RescueMe10

I have had one more serious inquiry if I haven't mentioned it already. I am speaking to a Dom whom is also a professional surgeon that wants to transform me & is willing to pay to have the process done. After that, as long as he has followed through, I will be his but he has yet to prove to me that he is serious. I hope though that he is & he is willing to turn me into a rubber sissy fucktoy. I will know in a few more weeks if he is brave enough too come to rescue me. Until then, the possibility of someone else having a shot at claiming me, remains open.

I am now available for chat through Skype & Yahoo chat. Just flash me a message to request my ID for either one & you will have it ASAP.

It has been a while but I finally got around to updating my journal. The search continues... I have had a few inquiries but none have been serious or brave enough to act as my knight in shining armor. I really need to get away from this man so I can finally go to a serious owner that is willing to make a proper slave of me.

I keep going to all the sites similar to CM but even with the increased number of sites, still no luck. I have listed myself on Youmustobey.com - iseekdiscipline.com - I have even searched the fringes of the BDSM community in Secondlife.com, lots of players there but no one so serious as me. I am a real aspiring slave that only wants to have an owner that will transform me into a proper slave for sexual & domestic use. I also have a rubber fetish so transformation into a living rubber female fuck toy is also desired.

Basically, I want my sense of individuality stripped from me by any & all means necessary until I become a mindless bimbo, a sissy whore or whatever you want to call me. 

Above all, as long as you meet me halfway on this with the means to transform me, I will meet you the rest of the way on the effort with hard work until my transformation is complete. Then I am yours to do with as you please.

Nuff said for now...

Kisses to all

You just have to know that some people on here just don't get the idea that some of us are lifetime slaves looking for an owner just as there are owners looking for us. In the grand scheme of this lifestyle, that's the way it should be but as far as I am concerned with Switches, no offense but you might as well just be players, not serious lifestylers.

That brings me to the whole point of this latest profile entry. I have had one inquiry from a switch.

So, I cannot stress enough how important it is for people to read profiles & especially the journal updates carefully so they don't miss any details. The last time I updated my profile, I know that I didn't include Switches of either gender, just Dom/mes.  So, if you happen to be one, please don't contact me because its only going to be a waste of your time when I am just going to politely refuse your request. I really don't have anything against you, just that my current master is a switch that lied to me about so many things & one of those things was that he isn't really a Dom, just a switch & he keeps trying to get me to fuck him when I am strictly a sub.

There is one thing that really gets me on this site. I see a lot of it in the straight Doms & I mean no disrespect but if you are complely straight then why in Hades do you have trans slaves/subs selected in your list of what you are seeking? This especially gtes me confused because i never see any straight Dom listed as "Bi-curious" either & it does make my search for a real dominant a lot harder.

Mind you, every slave/sub run household has its own wa yof doing things but I have been in a farm household before on previous occasions & with so much work to be done, everyone has to do their share, eve the master but this guy doesn't even bother to lift a finger to fix something that I have no clue as to how to repair  he is just letting things fall apart around here & its all I can do just to use spit, sweat, duck-tape &  glue just to Jerry rig whatever needs fixing so it will last just a little longer since he also refuses to spend the money to replace what needs replacing.

There is that & the fact that as a sub/slave, I don't mind doing my fair share but in this household, you can't expect me to do everything & then expect nothing to be missed in the process since there is so much to do.

This is part of why I cannot stay here. This guy is dumping everything on me without lifting a finger to help me when I ask for it. Then he takes my money, spends only so much of it on food, mostly junk which is why I am now 40 -50 LBS overweight

Then there is the matter of sexual service....

Mind you, every slave that has ever had to spread their legs as part of their duties, has learned to accept it. Over the years though, i have learned that just being a sex slave is not the end all/be all of my existence, nor do I expect that it should be granted to me as a reward for being a good slave. So, my philosophy has been that sex is a mere perk of being a sub/slave, one that you learn to be grateful for the privilege of being allowed to participate in it when it is both offered & administered by the right owner.

Not that it matters here because he isn't even using me for that now!! Lets just put it this way. As the old saying goes, "I haven had sex in so long, I forget who gets tied up!"

So, I am willing to get a ticket to anywhere in the USA with the steady income I  have right now as long as I know that I have a stable home waiting for me with a stable owner who knows how to handle a slave like me. 

I repeat! I am not afraid to work hard! But I do ask that in trade for being your slave or sub companion that you help me to finish my feminization. I might even be convinced to forgo the final operation if that is what concerns you but I must continue on my feminization journey before I get any older than I am now or its going to be too late for me to enjoy any of it! I WILL sign a slave contract for X-amount of years until you feel that I have more than fairly paid you in slave time

Many people in this lifestyle belive that there is a fine line between proper discipline of a slave through corporal punishment when they misbehave & just being a brutal asshole that doesn't care about his slave at all, just him or herself. Unfortunately, i have met with this man that had promised me an idealistic life as his slave with limits respected to a degree & he had also promised to help me with my transformation. Yes, I was expected to work for it & I have been doing just that while working my ass off but he has yet to deliver on his part of a promise made. He has also been very brutal at times to me, never really reasonable at all. There is so much to tell in this horror I am living in right now but its a lesson that I have learned well.

So, IF I EVER get lucky enough to be contacted by a real prospective owner & they want me to be their slave, I will want it understood that I will want it in writing as part of a slave contract as to what I am expected to do & what the prospective owner will give me in return.

I just started this new profile. I have left my old one up so my current Master doesn't get suspicious. 

 Every day here, life has become nothing but a struggle just to exist, never mind living.

 He is so cheap that when something breaks, he refuses to spend even a little money to get new parts to fix it right so it will last longer.

 I have a small income of my own but he takes almost everything I have from it. It used to be that until I threatened to leave him, he had been taking every last cent. 

 On top of that, when  I came here, to this place, it was because of a promise he made that sold me on the idea of being his slave. I could have gone to someone else had I known that this guy wasn't going to honor his promises.

 That is why I am looking to find another owner that is willing to rescue me & then set up a contract that entails the details of my terms of service. I am offering to give up my body to the right person but in return, i am asking that the prospective owner not only allow me to transform but also to help me & if interested, my new owner could choose just how far to take me.