sassysheila


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	About sassysheila After two years of friendship with Alphatimberwolf, I have decided to accept His offer of ownership. On 12-17-2008 I said yes to becoming His submissive. I hope I can make Him as happy as He does me,, I will certainly try my best. Thank You SirB for having the patience and understanding that I needed. Many are called to the Lifestyle,, few are truly worthy to participate. If you ask for anothers submission,, make sure you know just what to do with it and how to cherish it,, before you even bother asking. My nature is obvious in my name,, although I understand and respect all of the aspects of the Lifestyle. I am somewhere in between ugly and beautiful and consider myself happily average in looks and I have great self esteem. You have to love yourself first before you can make someone else happy. Onto a new day of belonging,, smiles.

Life has had me so busy that I rarely post here any more. That can be a good and a bad thing I think. Retirement is wonderful, having time be your own is wonderful, happily pleasing a great Sir is wonderful, spending time with friends and family is wonderful and to sum it all up short and sweet, life is wonderful. I am one lucky gal.

Life is hard,, I work 10 hours a day at the minimum,, mostly 7 days a week. I am tired and weary yet I realize I have so many blessings in my life. My kids and grandkids are all doing wonderfully, I have a house and a car that are paid off and I have two great bulldogs who miss me alot while I am working so much,, good thing bulldogs are of a lazy nature and all. Then there is SirBill. He is patient,, understanding and always there for me in many ways. Luckily I work in a store that I own so His visits are almost daily and always welcome. I am very lucky to have such a Dominant that understands my work and life and remembers that my time restraints are only temporary,, unlike my devotion to Him which is neverending. Thank You Sir for being You and for keeping me around!! smiles sweetly

Its been a year today that my beloved friend annie died. she was such a wonderful person, submissive,, friend. I miss her more than words can ever say.
Today was the start of a new regimine for myself. Exercising and eating right seem like natural things to many and to some of us,, they are chores. I am going to do my best to be consistant and work hard to stay on track. I was lucky enough to start the day with a 3 1/2 hour horseback ride. There is nothing better than being out in the beautiful weather,, riding through the woods,, along the river and taking in all the beautiful scenery. I get such peace within on a day like today.

Someone with patience and understanding. One that makes the best of what life dishes out,,making and sharing each small joy when possible. Guiding with a supportive nature yet accepting her obvious imperfections with grace,, knowing that no One is perfect. Realizing that her desire to please makes her strive for obedience which in turn makes Him proud. Sometimes silly,, sometimes stern, often apart yet always present. He is all these things. A man anyone would be proud to call Friend and I am lucky enough to call Master.

I received an email from a very hostile Dom. He ridiculed me for stating in my profile that many are called to this Lifestyle but few are truly worthy to participate. I find his anger and sarcasm just the thing that had led me to my own personal feelings about how many people truly should not be involved in this chose Lifestyle. He also slammed me for my name. Sad that one that claims to be "Dominant" has so little forsight to know that you can not judge a book by its cover. He told me that my name probably means I am rude and such,, which couldn't be farther from the truth, 99 % of the time. But its morons like him that earn the other 1%. Does this mean anything to most,, no,, but it sure feels good to vent.

Summer is just flying by way to fast!! Working,, grandkids,, life,, everything seems to be rushed these days. I think perhaps I was misplaced in the wrong century. I love the slow pace and simple life of days gone by, from what I have seen and read. But then again I wouldn't have had the opportunity to be here finding friends with a mutual interest. As usual I will content myself with what I have rather than what I don't have. As that goes, I am very blessed.

The beginning of summer seems to approach and I have been too sick and working too much to enjoy anything really. Luckily for me SirBill is extremely patient and understanding. Its so nice to realize that Someone cares about you every bit as much when times are rough as they do when you are kneeling before them. I am a lucky girl to have Alphatimberwolf in my life. Thank You Sir.

I was lucky enough to sneak out of work early for a change last night. I got to go to Wicked with my good friends that drove in from Buffalo just to attend with me. Best of all I got to spend the evening with my Sir. That was a first for both of U/us. Playing publicly together with good F/friends and good company. Smilessssssssssss just remembering the night! Gotta love that fire play even though after 30 minutes of preperation,, its over in a FLASH! Smiles again feeling like one lucky gal.

