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Hi everyone. My name is Nancy.
I'm 22 (in August) and I still live at home but am moving out this summer to live with a girlfriend of mine.
I'm here because I sort of need to just admit what I want and then what happens happens. I had a bf in college for two years but I lost him. I thought it was his fault all the time but I know it was mine. I wasn't flexible. I was always demanding. My daddy has always called me his "strong headed girl" and I used to take it as a compliment, but I know now that I totally hate that. And I think I acted that way to please him, and to please other people.
There were girls in hs and college who I made fun of. the big boobed sluts. bimbos. whatever you call them. Oh I'm so superior to them, you know? Well, I can say that all day and it's not true.
They seemed happy! I want that. I want to be happy. I want to be one of them! I want to be someone's property. I want to be treated like that, transformed into that.. a big boobed dumb doll.
If you're just writing to make fun of me, please don't ok? I'm sure you've got better stuff to do.
-Nancy

P.S. PLEASE no chat requests here. It messes up my computer. I put that in the journal but maybe people don't read it, since they still keep trying.
11/4/2010 2:21:48 PM
A very bad meetings with people I met from here. I was safe and did it as people suggested, but neither were who they said. :-( I think I'm taking a break. One nice person here said I should go to "second life" where I can become what I want to be. I'm not into video games, but she said it's not that. So I'm going to check it out. If you have any info on it, please send it along. Nancy
10/18/2010 4:15:56 AM
I've met a wonderful man who has really helped me make sense of a lot of things. And more importantly he's made me understand I don't have to feel bad about wanting what I want. I'm not someone who interests him in the long term, but it feels great to have a friend with experience I can use to bounce things off as I go forward. Thanks, Sam. You rock!
8/7/2010 8:27:49 PM

Just wanted to say that those who think "If you are serious, contact me" is some sort of interesting way to contact me, it totally isn't.

I know this is hard to believe but it's possible for me to be serious and at the same time NOT be interested in you... either cause your profile is blank, or it doesn't say anything about the stuff I'm talking about, or because you just sent me this big cut and pasted thing you send everyone.

That's all. :-)

Nancy

8/16/2009 6:49:01 PM
I went to a local "meet" last night... thanks to some cool people I met through this place, and the advice to go from someone that I trust.

And I'm super glad that I did.  These people were cool... and they treated me like the stuff I'm looking for... doesn't make me crazy, nor does it make me like just a person who is supposed to accept every stupid offer that people make.

And they were real people too with real lives, and it was super nice. I know they go and do lots of stuff beyond meeting for a chinese food buffet (lol) but this was just step one for me.

And even if none of these people can like end up doing what I am looking for... the way they explained it if I hang with them and learn from them -- about them and about me -- then it will make me more ready to take the big step.

It was an awesome night.  The only reason I didn't write about it last night was that I couldn't put it into words until today.

To sum it up -- I met some people who didn't make me feel like a freak for wanting what I want... and I can never thank them enough!
6/24/2009 12:13:55 PM
Off on a mini-vaca today... and i'm psyched!

Can't say where, but it's to a city that is so nice, they named it twice! :-)

- Nancy
6/13/2009 7:41:08 PM
Hi everyone. Some of you have sent messages this week and I haven't replied to as many people I don't know as I usually try to do... I'm sorry about that.
I had kind of a bad experience with someone from here last weekend, and it's put me in a kind of a bad mood... mostly because I think it happened because I was stupid.
But I'm trying to cheer up, and I'll be just fine. 
6/5/2009 5:32:45 AM
Ok, got my very favorite message this morning!  I mean, very excited that someone read my profile and understood that I'm not keen on the 1-2 line emails, and that I was looking for someone who had some depth or something.

Here was the message (and I won't say who it was, that's mean):

"Hello me"

I have absolutely no idea what that means! The person is from this country (or so the profile says) so I don't think it's a language thing.  But I have to admit, he got me with that one.  I'm moving in with him today. 

Good bye all! LOL  
6/4/2009 9:36:11 PM

Hey, remember I said please stop trying to chat with me here?  Well, boy has that been a huge success (LOL).  But I'll try something else too... not that it will work.
Please please please do not try to invite me to be in your friend circle.  I'm rejecting everyone, even people I like, just so I don't have to deal with it.  If you're my friend, you know it.  And if you're not, just having a link to my picture isn't making it any better.

-Nancy

6/3/2009 8:29:38 PM
You know how people are always looking for a "million dollar idea"?  Well I have one, and anyone who wants can take it.  Invent a spell checker for CM and charge people $0.05 per message.  ISTG you'd be like so rich in a day! I mean, I should make a list of the words spelled incorrectly I see each day... stuff I didn't think anyone could spell wrong.  Are people even trying? Or do they just not know that "wood" and "would" are not actually the same word.  :-)  I sort of am rethinking the use of the word "dumb" in my profile... because now the bar seems set way low! Good night!!!!
6/1/2009 12:37:52 PM
Ok, too funny! You learn things fast around here.  So yesterday a woman contacted me and said she was interested in my profile. She didn't write much but enough to make me know she actually read my profile. LOL
Anyway, after a few message she says, oh I know a guy who would be perfect for you, let me give you his id.  and then i checked it out and the guy was like from the same town as she was.  Hmmmm... could the guy be her? pretending to be a girl and then acting all like "oh, were you looking for me?" 

So I thought it was funny.

But then today, when it happened AGAIN, I thought it was hilarious.

Please stop that kind of stuff, ok? 
5/31/2009 8:43:01 PM
Saw "Up" today with a few friends.  It was really great.  I love those Pixar movies. I know some people say they're just for little kids but I don't care, I think they're awesome.
5/29/2009 9:58:14 PM
Hi all.  First, please no chat requests. I tried it a few times and it messed up my computer each time, so I'm just going to deny them.

Second, I think it's so nice that people say stuff like "oh, it's ok to be smart, you shouldn't want to be dumb" or "I like boobs no matter what size, that doesn't matter."  But the thing is, those things do matter to me. I feel the strong need to be like as huge as someone can make me, and really dumb.  So if you don't want that, if you can't do that, then I'm not what you're looking for.
And if you don't talk about that stuff in your message, I sort of assume that you're not even reading this, you know?
-Nancy
5/29/2009 4:03:49 AM

Good morning all. I think its not polite to not at least respond to a message when someone takes the time to write, so I'm going to do that as much as I can.  But if someone sends me a one line message... I mean, what is the point of that?  So please don't feel bad if I don't respond to those, ok?
Also, yes, I know the changes I'm looking for might seem "weird"... and if you think it's terrible, that's your opinion... but please don't message me.
And when you do message me? I'd totally like to know that you're interested in transforming someone in the way I mentioned... mostly, I guess it lets me know you actually read the profile instead of just like sending me something that was cut/pasted.
Have a great day, and hope this message doesn't come off as being harsh or anything!
-Nancy

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 Age: 26
 Philippines, Philippines