SamanthaAnne

The search continues.  Looking back over my previous entries I see that they seem a little "ranty".  Ah well, venting here is better than some things I could think of.  (I'm still sick of the one-line emails with a vague profile but I'll continue ignoring them with my usual panache.)  I know for sure there are people out there who need to be in service enough to go through the wringer to get it.  If you read this, why don't we get to know each other (I mean really, get to know each other) and see if it leads to something meaningful and real?

The longest any of these so-called slaves has lasted with me has been just shy of two months.  And that was only online, and interrupted by all manner of tantrums on his part.  It would seem that getting to know someone is a lost art.  Of course getting to know me requires more work, more sacrifice, more openness and vulnerability than most would want to undergo.  I happen to think it would be worth it for the right submissive--no, the right slave.  There really isn't anything much to it, just giving up any hope of control over anything we have to do with each other.  I am not one who believes that a slave can have no opinions, simply one who believes a slave can have no argument with My decisions.  It's not that your desires have no interest to me, quite the contrary.  It is more that it seems to me that if you truly have these desires you would be well advised to defer them in favour of Mine.

Alright little boys and girls, let's make things even just a little more clear for you. I have recently encountered two otherwise lovely prospective slaves that nevertheless seemed to think that they could somehow control the pace and parameters of our relationship. I suppose I do proceed in an excrutiatingly slow manner for some, and demand that a slave reveal so much more at first, that it becomes an ordeal for some.  If this is you, then please do stay away and please do not waste either your or my time.  I am quite matter-of-factly serious about my desire for control.  That control starts now and continues (hopefully) forever.  If the tasks you are set seem stupid or foolish then so be it, but if you wish to serve, then do so.  Do so in the knowledge that you shall be rewarded at a time of my choosing.  (Or not--after all, this is not so much about you is it?)  I am not so much concerned with your level of experience.  After all, I am still learning myself.  I am concerned with your level of devotion and your ability to obey lacking the instant gratification of having your own (usually sexual) needs attended to. It's so nice to spend a quiet evening alone with someone and not to have to put on some sort of DOMME persona, just knowing that it is what it is.  I despair of ever having that again even for a short time, never mind forever.  But I still hope .. silly me.  I've had it for a fleeting moment.  I wonder if there really is anyone out there that doesn't need to be served in order to serve?

I find myself growing increasingly irritated at one-line emails that simply ask to correspond from persons with no profile to speak of, and no details of who they are in their email either.  I enjoy corresponding with all manner of interesting people, about all manner of interesting topics, whether or not I am considering a more intimate relationship with them.  And in fact there are many many more people, even on here, that I would want to just talk with and enjoy our friendship, than I would want anything sexual -- I am sure you are just the same (or if otherwise, perhaps I can hook you up with someone who wants to study that). If you would care to email me, then that email, or your profile should indicate to me that you are at least aware of my particular form of individuality, should let me know why I would want to spend time in talking with you at all.  This is not a D/s thing -- though it can be -- it is more simple courtesy between people.