Working 10 1/2 hours a day,, 7 days a week does not leave much time for anything. I miss spending time with my family, my F/friends and last but certainly not least SirB. I am lucky He is so very understanding and patient and that He loves ice cream too! Come get Your ice cream Sir and just think of all the fun things W/we can do with hot carmel, hot fudge and whip cream when time permits! Smiles,,, its something to look forward to eh??

Getting praise,, time,, attention,, gifts,, compliments and such is something that I find a bit unnerving and it takes me out of my comfort zone. Never before have I had such time and attention bestowed upon me and I know its a good thing but it sure does take some getting use to! Smiles thinking that this will be one task that I will learn to enjoy.

Wishing E/everyone a Merry Christmas!

Well after having a friendship for almost 2 years it seems SirBill and I are going to take it to another level. I have accepted His offer to belong to Him. I believe W/we are both very lucky and will benefit greatly from this union. I don't claim to be the perfect submissive,, I am sure He is not the perfect Dominant, O/our situations are far from perfect,, however,, He and I have decided that together W/we can experience and share in many things that W/we love.

Its nice to once again feel comfortable enough around a Dominant to be able to trust again and be totally open and honest. I realize I can be a major pain in the ass at times but hopefully in the long run my attitude and friendship is worth the effort and makes up for my ocassional hard times. Thank You SirB.

HAPPY

HALLOWEEN

MUWAHAAAA

My diet is going so far so good. I have lost a total of 13 lbs in a lil over a month!!! I get a kick out of all the advice I get when others know I am dieting,, do this,, join that program,, try this other. I think we all know the right things to do and eat,, you don't have to join a program or starve yourself. Its just DOING what you know is right,, PERIOD. Oh yea and then theres that exercise thingy. Shrugs,, I am counting my horseback riding and working on the horse farm as my exercise right now,, when the weather changes drastically then I will go back to my old Gazelle and work on it inside where its warm and cozy. Oh yea,, my Friend SirB gives great incentive to NOT eat ice cream,, LOL.

I went riding again on Saturday. We went to a park that is new to me and not far from where I live. In it is a habitat for Bald Eagles,, to my amazement. I saw the huge nest high in the trees and actually saw an eagle sitting along side the nest in the next tree. What a wonderful day, a two hour ride and seeing first hand a bald eagle living naturally. I am counting my blessings for sure.

Yesterday was a long over due day of joy and excitement for me. I got to spend 6 hours at a friends horse ranch, relearning how to groom and ride. I felt like a kid again and floated the entire rest of the evening. How lucky I am to be able to have this experience and know that more are in my future. It is so true when it is said ,, when one door closes another one opens. Losing my friend sank me into semi depression and out of the blue this new opportunity has arisen. Smiles and whsipers thank you.

So many whine and complain about the lack of honesty on here and yet when I am completely honest about myself and with others,, they can NOT handle it. When previously, I was someone they were interested enough in to contact,, suddenly after my honesty does not fit their little niche and need, I am deemed the "bad girl" and unsubmissive and any other negative thing they can think up. Being polite when rejecting someone is at least behing kind and honest, so is there a need to come back at the person being honest,, fangs bared and ugliness spewing from every word they say? Their lack of manners and tolerance speaks so much more of them than any profile could show. To the ones that claim they would much rather have a note declining their advances than nothing,, be careful what you ask for and when it comes,, accept it gracefully.

I lost a dear friend yesterday. She had a massive stroke on Thursday and her family had decided to take her off of life suport on Monday. I believe that knowing how hard this decision would have been to live with,, she took the task out of their hands and went on her own at 12:55 am. Annie was the most inspirational submissive I have ever known. She was my mentor, my friend, my sister in belief. She is loved by so many that its almost unbelieveable that one person could inspire and summon such love and devotion, yet she truly did and always will. I feel I was very privilidged in that I not only got to know annie within our lifestyle community,, but also inside her personal inner circle of family and friends. This lifestyle community that we all share a bond with is definately at a sad loss,, losing annie. Rest well my friend and may you be kept in Gods care till we meet again. I love you.

