sassyredfairy

WHY KINK

Why kink.
I started to explore kink because I wanted to be braver
I wanted to feel stronger
I needed to push my limits
I wanted to explore

And what I mean in all that is I wanted to be brave when it came to sharing my feelings
Wanted to be stronger when it cane to saying what I want getting what I want and not being afraid when I do
Needed to push my limits can I submit and how deep.. Can I take pain with my pleasure and if so when do I cry uncle
The thrill to explore more. Anal know I like that but can I do both holes at once. Or can I take harder flogging or even crops, canes and shudder do I even dare say whips. Can I go so far as to seek out partners to fufill my fantasy of group sex maybe more like a gang bang.
Can I go so far as to let some one master me with a collar and leash on hands and knees to use me any way he or they wish 

See all these things make me warm tingly and my heart race in a very excited way. 

I know with out exploring kink I would not be the person I have grown to become and I have not been in the life style for very long really.. But I am Stronger Braver Wild and maybe a bit Crazy and loving every minute of it.

So I was asked why kink and I say why not kink. Go forth and kink my friends

40 MIDLIFE CRISIS

So yep thats right I will be turning 40 next month. Now been thinking about having a midlife crisis. Doing something wild and crazy..

Get a new job?? Oh wait doing that... not by choice... so check

Ok um find a Dom?? Yeah that was not on the list now it is if I can trust again.. another check

Get a tattoo??  Well for me thats not wild and craazy as you all know.. Thats a given check

hmmm well I could branch out of my shell and go out and have fun.. opps that was last years goal so did that. YAY me..  Continueous checks there

But come on 40 is a big year need something to remember it by. Need to celabrate in some way... some how... dont have any friends to plan a party with.. so need to think of something I can do for my self..
Maybe shave part of my head and dye the rest of my hair an ugly green like katty Perry.. or the horible lavander all the stars are doing..

Go sky diving maybe or find a hot guy to take me on a wild motocycle ride in to the country and find a tree he can tie me to and fuck me like mad

Maybe go on a trip like I did for my 30th.. but this time by myself or with someone just as advnturous as I am with a kink side..

I feel like I need to do something .. Other than my origanal plan.. that was to stay in bed with the covers over my head pretending the day never happened and I could stay 39...

But then I thought no you know what I am turning 40 and I want to celabrate to embrace 40 hug it tight and say welcome lets rock this year..

Maybe it will all come down to going to CAPC and seeing if some one will take pitty on me and give me some birthday spanks.. 40 from each person willing.. Ohh well now that made me tingle all over.. that could be a good plan ..

So if any of you out there wishing to spank an ass on her birthday you will know where to fnd me on mine... *Giggles*

TOYS

There are some toys you like to buy for your self.. Make sure it's the right size or shape. To make sure it feels right or strong enough. And yes I am talking about dildos and vibrators and butt plugs

But then there are the toys you want someone to buy for you. The one thought of and picked out with care and thought from your playmates or partners. Those would be nipple/clit clamps, whips, floggers, paddles, ropes. You can buy them for yoru self to have them at hand when needed but I find they feel better mean more when they are bought for you. The purple silk because they know it;s your favorite colour. Or Silver alagator nipple clamps because they know you like the bite they provide. the cuffs made of red leather becuase it make you feel naughty. Those toys are ment to be given to you by some one who cares.

I love toy shopping. No other shopping in the world gives me a bigger thrill then to go to the toy store and look through all the fun things they have and pick out a new toy.

Nothing that is then going toy shopping with a lover. Knowing what youpick out together will be used together later that night and many nights to come.

I use to be shy and embarrassed to go in to the adult stores to ask question and just grab the first thing I wanted and go.

Now I make an afternnon out of it. Go in look around ask to see how it feels or how strong the vibrations are or if the suction has a good enough grip.

The feeling is amazing not to be nervous wondering what the sales ladies think. To own your playtime and pleasure.

Starting to get a nice rounded out toy box. Only thing missing is those above mentioned given toys. But working on it.

CLICHES

 New Beginnings New adventures
Turning over a new leaf
Grass is always greener on the other side
All that glitters is not gold
What does not kill you makes you stronger
Mistakes made and Lessons learned
Everything happens for a reason
The sun will come out tomorrow
One door closes another opens
It takes more effort to frown then to smile so smile more
There are other fish in the pond
Kiss a few frogs before finding your prince
It’s not you it’s me
You’re better off free
We can still be friends

 All the clichés in the world does not make it all better.. They may make you laugh or even smile a little but will not make it all better. When you think you’re on top of the world.. When you think you have it all and your happy. Good job , good friends, good times.. and a new partner that thought you were good enough to collar. Everything you thought you wanted.. Everything you craved.. It was all there in your hands and then poof. In a matter of weeks its all gone. Job gone.. Friends disappeared. Good times lost and sadly Dom dumped you with no real explanation.

