There once was a lonely girl in a big, big city. She told those who would listen that she wanted to be in love. But what she actually wanted was much darker, much more sinister....

I'm dying. I'm absolutely dying. I've met a man who is a master with ropes. He takes me to events, ties me up, humiliates me and hurts me, but never uses me. I am dying from frustration. This is the worst kind of torment.

Merely because I am a foreigner in this country, I've grown accustomed to living on the fringes of society. The perspective of the outsider looking in is one I understand on many levels; geographically (white girl in Japan), sexually (this should be obvious), politically (Libertarian, but not the crazy type), and intellectually (I like books as much as I love orgasms... What? It's not that weird).

Despite all of this, outwardly and socially, I appear to be a normal person. And here's the thing: this is a characteristic of myself I value really highly. I think it is a very special skill to be a person of varied, and strange interests, but still be able to function normally in society. Dressing strangely, acting smugly, or sacrificing real-world friendships because you perceive yourself to be "different," and therefore better, makes you a victim of your own alienation.

So, in summation, please be a healthy, functioning, normal-appearing member of society with a job and many friendships, and maybe even a hobby or two, if you'd like to express interest in me. I'd like to be with someone who can function both inside and outside of the bedroom.

Messages from Doms outside of Japan are immediately deleted. Messages from people just visiting for a few weeks... also immediately deleted.

Wow, there are definitely some intriguing and engaging Doms in Tokyo. I'm pleasantly surprised. I however, have to apologize if I haven't answered your messages promptly, as I've been flooded with work and have only been coming on to quickly check for five minutes before I pass out at night. I hope to draft a thoughtful response to the lovely men who have contacted me this weekend. Until then, oyasuminasai.

Do a sub's fantasies arouse a Dom?

Technically, a sub should focus on pleasing his or her Dom, I think. But, I also have all of these fantasies that I want to have fulfilled: like being bound on the ground beside Sir's bed with an ass full of plug, a pussy full of dildo, and an unsatiated need to cum, only to be awoken abruptly at night during Sir's thorough use. Or being tormented for long periods of time in public by Sir's remotely controlled vibrator- in a movie theater, in a cafe, but mainly on a public train during rush hour while Sir darkly watches from a distance. Maybe I'd be wearing a rope harness under my clothes, and I'd have a short skirt on with no panties. Speaking of rope, I've always fantasized about being bound and suspended with swinging clamps on my nipples, and my asshole and cunt exposed for Sir's pleasure. I love the fantasy of being forced to genuinely beg (none of that half-hearted dialogue of porn.) But to be pushed so expertly and so far into subspace that I, a girl with strong heavy pride, will beg for the pleasure of Sir's cock. My fantasies sometimes sway to the darker side too. Expelling my pussy full of Sir's cum into a porcelain bowl and then licking it up while Sir strokes his cock. Squatting in a bathtub with a red ass full of water and my arms bound above my head, while Sir orders me to hold it in so I can take his cock right later (though this is the extent of my scatological fantasy).

Anyway. Back to my real question. Are these fantasies selfish?

EDIT: Did I forget to mention that in all of these fantasies, my Dom is as into it, if not more into it, than I am?

Sometimes I confuse my desire to be dominated with my desire to be desired. Passion is an essential in either case.

• “Clitoris” derives from the Greek word meaning “little hill”.
• The clitoris extends nine centimetres back into the body and high into the groin.
• The clitoris is the only sexual organ without a known reproductive function.
• Human females are the only species to have a forward-tilting uterus that facilitates face-to-face intercourse.
• According to a sample of 15, 000 women, only 9% said that they are assured to reach orgasm every time they have sex.
• Women who climax between one minute before and 45 minutes after their partner's ejaculation retain 70 to 80% of his sperm. Women who orgasm more than one minute before their partner retain less than 50% of his sperm.
• Both men and women are most likely to experience their first orgasm during masturbation.
• A female orgasm is a powerful painkiller because it releases endorphins, therefore a headache is not an excuse for not having sex!
• Sociologist Michel Bozon concluded that vaginal orgasms are more difficult to obtain at the beginning of a relationship, easier after five to ten years, and again more difficult in couples that last over 15 years.
• The opportunity for orgasm is enhanced if the woman makes love on the 14th day of her menstrual cycle – this is when the female sex drive is at its highest.