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To feel the mind cpativated by a thought and no way to stop the desire for it to become your only reality. to lay their bound and drained of all energy and than again to feel the body positioned and made ready to be drained even more. to feel that first imprint that first thrust and realize all resistance is gone and no way to stop the transformation that is taking place as one becomes the perfect toy the perfect animal responding and wanting the mind to be completely erased as nothing exists except the essence feeling so deeply the wonders of being truly used for pleasure. |
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so amazing each day i hold the magic pills of natural female hormones and i take them with a glass of deep red wine and than i feel my round soft breasts and wonder what wooould it take to increase the dose and feel them grow again as the mind grows so soft and maleable. what would it be to feel the imprint of a crop across my so sensitive breast. no way to imagine it as the thought grouws stronger each day. to grow stronger so that one might yield even more with gratitude |
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it isinteresting how after years of being trained to feel pleasure wth a plug how just the thought of it creates a need for it. the more one thinks about it the more one remembers the pleasure of being stretched so deeply after wearing it for hours and hours. to be aware as it slips out no control remains and each time one is stretched even more. it is the same with remembering what it is to feel a hand slip inside so easily and to feel it take the shape of a fist as it is pulled out with one purpose to stretch the body permenently never to be the same again. in the end no way to resit the beauty of being left transformed and wanting only more. |
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to feel the mind so deeply imprinted that all pleasure comes from having my bottom filled and stretched. Mistress took her time and spent four years filling me over and over till her fist could slip in so easily. to remember the time she had her fist inside of me and she whispered soon you will learn what it is to wear a place holder all the time. never found out what that would feel like. but even now no matter how long i go without a nice plug in my bottom it always slips in so easily and such pleasure as it moves so deep and so aware no resistance remains. then to slip into sleep and to wake aware i have stretched even more deeply the bottom that waiits to be truly opened and used as it was transformed for.
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an interesting aspect of wearing a chastity device is that each night you wake up at 2 or 3 and your cock has become aroused and 8 inches does not fit into a 4 inch space so it pulls the balls and stretches them and no way to not feel the effects. it feels so heavy and than you piss and it goes down and if you are fortunate you sleep till 5 before it repeats again and even bigger. imagine to have no control and the cage caresses the cock and no way to stop the response as one is aroused all the time at the slightest thoguht, |
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It is interestig each time that one engages the true energy of a Mistress it leaves an impression so deep. maybe we learn each time how completely or more we are transformed into being a slave. the first Misress desired that i learn to feel all pleasure by having my bottom filled and stretched till her fist could easily slip inside and enjoyed seeing my breast respond to the female natural hormones as they grew and grew. so even now years later to feel the caresss of the hormone cream and no way to stop and to feel always how easily toys slip into my bottom with no resistance. now as i feel those two energies merge i add the gift of feeling my chastity device constrict and caress each night more deeply aware of its power. maybe one day i will be able to truly serve and honor a Mistress who will change all and everything to reflect what a true slave needs to learn. thank you dear Mistress for the gift of your beauty and desires that have now deepened the desire always with gratitude
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it has been so many years taking the natural female hormones and every so often to engage them and increase the dose and to feel the sublte changes to the weight of my breast as they grow permanently larger each time. to feel them gorw an inch is hard to sense a difference but to have them grow two inches bigger and feel them so heavy as they grow and no way to resist that desire. it was so many years ago that wonder as i could actually fill a b cup and now growing and so aware in another few inches i will fill a c cup and never will i be the same again. every night i rub the cream into them and they feel so round and soft and no way to stop the transformation. and yet so much still to learn how to be a real slave. |
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in the movie cowboys and aliens the beauty and grace of women as they move in their power is truly amazing. one senses men truly exist to serve and honor women, there is no other way to experience true pleasure. |
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it has been four years since i was trained for a period of four years to be a slave and handmaiden and each moment imprinted so real so perfect. in the time i have searched i have met with two incredible woman who turly understand what it means to create a slave even deeper. one was too far and one took me to a place i needed to be but i did not feel safe and it is important to feel absolutely safe. so i learned i need to express that need. i train on my own but nothing takes the place of feeling a fist fill your bottom and Mistress whispers soon i will learn what it is to be filled all the time as i learn what it truly means to surrender all control. to truly be broken and each time to feel the beauty of being held as one is told now you will always be a slave and yearn ever more to feel the center that holds so perfectly. |
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strange how the mind returns again and again to even one experience that is so incredible real in a world of pure illusion. A Mistress of the wicca persuasion flew me to her town and for a weekend explored what it means to be transformed into a true slave animal. it was just a taste and no way to fathom what it would be to be chained and filled and used as her perfect pet. to feel each permanent modification as they merge to leave one awareness never will the slave animal be the same again. she moved in the shadow worlds and tended to crave the extreme to say the least. no doubt her promise to keep me chained till my mind would be erased was her true desire always to be filled and aware never will i be anything else except an animal trained to respond and be used for her pleasures
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each day it is as if i can feel the mind slipping away and some days i take an natural female hormone is such abundance i would of never dreamed of. to feel it coarse through my body leaving the subtle changes and never will the shape of the body be the same again as the growth continues to leave the breast so round so heavy. to be aware one is truly addicted to complete and total surrender and where it will lead one day. to savor each new experience now and forever permanent. |
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to feel the body so perfectly transformed. After years of natural hormones filling my body endlessly, a Mistress suggested i try a mushroom that makes all the difference. to feel the breast grow so incredibly and now into the second bottle and have added the cream laced with it. to be so aware they are growing as they feel so heavy now and the skin stretches as they grow so sensitive. after being a nice b cup and to feel them now growing only larger and to wonder what will it be to fill a c cup. most interesting to realize the change is permanent as the mind grows softer along with the growth that can never be reversed. so be careful what you wish for |
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take three silicone cock rings and apply where most appropriate and than slip the tool into a cock cage and lock in place. be ready to awaken in the night again and again so hard. then the mind grasps each time no longer will you ever come till it is unlocked. |
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it is so interesting to feel the mind captured by some of the sensual esoteric herbs that in combitation leave the mind unable to even form one thought as one accepts that the pleasure flows without limit. to imagine the body transformed into a perfect vessel to be used and filled to overflowing as each act awakens forbbiden desires potent and powerful. no way to hold any desire but to surrender completely aware one will be truly used for pleasure and wonder and awe.
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there is abeauty to ritual as it pulls you in and the flow begins and there is no way to resist as each time it is performed one is made whole. you hold the big plug so framilar and you coat in cream that relaxes the muscles and it slips inside with no resistance now. than you place a towel folded in the briefs and you pull them up and then the very tight girdles that seals it in. amazing how quickly the muscles relax and to sit down you feel it pushed deeper inside and become so aware no control remains. always to wonder what it would be to wear the plug all the time or even a large dildo all with one purpose to cross that line and no control will remain, always to be open and filled for there would be no other option. for now to feel the body so stretched now and to wonder what it will be like to surrender completely.... |
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the plug works its magic and so quickly the muscles grow relaxed and there is no control. to imagine slaves now who are wearing a place holder all the time and as they are given bigger and bigger plugs to wear they are left forever transformed and permanently open. each time i wear the plug for a few days there always comes a point when the muscels grow so weak i need to slip on a tight girdle and than another one to hold it in place. i wonder what is it to wear a harness and have it locked in place and each day to wake and start with a few enemas till i all is released and than to feel the plug locked in place or even a large dildo to wonder how long will it be till all control is stripped away and always to wear a plug or dildo. strange how completely the mind is warped to accept and desire the gift of complete surrender even to the point of being permanently transformed. |
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it is always interesting towonder after months of not having my bottom filled if the big plug will slip inside easily. each time to feel it slip so perfectly into place and the mind grasps that after all those times of being fisted never will i be completely closed ever again. to remember what Mistress said about one day i would learn what it was to wear a plug so big all the time till it left me open in ways i never imagined. than i would learn what it was to truly surrender all control and learn what it is to truly be permanenently altered to reflect the desires of Mistress. so now i sit filled and in a few hours will take the big dildo aware it will slip in just as easily. what would it be like to wear the large dildo all the time? |
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every life is a story and each story we live imprints us more deeply and adds to what we are. to have lived so deeply as a slave and handmaiden each time imprinted more deeply. after four beautiful years the effect of being filled and stretched repeatedly left the bottom permanently opened. the hormones left small round breasts and always to be so sensitive. to be left with a desire as each day one feels the changes that have become permanent and to wonder what would it be to be transformed even more deeply. always to feel the need of a Mistress yet there is a mystery in a Master. each time i have reached out on the inernet and felt the power and even explored some of the commands that left me so aware i must obey and be cautions for always to feel the need to surrender completely. to wonder again what it will feel like to be bound and surrender all to the one who would shape again this slave. it is incredible to see how extreme a slave could be transformed. it is interesting to feel that energy as one takes the first steps to complete surrender. what is intriguing is the way the changes leave the body completely and permanently modified and no way to reverse it. to wonder what it would it be like that first time each taboo becomes a reality and in time so natural a way to explore the pleasure of complete surrender. to hank all those who shared their vision of how a slave will offer complete surrender to the most demented acts expecially the ones that leave the body truly permanently transformed.