 So ok you whine, you cry, you throw yourself a pity party. Then when you’re done all that you find yourself spewing clichés. And the one to end it all is you can’t have your cake and eat it too. Well god damn it I want to eat my cake.. A big messy face full of cake with icing. I waited and thought I was being careful, I was told to let my guard down and try to trust again. I can’t live my life in hiding not with this side of me so full of life and passion, But in order to be me fully to enjoy this other side of me I have to open up and trust others. So I did and now I am quoting clichés and bad ones at that.. Well go me.. Off with their heads I am eating my damn cake.

 I guess I just have to start over, ease back in and dip my toe in to the waters and try to trust once more. Can’t live my life in a hole as much as it is safer on my heart. Time to glue it back together and take a risk because the sun will come out tomorrow and there will always be songs about rainbows and Cake

Bump in the Road

Rough

I need it rough. I want it hard.. Up against a wall pounding deep.. Pull my hair bite my neck.. fuck me wild like you can't get enough. I know I can;t. Strip me half way just enough to bend me over and thrust deep.. take me... Own me.. Make me burn from the inside out. I want it rough. Leave marks.. The bruises the bite marks all of it makes me smile, shudder all over. Makes me proud that you would find me worthy to play with, to leave your mark on. I like it rough spank me, pinch my nipples bite me hard. Love the sting mixed with the tingles of pleasure washing over my every nerve. I want it rough real rough ropes cuffs whips chains I want it all. I need.. crave it hard and rough.. Please... Dont care what hole you choose or all three I would even beg for it as long as it;s not slow soft loving gentle I NEED it rough.

FRIDAY!!

 I am feeling like it;s a risky buissnes kind of night.. and no not watching the movie.. bust doing the dance... putting on the cute panties and then tank top (I know its not a white dres shirt and boxers but..)

Still sliding across the floor singing to rocking tunes shaking my tushie all over the place... whipping my hair.. jumping on furniture ... wild times kind of night.

Time to let your hair down.. your mind free... your body relax.. It's the weekend and all good things comes to those who wait and the weekend is worth waiting for..

So bust lose .. rock hard or crash and burn all you want. It's Friday two free days before having to start all over again ..

So throw on your sexy panties and white dress shirt slide across the floor and shake that ass like no one but you can... (might want to leave out the hookers or not.. LOL )

Thats right going to jump on and share a few things about me.. Boring as they may be.. heheh

1. Born and raised Right here in Calgary. Love this city. Most of the year that it.. Not fond of the winter. The snow and cold make it hard to drive or be out in. cal me a whimp but anything colder then 0c is too cold for me.

2. I love to sing pop music.. MatchBox 20 fave Band the The play them on repete. So if you drive by a crazy lady in a blurple clown car singing her lungs out thats probably me.

3. I have over 300 DVD's that does not include my VHS Disney movies. Action flicks are my Fave. but I have a very wide range need to invest in some of the clissics tho.

4.I love reading. JR Ward, JD Robb/ Nora Roberts and newley discovered and love Tiffany Reisz..

5. I can;t spell worth shit but am trying to wirte short stories (see my wirtings)

6. I am addicted to Second Life, Tattoos and chocolate. Right now my Chocolate runs in the Reese Peanut Butter Bars.. Love the bars not the cups

7. I am very social as long as I dont have to start the conversatons. I talk to people at work all day. Come home and talk on line. Love getting texts or emails. Just a hi makes me smile. Even on .

8. I love to bake.. Now I have a peanut butter cookie whore that I cater to. He loves them as much as I love making them.. I also make one experimantal cookie or bar every year at x-mas

9.My eyes change colour depending on mood health and clothing I wear.. they go between blue and green and can have a yellow ring .. but mostly I am told they stay blueish

10.One thing on my bucket list is to go to vegas and drive a Nascar aroudn the track.

11. Love penguins .. Don't know why just too cute..

12. Love to travel. Fave place I have been so far Ireland and Scotland. Close second Disney World

13. I am in love with a man that lives in LA.. He is the one that showed me to love my kink side. If I could be there with him I would. (mind you I am loving the adventures and playmates I have at home right now)

14. Single mom that is super lucky that I have a wonderful daughter and we are best of friends. (she is almost 20 and we made it through her teens with out doing the whole I hate you phase)

15. Wish I could be peirced in very naughty places but alergic to metal.

Funny how the line between want and need becomes very fine indeed when it comes to sex.. I want to be fucked.. I need to be fucked hard and deep and over and over.. I want to suck cock. I need to suck it hard deep miling it dry over and over. I want my pussy licked. I need it licked and flicked sucked and bit. I want to be tied up and used. I need the the pleasure of the loss of control yet the freedom to feel. I want to be spanked. I need to be spanked paddled flogged until my ass is red and tingly. I want my ass fucked. I need it filled stretched and fucked until I pass out from cumming. I want it all. I Need it over and over. I need pleausre and pain. I need touch and taste. I need to be craved so much that they beg to be with me. I like the needs more..Want the needs more