Our repetitive occurrence spewing up from separate heredities, yet so much alike, it’s uncanny. True twins from across the WORLD… Amazing their specimens that have no idea they have their exact image walking amongst them thousands of miles away, as many of times each example were ALSO with-in the same age, maybe only three to five years apart, some more, some were less…. As some age with less definition in their face then others… Shows what  inflammation to toned, tight to lose… sag to droop can do… but STILL they are the same, age the same, look the same…..again, this similiarity is also rare but oddly common, still a marvel to me, something I can rely on to support my views and opinions that we are ALL connected in some fascinating way, which in a critics mind-sights, is not that unique after all, simply expected chromosomes that are apparent in many facets of nature, but the human condition, so complicated, so superior to all other species, we can simulate exactly by accident as well as our lesser counter parts on the chain… I used to do this with actresses and actors, same sex and opposite sexes… I’ll have to do a recall exercise to write some examples here, like the blonde female star that was on the dealing with Cancer show, “ The Big C”, Laura Linney…  (PIC WOULD NOT POST FOR ME IN HERE)   to the red headed Desperate Housewife, Marcia Cross ( DITTO hee hee, also her pic would not post for me, bummer, you'd agree! )  … Have these actresses  not heard each other speak yet? SOUND THE SAME! Inflection, phrasing, tone, pitch…. I swear it! Mesmerizing, mystifying…. I know whoever is reading this, has seen and experienced the same thing… Two people, that are from different regions of this Nation, even different regions of this world… look, speak, act, and mimic each other to the “T”… and they do not know each other even exist… crazy neat-o-stuff! Of course if you are a famous Hollywood Actress or Actor… you probably have met this twin, and thought to yourself, “Gee… they look nothing like me…?”…. heh heh!                   Thanks for perusing my entry, SensualReciprok8!

Foolish

I was foolish for pouring myself on the plate, spreading myself out, revealing all my ingredients. You now know my past, I expressed my woes, flashes of pain from my youth to my present… Profile stated what I wanted, hoped and need for my future, I layed it all out, no secrets here. You said you’d hold me, put your arms around me right then and there if you could, so  your attempt was really weak, your words were in vein... You said I was beautiful, I was gorgeous, I was still hot, I showed you, I shared with you. You stayed on, I bowed away, asked if I was keeping you… you begged me to stay... I had to be polite, I had to offer... I had to brake a little, slow us down... and still, you offered to talk with me, even interjected that I scared you, I wasn’t sure why… as I made light of it to help you feel more comfortable. I know you had checked me out, site counted 11 times, then it went to 12 times…  at lucky 13...was it just to release your fixations and frustrations? When you wrote me, it had to of been hours, you invested your responses to me, you sounded as though you cared… why did I not see it... Did you copy and paste a former inspiration, change out the name... or did you even use mine..???

I was foolish to reveal so much about me so soon, foolish to trust your judgment…  what was I thinking? Look how open this has left me...? How stupid was I, where do I go from here? Talk about what… the sex you long for with me, the way I make your pants rise? Can I get in that mood for you and pay you back for what… the words you typed, the not minding to be on with me so long… as a payback, do I owe you something now… as we did exchange pics, I visited your websites you sent me… we did exchanges to your likings as well….? Didn’t we?... It takes a little more for me.. is that so bad?

 Now I see you’ve been back there, on that website, past two days now, but no mail… No chat message, nothing in my in box, not a ‘hi there’… not a ‘thinking of you’… no smiley-face… no x's or o's....  no icon's pair of lips.

I wrote you, explained the answer, felt rude not to address your question… I should of... Why did I?  I did not want to sound evading… as though I had something to hide, for I do not.  I thought we had talked about it before, touched over it, it was brought up in our conversations.... as I asked you, as I always  have inquired about you…I always have cared about YOU!  So, I repeated myself perhaps, so, I explained in details more then what was needed, or intended from your question…?  I fully answered you... not half answered... A complete thought, a full statement.... no half assed, still in questioning, unsure of, left out of the mix from me... I care!!!???!!   I still  DARE anyone,  that has lived my life, go through what I have been through… be more sane, be more balanced and still be so dammed thoughtful… still so dammed loving… and still allow themselves to be so vulnerable.  I dare anyone, go through what I’ve been through, and still have no prejudices, or walls of steel that are impenetrable… I dare them, but still I was foolish… foolish to trust in you, foolish to believe in you… yes, I was foolish