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how time flows and one realizes that each moment always to feel the beauty of being a slave. each permanent transformation reminds one a day will never pass when one is not reminded of the chnages made to body and mind. |
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to be rendered helpless and than to accept what it is that will transform me completley to accept what i will become. it makes no difference if it is a Master who wants me to learn what it is to suck a cock for the first time or a Mistress who will take me and finish the transformation into a slut or a perfect object to be used. always to yield and feel such pleasure as the imprint leaves its mark on mind and body never to be the same again. |
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how simple it was to make the tansformation complete and absolute. each day for four year to hold that all i would ever be is a slave and handmaiden. than to each night feel the natrual creams laced with hormones that would leave the breast round and permanently soft and so sensitive. to be trained with a plug and a strapon over and over again till a fist could slip in with such ease. now free but each day to be reminded over and over again of the hunger of a slave girl to be used and now to wonder what would it be to be used like a girl by a Master for the first time and to wonder will i ever be the same once i taste a cock as it grows in my mouth and pulses in my pussy. |
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to feel the heavy metal ring as one pushes a ball through it wet with lubrication and it squeezes thru and than the second one and finally the cock is pulled through. the mind flashes with images of the ring when one wears a harness fitted with a big plug or that feeling when the ring of a chastity device locks together and all is surrendered. just to wear the heavy ring leaves one yearning for the desire to be controlled completely. to be aware of that constant arousal as the pulse reminds one there is such pleasure in surrendering. |
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to realize there is a state so pure so perfect and one is powerless to resist it as each transformation becomes so natural. to feel the change as it leaves one so aware of what it is o be addicted to the pleasure of no control. aware it is just a matter of time that i surrender completely and learn what it means to truly serve and be used for pleasure and to need it like a perfect addiction as the mind slips away and all that is left is the helpless feeling of being bound in mind and body aware all will be different now and no way to resist the change that will come with being taken for the first time. |
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to realize the mind is as permanently addicted as the body to the pleasure of being a slave and handmaiden. each night to feel the natural hormone cream being rubbed into my breast aware they will grow even larger in time. than like today to feel a growth spurt and they measure even bigger and they feel so heavy and to realize there is no way to stop. just as there is no way to resist the feel of a big toy as it slides inside so easily wondering what would it be like to feel one even bigger leaving me forever changed once again. all of this pales in wondering what would it be to become a complete slave bound forever by the power of a real one who would make it so permanent. |
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to think of how many times in the past five years i have felt such pleasure with having my pussy filled with toys. last night to sleep the whole night filled with a large plug and realize it has left me ever more open as i move to explore being permanently open. even now i wonder how many more times it will take till all cotnrol will slip away or will it come one day when a Master or Mistress takes me and locks it in place till i become permanently open. no way to imagine it only one way and that is to experience it and realize never will slave have control again always to be opened even more. |
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what would it be like each day to be bound to a bench and a fucking maching engaged and no way to measure time as one is blindfolded and the only awareness is after a time a larger dilldo is inserted and than another one tilll one day the larger one begins ones transformation aware that the end result is to leave one permanently open and slave will have no control ever again except to be transformed even more and more. |
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the power of a thought holds one transfixed and than it grows and it is as if it takes control. what will it be like to be bound and feel the power of a fucking machine open me so deeply and than to feel an even larger toy put in place and each time to realize the body is to be opened permanently as the body is streteched especially as the herbal lotion leaves the muscles completely relaxed and no way to resist the change that will always leave me aware i am a slave to be used and transformed. |
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strange how the mind trys to grasp a thought that fills the mind with wonder and awe. the idea of building a fucking machine and than to imagine being bound and it set to create a pussy that will never close. at first a perfect fitting plug and than a dildo to deepen and open completely and than when the pussy is so stretched to feel an even larger dildo slip into place and realize one will never be the same again and always open. |
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strange how the mind grows to accept and desire being transformed. than to feel a change and realize my breast weigh more as i move and they continue to grow. than to realize i return to what is my nature to become even more the perfectly shaped girl and no way to resist the addiction of feeling such pleasure as i caress the breast and rub even more cream into them leaving me wanting them to grow even more. so much more to still learn. |
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there is a beauty to being transformed into a girl as each day leaves one aware there is now no way to reverse the changes that have become so permanent. each night to take the natural hormone cream and rub it into my so round breasts and now begins my fifth year adicted to the pleasure of it. to wake in the morning and realize they are growing again and to wonder when will they grow to be 49 inches. to dream and one day to serve a Mistress who will complete my transformation. |
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there is in this relam a need to truly be safe and sane and yet completely to surrender is a gift that is beyond measure. there is that point where everything drifts away and one is left suspended in deep sensual awareness that now all is to be different. tantric is but a path to this place and to go beyond all we imagined as we give each time more. each time we learn more what it is to be a slave filled with one desire to be opened ever more. |
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to realize that one has slipped so completely into being a slave and handmaiden that all acts now seem so natural. always aware that to go ever deeper and discover what it would be to experience ever more that which is beauty and love bound with creating a perfect slave. in the end to be able to surrender to the beloved and everything else falls away as one discovers now that which has no name and calls you to kneel and serve in every way needed. |
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i got this incredible bra that somehow shapes the breasts into perfect cones and they are so soft and round now as the b cup fills so perfectly. only one desire what would it be to fill a c cup and how sensitive they would be. than of course that first time a cock fills me and to feel them squeezed helpless as the mind is erased and for all time to feel the need of a cock and being truly used. |
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to realize my body has been transformed and now to feel the changes each day permanent and always to remind me that i have become the perfect handmaiden. always to be open and to feel the curves as i shower each day. to still feel the desire to go even deeper with the awareness there is now instilled in me that desire to taste the wonders of being transfromed even more into a slave |
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it is as if the body is encased in a tank and everything feels so soft as the body is transformed more and more each day growing softer and ever more open. the mind slips away and feels such a single desire to taste the true wonder of being transformed ever more into what is destiny as a slave bound by the desire to cross that line that has no way of returning. |
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there once was a story many years ago that left such an impression on me. a man is bound and an expandable enema plug is fitted into him and he is filled completely and as the hours go by it is inflated even more and he is topped off as he absorbs the water and kept completely expanded. always wondered what it would be like to feel so helpless as the mind dissolves. last night i remembered it and wondered what would it be to repeat the hours of being filled and than to be fitted with a corset as well and each time emptied the corset would be cinched even tighter as all control was erased and the subject would be left completely stretched open and compressed at the same time. |
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imagine over a period of four years being trasnformed and being trained to feel pleasure only as a girl. to dress and to be taken and filled like a girl so deeply and to feel each day more the permanent effects the hormones as they leave there mark changing the curves of your body. never to take a shower and not feel the curve of your breast so round now and always to wonder what would it be to be taken by a man and filled to overflowing. always to feel this desire now and realize that afterwords one will never be the same again. |
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to reflect upon the difference between a Mistress and Master, a Mistress wants to transform and make a slave crave the beauty of being filled with a strapon dressed so perfectly to reflect what a sissy truly desires and a Masters tends to want to create the perfect object as one is stretched and made permanently open aware there is no way to reverse the change or desire to feel completely open. to realize just writing these words leaves a slave aroused aware he craves both worlds. after being made into a handmaiden to wonder what would it be like to feel the power of a Master move to leave me so aware what a perfect sissy slut slave has become for all time. |
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to feel ever more the permanent chnages being a slave and handmaiden have after five years have rought. always to feel the curve of real breasts and to learn what it means to wear a placeholder for hours and than to feel so aware the reality of haveing no control and only to imagine what it would be to be filled all the time and never to have any control ever again as one Master suggested and showed me how even now i slip into that state more and more, so seductive to become a perfect object to be left forever transformed
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to be reminded each day one is transformed. to feel the breast that have grown so round and firm and open in a way that is truly permanent and realize it is only the beginning |
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to feel each element of permanent transformation as it becomes so natural and part of all that a slave is to be. it is as if the mind is caressed and softened as the pleasure washes away all ability to resist what it is now so natural. to feel such a desire to feel the gift of being so filled as one realizes all resistance has been erased and one is now opened beyond all one ever imagined. what will it be like to be opened all the time and feel the pleasure of being filled so completely