Smiles,, had a 1st last night. Went to our local community play party and finally got to play some,, publically. I have a decent amount of experience done privately,, but this was my very first time to be played with in public. I was nervous to say the least,, mostly at the tought of exposing myself to others. Of course we all know the "community" is not suppose to be judgemental and should always be a great support to everyone,, however I can't help but think that when seen amongst your peers,, a great body on a submissive is looked upon more admiringly than my own,, just my thoughts. My F/friends that encouraged me and helped me gain this experience were wonderful and I will always be grateful for this wonderful memory. Their patience and expertise is something to behold,, smiles,, and makes for a very exciting time. Thank you so much

Laffs,, I got a request from a complete stranger to be added to his public friends list. I rejected it then wrote a quick note saying I wish with the rejection CM would allow you to say something and I simply stated that after reading his profile decided we have little in common and wished him a good day. I get an email back and what does he say? They DO,,, shut the fuck up and block. LoL This is someone that thinks he is a Master? For the love of pete,,, just when you think you have heard it all,, you get surprised again!! So much for responding politely,, I swear some people here are just nuts.

I am so sick and tired of reading the following on profiles, " Are there any REAL people here or are you all just fakes and wannabes"? Are things that bad here that people can not sift through the bad and at least find some good? The good here may not click with you,, but does that necessarily mean they are BAD? I don't think so. Did any of you whiners consider that maybe its YOUR approach? If more people just used the manners they were initially taught by their parents and stopped wanting instant gratification,, things might go a bit smoother. I don't know,, its just my thoughts.

How can some dismiss a friendship so easily? Was it just something to pass the time till something or someone better comes along? Sadly enough I think all too often that is the case. "I like you and enjoy talking to you because of course you are stroking my ego,, and I am going to continue chatting with you but if and when someone I like more happens by,, you are HISTORY". This is all too common a thread I hear from other submissives. But to be fair,, I think Doms and subs alike play this game. But heres a thought,, be upfront about the fact that you chat with many,, a person can never have too many friends. The key word here in all things should be HONESTY.

WAY TO GO WINGS!!!!!

Well another year in my life has passed and its brought forth many changes,, some good,, some not so good. All in all I am very lucky person with many blessings to count. A Friend mentioned to me that being 54 is better than the alternative and I replied in turn,, do we know that for sure Sir? smiles and wishes E/everyone peace and happiness wherever and whenever you can find it,, without hurting someone in the process. Hopefully thats possible.

I often wonder if I could put every bit of submissive being into my pinkie finger,, would I have the nerve to lob the lil sucker off and be done with things once and for all. I am so mentally tired of wanting things I can't have and being lonely. I was once told that good things come to those that wait,, well its a dammed lie and whoever said it was an idiot.

smiles,, we had our grand opening,, ribbon cutting ceremony today for the new store. It went GREAT and the festivities go on all weekend long. I am looking forward to seeing some of my F/friends,,, remember,, I'VE GOT ICE CREAAAAAAAAM!!!!! lol

This site has not only shown me the WRONG type of Dominant but the GREAT type as well. I have met many very classy, great P/people from this site. Many I am proud to call Friends in real life as well. The nasty clueless Dominants do not ruin things for the good Dominants,, they ruin things for themselves,, which to me,, seems quite just. Smiles,, those great Dominants and submissives know who they are and do not need to be constantly praised for being so. But for the record,,, thank you for being so.

sits here smiling. This so called Dominant that accuses me of BS then sends me a hateful reply only to then block me. Oh what a big brave man he must be,, needing to hide behind his computer safely out of the reach of this terrible terrible lil submissive. shakes my head

I received an email from a NY Dominant critisizing me for being married and being here on this site,, according to HIM,, I am just full of BS and should rethink my life. Being submissive is who and what I am and how God made me,,it is not what I do. My submissive nature is as much a part of me as my eyes are blue. Those that judge me harshly without knowing me are doing the one thing I thought P/people within the LIfe hated most,,, being judgemental. One would think that with so much negativity aimed at a Lifestyle that we choose to embrace,, along with that would come some understanding and acceptance of others that may not be exactly like YOU. Remember to walk a mile in Anothers shoes before you think you know them or judge them.

