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This is my journey. My destiny is full enforced service - no restrictions and no restraints - i will be owned. i have some experience but the next step will be so much deeper, so much more real.
i am bright, articulate, hard working, imaginative and real. In much of what i am i may appear to the world as succesful and forceful, however, inside i am what i am, and what i am is enormously submissive. i need this and therefore feel very confident i can be what the right Owner wants me to be, i can serve, suffer and please just how is wanted.
Am very flexible in all ways, and my life and work make this step something that can be real.
Seeking reality - maybe with the person reading this now - we all need to dream and believe.
6/12/2006 11:20:57 AM

As my chastity device is unlocked I watch as my manhood unfurls and swells unbidden and without stimulation.  It first swells and thickens, then stretches and lengthens until it stands hard and erect before me.  Such is my suppressed need that it takes seconds from release to the state of engorged hunger we now witness.  I have no control over this I long ago lost that kind of power and self determination, only nature can, when allowed, interfere with my Owners control over my manhood.

 

I say ‘my manhood’ but it has been a while since I could use these words, an age since I had any control let alone the freedom to call anything my own.  My manhood is simply property now, just like my hands, my feet, my body, my mind and well me of course.  My cock is kept under lock and key, under permanent control, there is no limit to this just as there is no limit to my existence of property. 

 

My Owner runs a finger down the erect shaft causing it to judder and shake in helpless amazing arousal, the head is swollen, hard and purple, my balls heavy and full of unsated need.  The cane in the other hand whips out twice hard and painfully across my naked rear, despite the regularity of punishment the pain does not get perceptively easier to take.  Again the finger traces along my cock, I moan in arousal, and the desperate need for release burns deeper still.

 

A step back and the cane swishes through the air again, the sound of air split by the thin whippy cane followed by the crack of cane on naked flesh, a burning shooting pain through my body then my mind, an outtake of snatched breath followed by my moan of pain.  Another stroke then another, I rock in place, my hands tied high above me holding me helpless in place.  Despite the pain my cock still stands firm and needy – mocking my pain and my helplessness.  Stroke follows stroke, until my Owners sadistic pleasures are exercised, until my cock is in turn beaten until flaccid and the returned once more to where it came, helpless, yet more needy and desperate.    

5/19/2006 1:36:05 AM
Hands locked beind my back, ankles chained and locked too.  My head is bent in supplication as it must be before my Owner.  i stand naked as a slave should, property on display and at the mercy of my Owner.
You stand before me your power eminates from you, your control is obvious and total.

You unlock my manhood from it's chastity device, and immediately on cue it seems to unfurl and begin to erect. Despite my fear at what is to come i cannot help but feel excited and my cock responds accordingly.  Months since my last relief my manhood is oh so sensitive, oh so easily aroused, and just release is enough to send it hard and begging before you.

i cannot help the way this happens it is the simple reaction to your control and the chastity you keep me in.  Despite the fact that i know there will be no relief today, despite the fact that i know my cock and balls will soon be tortured, my manhood responds as if in expectation of relief.

You smile to see my pathetic needs so obviously displayed, knowing that immense power that means i am just your vessel without choice or say.  Your finger traces along the back of my cock making it buck and stiffen even more.

You squeeze my balls tightly, harshly in your hands, one in each hand tightening and squeezing.  i try be strong but the pain is intense and i cry out, moaning as you take pleasure in harshly manipulating and crushing each in turn.  When you eventually stop i am left nauseous, breathless and bent double in pain.
 
You pull my foreskin back hard down the shaft of my cock, stretching and swelling the head painfully.  It's hard and swollen purple an irresistable target, and you bring the light whip down across it  several times causing me to wince as thin red stripes appear.  This punishment continues for over ten minutes until the head of my penis is red raw and painful.  Throughout it i cannot help but moan, and despite gritted teeth plead.

i should be used to this by now, but the humiliation as you mock my whimpering, the feelings of debasement as you laugh as my pathetic manhood wilts under your punishment.  The feeling of helpless use as you easily coax it back to hardness, the head reacting painfully as you pull the foreskin up and down.