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there is a beauty to feeling the imprint of being a slave each day to be reminded how deeply it has become the natural order of all that one is. to realize how natural the results of being opened so many times and to realize all resistance is gone now. to feel such pleasure as the beauty of a toy slips into place and to wonder what is the next edge that one will be pushed over and than there is no turning back as it becomes so perfect a way of surrendering.... |
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there is no greater gift than to realize as each day unfolds and to feel the permanent changes made to the body throughout the day reminding slave for all of time slave will be this transformed or even more to come. each imprint that guides the mind to submit to the addictions that leave the body and mind softened and stretched aware it is impossible to resist just as it will be impossible in the presence of a Master or Mistress to obey and become whatever they desire slave to be. |
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to feel each day the permanent changes that remind me each day that i now exist to serve and be used as a perfect toy. each year it feels so natural and to feel it as a need and desire flowing back and forth. one thought fills the mind and that is there is no way to resist the command of one who is aware of my secret desire to kneel and be bound and explored as they wish |
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to realize each time we move closer to the edge of complete and pemanent transformation and than to pull back and realize even more control has been erased. than to feel the pull of being so addicted to the desire to surrender completely and all will be different. to awake in the night and wonder will i be worthy and to imagine all the changes the one who will own me will instill. always to awake so open aware all control has been erased and to wonder what will the one take complete control of next. |
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a slave dreams of becoming a perfect object with no control and than to feel it take hold so completely and just with the commands that filled an open mind prepared so perfectly. Master said he would destroy all control and leave me forever changed and i was so afraid because his commands where so potent. i could not resist them and in time his desire has become reality and now i wonder what will come next as i even now feel the power of complete surrender aware it is but one step to absolute surrender. each day i became more and more addicted to the commands that had but one purpose to leave me completely open and with no control and now it becomes reality and only when one experiences truly having no control both in mind and body does one realize to exist only to obey and be transformed more and more till all that remains is a true slave. |
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how easily it is to become addicted to submission. how easily it came to be filled with desire each day to take the natural hormones that leave my mind so soft and my body transformed and so round and sensitive. Mistress took me and over just a few days of saturating the body again and again with large amounts of natural pills and creams and wine ever hour till i lost all ability to resist and the mind in a fog as the pills took hold. now i need them everyday and the mind grows ever softer and more open to wondering what will hold it spellbound next. |
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to experience a true state of no control as all is erased and one is left with such an awareness and in that moment all is changed. to feel within has now become a pure reality bound by desire and surrender. as each change becomes permanent in mind and body one begins to see where it is leading and powerless to stop the transformation. each transformation begins as a challenge and than to realize a point will come when there is no way to reverse it as it becomes all and everything one has become. it is like being bound and feeling the toy that opens you so deeply and than one day it slips in and there is no resistance any more as the body is open all the time now. the same is true of this new exploration as the numbing cream leaves one with absolutely no control and always with one thought what would it be to be like this all the time as all control is erased from mind and body with one purpose to become a perfect object to be used and made to reflect and feel what it is to be a slave. |
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each step in becoming a slave reveals how complete the transformation is to become. first the Mistress who decided i would become her handmaiden and began with earnest to erase all resistance to feeling pleasure as my bottom was opened more and more till after a year her fist would slip in so perfectly. than to explore how natural hormones would change the shape of my breasts and soften my mind so completely after four more years. to realize both changes are now permanent. now alone and still to feel the desire to submit and to explore with care what it would be to serve another. to realize how deeply and easily i accept being imprinted. even the Master who wanted to make me a perfect object and with the use of numbing gel and diapers and all for one purpose to erase all control. his suggestions so potent and now i am addicted and try an resist the power of feeling no control as it flows to become a permanent state. unable to resist that perfect feeling of having no ability to resist now as each night to feel the body completely relaxed and so open as the cream works its magic and to awake and feel the results of each day less and less control. to wonder what would of happened if i knelt before Master as he wanted and he bound me and added the power of stretching me beyond all i had ever imagined and left me in that state with one purpose to make it absolute and permanent as i would learn what it is to begin to realize i was to be an object for his pleasure to transform more and more. some where so dark and so beyond all i could imagine. still to feel his power pulling me to surrender completely. |
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to realize only when the body and mind are completely and permanently transformed and imprinted with the desire of the one who owns all that one is now does it even begin to comprehend there is no way to reverse the deep inner change reflected by the way the body has been made to reflect being a perfect object. Like taking a fist for the first time one realizes the muscles are stretched permanently and always to be able to conform to being opened and to imagine them stretched so deeply and long till they surrender all ability to function leaving slave completely open aware it will never be the same again. first is the imprint of the mind with the desire to become that perfect object unable to resist the pull anymore of the mind of the one who would forever leave the imprint that is complete now |
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it is such a gift to be truly aware that all that remains is the desire to be broken even more. the mind begins to crave over and over that feeling of no control. to wonder what would it be to slip into that state and it becomes permanent. the body holds the pattern and desire but it is the mind that cannot resist what is to become a permanent state of being a slave, forever changed. even now i try and resist the programming of one who took the time to see if i would cross that line and be transformed completely. to still feel the incredible energy as the numbing cream takes hold and to be so aware all control is gone, such an incredible feeling and to wonder what would it be for this feeling to be permanently imprinted into my body and mind. to become that perfect object with one purpose to be transformed again and again in ways impossible to imagine. |
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each time we are imprinted by what we call reality it takes hold deeper than we ever imagined. when a slave is truly broken again and again till they are truly open and each new imprint becomes all that is reality. now that i serach and realize even across the internet a Master can imprint and leave me so transformed and addicted to the commands to surrender even more. to feel the hunger as a perfect object now so open and unable to resist as they weave their magic leaving me more and more opened wondering if i can stop the transformation before it becomes permanent. to feel the power of the numbing gel so seductive creating a state of no controrl wondering what would it be to always be kept this way. |
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to read about the pull of the darkness within us as it moves and changes all that we are, so sedective. to reflect and see how the powers of the ones who would break us completely so we can rebuilt aligned with that dark force unable to resist it. to feel each day the breasts that have grown as a result of taking hormones for three years and so natural it feels each day aware they continue to leave me changed even more. to remember how Mistress took a year to teach me all pleasure comes from having my bottom filled and than to feel her hand slip inside aware i would never be the same. than to feel drawn to explore on the net a Master who wanted to open me comletely with numbing gel and diapers till all control was erased. than to feel the power of the darkness and wonder what would it be to take that three inch wide toy over and over again as the gel and suppositories worked to leave me without controrl than to feel the toy removed as the diapers slip into place, so open so without any control becoming that perfect object as the modifications of mind become as permanent as modifications of body. |
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it is interesting how we revert back to our old ways and realize how addicted we are to their power over us. after three years of using hormones and at times to increase the dose and see how the body continues to grow softer and bigger always aware the changes are permanent. to realize how the bottom grows more and more open each time i engage the program the dom layed out on the internet that would open me completely in a way from which there is no return. to sense even now its power and pull and to wonder how many days can i resist before i feel the need overcome as the numbing gel and the suppository slip into place with the diaper leaving me to wait and surrender all control as the muscles even now reflect their lack of control and to wonder how many days would it take before all control would be erased. what power is their in being a perfect object created by the one who would leave us permanently transformed unable to resist its draw now so deep inside of all that we have become. |
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a slave without a Mistress or Master learns that each day one has but one purpose to prepare for the day one will be made whole again. to wake and feel how deeply and permanently the changes left by Mistress pulse with one awareness as to what one will now always be. to wake and feel the curve of the breast as slave continues to apply the natural hormone cream that softens the curve of the body and mind so deeply. to wake in the night and feel so empty and to take a large dildo and feel it slip inside all resistance gone so natural and to wonder what would it be to go the final step and be trained to wear it all the time till the opening becomes so permanent and complete. to wait and wonder when will the universe open and slave finds the strength to cross into the relam of absolute surrender aware there is no way to return from what is its destiny. |
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as i search for one who will again make me a complete slave and marvel at the power of a true owner even through the internet to command and create an image that fills the mind more and more. to wonder what would it be to become a perfect object permanently opened and to move and taste that state. even to follow the beginning commands and feel the resistance slip away more and more. to wonder what it would be to be bound for days and feel the power of the numbing gel and the constant use of a laxative as the medical device stretches me more and more aware when the muscles reform they will be permenantly stretched. to feel each time the tool is replaced and the gel reapplied and to realize one is to be stretched even farther and no way to resist it as it becomes a permanent state and each time to feel the diapers slip into place aware Master has but one desire to permanently make me an open object with no control. |
