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| Hello,
Welcome to my profile, and thank you for your interest in lil'ol me :)
Please keep in mind I'm not very good at this singles add thing so if this comes across as awkward well that's too freaking bad.
So about me..hrm...I am very shy, lifetime dysthymic, STD free, no addictions, responsible when I have to be but I also love to have fun. I have a rather dark and quirky sense of humor. I am curious to a fault about pretty much anything in science. I love to hang out with people and babble on about any given subject although at times it hard being so shy.
I am also a person that is very comfortable with silence. So if your someone that needs constant verbal stimulation I am prolly not your man.
Also on my list of favourite things to do (or really really want to do) are: extacy riddled raves, blues bars, jazzy coffee shops, massive multiplayer online games (Perfect World International, Lost City server is my current beau) skin diving and scuba diving, getting drunk with grandma's, playing with cute fuzzy critters, a pitcher of micro brew with a friend in a pool hall, hiking and camping or anything outdoorsy (great for sceneing but well get to that later), Aikido/submission wrestling/MMA, I can NEVER get enough sailing into my life, the challenge of practicing mindful compassion in every moment, snogging on the couch with fantasy/horror/anime/sci-fi flicks, and most of all....savouring every moment of tying up and tormenting lovely submissive friends.
I am NOT the psycho "Take it bitch and learn to like it!" kinda dom. I don't think being an abusive prick as anything to do with bdsm. So if your looking for some guy to break you and sell you for prostitution in Estonia, yer barking up the wrong tree. I think your crazy, but hey, good luck in your search. I want any submissive under my care to be happy, healthy, bright eyed and bushy tailed throughout. Of course during lovers spats or in the midst of a hardcore simulated rape scene that description may not be readily apparent, but I am refering to the overall satisfaction obviously. I'm looking for submissives that want to explore their submissive feelings with similar joy and enthusiasm I explore dominance.
I am very active with a local bdsm group called Sagacity, Vancouver Island's largest and possibly oldest bdsm/alt lifestyle organisation. I love to assist with their setup/teardown party crew, volinteer as a DM for the playfloor, and assist with their website and chat room.. I have learned alot from them and love them all :)
My super duper dream utopian relationship is a fully three way lifetime love triangle with two submissive/slave women. Since thats about as common as albino kangaroo's that can drive transport trucks I've pretty much left that on the back burner and can be very content with a one on one relationship or something in between.
Now a bit about what I'm looking for...
I have an intense desire for slender women (its what I love and I aint suppressing it just to satisfy the PC crowd).
I also have no intention of ever having children of my own. If by chance you already do (milf slaves?) that complicates things in evaluating compatibility obviously, but I am not closed to the idea.
Still here? Awsome!
You may be rich or poor, professional or a bummed out wage slave, or anything in between. If I want YOU then its YOU I want, not your job. :) So don't worry about me demanding you leave a valued profession behind, or thinking less of you if you have some crappy job.
You should have a very strong appetite for fun, imaginative, outside the box, 'no rules but our own' kind of sex (and lots of it!!) If you think you can handle that, read on :)
You should have a genuine interest in exploring submissive sexuality. I love to explore the mental aspects of D/s and I am willing to use (or learn to use) whatever techniques and tools suitable to bring about the desired nature and depth of dominance in myself and submission in you. To me its all about exploring our emotions, desires and imagination together.
I am looking for submissives to become my most trusted confidante, my treasured pet, my best friend, my slave, my whore, my darkest fantasy, my heart. What else?....well I'm negotiable.
Obviously I am interested in real world relationships, but if you prefer breaking the ice online that is perfectly ok with me. I can be contacted through the website, email, or in Sagacity's chat room.
Thank you for your time, and good fortune in your search :)
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Mkay, time for some sorta update here...um....I went on the Sagacity Pirate Adventure which utterly kicked ass! Got to hang and chat with some friends from Vancouver, meet new people from Lupercalia, and this year I even played with a lovely person called V. (well thats the first initial anyway) She was very fun, but im not sure it will pan out into anything long term.
After that was more work, sleep, eat, days fly by stuff, then....Back to School Play party...I kinda went into this not really knowing what to expect and at first I was sorta bummed out with the 'i dont have anyont to play with, what the hell am i gonna do' kinda blues...but the fates had shit in store for me. In waltzed V and after chatting a bit we played briefly, then i had to go on a DM watch.
Well if it aint a fire, its a flood...
During my dm watch I was teamed up with a timekeeper, lets call her C. Well I had briefly met C during Pirate, and she certainly left a very lovely impression at the time (man she smelled great! odd how first impressions are) Well there we were trying to herd all the beaters and spankers into and out of their respective stations at the right times without anyone getting hung, and we had the chance to chat a bit. Well, that turned to some lusty looks and I invited her to play after our shift was over.