Soon i am standing erect again, despite the bruised ball, despite the raw sore foreskin, and despite the punishment to come.  i am helpless in my reaction to your control.

5/11/2006 10:40:19 PM
This is the first time before them, i am still new to this, still feel the sense of embarrasment as i undress in front of them.
As each item of clothing is removed i am conscious that symbolically i am also stripping away any control i might have ever had.  Each step i take simply demonstrates a step towards the real enslavement that we both now know for certain is inevitable.
As i discard each item, it is taken from me, symbolically giving away control as we go.  i feel the eyes inspecting me, hungrily devouring what is their property, preparing themselves for the incredible control, sensing the thrill and hunger deep inside.
My jockey shorts inevitably go last, i now stand totally naked before them, my clothes are hanging from their arms.  We both know there is no going back now, a naked man can hardly run and rush out into this strange street in this strange town, i feel thrilled and panicky in equal measures, half at home and half wondering what have i done.
i am left standing naked, a strange emotion suddenly to be left on your own, naked and waiting.  When they return my clothes are gone, and suddenly i am conscious of just how power clothes can give, i am naked and they fully clothed, our status is clear beyond all doubt.
An inspection follows, i feel like an animal, or indeed the real slave i am, as i am pinched, prodded, bent over, forced to open, forced to show off, no hiding place, this is close and totally intimate.
Inspection over, all done in silence, and the final stage of this commencement is under way.  Shackles to my wrists and to a collar locked in place around my neck, i can no longer bring my hands more than 12 inches from my neck.  Hobble bands are locked in place and between each ankle, any movement is now extremely limited, and no escaping however hard i might try.
Finally and as the ultimate symbol i watch as my new chastity device is pulled and locked into place.  A smile from them - the cat that has the mouse, the spider that has the fly. 
5/11/2006 8:41:24 AM

I am stretched tightly and painfully.  Every muscle is extended, every sinew pulled and aching.  My arms are pulled hard above my head, tied tightly at angles above me, my legs are similarly pulled apart and shackled at the floor.  I cannot move, I cannot adjust to ease my pain, I am helpless and at her mercy.

My eyes glance down at my tortured body, at the clamps that bite into my oh so tender nipples, watching as the flesh turns a nasty shade of painful red.  Further down my body my manhood, for once free of lock and key, shows the thin red lines from the earlier whipping, and neatly arranged across cock and balls the clothes pins that bite and burn, turning flesh first deathly white then deeper bruised red.

Across my body front and back are the markings of the whipping I have received, thin painful lines that burn and criss cross my body in a shroud of pain. 

She moves around me with consummate ease and control, she knows exactly what she is doing and has no need to hesitate or consider anything else other than her pleasure and how she will make me suffer for her. 

My breathing is snatched and ragged, my throat sore, my eyes sting, my limbs pulling and aching.  Each time the thin cane whips out m body tenses at the sound of it cutting through the air, each time it lands with incredible and somehow unexpected pain.  No matter how much I prepare, no matter how many times it lands, the pain seems unique and individual when it impacts with my body.

I am helpless, I am her plaything, her sadistic art.  I am there to suffer and through my suffering give her that limitless surging power that echoes and throbs through her. 

5/7/2006 2:54:10 AM
i crawl across the floor to you.  The fresh crop marks across my backside stand out from the deeper red markings of my previous beatings.  
My eyes sting with fresh tears, my breath is still wheezing and short from the cries of pain, from the hopeless, helpless begging.
i crawl to you, my Owner, in total subjugation, in total submission to you.  i am yours, your slave, your property, my pain and suffering just another tribute that is yours by right.  All i am and have is yours by right and you will never hesitate from exercising that right.
At your feet i kiss each toe in devoted worship, i thank you as each kiss is completed.
There i kneel, exposed and naked at your feet awaiting my next command, your next whim or order, i am your slave. 
ChloeKathryn
 
 Age: 50
 New Britain, Connecticut