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so much to learn as a slave about surrendering all control. as the change becomes ever more permanent one realizes how taking a position becomes so natural and than to feel the cords bind one in perfect submission, so perfect. to feel the body so open as the simple application of a numbing gel leaves one aware all control is gone instantly and to realize so little remains each time the effects take hold and the mind releases the ability even more as the open state continues to deepen and the muscles learn they have less and less control. to realize it is such a perfect addiction to feel that sense of no control aware one day it will become such a natural state as all control is lost. |
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imagine after years of taking hormones and than to increase them even more and after a few months you begin to realize something has changed so profondly. the mind has grown so relaxed so open just as the body has grown more relaxed and so much more sensitive. even to feel the muscles of the bottom that has been so stretched and trained to feel all pleasure and realize it grows weaker and weaker as all control is being erased and no way to resist it or any of the changes that leave the body permanently reshaped. to yield so deeply to what it is that slave is to be now always aware each day the transformation grows and even more intense as slave feels the need to be taken even deeper. |
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once a slave is transformed permanently into an object and open so deeply always to remember and sense it as it unfolds and grows deeper each day. once the body is completely stretched and the mind discovers it no longer has control the physical reality of it grows each day as the muscles grow ever more relaxed and no way to control them. to feel each time so open and such emptiness as the body releases or is not filled with a toy. to be without an owner who would push deep into my body again and again always aware all resistance is gone now. to feel the shadow of that desire to wonder what would it be to feel the power of a man leave me so changed. than to remember the true power of a Mistress to hold what it is i truly am becoming, a perfect handmaiden with one desire to serve with gratitude. |
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to reach a point where you close your eyes and you realize the mind is slipping away growing so soft and powerless to resist. to feel the body change as well growing ever so softer and rounder as each day the hormones leave one so addicted to what is now reality. to realize there is no way to reverse the change that becomes pure desire to serve. |
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To be a slave and feel each day the peremanent transformations and realize they will always be there as a reminder. each night to feel the curves and softness of my breast as i rub the hormone cream that has become such a perfect addiction softening both my mind and body ever more. to realize each time i have to use the bathroom and realize that the repeated fisting has left me permanently so open and now after being introduced to the wonders of oral numbing gel and unable to resist using it after just a brief training by a Master on the internet. his desire was that i loose all control with it and the help of constant use of laxatives and diapers. even now to feel the need to be completely without any control as the gel covers both cock and ass and to feel the diaper slip into place and to wonder what would it of been to actually meet that Master as he made it a reality all the time. even now every time i use the bathroom i realize i have lost so much control and what would it take to be made to have none ever again. so much to learn about being a perfect object all for the pleasure of the one who learns my secret, unable to resist the one who would own me. |
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to hold the difference of a Master and a Mistress deep inside and both weave their magic in their own way. the Mistress gentle and persistant taking a year to teach me all pleasure comes from my bottom being opened and than to take me with her fist. than three years of natural hormones and never will my body be the same again and even now to feel the pulse of a mind softer as they continue to hold me addicted and their ever potent changes. than the Master who had but one desire to take me and show me what it would be to surrender complete control as he made me learn what it would be to be open all the time with no control, a perfect object. first the commands to take a laxitive each day and the powerful numbing gel and diapers with one purpose to strip away all control and in time become so addicted to surrendering that control. than the command to come and be transformed and a perfect plan to leave me so open. to feel the mits restrict my hands as the suppositories are pushed deep inside and than to feel the gel leave me so numb and finally the medical toy that would stretch me beyond all i imagined and to leave me so till it permanently altered the muscles ability to function. Master wanted to fit me with a hollow plug that would complete the job and leave me stretched open all the time. what would it have been to take that step and become a true slave and toy. |
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After over four years being trained to become a slave girl to feel the permanent transformations so complete and always reminding me what i am being prepared to become. to feel my bottom so stretched and so open now and try and remember what it was like to have control and realize now each time it is filled it stretches me even more away from ever having any control. each day i shower and each night i slip into sleep and feel how round the hormones have left my breast and so sensitive. what would it be like to be taken and feel the transformation of mind be made complete as i opened to explore being made to serve a man for the first time. imagine being bound and powerless as all that i was is erased with each touch of a man showing me what i will always be now.
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to feel the residual power of each day as the transformation becomes more and more complete. to realize that in time it will become permanent in both mind and body and no greater gift is there. so many changes and to realize there is no way to reverse them as one becomes that perfect object. |
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to realize the true purpose and nature of the plug that fills you all the time and its only purpose is to leave you so stretched your every muscle will loose all ability to function and you will feel nothing but the natural beauty of being open all the time with no sense of control ever again to be within your control. than to realize you have become a perfect object to be transformed ever more |
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a slave dreams of becoming a perfect object with no control as the changes become permanent and unable to resist the desire to submit to them. now to feel all resistance gone in my bottom as the big dildo slips in so easily as Master predicted. every muscle has been stretched all the way in and the outer muscels have been erases completely. the mind no longer has any control of them. to feel the need to have a placeholder in place all the time what an awareness. without to feel the piss just dribble as i walk as all control of the ability to squeeze that muscle has been erased and so aware each day they grow even weaker as they are not used any more. the strangest feeling to piss and realize i can no longer contract and stop the flow as it just dribbles till all is released. to wonder how would i even begin to regain control when i wear the oh so big dilldo all the time so sensual. to realize a day will never come when i will not feel its power or the need to wear a diaper as i become a perfect object with no control ever again |
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what a difference three weeks of being in stasus, suspended and trying to resist the call to surrender all control. than to test the waters and see if i was still as open as three weeks ago and to feel the toy slip in so easily as the body opened and than to feel it so deeply inside all resistance still erased. than to go even deeper and cover the front and back with liberal amounts of numbing gel. than to take a supository and a pint of baby oil and squirt deep into the body and than to surrender to the need for a daiper. now to feel it working to leave me even more with no control as each glass of wine fills me with one awareness all control is to be erased when i find the right one who will take me the rest of the way. always with gratitude |
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it is one thing to imagine surrendering all control and read in a story of a slave who is forced to have their bottom stretched permanently open having no abitlity to control it. to be given the task to slowly erasing all control as the ebb and flow of being opened for hours and to feel the application of oral numbing gel that leaves you with no control aware each time it becomes more permanent. to feel so open and to feel the body release and aware the muscles that used to be in control no longer exist as they have been erased from lack of use. To realize there is but one purpose for slave to loose all control and it become a permanent state of being aware it will become that perfect object never to be the same again. |
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there is a power in a pattern that becomes a perfect habit. after four years of holding that all pleasure comes from my bottom being filled a new pattern was added to the habit and now i am unable to resist it as it leaves me changed even more. A Master wanted to take me and show me what it would be like to completely open all the time and with the command to take oral numbing gel and use it liberally on all the sensitive parts, everything became numb and all feeling and control of the muscles slipped away. now i am addicted and cannot use a toy without using the gel and after a couple of hours or waking in the morning so open and no control left and each couple of hours to apply even more of the gel soon i will experience what Master desiried, all control erased and each day the muscles grow weaker and the addiction grows stronger. |
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to learn what it is to surrender completely and realize you have no choice. just like it is to feel the body permanently modified never to be the same |
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to feel each element designed to create a perfect state of no control. first the mineral oil lotion is the base than the numbing gel and than the potent cream that leaves the muscle so relaxed and than the perfect toy slips in. one realizes there is no resistance to it and to feel no ability to contract even one muscle as all control is literaly earased. in time this is to become a permanent state with one purpose to take all control and erase every sense of it till all that is left is a perfect open slave who learns to desire this as all that they will ever be. |
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at heart what is real. to feel each permanent transformation of the body take hold and realize there is no way to reverse the change, that is real. to feel so stretched and realize all control has been surrendered and each day the muscles grow ever more weak and than to realize you are to be stretched even more to leave you truly with no control. to desire it as much as the one who wishes to create with you the perfect object to reflect their desire, their pleasure. so much to learn about what is real as it draws us deeper and deeper into submission |
