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Dear journal
sigh what does a slave do when she feels her Mistress doesnt want to care for her any more. is it disrespectfull to tell her how i feel i really want a Mistress i can serve in person. hmmm i think its time to start my search again |
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dear journal
i have met an interesting sub on here and i think that we are becomming great friends. i cant wait to meet in person and i look forward to talking more with her and exchanging ideas and thoughts i am so thankfull to have met her.
ps my master will be loaning me to other doms and dommes after the 4th of july all though i cant go into much deatail here on the site for those who know me send me a email or those who are interested send me a email also and you can also contact Master Saiai with any questions on under willuseu |
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dear journal
i have met an interesting sub on here and i think that we are becomming great friends. i cant wait to meet in person and i look forward to talking more with her and exchanging ideas and thoughts i am so thankfull to have met her. |
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Dear Journal
Here i go again just when i think im being good and following all the rules i do something that im not supose to. and i let my flesh get away with it. my Daddy does know what i did by my Mom/Mistress doesnt know i dont know when he is going to tell her or how he is going to tell her but im offically scared.
Things just got interesting!!! |
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dear journal
have u ever felt left behind or that your not giving it your all when indeed you are? do you feel like just giving up being a slave all together when deep in your heart you know quiting is not you? ive been feeling this way alot latley i feel like im not good enough and that i should be thrown to the side. what should i do? |
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lately things have been crazy at home with a new job on the horizon and family cookouts and reunions and such. so i havent been able to conentrate much on my servatude in which that is the most important thing to me right now. so lately ive been having talks with my Master and i told him that i want to try my best to be a better slave ive been doing this for to long to be stuck in this rut and i want to get out. i feel like ther can be alot more that i can do but i dont know what. my master has asked that i start drafting the new contract for this year but i dont know where to start he wants it done today and i dont want to disapoint him or my Mistress. im really trying but it seems like my tries arent good enough. what can i do to improve? |
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Ok secret is out! and now the hard part begins making sure that My Cousin is ready to be a Dom i have to prove that to my Master and My Mistress sigh and the saga continues she has a profile on here as Princes Hollow feel free to email her tips and suggestions for a new Mistress starting out.
In her service Sakura |
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Dear Journal
This week i have made a shocking discovery about a close friend of mind. ive been helping her with this discovery and i guess you could say traininging her. i have yet to tell my Mistress this because im afraid of her reaction. when my sister told me this i thought naw couldnt be could it? lets just say ive been her guinee pig for this pass couple of days
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Dear Journal
Today was one of the worst day's in my entire life, i dont just say that because of my punishment i had to go through in the woods today with daddy. This happened aftwards when i was in the store. i was on the phone with my Mommy/Mistress telling her about my day. when i suddenly upset her i told her that i hadnt completed some tasks that she asked me to complete and she gave me the worst the punishment i could have recieved. i say that because this is going to be hard but i know that as my Mommy would say "i brought it on my self". My punishment for not completing my task is that i cant call her untill there done so i have to go to bed with out hereing my Mommies voice tonight it will be hard but i hope that i can learn from this and not be lazy when she gives me instructions.
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Dear Journal
Today i celebrated my 23/6 year old birthday with my daddy/Master. its part one of a two day celbration any way Daddy bought me an mp3 player that i wanted and his mom bought me jewlary. But its kind of hard to enjoy all see i made a major mistake and im getting punished for by my Mommy i know i acted irresponsibly and i have to suffer the consequence of my actions im excited about the punishment and i hope i dont disapoint or uspet my Mommy and Daddy any more then they already are. |
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Dear Journal
Happy Easter! i know that this is not a religous site but when i think of the meaning behind this specail day i cant help but feel excited and blessed. So if you log on today take some time out to wish some one a Happy Easter! |
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Dear Journal
i am supose to be writing a oath for my Mistress but im strugling with what to say i love her dearly and want to impress her with this maybe im thinking to hard. |
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Dear Journal
Quiet on conmand!
Today was a awsome day and session first i owed my Mommy a punishment so i did that and i played video games. i beat my high score on wii. the best part of the day was on the way home we stopped at the park i thought stoped for out usuall but boy was i wrong! Daddy reclined my seat all the way back and pulled my pants down. he through me over his knee and began to beat me HARD! all i could do was scream DADDY DADDY!! the sting was becoming unbearable. then i started crying and DADDY yelled for me to shut up! i was quiet and he kept going. i was blanked out and before i knew it Daddy was done i had pleased him i can truly say that i am now a broken slave. |
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Dear journal
Today's session was awsome my master and i acted out a rape scene today. it was i awsome i pretended to be alsleep and Master came and started feeling on me. His cold hands massaged me as i lay there on the couch not daring to struggle then i felt him inside of me and begin to relieve himself if you move i beat you he whispered in my ear. He came and pulled out. leaving me laying there breathless. aftwards i had a craving for chinese food that he had bought on the way home we sat there and ate and smiled im happy he said im very happy. |
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Dear journal
How do you reasure someone that you love them and that you need them when they dont feel needed? how do you show love with actions instead of using words? |
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Dear Journal
I have gotten a lot of emails on this site but note i am not interested in log term relations, i am happy serving my Mistress/Mommy and My Daddy/Master. So friends are all im looking for right now. |
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Dear Journal
another emotional evening with Master Saiai i arrived at his house for dinner like normal and we sat down to eat. i had eaten everything on my plate but the vegtables Master got furious and called my Mommy because of it. Later that evening Daddy took me to the park for play time. He laid my seat back and began to undo my blouse he massaged my breast and then moved down between my legs with his toung and then i felt him my daddy's manhood. Seconds later daddy's cum was everywhere all one me! But Daddy was pleased and i got what i had been longing for for a long time.
Thank you Daddy |
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well todays the day that i get punished by daddy all i know is that it involes a dog cage and thats it. im excited and scared at the same time maybe if i seduce him it will soften the blow. All i can do is hope. |
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Dear journal
Today was an emotional day i got punished really bad for something i did yesterday. so here is how my day went i arrived at Master's house late this afternoon the first thing i did was get on my knees in front of master and beg his forgivness. Next he lay me down on the couch and spanked me with a hard piece of wood. It would be one of many beatings that i would get today. Then my favorite part of the day came play time and military training time Daddy taught me how to march. Something else that i thought was so wrong happened Daddy and i had are normal fuck session. and he wouldnt let me cum! i was so upset about that any way all in all it was a pretty good session tomorrow is what scares me.
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Earlier today before my fun trip to dave&buster's with Master Saiai i had to endure a hard punishment from my Master and Mistress. I am thankfull to them both for the disipline and have learnt my lesson i will do better this week and from now on because i want to please the both of you and make sure that your both happy.
your slave
Sakura |
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Dear Journal i had a blast today with Master Saiai. He surprised me by taking me to white flint mall. And i had my first trip to dave and busters. I had a blast Master won me a teddy bear and a two gold heart braclets. i had a blast thank you to Master Saiai for allowing me to enjoy your company and also thank you for the new journal.
your slave Sakura |
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i am so excited i have a Mistress she is beautifull intelligent loving kind and caring. i happy and honored to be serving her and Master Saiai |
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Good moring all my master is starting new training! military training im excited and scared all at the same time but im anxious to get started many have asked what this has to do with slave training. well displine and for fun heehhe any way im looking forward to this and will let you know how it goes. |
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