I sit here totally confused yet again. I am totally HONEST yet still take the time to chat and be friendly with Others and when things don't go their way,, suddenly I become RUDE in their eyes. Sighs,, is it wrong to be friendly? I swear if this keeps up I will either hide my profile or delete it altogether,, depending on my mood and if it passes or not.
I am NEVER intentionally rude to Anyone and if someone takes what I say as rude,, I would much prefer to discuss it than to be left wondering what it was that I said or did that seemed so offensive. How can any so called Dominant or Master be what they claim if they just shut the door and walk away? Isn't communication a KEY thing in this Lifestyle? Shame on A/anyone that that does not have the patience or willingness to talk things through. Even doing so does not guarantee a great outcome,, I have learned that by experience,, but if O/one does not even bother trying,, all is lost.

I was contacted by a Dominant in mail. He was polite initially and when I refused to send a head to toe picture he turned ugly and tried to turn the tables on me saying I was topping from the bottom and such. He said he showed IMMENSE interest and that was after just one email,,shakes my head. Do some people actually believe their own BS and think that because a person is submissive she must be some spineless nitwit that sits waiting for a perfect stranger to don her with attention? He said I need an attitude adjustment and its the reason why I am alone. Well my attitude does vary from day to day,, I am the first to admit it but on a whole,, I sure as hell like who I am alot more than I like the idiot that seemed to want to "fix" me. I am without a Master by choice and it is the best place for me to be right now. Hell maybe I am not as nice a person and as good a submissive as I think I am,, but then again,, those that know me say differently,, smiles. I think I will just rest easy on their opinion and count my many blessings in their Friendship.

Today is another day,, things seem clearer and I am not going to mope and whine anymore. In the grand picture of life,,, I have a very good one with many blessings. I wish the best to E/everyone even if they don't to me.

Did ya ever just feel like your heart and guts have been ripped out and yet you let it keep happening? Here I thought I had done so well in changing bad habits yet once again someone informs me of how badly they thought of me. Its quite an eye opener and a emotional shock to hear who you thought was a friend tell you all the things you do wrong and fail at. I know me,, I will cry and cry and trudge along and eventually perk back up,, but good grief,, this just sucks. How can so many Friends tell me what a good person I am and when just one says the contrary it leaves me devastated? For those that think this is a huge whiney post,, you're right it is. Either show me some sympathy and slack,, or move along,, but don't write me and add to my grief!!

Losing a franchise ice cream store to a hostile takeover propmted my business partner and myself to think things over and decide to open a brand new ice cream parlour right down the street from the old one,, smirks. We LOVE being independent,, we can serve what we want,, when we want with no corporate guys looking over our shoulder!! We are doing GREAT and are getting so busy that my scooping hand is killing me,, LOL. The only downfall of owning an ice cream store is having all that ice cream at my immediate disposal and thats not good for my diet. But I am hanging tough for now and not backsliding!
I just keep remembering,, one day at a time. LOL Does that make me sound like an ice cream junkie?? If you want to know where THE BEST ICE CREAM STORE is downriver,, smilessss!!!!!!

Smiles,, just when you think there are more IDOTS on here than you can ever handle,, someone shows you how polite and kind they can be. A very nice young Dominant from DC sent me a note of encouragement on my diet. What a nice surprise for a change and how that made me smile. That young gentleman is going to make some lil subbie in DC a happy girl.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DIETING SUCKS but am giving it a real shot!!!! 20 down and a ton to go,, LOL Not suceeding might just suck worse though,, or at least it might keep me on my feet and moving if I am too sore to sit comfortably,, LOL Wish me luck I' m goona need it!!

she stands proudly, a willing participant, yet with lowered eyes, unable to see His approval.

He looks her over from head to foot,, just a hint of a smile at what He sees.

she pleases Him from the inside first, heart, mind and soul, along with the body that now

belongs to Him, a complete package, ready for tying and reopening.

Without a word spoken, just a gesture is made, she lowers to her knees, happily in place.

she feels pride in her submission, her natural state, a radiant smile framed on her face.

Such a natural state of being, this willingness to serve, yet misunderstood by so many,,

misjudged and maligned,, something so basic, so needful to her subsmissive heart and

mind.

Her thoughts, priorities, desires and goals, were always of His wishes, without being told.

She thought she was succeeding in pleasing Him totally,, without even knowing His feelings

changed noticably.

The words she dreaded that would change her being,, from belonging, from ownership to

free and alone.

She kneels once again,, speaking silent prayers, from a sorrowful heart, caught so

unaware.

Trying hard not to crumble,, emotionally drained, she remembers her worth and summons

the strength.

Proudly,, yet alone she takes a deep breath and stands with weak legs on solid groud.