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to close the eyes and realize all that is in mind is an illusion we have created over and over again. to become a slave and realize that illsuion is an extension of the one who owns all that slave is now. to see and feel the permanent changes as the body is transformed to reflect what slave is to become. the changes become reminders of slaves desire to be owned and used for the pleasure of the one who owns slave. Pain or Pleasure the same energy that yields the gift of becoming a perfect object to be used and made to accept the softness of the mind open now as never before to the imrpinting that moves to the core of being. |
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as a true slave one learns the mind is transformed and accepts no desires to be made even more into a slave. as the breast grow so round and firm and permanent one realizes that there is now a true desire to take the hormones that will grow them even more and yes feel the mind grow even softer unable to resist the true transformation into a handmaiden aware there is no way to reverse the changes only go deeper. to feel each pill now more than ever before as i take them all through the day. always to be a slave girl wanting to serve. |
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as a slave to realize it has been almost four years i have been trained to feel pleasure only from the beauty of being filled. now to feel all resistance gone as i wear the large male toy so easily and to wonder what will it be to wear it all the time being completely opened surrendering all control. to feel it move deep inside reminding me i am to be open all the time permanently always to feel the pleasure pulsing me to desire even more. |
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what a day to celebrate as my breast grow bigger and fuller. to mark the success of the hormones, now more than two years we increase the dose to saturate the body and to take the group of pills five times instead of twice a day and each time to double one of the five pills to give even a greater amount and of course to take them with a glass of wine feeling the mind grow so docile and aroused wanting even more to become the perfect handmaiden aware a year from now how different i will look growing from a b to a c cup. |
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to realize the need to serve and be whatever Mistress or Master desires is all that i will be filled with as long as i exist. to become that perfect vessel that exists only to be refilled time and time again with new commands that stretch the mind and body with one desire to obey and become even more perfect a slave. always to feel each change each mark each imprint as part of the gift of true transformation into one who no longer exists except as a slave. |
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once a slave discovers the beauty of being a complete slave and each day to realize nothing exists except life as property. each year to discover how every part of its body is open to be transformed. to feel each change grow and become permanent along with the desire to see how much more can be achieved. to truly appreciate the pleasure of a bottom opened and filled and the only way a slave will ever feel true pleasure. each day to be aware the breast continue to grow so round and so sensitive and it is just the beginning and all that is for sure is that a year from now even more will be transformed never to be anything but a slave that gives all for the pleasure of the one who would command it to kneel and submit. |
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as a slave and having my bottom stretched for four years and each time to feel such pleasure. to feel always more open as the large male shaped toy slips into place with one purpose to create a state of pure pleasure. all resistance is gone now as the pleasure of being opened has transformed permanently the ability to take large toys so perfectly. never to be anything else now filled always with the desire to be taken and filled in every way. |
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it is amazing how a few extra hormone pills put the mind in a state of pure softness and just the thought of being filled and bound with an extra large toy leaves me excited and so aroused. than to feel it slip into place, a pleasure so perfect and now it holds all my attention as it works its magic leaving me stretched so perfectly with one purpose to transform and leave me permanently addicted to the pleasure of being filled. always amazed how it slips in each time more easily and what would it be to feel one even larger aware it would change me even more. |
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to realize every aspect of your mind and body now exist only as extensions of the one who holds you in their power. every aspect of sexual energy is but a way of experiencing life as a slave. to adapt to it and be absorbed by the force that transforms you. your mouth is but a tool to be filled or used as desiried and each opening exists to be filled by whatever brings pleasure to the one who owns you for that moment. even to feel your breasts grow more each day is but a desire of Mistress to show you the gift of giving permanent change and wanting it so deeply.
to wonder who will take command next and what will i become as absolute change becomes all that i am to be. |
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there is a mystery and beauty to being a slave. to wake and feel the wonder of having breasts that continue to grow and to hold them and feel the body respond as the awareness fills the mind that they are to continue to grow now. to realize the experiment will continue to see how large they will become. to feel powerless to resist the desire to see and want them to grow even more. in time to wonder what will it be to be filled with the pleasure of being caressed and taken again and again responding as a true transformed sexual toy. |
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with the gift of continous use of hormones i grow even more aware how my breast grow more and more sensitive. to feel them so round and big and want only for them to continue to grow. my mind grows softer, so soft now as the thoughts slip away so easily unable to resist the desire, so powerful now to become even more a complete slave. always to realize the changes are so permanent and yet to want even more. even now to see the pills lined up and the need to take them as they open inside of me and work their magic. |
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into my third year of hormones and t feel the mind so soft and accepting as it becomes even more filled with the desire to be graceful and obey all Mistress desires. on days when i take an extra compliment of pills and to feel the softness like a wave. each caress of my firm round breast excites me aware i have just begun to explore what is now to become my life as a perfect handmaiden. the overpowering desire to be transformed even more as i become a perfect toy who yearns to be taken giving pleasure as i yield to the desires so strong now. |
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it has been almost a year since Mistress has bound me and marked me. each day of this year she has show me that i have truly become a complete slave as i have become addicted to the increasing natural hormones and the need to feel that giant male shaped toy continue to open me. all that is left is her handmaiden and each day i become aware i continue to change as my breasts and hips grow. In time the need to be filled the big toy will be replaced with the necessity for it and than i will learn what it is to wake with it deep inside of me and than to wear it all day and slip into sleep as every muscle will be softened and loose all ability to contract. |
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a slave learns there is a beauty in ritual, especially when it is designed to alter the mind and body permanently. over these four years two have merged into one. the one that opens me and the one that gives me the body of a girl. first to feel the very large male toy slip into place and than to sit and feel it move so deep. than to pour into my hand the ten pills all with one purpose to increase the natural hormones that will work their magic. as each pill is taken i caress the growing roundness of my breast so firm and so big now after three years of growing. to realize i need them now each day wanting to feel the permanent changes grow even more evident this is all i will ever be now. as i am a handmaiden, chaste and kept pure, i wonder what would it be to be ravished and taken even deeper into this world of mystery. |
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To feel the beauty and power of a mind softened after two years of being filled with hormones. the mind feels so different now and the other state is vague memory now. each day to realize the power of each pill and to feel the cream penetrate the breast aware the mind is powerless to resist that feeling that each application leaves me even more permanently transformed. to yield to it and feel the desire to want it aware there is no way to reverse the changes. each day to realize even one caress leaves me aroused wanting only more. it is as if the mind is being imprinted and reprogramed for one thing to explore the pleasure of being a slave and handmaiden to Mistress. |
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as a slave one holds in the back of the mind that it is possible to revert to let go and return to the world. after over three years exploring the beauty of becoming a handmaiden one realizes the changes the hormones have made are permanent and all pleasure every day comes from being filled and stretched. to feel the desire more and more to want the changes to deepen as it becomes all that i will ever be unable to resist the pull as each pill and application of the cream works its magic and each time to feel all resistance gone as the toys leave me open even more. |
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to realize each hour that oh so large male toy is deep inside of me slave discovers what it is have no control as every muscle is stretched beyond any ability to move. with one purpose to leave me more open and one day to realize all control has been erased leaving me permanently transformed and always to need to be filled. to become like a baby and have no control and to feel the presence of a girdle being the only thing that holds the toy in place aware how it is always to be now. |
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to realize each element now after four years of my transformation merges to create a perfect slave. trained to realize my body is to be transformed as Mistress desires. to become her handmaiden and now a perfect toy for pleasure, to give and receive in all and everything. now that my breasts have grown to b cup and i desire them to grow even more Mistress says when they become c cup we will get them pierced with heavy rings and little bells to remind me with every move what i am always to be. to feel my bottom open all the time as the toy stretches me completely aware all control is to be erased. each sensual carnal thought leaves me aroused and wanting to give pleasure and there are so many ways a slave toy will be used and to always want it more. |
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i am beginning to grasp how completely Mistress wants to transform her slave. now that i have achieved and my breasts after over two years of exploring the effect of natural hormones are a perfect b cup it is on to growing even more. they are so sensitive and sensual and with the training that all pleasures comes from being taken by Mistress i am becoming her perfect pleasure toy never to be anything else again. each night i slip into sleep aware how permanent the changes are and in the morning they will be even greater especially my toy deep inside opening me even more. |
