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Don't even know where to begin....
I haven't been on this site in several years , like 4, but a dear friend I lost track of wrote to me and I came back to read his message. Its nice to know you made a impression on someone out there...that they remembered you and even if time has past and you never connected in the phyical sense you did on a higher level. I moved on from this site, as it didn't fullfill anything for me that I was seeking. Lots of emails and chats but most were very empty. I found blank l i f e and in that I found real friends. Local to me and real...every day people, seeking trying to find their way. Some have stayed in my life some not. Life is that though isn't it? Full of changes. If you come across this journal entry and actually read it, the good for you, not many do actually read complete profiles of those they may find interesting..but what I want to say is good luck to you, don't give up..they , he/or she is waiting and some day you just might find them. I did.
I don't know why this site keeps blocking out the site name that went to..pretty childish on their part but its not hard to find..same name on it to if you care to cross over.. |
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I have read on occasion the writings of the Dom I found interesting on here. He seems to have a varied interest in life which i find very refreshing. Its not all about sex and finally another person gets it. He does some musing on life and self and has a true caring nature about his fellow man. His u tube finds are fun too. The point to my entry is... I am continuing to search and hope to find this type person, nearer and someday to have the Dom in my life that I need. |
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I've found a interesting profile to read...chicken or egg.....to funny......but once again the Dom is to far to begin a relationship. But I will definitly enjoy reading his journal entries. |
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There are those who seek the real deal...and there are those that some how fool themselves into thinking they are real, how do you know which is which? I can't seem to be able to tell the difference like I thought I could. Or do I just want to believe so bad that there is a "real" person a real Dom, a true, honest, giving, loving and firm. Are you out there for me? I am not sure how much longer I can wait. |
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As I reread my own journal entries, I find a theme in my own life i can't seem to break. Maybe its part of my enternal being...I trust. To easily and to much. Once again, I feel hurt and broken and once again, I pick myself up and again reach out to find whats missing in my life. People often say you can't be loved till you love yourself. Maybe I love myself to much. I found a man on here, gave him honesty , my trust, my dreams, and then myself. But again he promised me the moon and then turned the lights out. I seek and with the eternal optimist in me..I will find the one who is meant for me. |
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Its another snowy day here. This has been a long winter and yet its still not over. I have muddled through so far. I had hopes of finding someone on here but once again, I find myself wondering, Am I to picky? Is it me, am I just suppose to accept a Dom in my life and not question anything. Well I won't. Everytime I think I have it figured out....opps, start over again. So I am back to looking for someone else to talk to and see if I can be more open. |
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Well its a New Year and I am off to a great start! I have reconnected to a old friend. Actually he is much more than that. He is the one person I owe my thanks to for taking me under his wing and teaching me so much about what BDSM and being a sub is all about. He helped me learn who I am and to discover my sexuality. We never lost touch and have been there for each other when the times we the hardest. Distance in miles are always a problem. Along with family obligations. Life is funny isn't it?
I also have been getting several inquires in emails regarding my location and my finances. Who in their right mind would give that type of info out to complete strangers? Come on people, get real. If you are sincere and want to get to know me, then at least have enough sense to know this type of info comes with time. Also don't think I will run to do your bidding just cause you say so. Come spend a weekend with someone I have never met....again get real guys.
I want to end this on the up side. I have met a nice person on here who may be moving to my area (not relocating because of me) we have established a nice repore and I hope it continues. The one other person from this site I met in the beginning when I first joined is still on my mind a lot. I hope this year will also allow a meeting between us. So for anyone reading my little entry here, there is hope. You may find the one for you just as I may have found the one thats right for me. |
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Its the day after Christmas and I have time alone and thought I would visit this site again and maybe read a few profiles and journal entries. I am truly facinated by some of the things I read. I haven't found "the one" for me yet, (key word, yet). I do have confidence in myself and know I will not just settle for someone just for the sake of having someone in my life. I had a question put to me awhile back reguarding something I wrote in my introduction, "I can be the find of your life". What I mean by that if someone wanted to get to know me is, that I am a loyal, trustworthy and faithful person. I know my own self worth. Oh believe me I am not one of those people you know who are, full of it, lol I just know it took me years to know myself and my wants and needs. I can when asked say what I am looking for or at the least say what I am not. I read a profile earlier and was impressed. There are a few people on this site who know what the lifestyle is about and are secure about their own sexuality. It gives me hope....I just might stay with this site a little longer. |
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Funny how you start talking to someone on here and then ..pooff you go to write them and they no longer have a active profile. Hmmm makes you wonder huh? I can't say as I think many on these sites are "for real". If you don't disclose your exact location they don't bother with you, if you don't play into their online Master/slave bull they don't bother with you...what ever happened to getting to know someone, see if you have things in common. You know life has many aspects to it and this lifestyle is just one facet. Oh well just my thoughts on this night.
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Hmmmm lets see, its been awhile since I wrote anything. A lot has happened. Spring has turned to Summer and with that lots of work and family priorities. My search continues for someone closer to me that is willing to work with my hectic life and my family first rule. I have met a wonderful gentleman and let me say that again "a gentleman" a rare find I do believe. We have corrasponded for some time, and talked a few times via phone. There can be good friends to be had on here. Its like my garden. You plant seeds and then nurture them and then occasionally find one is a weed and pluck it. But eventually you'll have a few good flowers. I hope others on this site are successful in their search. |
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Just a short entry today to comment on the responses I've had. I answer every e mail I recieve, even if its just a thank you and wish them well in thier search. People truely don't read profiles on here and seem to get really offended when you write back that your sorry but not what your looking for or need. I did find one ideal Dom, but as fate would have it, distance woud be a problem. Sucks huh? I continue my search and I do appreciate the sincere messages I recieve. I do beleve you will know when its the right one for you. I still don't get the ones who want to be "online Masters" I suppose its right for them but not for me. Anyway on this wonderful spring morning, hope springs enternal and I will go on with my search. |
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Well guess I got my point across. I only had a few e mails today. LOL This is a very interesting site and reading others profiles and especially the journal entries, wow now thats cool. I continue my quest..... |
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This is my first journal entry. I have been on about a week now and I have had , well lets say, very interesting responses. I do know there are a lot of wanna bees and men who have no idea what a Dom or Master even is much less what they would want in a sub or slave. I guess I expected more from a site thats suppose to be for the BDSM community. I guess its just as everything else lots of thorns before you find the rose. I wil stay a little longer and continue to answer each contact I recieve. |
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