Keeping her submission within,, for another time,, another One,, remembering all she'd

learned,, to make herself proud.

Through the pain and the memories she moves on ever forward,,, knowing one day she will

find the strength to not stand,, but kneel for Another.

Happy St Paddys day to E/everyone!! Some of us were lucky enough to be born Irish,, the rest wish they were,, smirks!!

Have you ever woken up and just feel so unsettled and almost as if you are floundering,, not knowing what to do with yourself? I think its days like this that I miss being owned the most. There is a certain comfort in knowing you are accountable regardless of what side of the bed you wake up on. It does tend to temper a bad mood and settle uneasy feelings. Reminds myself to look beyond temporary loneliness and count my many blessings. This mood too shall pass,, but if anyone thinks its easy being me,, well,, PFFTT,, LOL

Well after a very short break I have come to terms with myself. I was born submissive and it is not something I can change. Wether or not some Master or Dominant out there appreciates me for who and what I am is immaterial and does nothing to change the fact that being submissive is who I am,, not what I do. You have to respect and love yourself first and formost and in my opinion I am one heck of a good person and sub. Those that don't want to take the time to find this out are at a definate disadvantage. Oh well life goes on and on,, regardless.

Have decided to take a break for a bit. Its time to clear the head,, focus on certain things and redirect some time spent. Good wishes to A/all.

I spend a lot of time reading and rereading profiles. A common thread seems to be amongst most of them and it sets me to wondering. So many warn about fakes and wannabes and say if you are not "real" to move on and so forth. Are there truly THAT many idiots on here that are just here for the wrong reasons? I guess I must be just too trusting,, too open,, too naieve and too accepting for my own good. I have been pretty lucky on here and have made many nice and caring friends. Maybe its a case of kindness begets kindness? I like to think so.

I have been told before that I seem the type that needs a daily "maintenence spanking",, I deserve to have my hide tanned,, a paddling would do wonders for me and yet what happens? I blistered my own behind LOL. Warning,, never fall asleep laying on a heating pad. OWIE

How can you give yourself,, heart and submissive soul to Another and not feel a personal failure when they decide being a Master is not what they want? Twice in a row now I was told "its not you,, you are a truly wonderful submissive" yet they turn their back on me and walk away as a Master. Maybe the big part of it is them,, but it also comes back to me and my choices. I guess you live and learn and hopefully wisen up.

I got an email from some rude person and before I could reply he blocked me,, LOL so I thought I would post a response here for the record. This is what he wrote;

yawn.. yet another massive immature type, who wants endless cyber fantazy attention.. with self esteem and ego issues.. and where is our PH-d from harvard in bd studies?

My reply was: You must have misfired when writing to me. I want NOTHING to do with cyber, as for being immature, yes I admit to having my moments but my self esteem is WONDERFUL and my ego is great yet humble and as for Harvard,, I left that for my son who graduated in 95 and is now currently living north of Boston with his wife who also graduated from Harvard and their two children. Try putting on a much needed pair of glasses before you write anyone else and save yourself and them some trouble,, oh and try using a dictionery or spell check. LOL

If ANYONE can explain to me why rude people are usually so cowardly please write to me share your thoughts.

Is it so hard to think of being a Friend without sexual overtones upon first meeting here? Why are so many in such a rush? If You can't be my Friend what makes You think You can be my Master? Give it some thought Guys,, maybe this is why so many are always "seeking" and never connect with another for anything lasting and meaningful.

I had a very nice email from what seemed to be a nice Dom. I explained from the start that I was not free but if He would enjoy a friendship for chatting that would be fine with me. We chatted here and then on Yahoo as well. Within the first few minutes on Yahoo he asks if I have a cam. I thought hmmm ,, answered yes and that was that. We had a nice chat and the next day I greeted him once again on yahoo. My how much things change in a day. He started in again about the cam and I declined politely. Then we chatted a bit and things went down hill. I told him I respect a collar and he then said,, BYE and basically that no one dictates to him. I should have known at the first cam request that he was nothing more than a predator. Sighs,, I always give others the benefit of the doubt for some reason which I don't think is necessarily a bad thing. But so many times I have been proven wrong and these types of people end up showing their true colors,, some sooner than others. I told him being bossy and rude does not a Master make,, it only made him an ass.