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to understand the changes that have come to be after over two years on natural hormones each day to realize they are permanent. over time Mistress has increased the number of pills to ten in the morning and now ten at night along with the hormone cream rubbed in after each shower. to touch each pill and hold it and realize how potent they are to realize this is just the beginning as i now want them so deeply and how they will leave me with a new body perfectly formed. each day to look in the mirror and see the hips so wide and the breast growing rounder and fuller and no way to resist the desire to go deeper. after being trained to be chaste and take pleasure only from being filled now Mistress has kept me only on a continous stretching with a toy deep inside opening me more each day and leaving me with such a desire to feel and wonder what would it be to be taken and ravished again and again. to realize i desire it as much as the way i desire my body to change even more into what it will always be a girl, a handmaiden trained to give pleasure. |
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in just three months to feel my breasts grow so much and today to see them fill out a b cup so perfectly. they feel so round and firm and all because Mistress increased the number of natural hormones and doubled the dose. imagine in a year Mistress says what it will be to fill a c cup never to be the same again wanting it so deeply now as the change becomes so permanent into being her handmaiden. |
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this is my third year exploring the power of hormones and now Mistress has added holy basil and a melatonin combination to the mix. it is as if my mind grows more docile and softer each day and i accept the gift of increasing the natural hormones to see how completely my body will change permanently to reflect what i will always be now a slave and handmaiden. Mistress likes when i write of my desire to see the change continue as it excites me and i respond as a good sensual girl should showing how much a girl i have become wanting perfectly round breasts and hips wider with each month to see the changes now give form to being a perfect slave who yearns to obey and accept all she is to become. |
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as a slave one realizes your body now is the property of Mistress. each day the mind reflects this new reality. the soul becomes an extension of Mistress. Her desire is to leave me completely transfromed into her handmaiden. she loves the way just holding this thought or writing like now i grow so instantly aroused aware the programming is taking hold. each time i look in the mirror i will be reminded by the curve of my breast and how sensitive they stay as they grow even more. each day to feel my new pussy filled over and over again with one purpose to leave it completely stretched open. to realize all control is to be erased in time. to feel the desire to learn what it will be to learn slave must obey all who learn her secret. |
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Mistress says now her slave is beginning to understand what it means to surrender completely as the changes become permanent and to realize this is only the beginning. to feel so open as i am stretched continously with one purpose to leave me completely open. Mistress says now i will become more than a slave and handmaiden as she turns me into a baby girl with no control and filled with one desire to submit and realize what it means to loose all control and no way to regain it as Mistress takes her girl even deeper and opens her completely to what she will always be. |
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what a journey into learning to be a slave and girl. after a year of stretching my bottom into a perfect pussy Mistress found her fist could slide in so easily. now after training with the medium plug each night, it now slips out during the night. now to explore the much larger dildo that will now stretch the inner muscles as they become like the outer ring completely relaxed and unable to resist entry in any way. to feel the large toy slip into place and after a few hours to feel them so stretched. than to take it out and feel how easily the medium plug slips into place aware tonight the large toy will begin its work to stretch the inner muscles permanently. than to wake and feel the medium plug become the perfect placeholder. |
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it has been only a few hours to experience the thicker and longer dildo and to feel every inner muscle stretched as the awareness fills the slaves mind that this is now to become permanent. Mistress wonders how long will it be till her slave surrenders all control and becomes permanently opened and always to need to wear a toy or a diaper. every time i sit down it goes even deeper feeling such pleasure. Mistress says imagine in a couple of months how stretched and open i will be and then to get a bigger toy and to imagine it going even deeper and wider all with one purpose to leave me completely aware my body is hers to transform completely into a perfect slut that yearns to be filled all the time and there are so many ways to fill her slave leaving her changed forever. |
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Last night the plug i use all through the night slipped out twice. Mistress says so good that i now understand that now her slaves body is truly hers as she takes it and shows slave how he will surrender completely now to her desire that i be completely open all the time. now it is time to explore using the thicker and longer dildo that will begin to stretch the inner muscles till they become completely relaxed just like the outer ones have come to be. now to start wearing a toy deep inside all the time to learn what it will be to surrender completely. and in a month or two to realize all control will be erased as Mistress says than we will explore the beauty of wearing a diaper to bed and to discover how completely all control has been surrendered erased. than my pussy will be open all the time ready to be filled anytime. what is it to be broken completely and become what ever Mistress desires her slave and handmaiden to become. now to curl up and feel the big toy deep inside working its magic to leave me permanently transformed and to realize it is only the beginning. |
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as a slave you realize one day your body now is the property of all who you are commanded to serve. to feel the inner desire to obey and realize the inner desire to continue now the transformation into a girl for it is all you will ever be. each day to feel the curve of your breast as they grow even bigger and so sensitive. to wake each morining as you feel your bottom stretched by the toy all night aware all control is slipping away. each time you hold these realities and realize they are permanent and the mind pulses the body into arousal so perfect. to realize slave is kept in perfect chastity to create the desire to be taken as a woman and exist to give pleasure wanting it so much now. to exist to give pleasure in every way wondering what it will be like to feel the power of a man as slave is taken for the first time. to learn all the ways a slave will be used to give pleasure learning there will never be a more perfect desire. to realize just to think of it creates pure arousal, the changes havetransformed the mind as well as the body. |
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Mistress is pleased the way my breast continue to grow and has added some interesting herbs to my daily mix and some beautiful hemp protien. she loves the way i need to take a nap and wake and feel them so heavy and my mind grows even more docile and wanting them so much to grow. amazing how one grows faster than the other and begins to fill the b cup so perfectly. Mistress says just imagine when we finish our third year of growing and what it will be like to shop for a c-cup bra. as they grow they feel so heavy and to wonder what would it be to have them grow even larger, aware they are now a permanent part of what i am to be always, her slave and handmaiden. |
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as my breasts grow larger and larger i realize Mistress has but one desire that i become her perfect girl and handmaiden. along with the changes i feel the desire and wonder what would it be to serve a man as a slave as all that remains is a girl ravished and filled to overflowing. Mistress has filled me with the desire to grow even more into a girl and now to realize there is nothing else i will ever be. the changes to my body and mind reflect what i am to be for all of time. |
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Mistress loves the way my breast have grown so beautifully and how they make me feel best of all. to feel them so full as they continue to grow and to want them to grow as they pulse aware they are getting ready to grow even larger. Mistress loves the way the hormones make me desire to want them more than i ever imagined. Mistress says we will never stop till they have grown as big as they want to grow. it is strange to feel them expanding aware i desire it so much now as they leave me so transformed and now always to have the body of a girl filled with the natural desires to feel them caressed again and again and to wonder what would it be to have a man take me as he fills me with awareness i will always be a girl wanting even more. |
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it is amazing to realize after over two years i can feel my breasts growing. the mind senses they feel fuller and at first it was interesting to wonder how big they would grow, but now to realize i am powerless to stop as each day i engage the protocol that ensures they will continue to grow. to realize the desire has been so completely internalizied. it is as if they grow to a certain size and you realize you are changed permanently just as the hips have grown as well and now to see how completely slave will be transformed. they are so sensitive now and it feels so sensual to have them caressed and one day to imagine a man taking this new slave girl and showing her what it is to feel true pleasure. each time i even hold or write the thought of it i become aroused. to wonder what will happen to my mind once i crossed that line and felt the power of a man move inside of me. for now Mistress keeps me chaste as her good little handmaiden. |
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it is as if i have crossed a line and feel only the desire to be a slave. to be worthy to be owned now my only purpose. i will life with the mind of a girl now as Mistress will show me even more how my body will grow and respond to the changes that will become permanent and so complete. to continue to grow breasts and see if the natural hormones and herbs and creams will develop and grow larger breasts. to feel them so round and firm and soft already and to imagine them growing to a perfect b cup as my hips continue to expand as well. to surrender all control of my new pussy to Mistress as she moves to leave it permanently stretched open till all control is erased and it becomes a permanent reminder that this body is hers now to shape as she pleases. to explore the dark edges of the cracks between the worlds till the only world slave exists in is the one where she gives pleasure by complete surrender. Mistress says there are an infinite number of ways to train a girl slave to give pleasure and wants to explore all of them with her property. |
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this month marks the third year of learning to desire to grow breasts in a way i never imagined. all the ideas of stopping the growth have been erased. In a year to imagine what it will be to grow to a perfect Bcup as my transformation deepens. Now that i have become her property in a real sense for all time there is no rush just the steady daily pleasure of seeing me desire the change as much as she does. each morning after taking the medium plug out from the night long stretching i feel my finger slip in so easily and less muscle remains as i grow more open. in a month or few Mistress says we will switch and replace the plug with her favorite cock so much bigger and longer and than to use the plug as a perfect placeholder throughout the day. |
