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that time of the year yet again,another quo gig this weekend not sure about the support of Joe Brown |
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that time of the year again....quo on Saturday night at the nec |
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ok i am a bit deaf today it was the yearly trip to see the quo,they seemed louder this year as well |
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i know its been a long while since i last wrote there is reasons for that |
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girl wonders how others deal with certain needs after being in a D/s relationship there are times when they take over |
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giggles how vain can thea be was just checking what girls profile looked liked to others now i am on whos viewing me list |
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thea must use this site nearly every day yet hardly ever puts her thoughts in her journal except maybe when she feels down or has noone else to talk to, the days just seem to fly by maybe after her exam on monday things will settle down a bit |
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girl is sorry to a few she has upset,2 weeks ago she lost a good friend after a long illness tomorrow we lay her to rest so it may explain a few things....its not a day girl is looking forward to |
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its been a while since janet has wrote in her journal certain things have happened and certains things been said some of which have really made girl wonder if she will ever find one,she has been told not to want it so badly and then it will find you when you least expect it..... smiles we will see |
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well girl feels her age today laughsssss went headbanging at the NEC lastnight saw the Quo they may be not everyones cup of tea but god can they still rock |
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its sunday and girl has her sundayish moody feeling strange how some songs can reflect girls feelings be it happiness or sadness |
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things have changed a bit for girl though she was upset to loose the collar placed around her neck she can understand the reasons why |
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big smiles today girl has her ticket for the quo concert |
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for the last few days girl has been taken to the heights and the lows she has never seen before oh just to have some peace and quite then she would complain of being bored |
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forget that talk it doesnt matter anymore nothing does |
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ok things have settled down again how long for thats a good question,talking of questions girl would like to have a little talk to a Gorean Master or a kajira just to get anothers view on a certain subject |
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just confused emotions thats all she feels |
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this one is floating so high at this time in her life its full of happy days and nights but yet is afraid to close her eyes for too long she just dont want things to change whislt asleep |
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started her journey to become a Gorean slave girls training is going well, its a exciting and nervous time |
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girls mouth and eyes are wide open in amazement she has been watching the pictures coming in from the space shuttle to see the earth from space makes girl think what a mess we are making of this small beautyful planet |
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girl is going to be busy has been given a 500 word essay Journey into Gor |
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girl wrote her first serve today ok its was only online but she was really nervous about making a fool out of herself |
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its been so long since girl has posted things have been moving faster than she had expected also she has been told to learn about Gor as her online family seem to be moving in that direction |
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wonder how many others read the message boards then end up more confused about their direction maybe its girl doing she tends to look at so many different views |
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has so much to think about wants to be fair to A/all which all so inclueds girl |
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think girl has won the battle with yahoo at least for now  |
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cant get into collarme chat rooms due to yahoo messing my browser about wonders why yahoo never get back in touch when you report a problem |
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hasnt it been cold poor feet are like blocks of ice got a strange gift which upset but it hasnt changed girls wishes to at least find that someone |
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girl is really going to make a effort from now on it gets lonely sitting on the computer night after night even though she gets to meet some really nice folk its time for real life |
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wonders how long bad luck runs for 2 colds within a month sucks at least i have replaced my car going to sit on its roof with machine guns posted to protect it |
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fell out with my car insurance through no fault of my own i have to buy another car whislt still paying for the one hit by someone else |
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girl has a few things to think over,some intresting suggestions regarding her direction have been made |
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almost another year over wonder what things will be be thrown at girl in the new one |
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girl has made her list for santa |
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i was told to post this eassy i hope it explains a bit about me
i dont think i choose to be in this lifestyle i just found it a huge turn on to be told what to do as it was against my nature ,i went out with guys the same age or younger in my teens at first and i was a right bossy bitch then i meet Pete who was 35 i was only 17 i did try to be the strong person in the relationship but He was having none of it and began to take more control of my life sexually at first then in everyday things it was so exciting not knowing what was to happen next over the months i was taught the only thing i needed was Him even to the expense of my family and freinds.Not sure if i even noticed the change but my main aim was to please Him everyday.We did discuss getting married but felt that maybe things would change between us so He suggested a way round things that wasnt marriage but just as binding even more so as it relied on so much trust .I moved in with Him and then was given a set of basic dos and donts which did make me think who the hell is this man my dad or something,looking down the list i thought god this is not a partnership, i did try to change things around but everytime i dug my heels in then more dos and donts were added to the list i thought of leaving many times but was really scared (no not the right word)more afraid of not feeling the excitement of the whole thing, once i came to that reason i thought that maybe i wanted this as well and if i did then as most things i try to give 100% because thats how i am, takes me ages to make my mind up but onced convinced then watch out.I soon discovered what was expected of me and also how to behave to please Him otherwise i would end up not being able to sit on my bum for days at a time, things started to change very fast from the time i admitted i like His treatment of our relationship also my relationship with my family was getting frail as they couldnt understand my reasons for allowing certain things to occur which did upset me at times but also made my feelings more intense if that makes sense.So i wasnt born to be a sub/slave it was just a part of my inner self being brought to the surface by certain triggers |
