RavenX0

Today started out lovely, woke up feeling refreshed and happy. Did some self bondage in the afternoon, if I may say so myself it turned out very beautifully for a first attempt. Afterwards my mood began to drop dramatically due to a specific person (no names mentioned). I do give advice when asked and allow talking as equals to make it easier for either party to understand the p.o.v. I checked my yahoo for the first time in days and what I saw infuriated my Domme side to the very core. Since I do have many priorities I asked this person previously to send the questions that arise and I would respond back asap. They then responded that they prefer to speak with me on real time. I have already explained that even if it says I'm online I might not even be there ( I use my Ipod for all I.m.'s) and even when I am here the internet sucks and I may not receive a message for several hours. This person began to speak down to me as though I was their bitch that served them hand and foot. Then began degrading me with their words in an attempt to make me feel guilty I suppose. Those of you who know me are well aware that I do not put up with anything of this sort especially if you are not a Dom/Domme. The thing I believe set me off was him calling me a liar. I work my ass off to build trust with every person I have ever helped and for this insignificant tick to speak to me in this manner deserved my response. Which explained once again about the Ipod and the internet. I then apologized that they are not my top priority and that if they are going to continue to be a very selfish submissive to please not contact me any further.. So now the day is lovely again and I need to start picking up this room a little then start making dinner.. Byes guys! 

xoxo, Raven.

 This is day three of me being really sick, hence why I haven't gotten on very much. If my condition does not improve by 5pm today then I'm going to the doctor immediately. I've been coughing like crazy all night with nothing coming up except a little bit of what looked like blood but i'm sure it's probably from stress and the amount of coughing done. Everyone around me seems to think I may have bronchitis ( if I do this week is going to suck badly). On a side note. If I did have you on my yahoo contacts can you please send me the information to re add you. I wasn't aware that my cellular contacts were connected with my yahoo. xoxo, R

Things are really starting to change, but not in the way I hoped. So far my family and I have received a "Pre Eviction" notice from the Landlord yesterday afternoon. Everyone has been without a job for a while due to circumstances concerning new owners of the place we worked at. Recently money has gotten very tight to where we have to choose between rent or food and other bills. Therefor if I seem out of it or short fused I apologize now. I've been frantically searching for apartments and jobs since around 12:30 yesterday afternoon and have yet to yield results. No I don't want to move in with anyone or get charity of money from people. I've always worked very hard and earned every cent. If I do take charity it will mean I've failed the family in being able to support them.Please no pitty parties or anything like that, this is a notice as to why I may not be present on to this site often or at all in the next 6mo. Thanks for understanding guys.

XOXO, Raven

 New work hours are in, i now have one day off which is Monday, so I appologize now if I am not on the comp, i will be sleeping most of that day. Self learning finance right now messages will be slow.

 Things have been very difficult lately, My former Sir and I are no longer together. I now work 2 jobs so this is a treat for me to be anywhere near this computer. My appologee to those i was speaking to before, I promise I did not forget you.

  Today seems like it will be a difficult and grueling day. Sir and I have barely been able to speak, much less play due to our scheduals. I do feel alone sometimes, but then I realize, if Sir did not find me worth his time, he would not be trying to make this work in the first place. I am off work today, Will most likely be working on art, jewelery making, and studying to better myself. Not quiet sure what the plans are tonight, I will know when Sir gets home.

 At the end of the night I feel gratitude knowing I have done my Master well.

K