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as a slave to feel the pull and power of becoming addicted to each element of transformation. after two years of daily hormone pills and creams and three years of having my bottom stretched and a year of being kept in a heightened state of arousal with herbs and complete chastity. to yearn to explore the changes as they grow and become so permanent leaving a perfect slave girl, never to be the same again. i love the way my breast feel so firm and round, the way a dildo slips in as all resistance has been erased and even now to feel the body respond to these thoughts as they leave me aroused and hungry to become and serve as a girl giving pleasure in every way. what would it be to serve a Master instead of a Mistress trained to be a true slut. |
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to realize Mistress desires to keep me as slave in every sense of the word for life. each day the hormones work their magic softening and making the body round and the mind soft. than to take the herbs that create a perfect state of arousal as the awareness that i will be in permanent chastity, what a combination. always my body will belong to her as she changes it to reflect the girl i will become evermore. so subtle so slow she weaves the changes into the mind till it feels so natural. like wearing a toy all through the night as she whispers a day will come when i will wear a larger one and of course that magic day when i will wear all the time open in a way i cannot imagine. in time just as my bodies shape has been permanently changed it will be all i know. |
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to wake and realize all that is left is slave and mind and body now belong to Mistress. Her desire is to transform me into being her girl and it is all i will ever be now. as my breast continue to grow and to touch them and feel them so round aware the change is permanent and just the beginning as they give me the shape of a woman. even the hips grow wider. to wake and feel so open aware all resistance all control has slipped away feeling the toy having worked its magic through the night with one purpose to leave me open in a way i never imagined. as each change becomes complete and permanent Mistress takes it deeper showing me it is just the beginning now as she crafts the perfect girl slave |
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to wake up naked and realize each morning i am now a slave being transformed into a girl. to feel the plug deep in my bottom aware the muscles have been stretched thorugh the night leaving me with no control to resist it. to feel the perfect curve of my breasts as they continue to grow. to realize in a year the changes that have come to be over the past three will grow and in time all i will be is a perfect handmaiden and each day to wonder what would it be to taken by a man. |
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what is amazing is that each day to feel the curve of my growing breasts as the awareness grows that never will they not be there. to realize how completely i have been transformed in the two years of taking the natural hormones and now it is permanent. to realize i truly hunger to feel them grow even larger and each time i touch them they grow more sensitive. to wonder in another year how much bigger will they become and will they be even more sensitive as i feel the strapon work its magic as each caress reminds me what i will now always be a slave and handmaiden ever more. |
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after over three years of perfect chastity and learning that all pleasure comes from having my pussy filled. now it is time to explore complete surrender of my pussy as all control slips away. now to accept the challenge of wearing a toy deep inside all the time so aware already all control will be erased. to feel the mind grasp that it no longer can resist the deep penetration as every muscle is being erased and to wonder what will it be to be completely open all the time and one step closer to being a perfect handmaiden. |
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to be aware my breast have grown larger than ever before and the mind accepts it as so natural to feel the roundness. to accept the change is now premanent and Mistress says they will now grow even larger a prefect shape for her handmaiden. to have only a desire to feel them grow even rounder and fuller beyond all i imagined as it becomes my natural state wanting only to see how big thwy will grow. |
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just as my breast has grown and now it is part of my nature to nurture them and continue the process of growing them even more. it is beyond my control as i surrender to the beauty and power of having such sensitive round breast. Mistress says in time my pussy will be so open i will always have to wear a placeholder as it will remind me i have no control anymore over my body literally. already the mind realizes it is useless to try and squeeze the cock and when i try there is complete awareness nothing happens anymore as the muscles have been so stretched. now that i can take her cock dildo so easily and she can fuck me till she comes, she has started to train me to take a giant three tiered toy with the largest bulge at 3.5 inches diam.. she wants to be able to slide her fist in effortlessly and milk me with no resistance. it is so big after the first two balls slid in and beyond all i can imagine what it will be like to take the largest bulge. |
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there is something magical about being so open that a six inch cock dildo seems os natural. to have no ability to squeeze it any more as it sits so perfectly deep inside all day long aware each day i am being opened more completely. to slip into sleep aware that when i awake i will be stetched even more as Mistress wnats me to be filled all the time now till i am completely open and the pussy muscles are stretched perfectly. every time i slip it back in i first apply extra hormone cream inside my pussy as this softens the mind as well as create the curves that continue to grow leaving me marked her slave girl even more aware i must obey all who discover my secret. |
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to realize each thought is a wave of energy that creates what we are and to hold each day more deeply that i am now a slave girl and handmaiden to Mistress. to feel the changes, to see the changes as the curves of my body take shape aware there is no way to reverse them as the horomones and herbs work their magic. than to be so aware i desire it as much as Mistress now to take the changes even deeper. each change marks me as her slave girl now always to hold this form as my destiny now. the mind begins to wonder what would happen if i applied the special hormone cream to my hips would they grow even wider and of course there is only one way to find out. |
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it is amazing how the mind grasps and accepts change. to feel it begin as a pulsing a heaviness in the breast as they grow and expand. aware the herbs and natural hormones are merging engaging to create even more growth. now as they grow so round and they begin to fall creating a line under the breast. no way to resist it as the mind realizes there is no way to reverse the change and yet the desire to see what will it be to reach 50 inches. the thought itself becomes erotic just as each caress becomes even more sensitive. now it is not a matter of wondering if they will grow but the mind wonders will they ever stop aware all ability to resist continuing the experiment has been erased. |
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amazing how a simple band of metal with little heart shapes that allow the flesh to push and make little heart imprints as the band is tighened creating a heightened sensual awareness especially as the toy slips into place vibrating both the pussy and the band that stretches and holds the clit in a heightened state of arousal. the mind stops functioning as pleasure becomes the only thought that slave girl is always to be open and the more aroused the better. |
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to feel the deep change to the mind as the body continues to grow and become more like a woman. how just an inch bigger to 49 deepens the awareness and of course the mind realizes that there is no way to reverse the growth or even to stop the desire to grow even more. after a few months of trainging with the plug it was interesting to switch to a much larger dildo and to wear it for extended periods of time. to feel the body loose all resistance to it as it relaxes more and more with each breath. Mistress is pleased and now i wonder what would it be to be taken by a man more and more. |
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to slip into awareness that now i will always be a slave girl. after a year of exploring the growing of breast and now to feel them begin to grow even bigger, now almost at 48. to feel the body as it pulses and shivers at the growing is incredible aware always there is no way to reverse the change and at the same time to want to grow even more . no way to resist as all that is left is slave girl and she is filled with the natural desire to have perfect breast. at one point i thought 48 would be the biggest i would want to be but now to realize i will always be a girl and to wonder what it would be to have a perfect 38B and captivated by the single desire to grow even more. to realize i have no power to resist all that would make me a perfect girl. |
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to feel the whole body growing softer rounder. just a quarter inch growth and to be able to see the breasts grow so much rounder. to be filled with the desire of a girl to grow now even more aware there is no way to reverse the changes. to wonder what will it be when they grow to 48. since i began a year ago i have lost six pounds and an inch on my waste and gained over an inch on my hips and the breast 39 to 47 around. Mistress is pleased and says now always i will be her girl and this is just the beginning. |
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it has been awhile but now i seem to be growing again and a quarter inch is incredible as they grow rounder now. with the cold weather to shiver and feel the whole breast so sensitive an incredible feeling. it is as if the mind grasps there is no way to stop now and still the wonder at being transformed so completely and no way to reverse it. |
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as one uses a vibrating plug for a month or so one discovers a change over time. to feel it slip in each time more easily and you realize you have to use a harness to hold it in place now. this is the fifth day in a row using it for five hours straight. there is always the pleasure that comes from the vibration even a sigh as the whole body is pulsed. to squezze it and realize there is no way to hold it as the body opens and relaxes even more. one is so aware that in five hours the muscles will be so completely relaxed and stretched that all control is gone. one also holds at the corners of the mind an awareness that the mind is learning that this is going to be your natural state of always being open. than to slip a place holder as Mistress calls it in place all through the night. Mistress says soon she will have me have something in place all the time. to wonder what it will be to be open all the time having no control, another change that will become part of what her slave is to be. |
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to feel the body a perfect vessel to be filled always open. to sense complete pleasure as the mind is pulsed and all resistance is gone. to feel the mind of a woman within the body as it takes on the shape. to wake in the morning and feel so aroused and than to see and caress the each breast so sensitive and that is true pleasure. always to feel the gentle swell of each breast instantly reminding me there is no way to reverse the change that continues now to make me a complete slave. |
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as each element of being transformed into a girl takes hold and yields results it is time for slave to release complete control and learn what it is to wear a medium plug all the time. today is the start of the first full day. to wonder what will it be like in a week as the body absorbs and holds the memory of being completely stretched open as the muscles adapt and learn to always keep the pussy open. to cross that line and realize there will be a time when slave will be completely open and will always feel the need to have her pussy filled. |