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girl has been reading John Norman stories this week i enjoyed the first 3 finding the 4th heavy going but i will stick with it.Just heard about Rick from Status Quo being ill and all the other shows being cancelled i hope he feels better very soon |
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had a great night at nottingham watching the Quo even managed to find the place without too much bother ears are a bit deaf today knew i was a bit to close to the stage |
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looking forward to friday off to see the Quo at nottingham practicing my headbanging |
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right thats done my eassy which i have enjoyed more than normal it gave me a chance to let my family know a little bit more about girl |
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its been a little while since i last made a entry in my journal which hasnt gone unnoticed by my online family and has resulted in a 200 word eassy |
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first full week back at work after nine weeks on the sick didnt know i could ache in so many places |
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i do really need to work on my profile folk are getting the wrong visions of me i dont hurt as much these days it has been a while since we parted |
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things are getting better doctors signed me fit for work and not before time needs to earn some cash from now to xmas |
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had good reports from the hospital only down side is i have to go back in for more tests |
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goes to hospital tomorrow for test results hope they go as well as i feel today |
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whos idea was it to put the clocks back feels i been awake all weekend |
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must be getting better started to have naughty thoughts and feelings |
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today has been a much better day felt so much better even went for a walk |
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got into a topic last night thats was a bit close to my heart a submissive stated that she would never allow her family to know she was a submissive i think i would had made the same chioce had it not been taken away from me |
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woke early today had a nose in a few chat rooms trying to make friends |
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oh well on the sick again starts crossing folk off the christmas list cards only at this rate unless i get back to work some time this month |
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nice to have the Castle open again spending time with family only one down side is knowing most have Masters |
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had a great weekend went to worcester for a engagement party got totally hammered |
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this week seems so long might be that this is the first week back at work,still trying to catch up on my mail but its so kind of people to keep talking to girl i have had some great messages and i thankyou A/all |
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been very good today answered a few more emails and sorted out ones that only wanted to play |
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this may be harder than i expected folk are replieing to my repleys |
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started to answer some of my mail must make a point of checking them more often |
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usually hates sundays but woke up today with the best mood ever was a good night last night(smiles to myself with what happened) |
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yessssssssssssss spoke to my sister in Texas she and her family are safe and well my thoughts go with all caught up in Rita |
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a few have made comments on how sad my profile is though it was hurtful at the time and i do miss a relationship girl is getting over the hurt with the kindness shown to her and is a happier soul |
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i have spent time reading my mail today and i must say sorry to A/all those that have took the time to leave messages and i havent replied i have next week off so will make a great effort to at least leave a thankyou note |
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minds in Texas with my sister and her family i hope all goes well |
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wakes up not knowing what day or time it is but it was good to be in my own bed looks at all the washing to be done rolls over and cuddles teddy whispers i missed A/all |
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got back from my trip to Texas fell in love with my little neice she folowed me around all over the place wanted to sneak her back with me . tearful farewells to my sister and her family but is glad to be back in my own bed with teddy |
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wow what a bank holiday spent it in my sick bed i thought i had had felt pain but being unable to pee for 4 days was something else (thought i was going to burst)but is feeling much better today, busy packing for my trip |
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on lates this week misses spending time on chat is that a good thing or a bad thing |
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its sunday this girl hates the wait |
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it wont be long till i see my sister ,first time to see my neice, getting excited as well as a bit frightened about the flight been some bad press which i have tried to put at the back of my mind |
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so many seem in bad moods i have to be so careful not to upset bite my tongue and keep my thoughts to myself |
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yahoo getting worse each evening think it might be time to move on |
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just trying a few things on the site to get the feel of the place enjoyed a game of tetris which took me back a few years,many a hour i spent playing that when younger,still cant do it lol .i might get to like this site but still misses the Spanking Castle and my family |
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told some of my family use these chat rooms sadly i havent found any up to now |
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