 I may have a heavier heart, but it livens up once it’s touched by a genuine hand… I can get tingly, sing in public, and smile while waiting… I can be a much happier me, just need him to want me, to hold me….  For us to be we… it’s not that hard, but I didn’t move you, I didn’t groove you… no more rises from we… because it’s just you… no more me… and it hurts, how foolish was I, and I’ll dare anyone… but I’ll remember to keep em’ blind!  I’ll remember to build the mortar, stack the bricks up, close the gates.  I’ll remember to dig the mote deeper, raise the drawbridge… and talk about the weather, fawn on your words, your life, your trifles… we’ll talk about you, your work, what you had, what you lost… but what you need… that might come up… if you have a need… hah!  Then I’ll realize this was all for nothing, probably you’re fine, you really don’t need me,  you really don't want me… 'cause you're still in here,  you're still online...  you're viewing another and wasting her time.                       Thanks for perusing my entry,  btw,  working on the  music for the latter ... SensualReciprok8!

Sometimes, you get to a point when you think to yourself, WTF! What in the hell is going on. When is it going to end? I thought I was over all of this sh_t; thought I was okay. Just seeing the end of the tunnel, or so I thought... and WHAM... There it is, something else, someone else, some dam creditor, some real jerk, they're out of my favorite soda STILL? Why can't ONE thing be going right... one, I'll take just one. Can't I control anything? How much money does it take to contol your destiny? How much sex, looks, kissing of the perverbial ass?  How nice do I have to be? How much of my tongue is to be bitten? Goddammitt! WTF! Stages of grieving/ Stages of Death... Denial begins this stage, and Acceptance ends it... All those fn places in between, can be related to other areas in one's life you know... as I am finding out the hard way.... as usual I guess. I must of pissed off many people in my former life, maybe I was Genghis Khan, instead of  Gunga Din!!!! Thanks for reading my vents.. heh-heh! SensualReciprok8

What is it with some of these 'bucks' out here.... They do enjoy themselves (yes you did) ...Oh, and by the way,  you are welcome too, even if you never said thank you ! .....         But?... if  something is asked of you, a little thing is said, not to their likings?...  Same expectations are requested, only fair, you know it.....Poof !    They are GONE?...     So, do you also  avoid driving down past that same street you ever had an accident on, or got a ticket at?
Do you run from every conflict in your life?   Stupid, foolish little twirp, might of stuck around, you buck, might of learned something, gained some needed character in your pathetic life, too bad, lost your lesson, and definitely .... lost any more 'enjoyment'  with this gifted Woman... How many bridges are you going to burn in here, or out there?   ....Staunchly storming off in a hizzy, running from what's right, avoiding further conversations, trying to ignore me now? ...
 I was even decent to you, afterwards    ...and you know it!  How can you spell your name without calling yourself an ass... yep, that's right... you can't!

This entry is for ALL Men!

I want to clear the air in here... for ALL you  men out there,  be it a DOM,  or a sub.... Please understand one thing...  THESE LADIES,  whether they are Domme or subs,  expect You to answer OUR message UPON your reading it,  or at least,  an acknowledgement for it,  and that you will respond later to it... something along those lines at the least...capiche'?  Here you see her, introduce yourself to her, sending her the initial message, and to be polite, she replies back to your message, and ________? Nothing?.. That is the equivalent to you calling me up on the phone, I answer it on the second or third ring, and say the normal,"Hello?.." and YOU HANG UP THE PHONE! I DID NOT ring you up FIRST....     YOU CALLED ME FIRST???? SO BE A MAN AND ANSWER BACK!!! 

Next time, you open up her response to your initial greeting's verbiage in here, PLEASE remember to hit that reply button down there, and type a couple of letters sequentially in an appropriate pattern back to her, to make a little sense, and follow up  !!!!!!  ~~ You will be the 'bigger' one here... don't forget that as well! It is the very least you can do!
 THANK YOU FOR READING THIS, AND WOMEN... YOU ARE WELCOME TOO!!!!!  SensualReciprok8! 

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THERE IS A SAYING... AND FOR SOME (including myself at times) VERY HARD TO DO, BUT GREAT TO PRACTICE...

" IT IS BETTER TO BE KIND... THEN TO BE RIGHT! "... when given the opportunity, try and just be kind, forget about needing to be right!

Great Tao (Spiritual) entry....