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I have moved back to Texas as of yesterday.
It been an emotional move but family has to come first and my mom cannot meet her bills on a very small ssi check. With both of ours we should do fine.
I miss my Florida family already.
Every is in chaos, nothing unpacked, some still in transit. so my anxiety is at an all time high.
I dont have the energy to change my profile since it will be an emotional time changing it.
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So yesterday my sister and I had to but our cat Pyewacket down. This has been a crushing blow for me.
If you have read my profile it pretty much indicates Im alone with the exception of my sister.
Pye was my relationship. As his health got worse I was his caretaker, doing all the things my sister just couldnt bring herself to do. We took care of him in a hospice situation with the help of our wonderful cat specific vet office and Angel Michael the vet assistant.
Now I feel just empty and void. No one close enough to get a hug from or a good cry on their shoulder.
He was family not a critter to be taken care of since he was around the house.
I know this too I shall get over but damn its hard. |
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OMG today is nov 11, national quit smoking day, which is my offical quit day after years of mocking the day. As per my usual memory leak, the first thing when I get up is light up.
I hope I can do this. I hope I can do this.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it sucks |
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well in the midst of writing the last, my second photo got approved which is more in line to how I look now. Im still tempted to wack that hair off back to how it was before.
I intentially kept the me and kitty photo because I feel its the best photo I have ever had taken and well crazy person that I am, still get a laugh at the odd messages about my pussy for those with a wonderful sick mind, as well as cat lovers. Bob the cat is no longer with me but happy to share about the ones in my life now. |
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well rearranged my profile today finally. Mostly deleted things that were no longer relevant or changed.
while I am still bi and switch, I prefer not to go into details on the profile but if curiosity gets the best just ask. This goes for the personal reasons Im not looking in a real sense. it just to complicated to list, and often misunderstood. I'm an open book.
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Well I finally made it to NYC about 3 weeks ago. OMG talking about a culture change. I am fairly reclusive person thats used to living as far into the countryside as possible. Now Im living on the Upper East Side of NYC. I miss the night sky.
The change is a hard one on me considering the anxiety disorder but who knows it may help as I have no choice but to get out and do things.
To repeat my previous entry, due to the changes I am not looking for anything other than friends. If you want to email me once and excpect a meeting its not going to happen. It takes me a while to feel comfortable enough to get out much less meet stranger alone. |
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Whoooooaaaa slow down there.
I AM NOT IN NYC yet.
As of today Im still in Texas. Moving next week. Life is in total chaos right now.
At this point not seeking. This country gal has alot to get used to moving to the big city.
Not looking to meet hookup or otherwise, but if you want to msg on a friendly basis feel free.
Btw my profile is sorely out of date. Life changes ya know. The switch side is purely maso in nature. I dont do orders and have no desire to be submissive. |
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