Now i must say it wasent the most technical scene ive ever done, and if there were expectations in that department i apologise all around. but i must admit i was quite distracted by just how much of a babe C was. Now she didnt have a flawless body like S had way back last year, bit darn close. It was more the vibe. Its like she just dropped into sub space so easily and it suited her so perfectly that i was a bit in awe. Like the mouse brings out the cat, my own dominance twitched, lit up, and burst forth within me in response. I thought here perhaps was a match for me. Such a wonderful vibe, a blissful synergy. In all seriousness, she would be a keeper, one that I would persue.
but...alas...them fickle fates....
For various reasons, which i wont go into here..im not sure we will ever be together in that way. Easy come, easy go sweet C, and if you ever come my way again, bring yer toothbrush cuz your likely to end up kidnapped hehe ;)
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YAY! My new pictures were approved :) Taken with my cell camera they arent quite studio, and they have this weird green haze they are at least current. |
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I'm still not sure what submission 'is' - but when you did it, I know it made me feel like I was being licked by a million tiny kittens. |
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I think I'm addicted to iced tea powdered drinks. Help! NOT helping my diet. |
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So, I'm sitting on the bus going to work and I look up at what usually are obnoxious ads and see poetry! It went something like this:
I will ride my red motorcyle
Into your heart
Crash land my feelings
All over your doorstep
Fling scented pink petals
Across your front lawn
Kiss you like pancakes
For breakfast.
by Heidi Greco ( i think)
and for a fleeting moment sitting on the bus it was almost enough to convince me that once again....it might be worth it.
But it was still a cool poem :)
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Zikes!! Been a long time since I updated this.
Well...where to start....
Still with Sagacity here in Victoria and it freakin ROCKS!! Great parties, good people, lots of fun.
Love life? The aforementioned July play party woman was extremely hot but she wanted a younger partner, fair enough. So it didnt last very long.
Then I was seeing someone I met at Halloween there for a while but again, it didn't work out :( Kinda sux, she was pretty amazing. I think its harder when it is a close thing, makes it hard to let go. On the other hand, it wouldnt have been worth it if I didn't want her. So I set the little bit of her that was collared to my heart free, and wish her the best.
So I am once again on the hunt although I think I'll take it easy for a while just to sort some of my own stuff out.
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Sagacity's July summer play party was last weekend and it went GREAT!! Better turnout than expected for a party on a beautiful summer evening, maybe 70+ people or so. Good energy too.
It was a great honour to be asked to play by a new member to the group. It was a bit stressfull, omg talk about stacking the odds first impression wise. First impressions of Sagacity, of play parties, of me, of her own feelings about the lifestyle as a result of the experience, and so on....*whew*, but in the end we both had fun with it and she seems quite enthusiastic to come back for more :) yay!
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It think I found a picture of the mysterious goth goddess. Way back in March the local bdsm club I'm with threw a play party and show called Domlander. At the party I developed a massive crush on a hot looking goth babe. Beautiful tattoos all across her right shoulder, a neat little tu-tu style skirt showing of innocent little peeks of her firm perfect ass with great stockings that highlighted her shapely muscular legs, and HUGE leather strappy buckly chromy boots that just made the rest of her look that much more sumptuous, with wild curly dark hair and a twinkle in her eye radiating a vivacious personality. As I watched her I realised that she was in pretty much every respect the physical embodiment of what I am looking for. I've never seen her before that party and not since.
Just by chance I stumbled across a pic of what seems to be her at an event in Vancouver. It brough to the surface many thoughts of how much I wanted her, what I would, and could have been doing with her for all this time since if only I had just worked up the guts to do anything other than look upon her enraptured before the house lights came up and she dissapeared into the night.
I'm such a fool.
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Went to a private play party this weekend at a friends place. Did some needleplay which absolutely rocked. I love the way needles just launch subs into subspace in such a huge way. For previously having never thought I would ever do it, needles and other hard edge stuff like stitching and cutting now really have me fascinated. Which makes me apprehensive about creating even more restrictive conditions that a prospective partner would have to meet, but honestly I'm really hoping she's hard player enough to at least want to experiment with play like that on occasion.
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Been reading the Anita Blake Vampire series lately. I'm up to Cerulean Sins so far. Other than being a fun summer read involving vampires, werewolves, wereleopards and a swanky gumshoe murder detective angle it has quite a bit of hot bdsm'ish sex.
X-men 3 was ok. Not as good as the first two but watchable. Would have been better if they had the guts to kick off the triology epidemic and just made them indefinitely generally following the X-men series.
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Goodbye my sweet Koneko, have a great summer :) Till we meet again, Yoi yume o.
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*whew* been a while since I have updated things here.
