Due to recent events in my life, my mind and my heart are confused. I am NOT looking for anything more than friends to talk to.

I know what i want and it seems as though i can't get it. So here's what i've managed to put into words...What I am looking for:
Someone to love me unconditionally. Someone to accept me for who I am and not try to change me. Someone that I can trust completely. Someone that will commit to me. Someone that I can commit to. Someone that will be 100% honest with me even if it hurts me. Someeone that will respect me. Someone that I can respect. Someone that will listen to me when I voice my opinions and thoughts and not put me down b/c of how I feel. Someone that doesn't expect me to be perfect. Someone that will forgive me when I screw up. Someone who will be understanding of my needs and feelings. Someone who will comfort me when needed. Someone who will be strong and stern when needed. Someone who will be my best friend, lover, companion and confidant, yet also give me space when needed. Someone that will allow me to an individual. Someone who will allow me the freedom on choice, friends family and hobbies. Someone that can make me feel safe, happy, secure and loved all while in their arms. Someone that can spoil me with their time, attention, affection and love. Someone who knows when to be firm yet knows when to be gentle and soft. Someone who is willing to learn and grow with me. Someone who will know when to sit home and cuddle and when to go out with friends or each other. Someone who isn't scared to try new things. SOmeone who will build me up. Someone who will praise me for a job well done. Someone who will push me to reach new goals and new limits yet not be push. Someone who has common and street sense to control their actions and/or reactions. Someone who will take the time to explain how they feel and not hide. Someone who will encourage me no matter what I do. Someone who will let me make my own mistakes and learn from them Someone who makes me feel like i am the most important person in their life.. Someone who will care enough to be concerned about me. Someone who will not neglect me or ignore me. Someone who will take me out to do things we both enjoy doing.


I am not giving up. I am just going to take the time to concentrate on myself. I've got many issues in my life that need to be addressed. Once i am able to get myself back to where i need to be we'll see where i go from there.