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it is as if each day the mind slips away softens and now to realize it grows each day just like the breasts as the realization takes form the change is permanent and so sensitive. what is incredible is the deep desire to have them grow even more and no way to stop the desire so aware the herbs and natural hormones are truly changing deep inside what i have become never to be the same again.... |
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after just two powerful cleansing and openings to feel with each breath the whole body begin to open and pulse relaxed. to be aware the mind now holds the pattern to be completely open and it now becomes my natural state all the muscles relaxed more each breath. to feel the bladder drain four times in four hours aware of having no control. Mistress is happy and soon i will loose all control and begin training as baby yielding to wearing a diaper so aware it will become a permanent transformation just like all the rest as each day more control is surrendered taken away. |
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Mistress is going to combine three elements to teach me what it is to surrender complete control. first to sleep the night with a big dildo. than two bags of enema with peppermint castile soap and repeat cleansing till all resistance slips away and to feel the pussy so relaxed it stays completely open. than to feel the expanding dildo and her fist as she slips in so easily now. than to place the perfect place holder to train me to truly be open. it is amazing each time the enema releases to realize how completely stretched i have become. all for one purpose to eventually loose all control. |
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to realize slave is being turned into a perfect fuck toy. to touch my clit and instantly to feel ass move up and down wanting to feel a dildo or cock deep inside. it has become a truly conditioned response as slave has learned all pleasure comes from having her pussy filled. |
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it is as if all that is left now is slave girl as my breast feel so firm as they continue to grow on towards 48 inchs and only one desire to be now this completely. after two years of being in chastity trained to release only when Mistress deems it and now each time a large dildo slips deep inside i begin to release from being milked and so full but not allowed to cum. all resistance is gone as the almost three inch toy slips in so easily and to move up and down such pleasure as it slides all the way out and in so easily. the mind really has learned to take all true pleasure from having her pussy filled and Mistress says it is now time to wear a place holder all the time so the pussy will always be open for her fist. |
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to feel the breasts so full as they expand and grow in true spurts. to feel the gentle pressure a constant gentle pulsing and than to see that they have grown another quarter inch and how they now slip into the bra and each one fills out as the roundness grows to take form so perfectly. now another inch bigger measuring 47 inches round. to feel with each breath the beauty of being now such a natural part of all that it is to become a slave girl. to feel the deep change in the mind as the mind grasps all that will be left is the mind of a girl soft and sensual and still a virgin. Mistress is going to explore slipping both her fists inside leaving nothing unchanged as she opens her slave as she desires now. |
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there truly is no limit to how a slave can and will be imprinted as the mind is trained to accept more and more as reality the beauty of complete surrender. after two years in chastity first forced and now it has become so natural to no longer desire to release as the mind has been reframed to feel such pleasure as the pussy is filled each time it marks the mind with such pleasure. than when Mistress decides to truly fuck the pussy over and over again and slip her hand deep inside and gives the permission to release and taste the gift. to truly yearn to feel the pussy filled as it becomes the true source of pleasure and to be so aware it will always be now the primary way to experience true pleasure and there is no way to reverse it as each time it becomes the pure reality that now holds me bound so deeply as slave girl. |
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it is as if Mistress has begun to explore a realm of pleasure that deepens and changes slave girl to learn true pleasure comes only from having her pussy filled. she kept slave in chastity for over a month and than used an inflatable dildo to stretch even more the pussy and when she slipped her hand in while the clit was wrapped in a pressure culf she began to move and all resistance was gone completely opened. than to feel the electric current like energy flow up my spine as she moved deeper and deeper imprinting the only true pleasure comes from having the pussy filled and after she had me play with my clit till i came aware so much even now the desire to have my pussy filled was so much more incredible as the pleasure never stopped just became more and more intense. now i sit and even with the largest plug it slips in and out so easily as it should be. now to learn to wear the large plug as it opens me even more to the wonder of being her girl slave. |
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after wearing the medium plug all day one discovers that just to sit down it slips in so easily the muscles completely relaxed. after being stretched all night by the large plug twice as big and in sleep all attemp at using the muscles is released. any pressure on the medium one requires such effort just to hold it in and when it comes out it is as if the mind holds the pussy wide open as this is now its natural state and it takes a conscious effort to close it. the interesting thing is the mind is now no longer aware it is in so deeply as it accepts this is the natural state that has been accepted. almost to the point where i have to squeeze it to see it it is inside of so stretched pussy. so i write this as a day will come when the mind looses all memory of what it was to have pussy that was ever closed, now always to be open. |
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it is as if with each step i take the mind feels a complete awareness that every step every moment my pussy is stretched open the mind is changing and relaxing the muscles more and more till all ability to close the pussy will be lost and a sense that it will be just as permanent a change as the hormones that created the breast and there is no way to reverse the growth. even now they are starting to grow so round and there is only the desire to see them become even more. to realize even the deepest part of my mind is guided by Mistress now all to please her in all she desires as i am to become her complete slave. |
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it truly is amazing to feel each time the plug or toy slips in the mind grasps that there is less and less resistance. even to hold in place as it first slips in i must hold with all my awareness to keep it from just slipping out. even the very large plug that is kept in place all night slips in more easily and in the morning what a contrast to wear the medium one all day so small it seems now. to feel the caress of it even now as the mind holds in the deep background that a day will come when there will be no resistance. to hold that my hips are being expanded all through the night over two inches. to walk even a few steps and feel the difference when the plug is not in. the wave of pleasure each tme the large part slips in penetrates the very center of my mind and fills it completely. so aware of such pleasure and the mind is being completely retrained as to what is truly pleasure and to wonder what it will be like that day when Mistress binds me to the altar and i am filled with a real cock never to be the same always to be her girl slave bound to serve all who discover all htat is left now is a slave who yearns to serve completely. |
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now that slave has begun to accept that she will always have a plug or toy deep inside of her Mistress has begun to refine the use of the plug. to be so aware always each step i take the fullness and the movement of it deep inside and when slave sits down to beel it slide deeper inside relaizing all resistance is gone as it opens slave even more. Mistress has added two new focus tasks one to have an enema each day so i will easily be able to wear the plug always. next to begin to squezze it and hold it tensed in place and to feel it pulled in deeper with each squeeze. have a sense this skill of squeezing will increase the pleasure of those that Mistress will direct to take me when she is ready to transform me into a real slut. Already it feels so empty when the plug is out and the mind yearns to fill the void aware a line will be crossed when always i will need to be filled and there is no way to go back as the pussy will be completely open all the time.. Mistress loves to slip her hand inside and make a fist as she withdraws it commenting how open i am now and how i stay open and learning to truly yearn to have my pussy filled all the time. |
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Mistress has had me loose nine pounds so far and now my shape begins to take form even more to her desire. i have lost only a half inch in my breast as i continue the regime for growing bigger and now i measure top46 waist 37 and hips 41. she also has begun to have me wear a plug all day long, a medium one and at night the very large one as she thinks it is time for me to be filled alwasys so the pussy is never closed always open. it is strange to be aware that now i will loose all control and will always be open and will always have to wear a plug. |
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it is interesting when i was at 44 inches i wondered what would it be when i crossed that line and became 46 inches. now i truly know and they are truly taking that perfect round shape/ well time to take a rest and see how much they will grow without the herbs and continue only with the growth hormone precusors and protien shapes. it takes some tme for the herbs to be cleared from the system so it will be interesting to see when they stop growing. |
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it is as if you have crossed a line and now to feel the growth continue and there is no way to stop the desire to now enter that realm where there is no doubt as the breast truly begin to grow so round and to wonder what will they look like at 46 inches as Mistress graces me with only two words grow more. soon to find out |
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it took awhile and now i measure 45 inches and amazing how to add an inch they have to grow so much rounder. as the combination of growth hormone precusorers and herbs and creams and of course Mistresses command to grow more work their magic. what is truly amazing is the awareness there is no way to reverse the change and now to feel the desire to add another inch. now to slip into a 38B and it fills it so naturally |
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well it seems my transformation is gathering steam as my chest size has grown to 44 inches in five weeks and my hips are beginning to expand as well. the intersting thing is that it takes about three to four weeks for the effects to stop so we continue with the program of supplements and creams and not sure when i will stop and how large they will become. |
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well it has been an interesting couple of months experimenting with the assignment of growing breasts using hormones herbs and creams. in the past two weeks the chest diamenter has grown from 40 to 42 inches and the trick was adding the twice daily protien drinks that allow for new growth. the hips are also growing wider. it is the mind though that keeps softning and growing so open to being a slave and serving all who learn my secret. |
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