|
Question of the day, "What am I looking for?" Everything and nothing. I do not go into this with a specific interest or expectations.When I find the right person I'll know, and then I'll want everything. |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
I finally made the leap when I was offered a job that will allow me balance in my life. It's a start :) |
|
|
|
|
I feel I've lost balance. All work and no play makes me a dull girl 😞 time for some changes |
|
|
|
|
I received a simple email stating they enjoyed reading my journal but wish I would add more. I have sort of used the journal for thoughts and feelings that I might be feeling at the time and to write something on demand I thought I might just draw a blank. I just pull from what I am thinking at the time regardless of how mundane it might be to some. They are my thoughts so therefor have merit lol..
I struggle for balance very often, I have a job that mentally drains me because I put my all into it. When I come home I just want an escape from it. I keep myself busy with things around the house or family time and delve into books that take my mind far away from the world as it is. I meditate to try to keep focused and clear my mind.
What I miss more than anything is to be able to let go of my mental stress, vent about things then let them go. I miss the play/scening that goes along with the power exchange that I can just loose myself in. Not to say that I would allow myself that exchange if two people involved are not on the same page in the diversity of what this lifestyle offers. I am though at a point in life where I would take that step if it were right.
|
|
|
|
|
Today marks two years since you have been gone, still not a day goes by where I don't think of you. Instead of tears and loss I focus on the love and life we shared. I know you would want me to be happy and with that thought I am happy. It could have been worse and I could have never known what it was like to have something be so right. I have no clue what my future holds and I don't spend my days worrying over it. Life goes on and so shall I.
with all my love
me |
|
|
|
|
I saw this statement and I have to admit....I swiped it....I don't believe that it's something that should be kept in one place ...It should be shared as a reminder...
"Don't make someone a priority who chooses only to make you an option."
I think it speaks volumes...
|
|
|
|
|
Do you think this is just another day in your life?
It's not just another day, it's the one day that is given to you, today, its given to you, it's a gift, Its the only gift that you have right now, and the only appropriate response is greatfulness. If you do nothing else but to cultivate that response to this great gift that this unique day, this is if you learn to respond as if it were the first day in your life and the very last day. then you would have spent this day very well. |
|
|
|
|
Today marks a year since he has been gone. It feels like yesterday. My love for him is as strong as the first day I met him. Today ends all of my *firsts* my first xmas without him, anniversary without him, and so on. I feel stronger, I know my life will go on. One day we will be together again. |
|
|
|
|
I feel like I am slowly stepping out of the box I had put myself in..
|
|
|
|
|
There are so many lessons to be learned in life even in smallest of things. Sometimes all you have to do is be quiet and just listen. |
|
|
|
|
Right now my emotions can be all over the map. I am not looking to replace my Master, I am looking for friends. I am not just some picture you see and fantasize about, I am a human being with feelings that run deep. I am an intelligent woman, I use discernment, I am presently filling a void that I have suddenly found in my life. I have been lucky to find some really nice new friends that are supportive. I could go into the usual negatives that you find in a site like this, but what is the point? if you noticed the fact I use decernment, then you will know I know how to handle the negatives that come along with a site like this. Everyone is looking for something. a friend, lover, a secret romance..whatever it is. if it's not what the other is looking for you should honestly move on...good luck to all in whatever you seek. xoxoxox |
|
|
|
|
well it's been interesting lately, finding old friends on here that I hadn't seen in ages as well as making new friendships, then there are always those odd emails..that you ask yourself are they serious??? lol...oh also got my first scam type email...I was born in the day...not *yesterday* lol...have fun and be safe!....happy fourth ! |
|
|
|
|
I just read a good article on denial *grins* the pro's and the cons. ~fans herself at the thought~ lol...It also had an interesting article on needs vs desires..If anyone is interested email me and I will give you the url |
|
|
|
|
I haven't added much to my journal. So I thought I might just add some thoughts. I had recently read a profile that I really liked, and I must admit although I know nothing of Gor, I was intrigued by the entry in regards to a true slave and in realizing that giving oneself up is truely being free. I'm going to look into this a bit more...any comments or good reads are very welcome. Thanks |
|
|
|
|
| |