Sagacity's Wild West theme party went really well. Attendance wasent huge, only about 70 people, but that allowed things to be a little more intimate, chatty, and fun. Lots of great cowgirl outfits (love em chaps) and ropin goin on.
Just yesterday I got back from BIO/Vancouver Dungeon's Conference of Kink. It was an absolute blast. It was my first chance to be at a kink event in Vancouver and got to meet alot of very fun people :).
On Friday the rope workshop by Tristian and his lovely assistant was very informative. One can never learn enough about ropework and workshops like that are always appreciated.
The Iron Dom competition was one of the most intense scenes I've seen. I am in absolute awe of the two subs that suffered so much for everyones pleasure. I hope they realise just how appreciative everyone is of them. Maybe as a dominant I'm a bit biased since I naturally adore submissives, but still, it really was amazing.
On Saturday I really enjoyed both workshops offered by Edward Sandburg on healthy bdsm relationships. Great D/s discussions offered up very intelligently and with compassion. Loved it. I got to sit beside one of the leaders of Kink Vancouver: The Next Generation, but unfortunately I didnt get a chance to introduce myself and chat.
Brad the Braider's whip worshop was very informative and my whip pickle jar already has a few bills in it with his name on them. (here i got to chat a bit with one of the aforementioned Iron Dom subs *sigh* what a sweetie)
Peggy O's workshop on fear play was VERY intense. Both of the subs (different ones, but just as adorable) involved in this workshop I am in complete awe of for their willingness to be so intimate with a group of people alot of whom are complete strangers. I am reluctant to mention names, but what you shared with us I loved, and will never forget. :)
Finally the play party into the night was awsome, lots of amazing outfits and great sceneing everywhere! I wont mention her name but a particularly long haired womans' scene that used no toys, but only hands, teeth and hair :) was very moving to me.
Long live the folks at Bio and I look forward to making it across the water to participate in their events again. |
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I'm ok now lol, everybody stop getting their shrinks to call me and stuff ok?
After getting some food in me and a good nights sleep the evil nasty lonliness monster is back in its cage growling quietly to itself as it gnaws on a soup bone.
Sanity city is safe yet once again. :)
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I'm lonely today.
Well actually I'm lonely every day. Its odd how loneliness is different though from day to day.
Today my loneliness is like a scream smothered by a pillow held against my face by some smelly guy wearing dirty coveralls while he smokes a cigar. Prolly paid minimum wage to do it too.
It feels like panic, like i have to kick out at something or swim desperatley, maybe even viciously towards a gently rippling surface that only moves farther and farther away from me as I sink.
It feels like it will never end. |
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welp....so much for the needle pic, it was sent back to me by the 'review team' with a polite little note about how it dosent meet collarme.com's community standards.
Why a picture of the back of my neck with nine sterile syringe needles in a nice little pattern does not meet the 'community standards' of a bdsm website I'm not sure I'll ever figure out, but like they say.....whatever!
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Added a pic from a recent Oscar night party where an absolutely wonderful woman agreed to stick needles in me.
It was a great experience :) Although definitely not a sub myself I prefer to experience techniques firsthand. This allows me to empathise with a sub much better and better able to gauge the pain level.
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Edited profile stuff again. I've been involved in a local bdsm group Sagacity for a year and a bit now. Been trained a bit as a DM (dungeon master) for their play parties, am on their setup and teardown crew, and help out a bit with their website and chat. Truely a great group of people and I love them all. Haven't met that special someone or someone's yet, but I still have my fingers crossed. In the meantime I'll just have to learn
as much as I can and enjoy life for what it is.
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Re-wrote my introduction again :) I think its pretty good this time. Still no real contact with anyone here, I'm thinking people here are just in love with the idea of meeting someone here, not the reality. Just a theory, who knows.
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Filled out all the new interests checklists. *whew* long lists, and kinda unclear at times if your being asked to indicate giving or recieving. I figure though that if anyone actually cares they will ask for clarification at the appropriate time :)
As for 'the search'? *sigh* still single, still lookin..... |
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Re-wrote my introduction.
Have met some interesting people but no one yet that really lights my fire :)
*keeps fingers crossed* |
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Just a few thoughts on my collarme.com experiences so far....
Its been a while now on here and I have to be honest its been less than I expected. All of my emails sent to prospective subs have been met with nothing but stony silence, with a singular exception who wanted me to send her my pic, after which was never heard from again.
In all fairness I hardly expect every sub I contact to fall madly in love and come running to my door. But at the same time I am hardly convinced anyone genuinely commited to submission, service, or dicipline would be so rude as to not respond to an honest letter of self introduction and interest with at least a quick "I'm not interested, but thanks anyway." kind of note.
That isnt even BdDsSm, its just plain polite.
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