ReplaceableDoll

How I process life is all in my head. Everything I experience is about how my brain takes things in, and how my body reacts to what my brain is telling me.

Gender is unimportant, appearance is unimportant. It's all about the way someone smells, feels, looks at me that makes all the difference. Different qualities in people bring out different qualities in me.

I like to be aware of my body. Sexual activity is more intense for me when I ground myself in my physical body. Pain of any kind brings me back to myself, but if it's not intense it's more of a meditation exercise. I keep floating away and then coming back. I'm learning how to control what kind of a headspace I'm in without any physical sensation at all.

I enjoy bondage because I like how it feels like a challenge. It makes me want to see if I can get out or if I'm really stuck. There's something very strangely freeing about realizing that I can't escape and can't win by untying myself.

I've found that nothing makes me feel quite as good as being able to please the person that I'm with.